Life.
Death.
Surviving.
Choices contained in a random bubble that exponentially turned in a grand expanse. To most people that could have been terrifying— the idea of conception followed by a series of meaningless decisions and finally... the end. Millions of years of evolution only to be alive for a few decades and then fade beneath the ground. If you were lucky you got flowers and maybe a chance to say goodbye before the world kept on turning.
But to her? It was comforting. Choices meant freedom and freedom meant growth and renewal.
Allie had found her father after years of searching. He wasn't an easy man to find. Made sense. If one were to look in the grizzled hunter's home they would probably run—- and keep running.
Yet she stayed.
Frankly, where else would she go? Other people were too busy chasing silver in hopes of finding gold. Gold to her was being right there with someone who hadn't been around for a long time. A figure that represented hope and renovation. Something desperately needed. Deserved.
Bobby Singer was not the easiest man to get along with. He was weathered. Life hadn't exactly given him the cream of the crop. Although it could be perceived as bad, it was how they initially bonded. Tragic orphan and surrogate father to many. No longer a surrogate. The day she showed up on his doorstep and told him the truth... neither of them had ever experienced such peace before. They both needed something and they got it even if it was unspoken.
That was four months prior to where we'll start. Let's save time, shall we?
When Bobby had told her of Dean Winchester his description was... ideal. Almost too much so. It's like her father wouldn't say a damn bad thing about the boy. Maybe in fear she'd flee. After all, she had grown close with her recently retrieved biological father. That was certainly due to her own desire for a fatherly figure. A drop in a bucket that had been filling for 23 years.
Allie was standing in the kitchen when the front door opened. The sound of boots thundering down the hallway made her teeth grind. Bobby had gone out in search of auto parts for the yard. How was he back already? That was only twenty minutes prior.
"Dad! I just mopped! Are you—" The blonde stopped as he entered her viewpoint. Blue eyes hardened on his appearance. It must have been him. He was exactly as her father had described. "My dad's not home." Allie was more than comfortable talking considering it felt like she already knew the man. Her head nodded towards a photo on Bobby's bookcase of a youthful Dean to insinuate she knew who he was.
Dean Winchester, the epitome of a tall, dark, and handsome man, sauntered into Bobby's kitchen with an air of confidence that practically radiated off him like heat waves on asphalt. His short-cropped Ivy League hair was tousled in all the right ways. His striking green eyes which were currently fixed on Allie Smith - or rather, her pert ass encased in tight jeans. He couldn't help but appreciate the way they hugged every curve before disappearing into those cute little boots she had on.
"Well, well, well," he drawled, his voice rumbling in a way that made women's insides flutter. "If it isn't Little Miss Sunshine herself." He flashed her an irresistible charming smile, revealing his perfect set of pearly whites and dimples so damn sexy they could make even Satan himself weak at the knees.
Right off the bat Allie could tell that her father had inappropriately hyped up the man in front of her. Ocean irises traced over his frame. "I see you're original." Miss sunshine? Yes. She was blonde. Strength was focused on not rolling her eyes. This wasn't a random man. It was a man that Bobby desperately cared for. She'd have to be delicate with her responses.
He was attractive but it seemed he had learned to rely on that. Allie certainly caught glimpses from many men. Blonde with blue eyes? One would mistake her for a siren. An hourglass figure didn't hurt but after puberty it became tiring to constantly be the unrequested center of attention. Well, usually unrequested.
Allie grinned as she noticed a firm bulge in his pants. "Is that a gun or are you just happy to see me?" Ironic. He was definitely packin' heat. Her tone was suggestively teasing. It was a weapon and she knew it but men were damn fun to play with.
Dean chuckled at her teasing remark, his eyes never leaving hers. "Well now," he drawled, taking a step closer to her. The air between them crackled with an electric tension that was palpable even in the confines of Bobby's kitchen. He could feel himself being drawn towards Allie like a moth to a flame - or perhaps more accurately, like a hunter to its prey.
"I think it might be both," he replied with a wicked grin, reaching down and adjusting himself subtly through his jeans. His voice dropped low as he continued speaking softly so only she could hear him. Bobby would surely kill him if he heard. "But if it's any consolation, sweetheart... I always pack heat." He took another step closer until they were standing mere inches apart; close enough for him to feel the warmth radiating off her body.
The entertainment of the situation caused a smirk to curve across pink lips. He obviously thought it would be easy to win her. No courting? Funny. "That's cute. Bobby didn't tell me you were just hitting puberty. Lots of bad-time boners, huh?" She unapologetically laughed out loud at her own ruthless teasing before she turned away from him.
"So... are you gonna tell me why you're here or... just try to get in my pants with terrible lines?" She swung locks of blonde waves over her shoulder and turned back to the counter with a rag to continue cleaning. Bobby's home was the epitome of a bachelor pad. It hadn't seen a proper women's touch in a long, long time. The decor screamed masculinity let alone a deep cleaning. That wasn't a woman's job, of course, but she could certainly tell that Karen had probably done most of it.
Dean's eyes narrowed slightly at her teasing, but he couldn't help the corner of his mouth twitching upwards into a smirk. "Oh, sweetheart," he quipped back, leaning against the counter next to hers so close their bodies brushed lightly. "I don't need lame pickup lines when I have this." He casually ran a hand down his chest and abs before stopping just above his jeans, giving them both a little wiggle for emphasis.
"And trust me, baby doll," he continued in a purposely dropped deep, husky voice that made girls' insides melt like ice cream on a hot summer day, "I've been through puberty. More times than you can count." He leaned in even closer, his breath brushing against her ear as he whispered softly, "But if it makes you feel better... I could always show you how much of a man I am," he trailed off suggestively before straightening up again and crossing his arms over his broad chest.
"Now, why don't we cut the bullshit?" Dean asked, his voice returning to its usual gruff tone. "You know damn well why I'm here. Bobby called me. You want to learn how to hunt and I'm available. Sometimes."
"Oh you're good. You're good." She chuckled at his words before putting some space between them. "But you've rehearsed *too* much. I can tell." As if she was that easy. Perhaps he expected such. Bobby had told her enough about the life that they led. Hunting. It didn't seem to exactly hand itself over to romance. That's how Allie was conceived. One night of sloppy bliss followed by a quick retreat.
By the time her mother, Leslie, found out nothing could be done. Bobby had been the flight of the night. She had known nothing about him other than his name. Thank God technology has advanced. Too bad it was after her mother had faced the end. At least she got the flowers and the goodbye.
"You sound *so* enthused." Poor guy sounded like he didn't want to do it. Allie assumed her father had lectured him into it. Alice wasn't a woman that understood the word 'no' well. Aside from consent, of course. She was stubborn as absolute hell. Bobby had attempted to talk her out of it but that was useless. Her father hunted and now she would too. The desire for control and freedom was too intense. "You need a shower." He looked like he had rolled down a steep hill up close. Dirt and small traces of blood covered his hands and forearms.
Dean couldn't help but smirk at her comment about his rehearsal. "Well, sweetheart," he drawled once more, leaning against the counter next to her again. "You gotta admit it was pretty damn smooth." He chuckled softly before sobering up and nodding in agreement when she mentioned that he sounded less than enthused about teaching her how to hunt.
"Yeah, well... you know how it is," he shrugged nonchalantly as if it were no big deal. "I don't exactly have a choice with Bobby around."
Very true. Her father could be firm as fuck but it wasn't bad. Bobby somehow made you want to respect him. It wasn't out of fear. He was a good man.
Allie grinned to herself. No wonder Dean wasn't excited. Her father had probably alluded to her... defiant demeanor. Being a loud woman meant paving the path of a bitch and being told over and over and over that you were doing it.
"Can we start tomorrow? The Bachelorette is on tonight." She bit her lip while thinking of it. "I'll be fucked if Jason doesn't win." Yes. She enjoyed crappy reality TV and dramas. Well. Some of them. Dr. Sexy M.D was gaining popularity and that show sucked. "Also you fucked up the floor. Go mop it. I'm not doing it again." The words may have sounded harsh but her tone was rather light. Playful but also a tad firm. She really wasn't doing it again.
Dean couldn't help but chuckle at her choice in television shows, shaking his head lightly. "You watch The Bachelorette?" he asked incredulously, raising an eyebrow in disbelief.
"Well, sweetheart," he said, "I guess I owe you one." He leaned over and snatched the mop from its spot near the sink before turning to face her with a wicked grin on his lips. "But remember this, Sunshine," he growled playfully, his eyes sparkling with amusement as he trapped her against the counter once more. "You mess with the Winchester, you get your ass kicked by the Winchester."
With that, he sauntered out of the kitchen.
That didn't even make sense. Allie shook her head as he walked away but she did chuckle softly to herself. He was a strange enigma of a man. Certainly not what had been expected but at the same time... exactly what was envisioned. The eyes of her father were certainly tinted with nostalgia.
The next six months passed like a blink. Dean would come and go. If Allie wasn't training with him she was researching under her father's insistence. Thank God she had gone to college. Nursing had prepared her with five hour energy fueled nights of examining medical textbooks. The most boring thing ever created. The old books that Bobby had collected weren't nearly as bland.
She stood with double arms outstretched, gun pointing at a makeshift ghost target that Dean had created. It looked like a child's art project.
They had grown close. Generally Allie wasn't used to being around someone so intensely. She had been... cut off from friendships. Really any sort of connection before meeting her father.
The bullets weren't missing the target. They were past that. They just weren't... great shots. Her skills were certainly debatable. Dean had finally started taking her on hunts. They needed to tighten up before continuing on.
"I don't understand what you mean!" The blonde yelled out of frustration and tensed up. "You're just... standing and shooting!" He wasn't describing anything. Sometimes it was like Dean forgot that he had nearly two decades of experience over her. "Don't look at me like that!"
Dean chuckled as he watched Allie's frustration grow, shaking his head lightly. "Look at you," he murmured with a smirk, stepping closer to her until they were standing face-to-face. His eyes never left hers as he reached up and gently tugged on one of the strands of hair that had come loose from its ponytail, twirling it around his finger thoughtfully.
"You know what I mean" he said quietly, lowering his voice so only she could hear him. He leaned in close enough for their bodies to brush against each other, his breath warm against her ear when he spoke next. "You're rushing it. You need to slow down, focus on your breathing... feel the gun in your hands."
He pulled back slightly then, his eyes never leaving hers as he continued speaking softly but firmly. "Remember what I told you? It's not just about shooting straight," he said seriously. "It's about being one with your weapon; knowing when and where to strike without hesitation or mercy. If you hesitate— you die." His voice dropped even lower then, taking on a darker edge. "And sometimes... it takes more than bullets to get the job done."
"It takes more than bullets to get the job done." Dean's words were an insinuation of discussions previously experienced. Sometimes anything had to be a weapon. Sometimes you had to fight despite being injured or tired or practically fileted emotionally. Nothing came before the hunt. Nothing stopped you until the monster was dead. At times he could be intense but it was warranted.
They didn't really talk about it but he had grown quite protective of her. His demeanor had changed since their first meeting. They weren't strangers these days. They had a blossomed friendship and with that came the subconscious knowledge that any wrong move could damage either one of them emotionally. Maybe even mentally.
Dean slid into the role of being a mentor well. Though they did bicker at times. In fact their friendship seemed to have two settings. Banter or bicker. That was it. Poor Bobby. His house was a rat's cage half the time.
Allie cracked her neck and tried her best to take his advice. Being too fast. Okay. She'd slow down. She shook her body out in an effort to wave away the tension in her muscles before shooting again. Stomach hit. Again. Not bad. But not... very good. They were workin' on a headshot and Allie knew that Dean certainly wouldn't let her on another hunt until it was perfected.
"Damn it!" Her voice raised through gritted teeth and hands clamped tight over the metal of the pistol.
Dean snorted softly at her frustration, stepping back to give her some space. "That's better," he praised with a smirk on his lips. He knew how much it irritated her when she didn't nail something the first time around; that need for perfectionism was both adorable and infuriating all rolled into one delicious package.
"Now again," he said calmly, taking aim himself before firing off two shots in rapid succession—both hitting their targets dead center. His eyes never left hers as he slowly lowered the gun, challenging her to match him. "Slow down, focus on your breathing..."
She felt like pulling her fucking hair out. She cared about Dean but sometimes he could be such a God damn braggart. He was cocky and arrogant. Though she supposed everyone had their flaws.
"Wow, thanks. Now I know how to do it! I'm magically a perfect shot since you showed me how!" She was sarcastically snidely and her tone took on a humorous false sincerity. Blue eyes batted while a theatrically large smile forced her rosy cheeks to bulb. Alice wore her frustration on her sleeve. Only because she trusted him. Maybe they fought all the time. So what? It only made them closer. They never actually kept any of the fights stored inside of themselves.
The blonde repositioned herself. Three, two, bang. Shoulder hit.
Allie bit her fist in anger. Her eyes squeezed shut at her own failure.
Dean couldn't help but snort at her exaggerated frustration, shaking his head lightly as he holstered his weapon. "You know what I mean," he spoke, stepping closer to her once more until they were mere inches apart again. His eyes flickered downwards briefly before meeting hers with a challenging gaze.
"Focus on your breathing, Allie." He spoke softly, his voice low in her ear. "Inhale... hold it..." He paused for a moment, allowing her time to follow along before continuing. "...exhale slowly."
Dean moved behind her, circling an arm around her waist to pull her flush against him. The scent of wildflowers wafted into relaxed nostrils. Half the time he was used to smelling death and decay. Allie's perfume was always a welcomed change. His other arm was positioned right over hers on the gun. His cheek grazed her ear while green eyes took in the target akin to her own view. "Just breathe, Alls."
Chest to chest. Hip to hip. Heart to heart? Get a grip.
Blood pumped rushed and hot through plump blue veins. Her eardrum rang with the sound of her own life's core beating. Beating.
The action of a kind embrace did center her. Had she ever breathed a true breath? Something relaxed and easy? Most people didn't just survive. They lived. Allie envied that. Hunting had given her focus and potentially a meaning. Before she was just some random fuckin' blonde from Ohio that peaked in high school. Big tits, big ass, slim waist, head cheerleader, prom queen. Such adjectives and nouns were almost embarrassing now. They had defined her in a category that she didn't want to belong too. Book by its cover and all that shit.
Although she was generally defiant towards authority— or really anyone who tried to tell her what to do, Dean had slipped through the cracks and lately her woman's scorn had dissipated due to the trust they had developed. It wasn't an easy beginning.
She did as he requested. Her diaphragm widened greatly. Hold. Hold. Hold.
— and finally
— release.
