Day 12
Lana was busy, she kept herself busy. She already gave Luna the foot she welded, now she's making something else. I don't know what she was making, but I do know that she's trying to keep herself occupied. I don't want to disturb her. Her face was the embodiment of "one with the arc" or whatever the hell that means.
Luna was quiet. She just paced around the bunker, practicing walking with the foot Lana made. I guess she too wants to get things off her mind. I could see the pain she's feeling though. I know Lisa cauterized her stump, but I still couldn't imagine the pain she's currently feeling.
Lola was drinking air. Or fictitious tea if you're fancy. She too is keeping herself busy. I suppose she's holding on to it quiet well. We already loss Luan and Lynn to insanity. Well, I was too.
Lily was just sleeping. Not a care for the world. I envy her.
Then there's me. Waiting for Bun Bun to come and talk to me. I'm probably the only one close to the Gods right now. I wish the Gods had granted me bravery instead of longevity. I rather shoot them all myself, then let the creatures take them. But I can't. Luna did it. But I can't. I'm a weak person. I sat there on my cot. Staring at my sisters coping mechanisms as I wait for mine to come. Would it be wrong for me to cry right now?
"It will," Bun Bun said as he approached me from behind. "Lincoln, how are you?" Bun Bun asked. He had a suit on for some reason.
"I'm alright. I guess."
"Long time no see, Chosen One," Bun Bun said as he sat next to me. "You wanted to see me right?" He asked.
"Yeah,"
"I know what you're gonna ask, that's why I'm gonna tell you this. Kill your emotions, you don't need them. You will never need them again. Trust me." Bun Bun said.
"But how?" My eyes bubbled.
"Just follow me." Bun Bun said as he pushed me down. I laid there on my cot, staring at the ceiling. "Take these pills, it will help you ascend with me." Bun Bun gave me a bottle.
"What are they?"
"Livda, the holy medicine given to us by God Neforpubi. Take it all."
"But there's 19 of them in this,"
"TAKE IT ALL!"
"... Your wish is my command," I swallowed them all. I lied down. I could feel my eyelids getting heavier and heavier. Then it was dark.
"Lincoln, you're finally here," Bun Bun pulled my hand. He's bigger.
"Lincoln, do you know what we're doing here?"
"To kill my emotions?"
"Yes, but first, you have to admit your faults."
"My faults?"
"Yes,"
"What are they?"
"Everything, the death of your father, you were supposed to stop him but you didn't. Your sister Leni's death, you were supposed to care for her, yet you didn't. Your mother's suicide, you were supposed to grab the gun away from her, but you didn't. Your sister Lori's death, you should've grabbed her. Your sister Lisa, you should've helped her with the hydrolysis, but you didn't. Your other sister, Luan, you should've stopped Lynn. Lynn, YOU SHOULD HAVE STOPPED HER FROM TRYING TO KILL LUAN! LUCY, YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN STRONGER! BUT YOU WERE WEAK! YOU WERE SO WEAK! YOU ARE WEAK! YOU DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE!" Bun Bun yelled at me. His height towering over me. I stood under his shadow. He's right. It was spot on. I am weak.
"I am weak..."
"You are, that's why today you're gonna die!" Bun Bun shrieked. His mouth opened wide revealing razor blade teeth. His tongue was of a serpent, and his limbs were of a cockroach. I ran. I'm a coward. I am afraid. I CAN'T DIE. I still have my sisters. I need to live.
"HELP ME GOD!" I cried.
"STOP RUNNING YOU LITTLE SHIT!" Bun Bun shrieked. His voice is of an eldritch creature pluck straight out of the nightmares of Lovecraft. I COULD FEEL THE VOICE VIOLATING THE AIR AROUND ME. I DON'T WANT TO DIE.
"I DON'T WANT TO DIE!"
His stomps grew louder, and louder. Then I fell. He slowed down. I turned my body around and I saw his face. His saliva running down the corners of his mouth. I see my family in there. Luna trying her best to keep the jaws open as her blood rain down her limbs. Lana and Lola struggling to get out as their limbs bled rivers of crimson fluid. Lily crying as she tried to wake mom and the rest up from their eternal slumber. I don't want them to die. Not today. I got up, and I jumped into his mouth. I tried to pick up the twins, but they couldn't move, their limbs were stuck to the razor teeth. They cried, yet I couldn't understand what they say. I went to Lily, and I grabbed her by her arm and threw her out of the jaws of hell. She cried, but she lived. I went back to the twins, I want to save them. So I pulled on them hard. Harder, and harder, but they wouldn't budge. Luna was crying blood from her eyes as she screamed at me. "GET OUT LINCOLN!" She yelled. I saw the gun in her pocket. I grabbed it. And I shot the twins, I don't want them to feel the pain anymore. Just as the two died, the world fade to black.
Clapping, that was the sound that surrounded me. Intense roars of claps. "FINALLY LINCOLN! YOU DID THE RIGHT CHOICE! YOU MURDERED YOUR OWN SISTERS!" Bun Bun laughed as a spotlight shined on both of us.
"WHAT IS THIS?!" I asked.
"THIS IS THE THEATER! YOU WERE THE BEST ENTERTAINMENT WE EVER HAD! OH THE JOY!" Bun Bun laughed. The lights turned on revealing my sisters. Multiple versions of them. Many, many of them. They were all laughing, and clapping, and cheering. What the fuck is this?
"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU?! DO YOU THINK THAT THIS IS SOME SORT OF JOKE?!" I yelled. I couldn't take it anymore. Was there a god in the first place? "WAS IT ALL A LIE?! WAS THERE ANY GOD IN THEN FIRST PLACE?!"
Bun Bun walked towards me, his face was the face of someone who is trying to hold back from laughing. "...ahem... Of course, they're a fucking lie, it was funny to put you on the steeple not gonna lie, the way you put so much faith on us and all." He said before bursting into laughter.
"YOU FUCKING SON OF A BITCH!" I ran to him with my hands ready to choke him. But I couldn't the ground shattered. I fell. It was a very deep fall. My screams were echoes.
"Well I hope you love your new reality," Bun Bun waved from the closing ceiling.
"FUCK YOU!" I screamed.
I woke up, on my bed. In my room that was once a linen closet. I got off the bed and I saw Bun Bun, nothing but a doll. I could hear Lori and Leni bickering outside my door. I could hear Luna's rock music outside my door. I could hear Luan's dumb jokes outside my door. I could hear them all. The chaos I missed. The chaos I wouldn't trade for the world. With a deep breath, I twisted my door knob and pull it open. I saw them all. In their friendly chaos. Lana playing with her reptilian pets. Lola driving her damn gasoline powered car. Lisa running away from her unstable chemicals. Lily running around with her diapers off. Lucy writing her poetry. Lynn turning everything into a sport. It was all a dream. All of that pain I went through. It wasn't real! I'm BACK!
"KIDS! TIME FOR DINNER!" I heard dad's voice calling from downstairs. They all rush down, leaving their things on the floor. I too followed them. I got in the dining room, and I sat down. There was a large stainless cloche in the middle of the table. Dad's food. "Now kids, remember, we must finish the food! The fridge is full!" Dad said. I had my utensils in my hand. It had been so long.
Dad took the cloche off revealing puff of smoke. He blew the smoke away with his mouth and my heart fell. It was dad's and mom's and all my sister's heads. I turned my head around and I saw their faces turn into that of a cockroach.
"What are you looking at Lincoln? Aren't you... Hungry?" Fake Dad said with a smile on his face. With the fork in my hand, I stabbed the creature sitting next to me, and ran outside.
"WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GOING YOUNG MAN?!" Fake Dad yelled. Just as my eyes met the outside world. I cried. The sky was red and there were cracks where the clouds should be. The house wasn't made of brick and wood, it was made of bones. It was hell again. I screamed and screamed.
I could hear them calling my name. "LINCOLN!" "LINCOLN!" "LINCOLN COME BACK!" "LINCOLN!"
I felt the earth shake. Their screams grew louder and louder. And just as I was about to jump off a bridge. I saw the ceiling of my cot. Luna, Lana and Lola beside me. Their eyes were swollen and tears were running out of their ducts. I saw the pile of puke on my cot. 19 almost fully digested pills floating on top. I could feel Luna's, Lana's and Lola's arms tightening around me. Hugging me tight.
"LINCOLN! WHY?!" Luna yelled.
"I'm sorry, I'M SORRY!"
"Do you know worried we were?" Lola cried.
"I'm sorry..." I cried. "I'm not strong. I'm weak. I'm sorry! Please don't leave me!"
I sat there, crying as they hugged me. I don't know why.
It was 11 PM. Lana and Lola were asleep with Lily. I sat next to Luna who's tuning her acoustic guitar.
"Hey Linc," she said.
"Hey Lunes, I have to ask something,"
"What is it bro?"
"Why did you wake me up? You didn't even try to hear Lynn out and you shot her. Lucy, Luan were dying, and you shot them, I was dying but why didn't you shoot me?"
"Because... I know there's still hope for you," She sat her guitar down.
"What does that mean?"
"Think logically would you! Do you think we had the supplies needed to fix Luan? She had so many holes in her body, she's gonna die sooner or later. Lynn, she was bonkers, she'd kill all of us if we were to offend her, she was that lost. Lucy, tell me how the fuck can we help her other than providing her a .38 to the skull?" Luna said, each sentence getting louder and angrier. "Lincoln, if it were up to me, I'd shoot myself today. But I can't. I still have four siblings to protect. I still have four siblings that I love. I know it's ironic coming from the person that shot three of her siblings to death, but I love you guys. I love you guys so much, I'd rather die getting torn apart then to let you guys be torn to shreds. Do you understand me?"
"Yeah..."
"So don't you fucking dare try to kill yourself again, the only person that can kill you, is me, and me only. And right now, there's still hope, even if its very fucking thin." She continued. "Also, I take back what I said yesterday, if you have the gun, run, don't waste the bullet on me."
