Day 10
Harley Tandley 16, District 2 Male
My eyes as I just hold Junior close to my chest, I almost didn't expect to wake up, a part of me didn't want to wake up, I feel lost, empty, I haven't felt myself since losing Rory.
It was the first time I slept after he died, I am not used to not having his presence, for over 8 years we have shared a room we never had a night away from each other, I was scared if I slept the nightmare monster will eat me alive, thankfully he didn't.
I was exhausted even if I have angel blood I'm not immune from human feelings, and human habits, it's odd how the body needs sleep I know at home they wanted us to have a good night's sleep every night to ensure we don't get even more moody or delirious, not that I was either of those. I always woke up in a great mood, I always woke up wanting to help people, it's why I woke up I knew I was helping the world, but being a curious boy I did want to test what would happen to someone who didn't sleep.
Sadly unlike not eating or drinking, you can't die without sleep well you can but it takes months it does some weird things to the human mind, one time I locked a young man up in a room and made sure he stayed awake, he lasted over 12 days until he finally couldn't stay awake, even stabbing him or electrocuting him didn't work but he went from a well-behaved boy, a stable boy, too moody, aggravated, he saw hallucinations, kept hearing voices he was going crazy, he didn't wake up after his sleep but the was more me drowning him in a bath because I wanted to test if that would wake him.
It didn't, he was that tired, The moral of the story, after about three days of staying up my body couldn't take it, Levin said it was my turn to sleep anyways.
I chose the guard the past three nights it was more so I could meditate and pray to the angels to save me or plot my next moves, I never once considered killing him in my sleep however the boy is stupid to not have killed me in my sleep.
Hell he must really want me alive, at first, I thought it was because he wanted to be my friend, that he wanted to take the stray wolf into his pack, it made me happy but it's obvious why he wanted me alive, I'm little hurt too be honest.
I thought he was different but he clearly isn't, his like the rest of them, his betrayal hurts me more than Aurelia's but Aurelia never betrayed me, she killed Rory because she wanted to be with me it's why I will forgive her while I'm torturing her in horrid ways but Levins betrayal it hurts that's why I needed sleep I had to put the pieces together.
When he wanted an alliance I knew he wanted me to help him but at the same time I was waiting for an attack but then he was so nice to me, he never judged me, and he even calls Junior by junior and not just a saw, junior does not like when people call him a saw, I don't like it either because it's like calling a human it.
It's quite rude I would never treat humans in such disrespectful ways, at least when I kill someone I have a memorial for them it shows respect, that this world no longer has, maybe I'm delusional to think he wanted to be friends, but I just stayed quiet, I obeyed.
Besides us two there are three left, the reaper and the two young pups, one is mine and the other well he can live, Rory and I always planned for one of the district one tribute to win, why we didn't really know, half the tributes were evil, the rest were useless and as much as Aurelia deserves a happy life I don't want her being Victor and cheating on me she belongs in the afterworld with me.
That's all I care about now finding Aurelia, so I can make her suffer for killing Rory and make her beg for death then I will take her with me, whatever happens after that I really don't give a fuck but Levin has hurt me.
I should kill him, I want to, junior is getting hungry for blood, he doesn't like normal food and isn't thirsty for water, I tried to feed him last night.
He just wants blood but tomorrow is the day he gets bathed in my girl's blood, today is the day someone else dies, I have been sponsored by another tracker, I'm upset that Aurelia is with Cedric but as much as I want to torture him, having Aurelia choose me and force him to win will be torture enough so he can live he is lucky.
Declan is coming our way originally I was going to help Levin kill Declan, hell I was going to help him win but then it just clicked to me I was being used, everyone uses me, it's why I killed so many people but he can deal with Declan himself. I don't care anymore, I am done.
He just doesn't know it yet, I know he locked me in this storage room so I could sleep, I knew it was so I couldn't attack him, I heard him unlock the door but he hasn't awakened me yet. I didn't even know what time it is but when I looked at my watch and tracker there are still five left.
I'm so close to completing my head game and even if these realisations mean I need to change it. I'm good at adapting I have had to adapt my entire life, and losing Rory made me realise that even if I'm still not fully over it yet, even if I have been crying about it at least I have junior.
I just glance at the tracker, the young pups haven't moved they are playing it safe, little do they know death is coming for them well Aurelia anyway but for Cedric being Victor is worse then death for that boy.
Serves him right for wanting to steal what is mine, he is lucky I'm not going to punish him for it.
Declan well I don't even think he even knows what he is doing right now, again serves him right for being such a shit brother, I would torture him but he isn't worth my time, I don't want him to get sent to peace or heaven he deserves worse, even I'm a better brother and I killed my own sister she was only 1 she was a cute little baby, she said her first word or more screamed her first word.
Mummy that was after I slaughtered mummy I didn't slaughter her though I just stabbed her to death it was poetic.
I just put Junior on my belt unwrapping the bandage, the wound hasn't healed yet, I don't know how he got that but he is strong he will recover just like how I'm trying to move on from losing Rory. I know we will see each other soon and I know I get vengeance I guess Levin saved me in that sense but at the end of the day it was too be a pawn and I am nobodies pawn, only the pawn for the angels but I'm a angel.
I'm the angel of death, and I am pretty good handling my emotions, yes I badly chewed my finger last night and it was barely hanging by the bone before I got medicine, I actually like the taste of my own blood and flesh.
I miss my pinky I hope he is okay, I left a list of instructions for the nurses hope they look after him well and I will summon the nun to punish all of them and the nun demon is scary, I used to be chased in my dreams until I killed the nun.
I just shuffle out of the room as Levin looks over, maybe he isn't using me, I hope he isn't but I can't take the risk. Aurelia is my number one concern, Declan he is evil, he is a bad guy and the bad guys always kill the good guys and I am a good guy I'm am one of the heroes this yeah.
I even won a District Two Citizen of the Year award.
I tried to use it, to show I would be a better president but the peacekeeper told me it was a fake and I drew it myself so I drew him to death literally I drew on him with poisonous ink took him exactly 93 hours to die.
I miss that pen they took it away from me.
"Did a cannon go?" I ask, I know a cannon didn't boom but he doesn't know I have a tracker, I wonder if he was looking for Cedric clearly he wasn't the plan of splitting them worked to a dime and even if I'm hurt by Levin's action, he has been a good ally he just listens to me he doesn't judge and I like that.
I hate when people judge me it makes me sad and I get angry when I'm sad and when I'm angry I cut my pinky off or permanently damage my tongue I wanted to chew it off last night but I like talking and for some reason you can't talk properly with out it.
"No we are probably the ones they want to hunt, you sure Declan is off his tree," Levin says
He isn't off his tree, he is a reaper they are born evil.
I just grab something from my pocket and throw it at him "Is that a tooth" he says
"It's Mabel's tooth, I found it cracked from her jaw well what was left from her jaw, iron fists did it bam bam bam so yes he is off his tree it will take both of us to subdue him, insanity is scary not that I know, you might have a better understand of being unstable" I say, he just stares blankly at me, I actually forgot I had that in my pocket I got rid of the hand yesterday I just hung it to a tree hope soemone finds it.
The guy is a hitman, that isn't what you call stable, I worry Levin won't be good enough to get peace that's why I wanted him to win.
I was worried he wouldn't be given a key, only the special ones do unless your killed by me but I didn't want to kill him, I don't kill people I like.
Unless they are my soul mate and unfortunately for him I'm not gay
I never killed a gay Man I found them cute in a little kid way, we didn't have many in two they were looked down upon, we had one young couple I killed everyone who insulted them, they never knew though that's what a angle of death does.
"He will go straight for the attack, I don't know what happened between him and his sister, so I don't know if he has the nothing to lose mentality or will be trying to look for her" he shrugs
"She would have run you didn't see Mabel's body, even that I normally don't touch the face unless I had to kill one off and attach it to another face," I say
"Right" he mumbles
I just smile this is why I liked him he didn't seem disturbed by what I say. Normally everyone else would think I am a freak and the nurses would say Harley it is not normal to skin faces that nurse had her face skinned and I didn't even replace her face she didn't deserve it, I use to scalp man for their brains and use to put it in someone else's head when they do something stupid
I hope all my organs are okay I use to visit them daily make sure they okay, they they ate well hydrated and fed, organs can get very hungry
"Should we hunt him, we can just both ambush him together and them boom the reaper dead then I will take care of the two pups kill myself victory is yours" I say
Yeah right but he doesn't need to know that I really expected levin to me smarter or he is playing along knowingI plan well not stab him in the back he can very well kill Declan good for him if he does I will just take Aurelia then who ever wins out of him and Cedric I don't really care to be honest hell the voodoo dolls that are in this house can win for all I care
I miss Mr troll he was a little toy with pick spiky hair I have at home, I will miss home but I can make a new home in heaven, I'm excited for that after years of being a good person I just want peace
"You sure your just willing to die we can fight" he says
"I'm not a fighter, I'm a hunter but yes I have always been ready for death, death does not fear me, I am ready for it" I say because I'm not really going to die that's why I'm not afraid being afraid of death will just make me unstable and scared
And I'm not scared nor unstable even if my reports said otherwise they clearly made a error that does happen a lot they make errors it during isn't good enough but sadly I was never hired as a therapist I applied for every job availed they said,I wasn't trains. Or had a degree and that I am the one needing a therapist jokes on them
"Okay, as long as you are okay with" he says
"You worth dying for" I say oh poor levin, I sort of feel bad but hey this was always going ti happen helping him win was never priority of mine he was delusional to believe that we walk in silence through the maze
I know Declan is coming this way Levin doesn't "Where so you think he would be" he says
"He wouldn't know how to read a map wouldn't handle the maze so he is in here someone the banshee is getting louder he is close" I say
The banshee screamed Levin's name this morning that is never a good sign when the banshee screams your name that means it's bye bye
So when I hear the footsteps get closer I just run, let him deal with the reaped I have something more important to achieve
Declan Callen 18, District 9 Male
I just scream in anger kicking the wall.
I have no idea where I am going, or what I am doing, fuck I was exactly like this two fucking days ago, I don't even remember yesterday, I think Xander the dick poisoned me or gave me sleeping tablets because I missed an entire day
To be honest, I kind of needed the rest of was running around off my head and guess what I woke up and I am now doing the same fucking thing, it was kind of Kylian to give me a map that map only lasted about four hours until I ripped it apart again, I don't need a map.
I don't actually know what I really need right now, my sister?
I don't think us bumping into each other will be good for either of us right now I feel too betrayed and she is either scared or angry at me well she needs to get the fuck over herself, this is the hunger games people die I don't know why I'm seen as the bad guy after everything I tried to do for her, protect her in these games, ally with her when I didn't want, to she left me when I needed her the most she is just a ungrateful brat.
Or maybe I am the ungrateful brat, fuck I don't know, all I know is that there are five left, I don't even know who the fuck died last night it could be my sister for all I know and I'm running around like an idiot looking for her, I hope she is dead, but then I don't either I want to find her I want to say something I just kick the wall again, I don't know what to think my mind is going a thousand miles per hour right now and it sort of is scaring me.
It's why the outlaws got me on medication, it was too help me everything they did it was to help me, everyone who talks about the dark regions thinks it's hell, think we get sent there for punishment we just get sent there too rot.
Maybe some people, some people that get sent there are killed off straight away the ones who don't belong to the outlaws or outsiders, are targeted straight away there is the neutral point in the dark region, females never get sent to the dark region not they belong unless taken like my sister not that we did that, both groups only take males under 30 over 30 and you are killed but if they aren't then it's whichever side they choice.
The dark side or the light side, everyone thinks we are the monsters and the outsiders are just victims but no one besides the ones in the dark regions know the truth, even Aurelia knew her side wasn't as innocent as everyone thinks. She just didn't know we weren't as big as monsters as everyone believed we are human but I guess I didn't really help that image, instead of blaming everyone I should just-
Should what?
Sit here waiting to die, I deserve to die but I can't die not yet, I need to find Aurelia, I just have to, just hopefully when I do find her I'll be in the right mindset. I can't die or lose her with the way we ended, she left thinking I hate her, I never hated her, maybe sometimes I do but the real me. The person I'm trying to hide right now doesn't hate her, but the wall I put up. I need to have that mindset, if I have to run around like a maniac to give myself or my sister the best chance so be it but me running around like a maniac caused us to split.
She could be dead and I wouldn't know and if she is I can't forgive myself, I blame her for being here because if she wasn't then I wouldn't have that emotional baggage but at the same time she made me a better person, well when I was that person, I should have stayed on my medication when I wad on my medication I didn't have the ten different personalities I didn't fear myself when I fear myself I drown my souls and almost give myself to the devil.
Hell, I probably look like a devil right now, I ran into Kylian and I had no fear, he told me what he did to his partner and I didn't care. I wanted his blood but I lost him. I keep losing everyone I hear, I ran into some hand hanging earlier and I didn't scream if anything I wanted to do that to someone, I wanted to know how it felt to do that to someone.
All I knew was it was a male's hand but hell that could have been hanging in that tree for ages even before the games. I'm just surprised I even made it to the town, but now I'm stuck in the maze again. I feel like the walls are closing in, like I can't breathe.
I need to stop I'm going to run into my own death, at least I have a deal with Kylian surely he wouldn't be dead, so that's one less tribute to worry about and Aurelia won't kill me so that's two.
Cedric is too much of a coward loser so that's three to not worry about, the other two though hopefully one of them is dead.
I just jumped when a canister comes as I quickly grab it just seeing a packet of knives, I did need knives, I kept throwing them everywhere or using them to destroy property, but I'm an outlaw destroying things whether it's property or lives is in our blood.
'Stop losing your knives dickhead, you are going to need them very shortly, by the way, the cannon was Kylian but can you listen to once and stop trying to find your sister she is better without you-X'
"Fuck you, stupid son of a bitch I will kill you if I win" I yell, insulting my mentor again isn't the best idea but that's Xander for you so much hatred but so much loyalty.
I should be honoured to be compared to him, he is a district 9 legend, a District 9 hero his victory saved the district but I'm not because I'm nothing like him, yes we both lost our minds but he was still a good guy. I never was, and never will be, if Xander was in my boots he would have done everything to protect Aurelia but at the same time No one understands what it's like, how I felt everyone is hating me right now but what about her.
She isn't all innocent.
She left her own blood when he needed her the most, she doesn't deserve sympathy great now I'm back to hating her fuck I wish I could just send her a letter but I can't even do that, I don't know what Xander meant by your going to need it.
Am I being hunted or can I kill someone I want to kill someone, J want to be bathed in blood, I wish it wasn't Kylian even if I hated that guy knowing I wasn't on his radar made me feel a little better even if I should have been worried by what he was planning he could have killed me.
Hell, I slit my own wrists before then had a panic attack because I wasn't ready to die thankfully I had medicine. He is on the ball Xander that's for sure, I don't know why, maybe he really wants a Victor or he knows, me being alive helps Aurelia of course it's all about her, fuck even my own mentor spent more time with her than he did with me when apparently he didn't even know Brayen's name last year, yes I was a dick to him but still.
I am his tribute.
Once I was rid of all my family, life got better, life was easier and at the time I wasn't ready to see any of my family again, my sister had to come back into my life, and I wasn't ready for it and neither was she.
Knowing she was an outsider, a mortal enemy it didn't help, knowing she was the bomb smith, that she crafted mines that killed so many of my brothers maybe having that thought always meant we were doomed, but I still don't believe her story, I don't go to believe it because if it's true them I'm the biggest asshole for judging her but I'm an asshole anyways it's too late to change.
The games started off quick I almost thought we would be done by day 5 but now it's day 10 and 5 are still left, my sister is still left, maybe Xander is right maybe I need to let her go she clearly hasn't been looking for me.
I can't blame her either we are and will always be enemies, the sooner I come to terms with that the better all I know is I can't kill her, if I do then I don't know what will happen to me. I'm already drowning in a sea of evil right now, if I kill the only girl that will save me I'm gone.
I am dead.
But you can't fix what's broken.
And I was broken the second my best friend, my sister was stolen away from me as a child, maybe after waking up for a sleep that needed I finally came to terms it wasn't her fault once your in the dark regions it's hard to stand up and walk over a prisoner or no prisoner you're trapped there for life.
I just stop when hear footsteps in the distance, I want to run towards them but I don't know who they are, I can't even tell if they are male or female. I was never that intuitive like my sister, it could be Harley and fuck even that freak puts a chill down my spine.
I want to slice his fucking body apart but I know not to, so I just slowly walk towards the footsteps.
"Fuck sake, I knew it"
I just hide behind the wall when I hear Levin, I'm so confused I just heard footsteps running away unless there was a duo, but peeking out as he looks the other way it's like he was stunned, did that little dweeth Cedric leave him wouldn't shock me.
That kid should have been born female because he's such a whiny little shit, I just grip onto my hammer as I don't waste a second lunging at him with my hammer he dodges my blow with his sword just in time as even he looked stunned.
"Got left behind" I snarl just swinging at him again but he is trained I'm not.
"At least my own sister didn't dump me," he says
That makes me angry because he is right, he is so right my own sister dumped me, my own sister left me when I needed her the most and that's what hurts. I just lunge at him as he sidesteps me just slashing at my legs as my knee buckles underneath me but I just jump out of the way, he doesn't scare me, nothing scares me.
Actually, that's a lie fear has made me this person yet I don't fear death and that's what I need to bring out, he has so much to lose, I don't.
I lost the last thing I had and I can't fix that, it's too late but I have to kill everyone in my way, that's one less person for Aurelia to worry about, one less person who wants her dead.
I just swing at his head as he ducks but I just slam a fist in his stomach as he slices for my arm. He stumbles back as my hammer smashes into his chest, I see him almost look around like he is hoping someone would come or maybe his worried my sister would come but even if we were still together she wouldn't help me.
She couldn't even kill a 14-year-old girl there is no way she would help me kill a career boy, I'm on my own I guess I have always been on my own.
He lunges at me and I just put my arm up I don't feel the pain as I smash the hammer on his leg "No wonder you don't feel pain, you aren't human anymore," he says
I just growl at him lunging again but while my attacks are erratic his attacks have method, he is waiting for me to run out of fuel, run out of fire but I won't I might get myself killed though when I see the blood I want more.
"Says the one who made his siblings believe he was some hero at least everyone knows I'm a piece of shit, I wonder what your baby sister thinks or your brothers, being raised by someone who thinks killing is okay," I say.
For the first time I see anger in Levin's eyes I just wince when his sword sinks into my ribs, into my stomach but it's not a kill shot instead it makes me angrier I know I can get to him now mentally upset him.
I'm a street fighter I was never beaten and for good reason I played mental warfare I may be mentally unstable but when it came to mental warfare I was unbeatable.
And I doubt they would train mental warfare in District 1.
"Coming from the loss soul, hell if I was your sister I would have been thrilled to be kidnapped to be away from you," he says.
I just throw away my hammer just throwing myself at him, he is stunned by my movements and I just feel his sword dig through my leg but I get us both to the ground as I just smash my head onto his but that was a dumb move because me being on top he was able to move his head to the side and I smash my own head straight onto concrete I see actual starts as I feel him wrap his legs around my back flipping us over as I can barely even realise I'm pinned down as he brings out a knife.
"I'm sorry man, I promise I will give your sister a quick death she deserves that" he says.
I almost take the blow but when Aurelia's name is mentioned when he threatens to harm her something inside me awakens, he just screams in shock as I rip my teeth into his hand and then knee him straight in the groin I'm street boy, I know how to fight.
I just plunge my fingers in his right eye as he screams even louder, the screams fuel me as I just flip us over moving so I have one knee pressing into his knee and one in his chest restricting his breathing as I dig my finger even more into his eye the power, the screaming.
I enjoy every second of it, I don't know how long I go for but after what feels like minutes a cannon booms as I practically have parts of his eye in my hand as I just topple off his body, his neck bruised from my neck.
And I don't feel a thing
Cedric Lenlen 17, District 1 Male
I just jump kamikaze style, toppling over the chair and causing the table to topple over when I hear the cannon.
Oh fuck I was having a dream and completely forgot where I was and by I dream I mean complete daydream, I was watching Aurelia like the weirdo I am, as she just writes in her notebook and then she caught me so I pretended I was looking out the window then I was just thinking about how great she is, and how I really know nothing about girls and how freaky being in these hunger games are that I could have very well been asleep.
Now I'm tangled in a whole heap of table cloth and chairs, right in front of the girl I was full-on drooling over like ten minutes ago.
This was after I collapsed in the shower and took down the whole shower curtain because when I woke up we were practically slumped against each other and I full-on panicked and ran out thankfully she was still asleep when I ran out but after the destroyed the shower curtain which I didn't even realise they would have in a wood shop that alerted her.
Great she must think I'm the biggest dork "Oh god are you okay" she says running over to me, admittedly this wood shop also has a little house connected to it, as she helps take the chair off me struggling to push the table off as I just untangle myself.
"Yeah ah the boom boom gave me a bit of a shock" I say, please god hope I didn't wet my pants surprisingly I never had done that, but knowing my luck the first time will be in front of Aurelia and then I will certainly die of embarrassment.
"Four left" she says just slumping next to me on the ground.
"Yeah Jesus felt like yesterday I was reaped, everyone thought I would be dead by the bloodbath," I say
"I knew you would make it I hoped if I didn't win you would" she says I just smile squeezing her hand briefly as we just stare at each other final 4 means, well final 4, 2 more to die then it's just us.
"You two," I say, I didn't know what we are going to do when we allied, we were both scared, we both needed comfort, needed company, I expect us both to be picked off yet we haven't, and now there is only four left, I don't know who that cannon was but it just puts us in a situation, it puts us in a situation where we shouldn't trust the other.
It puts us in a situation that two more tributes are left and we need to fight to the death bed, I don't want to do that, I genuinely have feelings for her, and I really do care for her but I don't want to leave either, if Levin and I weren't forced split I wouldn't have wanted to leave him.
Being alone in here I'm scared of what it will do to me, I'm used to being alone. I never had many friends, my family didn't care about me, and most of my time was spent alone, even in training I was the loser sitting alone.
I thought I would be fine here alone but the hunger games are different, I felt safe in district one well, sort of I use to get beaten or tormented by my bullies but I knew that's how far they would go, getting your head slammed in the toilet or tied upside down on a tree is shit is bad and all but I would rather that then be killed, then be a killer I knew here I couldn't be alone I wanted company, I needed it.
I wanted friends and I made two friends, if Levin is still alive that means two people I have formed an emotional attachment to, a bond may be I am clingy but besides Kenzo, these two are the only two that really cared for me, who wanted to get to know me.
How can I repay them by killing them I have never ended a life and now I might have to end the life of my only friends, it doesn't feel right, I can't, but then at the same time, I came into these games thinking I was as good as dead.
No one expected me to make it past the final maybe 14, even my own mentor was preparing me for death.
He was almost prepping me to be a better ally for Levin so I could help get further but here I am final four, something else to tick off my bucket list.
Aurelia and I never spoke about when we would split, we just expected the choices to be made for us, at this moment a true career would be attacking her, hell she would have been dead by now but I was never a career.
I was only forced into the centre because of my father, and I only trained because I was forced too, my heart was never in it, it's why I never improved it's what I learnt, what Levin taught me.
I was so good at bow and arrow because I had fun practising, training for the Hunger Games wasn't fun, the career he would attack Aurelia now, but Cedric would want to stay with her until the end and then work out what happens.
I didn't just make it this far just to make it this far, I can see victory but is it worth it?
I know Aurelia wouldn't want to die for me and after everything that girl went through, I don't want her to die for me, she can't die for me.
"I know there are four left and I know it's just going to break both of our hearts to maybe have to turn against each other but I don't want to split and if you want to then I will let you walk through the door and I won't attack," I say. She just stares at me for a second then the door, everyone would be screaming at me to kill her, or for her to kill me but neither of us are born killers.
Deep down I wish I killed earlier so I could prepare myself for potentially having to kill a friend, I know if I want to win I need a kill.
This isn't a regular year hell even Aurelia has a kill.
She stands up and I feel my heart break I don't know what I expected, fuck I was delusional to want anything, wanting a first kiss, wanting her to like me back, it was pathetic and childish at the end of the day everyone is here for themselves but instead of turning around, she puts her hand out, as my eyes perk up.
"If I walk through that door you are coming with me, I don't care either if we make the final two then we work it out, but the time I spent with you it's the happiest and safest I have been, it's worth the pain of what might come if I get to feel like this for the next few hours or days," she says.
I just grab her hand throwing my arms around her at first she tenses like she is worried this is an attack but eventually she repays the favour.
"Thank you" I whisper
Oh my god, I hugged a girl, now I just need the kiss.
For fuck sake focus Cedric, focus man.
We just pull apart "We are up against it either way, whoever that cannon was, I would be shocked if it was Harley" she says
"Let's pray it is," I say
"One condition of staying together" she says I just look at her tilting my head
"If we bump into my psychotic stalker please don't try and help me, please leave, he will hurt you I won't live with that," she says
Like I would leave him with her, I'm worried he will do more than just kill her, he has fantasies, and as someone who has been tormented in more than just a mental and physical way I don't want that happening to her in the games but I just nod, let's hope the freak is dead I mean Levin could have killed him.
Levin is really strong he could have taken down whatever the fuck Harley is.
"Okay, but if it's your psychotic brother I'm not leaving you, he will just gaslight you," I say
"I know, let's hope we don't," she says.
She hasn't really been super personal with me, I do want to know more but that's none of my business I shouldn't want to get this close to her, who knows how long we have left, who knows what will happen to him.
I just grab her hand as we walk out "We can move to the museum, quite a few levels, has a forest inside that is apparently good for hiding" she says
"I like your thinking no doubt they would try to get all of us tributes together, but ah is there a way without going through the swamp you know me and well water don't know well," I chuckle
"How was your shower this morning?" she says
"Oh don't ask" I chuckle that was embarrassing, a lot of things little ol me does are embarrassing that should be my middle name, to be honest.
I have a lot of middle names "We can go through the maze I know the way" she says I just nod.
It is still pitch black and still freezing cold outside but thankfully we have passed the hand-holding stage so that's one thing, the warmth from her hand making me even warmer and again wanting to faint. I'm shocked I haven't yet, I mean I did last night in my sleep.
I have had some weird ass dreams at ain't funny like getting chased by a tree last night so now I'm scared of trees, fuck imagine dying in the hunger games by a tree I don't really want that on my resume, to be honest.
Fuck wouldn't the district love that we have betting in one like you can bet when our tributes die and how they die, no doubt everyone betted for me to fall off my pedestal well jokes on them I made it father then well a lot of past district one tributes fuck me.
That just clicked what Andres and Corbin came 6th and 7th last year and Andres was a hot favourite and hot psycho oh shit I didn't mean to call that dude hot fuck just sounded so cool in my head.
He was a dick though he wasn't one of my bullies, he didn't give me the time of the day, Corbin was pretty nice though rest in peace my dudes rest in peace.
Speaking of psycho's Luca did come 2nd, his first games but admittedly that boy was like a robot and then he came 4th.
The kids we had in Payton's and Alistair's game didn't even make the top 6, Hendrix came 5th and then good ol Harrison came 4th.
So pretty much to make it far in district one, you need to be a satanic believer, insane or a robot. I hope I'm not insane I don't think I believe in Satan but who knows me with I didn't even know how to tie my laces and still don't was awkwardly when I got new boots I didn't really want to ask Aurelia so I shoved said laces in my boots it's really annoying.
We just walk back through the maze, as we both grip each other's hand. I have my bow on my back but if you have someone lunging straight at you a bow and arrow doesn't really help. I didn't really want to use a sword knowing me I probably would have fallen and stabbed myself that wouldn't have been fun. I actually haven't been stabbed yet so that's a shock I have been lucky in these games that's what scares me.
Luck only lasts so long, soon the tides will change, and soon I won't be so lucky, we keep walking until I trip over something. Aurelia falling over me as I just yell when I touch something wet and like gooey as I yell even loud.
Oh my god that's a human.
Oh my fucking god that is human.
"Cedric we need to go now" Aurelia says her voice shaking but as I turn around my heart drops
"Levin, Levin," I say
No no, this is not him it can't be, I just almost collapse but Aurelia grabs me as I just jump up looking at his body, he is missing an eye, and his neck is completely purple.
Levin
"No no he can't be, no he can't be, he can't be" I yell just putting a hand through my hair. I feel like I can't breathe right now as I feel tears flood my eyes, it can't be Levin he wasn't meant to die. He had family I just walk around panicking. I feel like my throat is closing in I have had panic attacks before but right now I can't even focus, can't even see properly.
I don't know what to feel, what to think, I know he would die but I didn't know it would be like this.
"I can't do this, I can't do this" I say I just freeze as Aurelia grabs me bringing her lips to mine, at first I just stay frozen but then I wrap my arms around her kissing her back, our lips aren't really in sync, she knows what she is doing but I don't but I don't care I can actually focus. I can actually breath she pulls apart as I literally collapse.
"Are you okay?" she says
"I uh, I uh Woah" I say
"They say if you hold your breath you will stop having a panic attack," she says softly
"I'm not complaining oh my god I just kissed a girl" I say then I yell remembering why I went ape shit in the first place Levin
It wasn't meant to be like this, but now it means I have to win, not just for me but for him. His family needs me, I just grab his watch
What the fuck?
Aurelia just stays in the corner
What the fuck, look his eye has been literally ripped from the socket and your telling me this wasn't Harley.
Fuck how can I tell Aurelia about this, so I don't
"It was Harley" I say swallowing my emotions as I just the take wooden toy girl from his pocket he made me promise if I won that I would give this back to his sister.
"We should go I'm so sorry," she says.
I am too for not telling you, your brother did this but I can't do that, fuck even though I'm so confused. I just grab her hand as we just sprint away back into the town.
"One question though how did you learn to kiss like that Woah and thanks by the way but Woah" I say that was what I dreamed it to be well maybe not in that current environment but still as we just walk through the museum.
"I was forced to do it a lot by my captors" she stutters
"Did they you know?" I ask she just nods as I just wrap my arms around her again.
"I my sorry I shouldn't have dug" I say me trying to comfort Aurelia is distracting me from Levin, from my best friend dying.
"It's fine, you didn't judge me even my own brother did" she says
Your brother that pulled an eyeball out
"I understand though, like not really but I sort of know how you feel" I say my bullies did a lot of bad things to me but one night this guy Zac took it too far. He was killed the next morning, I almost killed myself as well but I kept moving on, I kept fighting
"It might be our last night together, I can tell you all my demons and you can tell mine, sometimes it's good to relive trauma," she says
"I will like that," I say well not reliving the trauma but getting to know her better, she is all I have left right now and I'm about to lose her.
Deaths:
5th: Levin Huxley, District 1 Male- Killed By Declan Callen, District 9 Male
