Chapter 1:
Olivia spends most of her time at the precinct because she hates how her home makes her feel lonely. She hates the fact that she is already 32 and she has no one to come to. Not for lack of trying. She'll go on a few dates with someone and then decide it's not for her. She finds herself looking out the windows after everyone goes home at night. She can't admit it but she's broken. She's broken .
Alex is pretending that her job is all she will ever need in life but she too finds herself alone at night. She hasn't ever thought about marriage and children until recently where she feels like everyone she knows is getting married and having baby showers. She's not broken but she is lost. No map, no guidance, and no compass.
What if one day someone reaches out?
9:47pm Precinct 16, SVU Bullpen.
Olivia is sitting at her desk watching the rain flow against the window. She decides to do something she hasn't done since she was younger. She decided to take a walk in the rain. She walks out of the precinct and across the street. She sits on the bench across the street and watches as cars go by. She sees a cab pull up in front of the building and notices the tall blonde get out.
She gets up and runs towards the door. "Hey Alex, are you alright?"
"Hey Liv. Yea I am okay. Are you okay? You are all wet. And you're freezing. Come on let's get inside." Alex says as she gives Olivia a hug.
"Okay yea I could definitely warm up. I didn't think that the rain was going to be so cold." Olivia chuckles as she follows Alex into the precinct.
"Are you okay Olivia?" Alex looks at her concerned.
"Yea I'm fine Alex, just didn't really feel like going home just yet." Olivia says honestly. She is always honest with Alex. She knows that Alex really cares.
"I feel the same way and I figured you would still be here so I decided to come here anyway."
We got into the elevator and headed up to the bullpen. I let her off the elevator first and turn to her, "Do you want me to put on a pot of coffee?"
"Do you have any tea?"
"Always, your usual?"
"Yes please. Thank you Olivia."
"Alright I'll bring it up the lounge when I am finished." Olivia tells her.
Alex heads up to the lounge, and Olivia starts making tea for them. When she finishes she grabs the blanket she keeps in her locker and heads up the lounge to find Alex. She sees her sitting on the couch and she has her glasses off.
"Hey I brought tea." Olivia says with a smile and Alex looks up to smile back at her.
"Can I ask you a question Olivia?" Alex looks at her.
"Of course Alex." Olivia says softly.
"Why are you always here this late? Everyone has already gone home."
"I hate going home to my house, it is so empty." She says to Alex as she takes a sip of her tea. "I could ask you the same thing, This is the fourth time you've had tea with me after everyone has been gone for hours."
"I also don't like going back to an empty apartment. I find that no matter how tiring the day was, going back to that lonely apartment never made it any better."
"So what do you do? Do you have a spot you go to instead of going home?"
"I usually take a cab to my garage if I don't drive that day and then I go up to Commons point. I'd park over near the edge and just watch the city. I'd wait until I was tired and then I would drive home. I'd go to sleep and wake up to go to work. I don't cook at home because I hate to cook alone, and I don't watch TV because the feeling of laying or sitting on that couch all alone distracts me from anything that I am trying to watch. I find myself lost so I drive. I watch the city and observe everything."
"The cop in me wants to tell you that you shouldn't drive home tired Alex, I don't want to get a call one day having to identify your body. And I understand, I love to cook but when you only cook for one it is not enjoyable." Olivia says.
Alex sniffles and says, "I just feel so lost in a city of thousands of people. I feel like I know I belong as a lawyer but as a person I feel like I am just so lost." She starts sobbing.
Olivia moves to the couch and takes Alex into her arms. "Shh it's okay Alex, you'll always belong here. Not just as a lawyer but as my friend. Maybe one day we can go see Commons point together, it would be nice just to get out of the precinct."
"I'd like that Liv. What about you? Are you lost too?"
"No not lost, I was lost for a long time. Now I'd say I'm broken, I have been pushed so far by this job that every time I try to find happiness somewhere else I can't. People that I've tried to date don't understand how much I give for this job and how much of a toll it takes on me. Then after a while they just trail off. I just gave up and now instead of going home to an empty home I stay here most nights. I own the apartment but I can't stand being there because it's empty."
Alex chuckles. "Look at us. Two peas in a pod. Maybe we can try to be better friends outside of work. At least that way we don't always have to be alone. Cause I don't really want to be lost and I can only assume that you don't want to be broken. Would that be okay?"
"I would like that. Cheers to that. To no longer be lost and broken." Olivia and Alex clink mugs and smile.
A/N Do you guys want this to be a slow burn to Cabson or like straight to it? maybe something in between. PLEASE READ AND REVIEW