Day 11
Harley Tandley 16, District 2 Male
I just stare out the window of this large lighthouse, I can literally see the entire arena. I never really took in the beauty of my surroundings, normally I only found beauty in graveyards, burned down churches or dead bodies, and dark forests I used to always pray and think in dark forests, it's where I could really hear the fairies talking.
The fairies used to love me, I was a good person after all, they used to give me gifts and help me in life, but other than that I was almost a chained dog in District Two.
Our room didn't have windows, it used to but we used to break out too much and they had to block it up with wood, so we couldn't get out.
I just clench my fists, I regret letting Levin die, I almost went to help him I didn't actually run I just found a spot where I could watch, it was very entertaining. I felt like I was a spectator even if I pretty much left to him deal with the angry reaper I started rooting for him, I almost went into help but I stopped my self.
I knew he would see me leaving as betrayal plus, tossing between having Declan alive and Levin alive I knew Levin was a bigger threat to kill Aurelia and I couldn't have that, I found poetic beauty in his eye being ripped out, Declan did it messily normally there is a process when you put three fingers behind the eye and you give it a pull, it's a lot less painful for the person too.
Clearly, it was a fighting technique they don't teach you those things in the academy, it is street boy fighting 101 and even if I am not a street boy I do know a lot about being on the street.
I did steal a boy's black band years ago, so I can walk the slums of two and not be attacked that was before everyone found out about me anyway.
But I don't like being alone, I feel like the shadows will come out and grab me. I'm lonely and I'm not used to it, ever since I was sent to the special unit I have always had Rory by my side, we never spent more than a few hours apart or I had at least someone to speak to, I feel like I'm falling, luckily I found someone that I can at least have kept me company until I find my forever girl, she is next door.
I have been watching her through the window, her and Cedric, though no one can see them maybe from the ground but not from the large lighthouse. They are in a very large complex, a museum, with a fairy light forest, and a small residential level, it's the perfect level for my end-game.
"Can you hear that it's the scream" I whisper
I found a toy puppet, that looked like Rory, so I called him Rory, makes me feel less alone, he and Junior get along they had a tea party last night while I just stared through the window. I am jealous but love is blind, I hope she is using him I doubt it but I know she loves me more even if she doesn't I will make her love me.
Her psycho brother went the opposite direction so he won't be a threat in this current climate not that he is a threat at all I could have easily thrown a knife to his skull.
Hell I could have easily waltzed behind him and choked him but for some reason, I just didn't feel like it, something amusing about seeing him be completely detached from reality. I would say I know how that feels but I don't, only poor souls are like that, maybe if I see his body since I tend to run into bodies I can hand him a business card and we can speak in the afterworld but who I am kidding, he is going to hell it's why I won't kill him, he will probably get himself killed anyways.
He is the strongest physical threat left but he is so off his head right now he will probably cause himself to die. I wish I could witness that he does deserve to suffer, he doesn't deserve Aurelia, he stole her away from me at the start, Cedric just saved her I owe him for that but at the end of the day, she always has been mine.
I do hate her, she stole my brother away from me and she will suffer for it but I have never been one to feel anger, yes I go on a bit of meltdown like the fact I ripped three of my nails off last night, I actually liked the feeling of the pain I liked the taste of my blood.
I'm starting to like the taste of blood even when I cut off one of Levin's fingers and drank the blood I enjoyed it maybe the games are making me a little whack but it doesn't matter once again, I was sponsored medicine as I just pull my tracker out wanting to see the odds.
Likelihood to win:
Harley Tandley 87%
Declan Callen 6%
Cedric Lenlen 4%
Aurelia Callen 3%
Clearly whoever does this odds don't understand I am not in it to win it, and neither is Aurelia since she wants to die with me, I have everything planned for her, and her death will be painful, luckily I found a room with no cameras I can't have cameras because what I plan to do, will get me killed and I want to die on my own terms, otherwise I won't get sent where I want. I know I won't go to hell I'm not a bad person but sometimes death makes mistakes and that is what scares me.
Capitol popularity:
Cedric Lenlen 45%
Aurelia Callen 45%
Harley Tandley 9%
Declan Callen 1%
That warms my heart I thought I would have been the 1%, I'm not the most understood guy everyone sees me and thinks I'm evil or I'm a monster, that what I do is bad but I do it out of the good es of my heart. I never really knew when it clicked to me as a child that I wanted to help people maybe it was the day I kept watching my corrupt father, everyone thought he was the worlds best surgeon but he killed people too.
Some people would come and need to be treated but they were poor or they were orphans, people that couldn't work so father didn't cure them, he killed them, he made it seem like they died due to there illness or diseases but I witnessed it my self I wasn't meant to he always made sure I didn't see him be a bad person but I saw it.
So when I slaughtered him and Mother I felt good, I knew I was chosen to be the angel of death, at the beginning I only killed bad people with Stanley and sent their souls to hell but eventually, I wanted to help people. I wanted to be a model citizen unlike my father, I hope he rots in hell I still have his body parts in my freezer I like to stab them when I think about him.
He makes me angry
District popularity:
Aurelia Callen 55%
Cedric Lenlen 54%
Harley Tandley 1%
Declan Callen 0%
I haven't seen anyone be rated a 0. I can understand the district hated me they didn't understand what I did was out of the goodness of my heart, it was curiosity I always wanted to be a doctor or a therapist but they always said no, so I took matters into my own hands yes I destroyed a lot of families and livelihoods, I took children away from their mothers, I took young mothers away from their children since I knew that women who chose to be parents under 16 had no choice, it's law in 2 but it still happens so I saved them, from the trauma. I saved the child too some parents aren't fit to be parents
I know I would be, sadly that isn't possible in this world may be the afterworld, but I know I was hated, I was seen as insane I didn't do it out of callous, I'm not like Declan maybe if I have the chance I will punish him but I heard the banshee screaming it's time, Aurelia must pay for her crimes but once she does, she will receive forgiveness Cedric well let's hope he won't be an issue I should kill him, then let Declan win that would really piss the Capitol off but after how he treated Aurelia and treated my friend in Levin, he deserves to suffer.
I really hope Levin will forgive me for leaving him, I honestly didn't do it on purpose, I just felt betrayed than I felt guilt when he died, but I was sent to the angels to guide me and they guided me to make that decision it's for the best, he was a threat to my end game I know he was willing to hand Aurelia over but would he?
I don't think so he was too humble, to kind and kindness gets you killed in this world.
The two little pups will learn that but I'm also kind so I will spare one, I shouldn't Aurelia should suffer in brutal ways but she would rather her brother win than Cedric so her big brother needs to go bye-bye.
I just stand up and grab Junior making sure he is all clean just holding him briefly "Today is the day" I whisper I hope when I die Junior gets sent to foster care, I did put that on my list of demands which gave them to Everett who looked cross between amused to confused but I have that effect on people.
"So long my friend," I say to Mr puppet I have to admit I am a little not nervous but concerned everything can go wrong, I might not get the peace I have always deserved, or she may not love me and if she doesn't love me I will be heartbroken we belong together, she just needs to learn that, I never have feared death I was ally of death.
I am the angel of death but now preparing for death does make me a little scared, I have so many thoughts in my head about what death will be like, and what will happen, but it still doesn't prepare me for it I'm just lucky I like pain.
I just ran out of the lighthouse they don't know I'm close by it's clear they are hiding, they would hope Declan and I find each other but what the idiots don't realise is two can't win, they have grown close and it makes me extremely jealous but my hatred towards Declan is stronger.
Cedric is very very lucky I hate Declan more because he wouldn't want to face me right now, my tracker had the layouts of every building so I was easily able to study it. I do that I like to plan my attacks, to plot my movements, of course, they would lock the front door, they were smart to choose such a big building but Cleary they expected more than one door.
There is only one door so I just use the bobby pin Maverick sponsored me to unpick the lock, bobby pins can actually be used as a very good torture device just like needles but I have this very small little sharp knife that I plan to use on Aurelia, she deserves to suffer for killing Rory but she doesn't need to know that, if she knows I am angry she will use that against me.
I wish there was a doctor's office in this arena but they were clearly smart to leave one out, it's a shame I did want to share my work with the world but they would find my hideout eventually, find all my bodies, Everett did make us list them, but there are so many active serial killers in two it is really hard to keep track, it's why now we have our own band it is a red leather band if you are an active killer.
It is like a badge of honour
I just slip through the gap between the door, I try to hide in my excitement but I don't, I just slowly stalk up the stairs making sure I make minimal noise with my footsteps I am a born hunter I live for this moment, the hunt is just as good as the kill.
I just grab a rock from my pocket which I stole from some little house as I just throw it at the door they are staying in, that alerts them as Cedric just sticks his head out I just throw a knife at him.
"OH SHIT" he yells
I just wave at him as he looks like he is about to collapse as Aurelia comes.
"Run," she says oh cute she is going to sacrifice herself for him.
"We can do this the easy way or hard way, you stay with me," I say pointing to Aurelia who looks as nervous as Cedric "And you leave this building and run into the sunset, or I will be killing you both, I didn't really want to do that," I say
"Just go okay," Aurelia says see she does love me, she does want to be with me we belong together.
Cedric just grabs her hand, pulling her with him as they both take off running, I let another knife fly from my hand as I just tilt my head to the side bull eyes Cedric falls to the ground and I just lunge at him Aurelia screams as I smash a rock into his head knocking him out.
"All you need to use is a 45-degree angle with minimal force," I say, she just lunges at me but I just duck her blow.
"Think your next moves carefully Aurelia, I'm not going to kill him okay, it's only you that I want, you and I have a lot of unfinished business," I say
"I didn't mean to kill him," she says
"It's okay I understand, I just want to help you okay," I say softly she probably expected me to come out guns blazing but that's exactly how you alert a target. You need to tread carefully which is exactly what I'm doing plus the fact I'm standing over Cedric has gotten her to hesitate.
"I'm going to give you a minute to run and hide, I would recommend you hide in the little fairy forests if you aren't there I will come back and murder Cedric and give you his head as a gift. understood" I say she didn't need to be asked twice as she takes off running and I smirk.
Young love, it does weird things to you she is practically willing to hand herself to me, for him, little does she know that was a mistake.
I do expect her to fight I just drag Cedric to the next room as I see a closest and I just shove him in it using the master key, I find to lock it and I lock the bedroom door too we will be dead by the time he escapes but knowing that kid he will find it hard to escape as I just smirk slowly stalking towards my prey
This is the beginning of the end for me and I couldn't be at any more peace with that.
Aurelia Callen 16, District 9 Female
I just tumble down the stairs wincing as I just pause for a moment, my heart is almost escaping my chest right now I have never been so scared in my life and I have had to endure a lot of shit but this, I have been in the hands of sadistic young men, I was practically owned by two of them for ten years.
Yet Harley
Doesn't just make me afraid, he makes me almost paralysed in fear yet I trusted him as sick and twisted as that boy is, I don't hate him. I almost feel sorry for him and in some weird delusional way I trusted his word, he didn't want Cedric, he wanted me, I was worried he tricked me but why would Harley play games, why would he risk having me run so he can kill Cedric in case I escaped.
He wanted him out of the way, in that moment I didn't run to save myself, I knew Harley was telling the truth and I knew Cedric wouldn't leave me to die, but even if I wanted to live, I would rather have the risk of being killed then let Cedric take the fall, maybe deep down I want Harley to kill me because then if he dies the only two left are two people I wouldn't want to see die.
I know it's the easy way out but if I kill Harley. the only one who is willing to kill me then it's only myself, Cedric and my brother.
Cedric and I have grown too close that it would kill me to fight him, I do have feelings for him, he is the only guy besides the two mentors who have treated me like I'm human, who have treated me how a girl should be treated.
He is funny, and kind, he made me see another outlook on life but more importantly, he made me feel happy and no one has done that, he deserves the world, he deserves to win and find someone and have a family.
I want that for myself but will I be able to move past all the mental demons hell Xander struggles with every day, he is a lot stronger than me, he doesn't go to sleep with the nightmares I do, and I don't think I can handle victory yet at the same time death still scares me.
And then Declan?
I'm a terrible sister and I hate myself for it, I shouldn't have left him, I wasn't the one who killed Winston or Mabel but I practically helped, I don't deserve it, I don't deserve his love, I don't deserve love in general.
I don't deserve to live but I will fight, I have to, I wish Levin was still alive then I would have handed myself over, I would ask Cedric to kill me but I don't want him to kill me, they say the first kill is always the hardest and I'm still feeling sick and guilty over my first kill and my first kill was a fire-wielding insane manic freak yet I hate myself for it, I was never a killer, I may have had the ability to fly under the radar, escape death but I'm not a true Victor, I'm not a killer.
And now I have to face my biggest challenge and my biggest fear, I just run into the forest he asked me to go to it is very pretty.
Of course, he would choose here in his delusional little fantasy this would be our first and last date, I went from never having a chance with a boy since I was always owned by one, who only used me for my body and brain.
To having one guy who I wish I met in the district and I wish we could have a future together, that may have not been my first kiss but it's the only one that meant anything, this is the last place to fall in love yet in my situation it is the best thing that can happen because it means, I can die happy and that is all wanted.
But then there is Harley, if we met in the district I would have probably put a restraining order yet for some reason, I trusted him more than I trusted my own brother when he said he wouldn't hurt Cedric and he only wanted me I trusted him.
There is this innocence to him that I find somewhat endearing, fuck I must be off my tree right now.
Just like my brother.
I just steady my breathing, I have to fight him I don't want to but I have to, it's why I killed Rory, the pain I was going to be put through scared me and what Harley would do to me scares me even more but I didn't have the heart to ask Cedric to kill me. I don't want him to do that, I want to run, to get out of here but if he doesn't find me, he will hurt Cedric.
But what happens if I die?
I can't die, if I die then he will kill him, as much as I wanted to fix things with Declan I have to detach him from my mind. I have to pretend he isn't my brother and that his another tribute who can hurt me, and he has hurt me more than once mentally and physically.
I just grip onto the tree, the grip on my sword shaking if I can ambush him that will be good but who am I kidding, this is Harley he is not only a serial maniac he is a trained career.
I have no fucking hope, but I don't know what else to do. I hear footsteps as I pray it's Cedric by some miracle but by the quiet waking and complete and utter silence I know it isn't and I feel my entire body tremble as I grip my sword I have no choice but to fight, he wants me.
No one else.
What he wants to do with me exactly I don't entirely know
All I know is really don't want to find out, I did kill Rory and even if he was oddly calm about it, I know he would want vengeance, it does break my heart that two insane freaks can have a closer bond than my brother and I, but I was stupid to expect anything more, we grew up in different worlds, grew up in groups who hated the other, I helped kill his brothers and his group killed our previous leader, fuck it's sad to think that Ryley and Dalton who used me pretty much as a play toy, treated me better then my own brother did.
I hear him come closer like he knows where exactly I am and then I see the device in his hand, he has a tracker so I can't even ambush him, he is oddly calm, too calm and that's what scares me. I expected him to be a maniac, to scream and attack but he knows how to handle his emotions, he puts his tracker away and I use that small chance to lunge at him with my sword and with no idea what the hell I'm doing but of course, he expected and predicted my move and he easily blocks it with his own sword.
A sword I didn't even know he had.
"Do you like my new toy, I don't have a name for him yet I'm open to suggestions" he says forcing me back as I just stumble over my feet.
I just lunged for him again but he was clearly a trained swordsman, I'm not, the only reason I picked a sword was it was my mentor's weapon of chance, it was the only weapon he felt comfortable teaching me with.
Xander said I probably should have chosen a slingshot but that is Xander even if he was a lot nicer than I imagined and almost treated me like I was his own tribute, he didn't hold back when it came to being honest.
He pretty much told me I wouldn't handle being Victor and admitted he was tempted to kill me himself to save the pain, a part of me wished he did.
He is right he would know better than anyone about handling victory.
I just wince when his sword slices my arm and his eyes perk up at the sight of blood "It wasn't meant to be this way Aurelia, you were meant to go down quick and painlessly but stole someone from me, you need to pay the price of evil before I take you to heaven and we can spend our life together," he says
Look take away the insanity, take away being a serial killer, and take away the whole living in fairyland and he is actually a really nice guy, but then I would pretty much be taking everything about him away yet I can see bits of him that are redeemable, I can see a soul.
I can't say that about Declan
"He was trying to kill me, he thought I killed you, I did it out of self-defence, I didn't do it to hurt you," I say as he just stands there waiting for my next move. He clearly knows I have no chance against him, I might be his age but his a literal foot taller than me, he is well built and he thrives off the pain, and if I try to emotionally anger him, it won't end well, I need to- I don't know yet.
Brayen said in a letter to make him think I love him but I can't do that, I never wanted to use seduction, hell that was my job in nine be the pretty little decoy.
"I know, I know but the banshee has spoken, it's okay little one it won't hurt too much" he whispers
That's one of the most disturbing things someone has said to me but the way he says it makes me actually calm down but I just snap out of it lunging for him again but I just scream in agony as his sword slices my hand, slicing three of my fingers in off.
I'm almost in shock as even Harley just stares thankfully they made medicine that can regrow limbs this year but I don't know how long I can make it because he just uses that to throw my sword away and lunges at me without a weapon I stumble out of the way as he crashes into a tree. I have to get out of here, I just shove my hand in my pocket not wanting to look at it.
"He is locked up in a closet, soundly asleep, I really don't want to have to hurt him, so I'm giving you a choice you stay here and you can fight all you want, hurt me, try to kill me I don't care, it shows your love that your willing to kill me or you can run and I won't chase you but Cedric won't live, it's your life or his" he says
"You cut three of my fingers off" I stutter
"I can attach them back on for you but that's only the start of what I plan to do, see over there no cameras" he whispers, he is right there are no cameras in here, he being so soft-spoken and normal right now it's really unnerving me right now.
I just grab my knife with my left hand trying to ignore the pain in my right as I just lunge at him but he easily grabs my hand just twisting it, and my knife drops out.
"Feel that, it takes exactly a 360 turn to completely detach the bone" he says I just scream as I hear a crack, I just lean against his chest and he just smirks.
"See you need me now, you need me" he whispers in my ear stroking my hair gently which puts a shiver up my spine.
All I need right now is to get the hell away from this freak but I can't even fight now, one hand is missing three fingers and one is completely broken but I don't stop fighting I can't, I just knee him between the legs and I just take off running.
"I'm guessing you are making your choice then," he says I just turn around.
"Please just don't hurt him, chase me all you want please," I say
"I don't like chasing, like I said fight me all you want, but you leave this building and Cedric is mine," he says everyone will be screaming at me to run.
I get away I can get medicine, but when I want to try and run I can't I need to find a way to kill Harley I'm too impatient, I just want to get out of here I want to make sure Cedric is okay.
I need to settle down
I have seen it in the past, Kaela last year she was at Koby's mercy and she found a way, I need to do that if it means taking the pain and taking the torture while I find a way out of his torture I will.
I have been through many things in my life hell I was sexually assaulted by a 16-year-old at the age of six and was put through that almost every night since then whether it was by Ryley or later Dalton. I was punished almost every day and I was forced to watch people die my life had been a living hell so more torment, more torture it's nothing, I haven't endured.
So I just lunge for him again but he easily grabs me ramming me to the ground under him.
"That's a girl," he says, now when I see him on top of me the little evil glint in his eyes. I do panic okay maybe I shouldn't have done that, how the hell can I kill him when both my hands are almost unusable. I just struggle under him but he just easily pushes himself against me, his knees digging into my waist I try to use my mangle hand to push him off but just grab it and I just look away when he starts to suck one of the spots my finger was on, Literally drinking my blood I feel like I'm going to be sick, he has another hand firmly on my neck as and just look at him as he roughly grabs my hand I just scream as he twists it.
"There you go now both of your hands can be broken together that's how my heart felt when you killed Rory" he snarls just roughly grabbing my chin as tears pool in my eyes.
I see his anger, his hate he is only like this because he knows I'm at his mercy I just pray Cedric doesn't come and try to save me.
"I didn't mean to please I'm so sorry, I'm sorry just kill me please" I say.
I'm in so much pain yet I only know this is the start he just roughly pushes his thumb on my cheek.
"You need to pay for your crimes it's the only way you will be allowed to the peace lands with me, don't worry I'm a doctor I will take care of you. The best type of doctor calms and relaxes the victims before the surgery starts, females are precious creatures there is only one way to calm them" he says.
My heart tenses when he pulls out a very small sharp-looking knife but it's when I feel his hand slowly drag down my body, when I feel his hand start to undo my belt that I truly really start to panic.
Please not here, don't let me get assaulted here.
"Harley please don't, please don't" I whisper he just gently places the knife on my lips, and as he undoes my belt I struggle under him but he is too strong, I can't die having this be one of my final memories.
"You always belonged to me, you may have cheated on me, and you have killed my brother but you are still mine, I can't have a rattled little pup I need a relaxed little pup, to operate on this is the only way" he says quietly.
My entire body tenses as his hands slide under my underwear, thankfully he doesn't make any move to pull my pants down or to pull his down but the second I feel his fingers brush down there I start to panic.
"The more you fight the more it hurts," he says so I just relax my body, I'm used to being invaded, being abused, I bite my lip as he gently just rubs me down there and I feel tears pool my eyes.
"Good girl, see it's not that hard" he whispers in my ear as he slowly drags the knife along my jaw bone I feel my body shake and I just whimper as he pushes one finger, two fingers, three as he moves them backwards and forwards.
Thank god there are no cameras here but of course, they would do that they knew what Harley would do, they wanted suffering like this.
"You like that don't you, see I will look after you, me, no one else," he says just bringing his knife down slowly drawing lines down my neck as the blood starts to trickle down my neck as I try to ignore it, but then I keep feeling his fingers down there, the pleasure and it makes me hate myself more.
He just slowly starts to lick my neck I don't want to know when this boy started to like blood but every line he draws, he just licks the blood, he just pulls my top up.
"No" I say
"Do you want me to rip it off?" he says I don't say anything instead biting my lip.
"I didn't think so, you deserve this, you killed Rory," he says. He is right I do deserve to die but do I deserve this?
His fingers start to move down there again and he starts drawing lines all over my torso when he brings the knife to my chest area I panic.
I kick up at him but considering where his other hand is that isn't a good idea as I wince when he literally pinches me, I just drown out the pain, the feeling of his knife invading my entire upper body, the disgust I feel within my self.
"Don't cry, please don't cry," he says but I can't help it thank god he stops playing with my chest as I just sigh in relief as he moves his fingers from down there just putting my belt back on I don't know how long he was fingering me for but it was almost too long, he just grabs my chin staring at me for a second.
"Good girl, see now you are settled, now you are the perfect patient, your surgery time is about to start, now you will pay your sins, any last words before I mute you" he
Mute me
"Wait, wait please please, I know you cared for Rory and I am so sorry for killing him I didn't want to do that, I didn't want to hurt you but I knew if he killed me we couldn't be together, I didn't want him killing me without seeing you again, I didn't want me to die before I can tell you how much I love you," I say my voice is shaking so bad and it's so obvious I'm lying but I need to do something if it means lying to him, making him think I love him as cruel and unfair as it is I have too. I'm not dying this way after what he just did I can't trust he will do worse.
"You, you love me," he stutters
I don't know what love is, well before Cedric, Cedric made me feel these emotions I never thought I could feel, he made me feel loved.
"Yes, it's always been you," I say
"But you cheated on me" he says.
This poor boy is so delusional, it breaks my heart having to use him like this I showed kindness and he got so attached and now I'm taking advantage of it yet I don't want to be his test dummy but I can't fight, I can't even feel my hands right now it's like I don't have hands anymore.
The next part I'm going to have to say really breaks my heart because I don't believe a word of it, I care for Cedric hell I would die for him but this is to protect him and me from this maniac.
"I never cared for Cedric, I never even liked him, he was a stupid boy from one, a stupid lovesick puppy, he was pathetic. I only used him to protect me, I was ready to throw him under the bus any second the reason I sacrificed myself for him was so I could be with you it wasn't for him, everything I said to him was a lie" I say that just broke my heart but I know it wasn't true not even close but even if I sounded so shaky Harley clearly believed it, I am a good actor after all, I had to act all the time at home.
"I won't torture you but we need to go to heaven together let me take you there," he says
"Wait, please wait, I'm not ready to die, if love me you will let me fight, please I want to be with you so bad but the world never ends, I can be with you any time I want but right now I'm not ready, right now I don't want to die, please don't let me die I'm scared of dying, I don't want to die with the life I had before this I want a chance to make it better, make it happier," I say
"But I can protect you in death," he says
"Please Harley please, if you love someone you set them free and letting me live is that, you deserve better than me" I say he just stares at me for a moment mumbling to himself putting a hand through his short blonde hair.
"What if you find someone else," he says
"I won't you are the only one I ever loved" I say, I hate this he is literally falling for everything I say I'm a terrible human being right now but I didn't want to die.
I just feel him put something in my hand the hand I can't even feel
"Do it" he says
"You sure just let me run I don't have to kill you," I say
"I want you to do it" he says
I try to bring my hand up I can't even grip my knife but it's too broken, just like my soul right now
"Do you think the angels will welcome me in heaven?" he says grabbing my wrist, the wrist holding the knife.
"They will welcome you with open arms," I say
Yeah right but this boy deserves peace, I just close my eyes as he grabs my wrist slamming the knife into his chest.
"Thank you" he says I just stare at him as I just use all the force I can to push it further
BOOM
His body falls off me and my entire body shakes I just feel a canister rub my leg I use my teeth to rip the box open as I just swallow the medicine almost stunned by how my fingers literally grow back.
That ain't creepy
A change of clothes and new weapons have always been put in 'You are so close keep fighting I know you care for him but you have to let him go, use the words you told Harley, let the two of them fight then hope luck is on your way-B'
Brayen is right I have to let Cedric go but I don't have the heart to do that
Cedric Lenlen 17, District 1 Male
My eyes slowly open oh fuck what happened.
My head feels well like how my head normally feels whenever I hit it as I just scream in shock all I see is well nothing on my god am I blind, am I blind?
Breath Cedric breath.
Hold your breath, fuck it's a lot easier to hold your breath when being kissed but I take a second to remember what just happened and I just panic running straight into what I believe is a wall, fuck that hurt, oh fuck.
OH FUCK
Harley has Aurelia, but why the hell am I still alive, dude, this makes no fucking sense I just run towards, I don't know where hoping I'm Superman and I can just float through the wall sadly I ain't no Superman and I just slump on the ground, okay it's time for plan B.
Well, it would be nice if I can actually see, fuck where is a light bulb in this joint, I don't even know where I am, think Cedric think.
I just yell when I feel something brush against me, please be a canister, I just grab it as I yell even harder.
OH MY GOD ITS A RAT
I just charge for the door I can't deal with rats man, not after fucking Chad locked me in a room full of them in one.
I just crash through the door wincing, Mr rat just scampers off as I just shoo it with my hands, I just look around fuck I'm in some room I just run towards the door before the rat comes back because I'm so close to wetting my pants right now and considering my Allie is in the hands of a maniac I don't want to waste time.
If I wasn't so scared of rats I would grab it and would probably throw it at him but knowing Harley, he will probably start talking to it and call it a name like the weirdo did with his saw so yeah na. I just need to get out of here and work out my next move.
I was just Yelp when I hear a cannon my heart sinking no what if it's Aurelia, I just panic charging for the door again but this time I just face plant my entire body throbbing fuck that wasn't really a good idea either. I just wince trying to sit up, this time I see a canister as I just grab it at least I can see in here, I would rather not see Mr rat again, otherwise, I might have a heart attack, I already fainted yesterday then fainted again this morning. I feel like the capitol are trying to mess with me to get a reaction, it's quite rude but like Levin admitted I am the comic relief.
Levin
I lost him and now I probably lost Aurelia and now I'm in the final 3 locked in a room with a bloody rat not the best start to my day. We didn't even realise Harley was tracking us or he knew where we were, I was too rattled from seeing Levin that we were in our own little world, just talking the whole night and learning each other's stories, now it could be the end, she could have killed Harley but I really doubt it hell I wouldn't have been able to kill Harley.
She sacrificed herself for me and now I have to win to repay her
'She is still alive but you can't Allie with her it's final 3 Cedric, you need to be a killer we are all rooting for you-M'
Yeah right the only reason they are rooting for me is because I'm the only person from one left hell everyone in District One was rooting for Luca and that kid was a psychotic killer, but I guess it feels nice but I wish he could have had belief in me. Never once did he believe I was going to win, never once did I even think I had a chance it's why I didn't even prepare myself for it. I just thought I would be the Allie, I would be the one to die thank god Aurelia is still alive which means Harley is dead.
Fuck that means I'm stuck with the brother and sister duo, I want to run and hide Declan is the brother of hell no one way he sacrifices himself for her but I promised Aurelia it will be the final two and I have to follow through with the promise, no doubt she would try and find me, it can't be the end yet maybe I am delusional and maybe I am a lovesick puppy but this isn't the end for us it can't be, but then what psycho brother dies, and we fight, I don't want to die, yet I don't want to kill her fuck this is so much harder maybe I should just fall in love with the rat.
Where is said rat anyway
I just look at my canister, a key, for some reason, he didn't disarm me he literally threw me in a closet and left me I should thank him, oh wait he is dead thanks god, man you rest in peace in your little bell land because I hope you won't be in heaven your on the high way of hell. I hope I don't go to hell I honestly again wouldn't be shocked.
Some church lady told me to go to hell when I treaded mud on the carpet, I wonder what she would say if I won, I wonder what my parents will say, my sister, that's if I even will talk to them.
I probably shouldn't Aurelia said cutting ties is the best thing she has done, she is right they don't deserve me, when I needed them throughout out my childhood, they just treated me like shit.
Everyone treated me like shit besides Aurelia and Levin, every time I think of Levin I think of his family, I think of what they will do without them, I promised him if I won I will look after them, I need to win for them, for Levin but Aurelia?
Fuck Aurelia wouldn't want me to die for her even if I want to die for, I don't know what to do, I can go looking for her and we fight Declan together and I kill her brother, Me? (yeah right like I have a chance against him)
Do I just try and hide out or do I find her and fight, we promised each other we would fight but that's before we got really close and before we kissed because we spoke about our lives, my life was nothing compared to hers hearing what she went through I can't just kill her, I can't witness her die.
I just jump when I hear something when did that TV get here doesn't matter, as it turns on.
'207th Hunger Games Highlights'
What the fuck, isn't this year the 207th hunger games, I just stay in front of the TV it he flashes towards Aurelia and Harley, wait does that mean the cannon was Declan, I'm so confused right now but highlights mean not live, well I think, we didn't really have TV in one unless it was previous hunger games.
"But you cheated on me," Harley says
"I never cared for Cedric, I never even liked him, he was a stupid boy from one, a stupid love stick puppy, he was pathetic I only used him to protect me, I was ready to throw him under the bus any second the reason I sacrificed my self for him was so I can be with you it wasn't for him I everything I said to him it was a lie," Aurelia says
Then it just switches off I just fall on the ground in complete shock, I just wipe the tears pooling in my eyes, I feel so stupid.
I feel heartbroken
I feel angry
I thought there was something there, I thought she felt the same way, I thought she was different, and everyone either used me or hated me. No one really took the time to get to know me, but she did clearly it was just to use me, just so I could be her meat shield, I feel so stupid.
I just jump when something brushes against my hand.
"If I have one tip in life Mr rat, don't fall in love, you will get your heart ripped out," I say he just nuzzles his nose in my hand.
I don't even know what to think, she could be lying?
No, no one is that good at lying, why would she lie, I hate her, I hate her so much, I'm actually scared of the hate I feel right now, I hated a lot of people, my bullies, my own family but I was too scared to actually make a move. I was too scared to actually fight back I let myself be the punching bag but not anymore.
"You hear that Mr rat, I'm going to be a changed man no more nice goofy Cedric, I'm going to win this thing," I say, he just licks my hand
OH MY FUCKING GOD THE RAT IS LICKING MY HAND
I just jump up screaming, Fuck I hate rats as he just scampers off, fuck I was so caught up in my betrayal I didn't realise I was patting a rat, gross. I just wipe my hands on my pants fuck I need to wash my hands right now then find Aurelia, then kill Aurelia before she can suck me into her little web of lies again. I really am hurt but this is what I need I feel this fire spark inside me, and I just take out my key to unlock the door.
Find Aurelia, then find Declan.
But then if she said that to Harley how is he dead.
God I can't believe she chose Harley over me that's what really hurts but that's what happens when you fall in love, I was so love-struck over Sarah I probably didn't even realise she was just being nice, but Aurelia she made me almost willing to die for her, I just have to forget about her, whoever I see I have to be a big boy and fight them,
I not only have myself to win for but I need to win for Levin, I need to win for his siblings so I can make sure they are safe and happy, and then I can build a new life and be what I want to be, not what everyone else wants me to be. I can find real friends, like Kenzo but maybe a little younger or well close to my age and a real girl who loves me not fake friends and then I can help kids like me who are outcasted because we had a lot of outcasts in one.
We almost had a secret pact between us, the outcast pact.
I want to give them a better life, I want to show them it's okay to be yourself.
Clearly, Harley didn't move me too far. I just need to work out my next move, where would the other two go, Aurelia should still be in this town hell she could still be in this building she probably is hoping I'm dead, hell she probably used poor Harley too, she probably made him believe she loved him them killed him, was she going to do that to me maybe she is waiting to kill me well, she is going to get a rude awakening I'm the stupid one for thinking love is real in the hunger games, that love is real in panem in general.
There is no such thing as love or happiness.
I just jump again almost falling down the stairs when I hear the anthem.
I just salute when Harley appears just poking my tongue out actually that was very rude and I mean rest in peace dude rest in peace oh who am I kidding he ain't getting peace his probably running a muck in his delusional fairyland right now but how the fuck did Aurelia kill him, clearly with her web and I would have been next.
I can't forget her brother either, clearly being heartless runs in the family but he lost all sanity.I can probably just shoot an arrow in his skull then boom, fuck now I'm thinking of being a murderer, did it take being heartbroken to unlock some fire inside me and I need that fire. I need to win, I'm so so so close I can see it, I can't just turn back now I walk down the stairs as I see a shadow in the distance.
Aurelia even seeing her now makes me angry.
"Aurelia," I say she looks over to me but before she can even react I just shoot an arrow towards her she dives out of the way as I bring out another arrow.
"Wait I thought it was the final two" she says
"Oh come on you were going to throw me under the bus before then don't lie" I say shooting another arrow but my aim is off, my head isn't in it seeing her now my emotions are all over the place, the betrayal taking a hold of me, even Levin's death is hitting me since I don't have that shoulder to cry on anymore.
"What I don't understand, I didn't attack you," she says
"I heard what you said, you were using me" I yell shooting another arrow
"I didn't mean that, please let me explain," she says I just drop my bow but instead I just lunge at her with my sword as she just ducks me and I just go toppling down the stairs, fuck of course when I was able to get my first kill I go toppling down the stairs. I just ignore the pain limping back up but see her running out of the front door as I just shoot another arrow at her retreating figure but she is too quick
I should have let her explain, explain what, no I have to kill her there are only us three left, and I want to win, so just grab my bow and arrow and I start to go in her direction.
I didn't want to do this but she gave me no choice.
Xander Clark 23, District 9
Victor of the 202nd Hunger Games
"Fuck I'm going to fucking kill those stupid fucking morons AND WHY THE FUCK AREN'T YOU LOOSING YOUR SHIT THATS YOUR TRIBUTE THAT IS GETTING AFFECTED" I yell just slamming my fist on the table as Brayen just jumps admittedly he wasn't happy first off, both tributes believed that there were no cameras.
So everything that freak did to her was shown on camera which caused Brayen to literally smash our screen where we could send gifts with a chair (and people call me mentally unstable) because we were both helpless and the fact that what Harley did, was under one of the big taboo things for a tribute to do and they still didn't kill him, of course they wouldn't he is from the golden child district, yeah we weren't happy campers.
I haven't been happy all fucking week because my tribute is literally off his tree right now, I have to say it's funny seeing the boy swear and scream at the walls reminds me of myself, good memories those were, fuck I hope I wasn't that bad.
Luckily we have moved rooms but after seeing that the capital edited the footage and showed it to Cedric, who now is hunting our tribute I mean Brayen's, I'm not happy she isn't even my tribute but she practically can be, she deserves to win, not Declan. Last year was different, both of our tributes deserved to win, so even if I wanted Kaela to win Brayen deserved it just as much.
This year, Brayen and I always knew it was Aurelia or bust, yes I took the time to help Declan but it was more to help his sister plus I don't know, I feel sorry for the boy I know more than anyone how it feels to loose your self.
Because that was me, 5 years ago I was that crazy tribute that lost it, I didn't kill a 14-year-old girl though, I never saw Aden so angry we were actually mates but we bumped into each other after that happened.
He lost it came at me and I just took it, I wasn't going to defend myself, he got pushed away quick because Nathaniel the mediator was able to calm him down but I deserved it, that fucker killed a little girl and as a mentor, Declan is my responsibility.
These kids are our responsibility, so everyone action they do reflex's on us, fuck I hate mentoring and fuck I hate the capitol.
We have also moved away from everyone else after I attacked Everett, Harley wasn't even his tribute but what that fucker did take it too far, Harley, not Everett.
But I just love taking my hatred out on Everett he didn't fight back either he said now we are finally even I thought were even last year but fuck him. I used to take my hatred out on Alistair but Brayen bites back plus I can see how rattled he is now he knows how I feel, even if I treat him like a friend, like a brother.
I can never forgive him, he killed the sister I didn't know I had. I hate him so much yet the connection he had to Kaela, she wouldn't want me to hate him, he did the right thing, and he saved her from the pain but it's never going to be the same. I'm never going to look at him the same, it's been tough this year, I pretty much can't be alone anymore after I was barely saved after a suicide attempt yet I'm too important for the district for them to throw me into a mental clinic so they have a peacekeeper at my house the entire time.
I just want the pain to stop.
I want it all to end
Yet being here trying to help kids, distracts me, it's why I wanted Aurelia so bad, but Brayen called dibs he is a good mentor I have to admit that I was a little jealous, or a lot jealous.
"Don't you think I hate this but if I lose my anger again fuck, I need to stay focused and make sure I don't miss anything, it's my fault this happened?" he says, I settle down.
"It's the capitol's fault not yours, we tried to send her a gift, and if that fuckwit was smart he would know she is lying, everything she showed towards him, you can't fake that," I say
Have to admit their little romance was cute, I feel even more guilty because I'm the one who wanted Aurelia and Declan together, I don't know I thought it would be good for both but in the end, it ruined Declan well fuck him, the only reason why I was sending him medicine, why I was helping him was because he had the best chance at killing Harley at the end of the day he didn't need to be alive after all.
Now I couldn't give a fuck what happens to him, it's cruel I know but even if I was insane I still showed some sort of humanity, or I wanted to make an effort to redeem myself. If I had my sister in the games I would have done everything to help her, everything to make sure she won, yet I'm a hypocrite I tortured a 16-year-old girl with a rock, I'm no saint.
Myren messaged me and said to distance myself from Declan and that seeing him like this isn't good for my recovery, yet mentoring ain't fucking good for my recovery, I thought after Brayen won I could retire but clearly I'm the one they want to help children when I can't even help myself.
"The editing looked pretty good, I mean even I would believe it," he says, what actually happened any sane person would know she was lying it's why the capitol had to edit it, she was stuttering, she was panicking but Harley wasn't sane, that fuck head.
At the moment Aurelia is running through the town with Cedric on her heels the bastards even closed the maze so they can't get out, luckily the town they were in was massive. Brayen can't even send her a gift to help her because that means Cedric getting closer but they are both getting closer and the boy keeps tripping over he will lose her sooner and then she needs to hide.
Declan I mean I should probably send him a compass or tracker they would let him into their town but to be honest I'm sort of finding it funny seeing him run around like that.
Poetic justice and all of that
As much as I'm worried about Aurelia V Cedric having Declan appear will end up with Cedric dying but then I'm not sure what will happen, fuck I don't know what will happen if Aurelia will win that fight and it's her and Declan.
One second he is like fuck my sister, I want to kill her next second he is like I love my sister, I won't hurt her the boy can't even think for himself.
The moron isn't having his medication either, and after I put sleeping pills in his water, he isn't drinking my water either.
"What do we do?" he says
"Job of being a mentor kid, sometimes you can't do anything, I was panicking last year, it was almost the same story, one of our tributes getting chased, the other well you were walking over, Declan is running like I don't even know," I say
"Cedric isn't a monster though he won't hurt her" he says
"Heartbreak does something to you but I mean I have an idea just stay here, in case she needs something, the second she gets away from Cedric and has a lot of ground over him, send her medicine or something, get her to hide but tell her she needs to fight," I say
"Where are you going?" he asks
"To try and help, fuck Declan, Aurelia needs to win," I say if Declan had some sort of soul I would care but he is too far gone, he won't handle victory at the start, Aurelia didn't either, hell I was so tempted to kill her myself to save her the pain of going into the games but one Brayen didn't leave her alone with me like he had a feeling about what I would do and two I didn't have the heart, the one moment we were alone for about a minute I had a knife in my pocket was so close to stabbing her but I just couldn't. The girl showed me something, she got herself out of almost an impossible situation there is a fighter in there but now this is her biggest challenge.
Facing the boy she fell for, the boy who thinks she betrayed him, the boy who will come out swinging, the boy with training.
I just walk out as a peacekeeper stops me "You are banned from coming out of your room, kid" he says
"I'm 23 you dumbass and district two has fucked off they aren't in their rooms I just need to talk to Markus" I say. We can still see the other mentors, of course, Nathaniel is still here he is always here, only district one is left, all the other mentors left shortly after their tributes died.
I heard the witch yesterday so she might still be flying around on her broomstick I thought she was dead to be honest she didn't attend any of the victor's meetings.
"Fine but any funny business and you will be sent to solitary confinement until the end of the games" he says
"Whatever," I say I just walk towards districts One's room as Jasper just opens the door "What the fuck do you want" he snarls
Oh yeah my tribute sort of pulled his tribute eye out that's awkward but in my defence, I retired from being Declan's mentor on day three so whatever he did wasn't me.
"Look I'm sorry about Levin if it makes you feel better I stopped being his mentor way before then," I say
"And do you think me saying sorry is going to help his three younger siblings, including a little girl who was probably forced to watch it" he says
"Give them my condolences in an I am sorry card," I say
"Fuck some of you district 9 boys are scum to this earth aren't you," he says
I just clench my fists for control, or Mr fuck Face will be locking me up and Brayen needs me right now he got way too attached to Aurelia like I got attached to Kaela if it wasn't for him winning I would have found a way out by now, I might be carefully watched but if I truly wanted to die I would have found a way, something is keeping me in this earth.
I knew he would get attached to Aurelia she had a similar story being held prisoner, being a street girl, she was a lot more soft-spoken and quieter than Kaela, a lot more timid.
I should have just used my powers to force Brayen to take Declan to save him, but she has a chance I didn't really expect she would, hell this year was so hard to choose but an underdog can win, an underdog hasn't win in years both Aurelia and Cedric were underdogs yes she was seen as a hero but she was also not expected to place high.
"I'm not here to speak to you," I say
"Just fuck off Xander," Jasper says
"Jasper, this is none of your business unless this is to do with your tribute Xander then fuck off," Markus says standing up but I can tell he isn't well, heard the old man has health issues serves him damn right
"It is about Aurelia, my younger Victor he is new to this, but Cedric is your tribute," I say
"Come in" Markus says Jasper just glares at me and then storms off he is normally really in control of his emotions.
"I know why you came but I can't, this is sparking an emotion inside that boy, I have to admit I can't believe he made it halfway but this kid has shown something but he was too nice, too innocence he needs this fire inside me if he goes in guns blazing thinking she betrayed him, then it will help him win, he kills the girl then the brother will break" Markus says
"You know she has a name, her name is Aurelia, if you have any humanity you will tell the kid she didn't say that look at him right now, he is all over the place, he is heartbroken, don't let him die thinking that she hated him or don't let him kill her then find out the truth" I say
"I don't think you have the right to question my humanity, this is the Hunger Games Xander this is a competition about winning, this is about ensuring Cedric has the best chance of winning, and this is his chance," he says
"You are fucking unbelievable, you know that you and district four all you fuck heads care about is winning, these are actual children, yes I went crazy but I wouldn't wish what I did on anyone what if he does that ha what if he tortures her, oh no but it doesn't matter, if he wins, I hope for that poor kid's sake he doesn't win because clearly he won't get the support he needs, " I growl then I just storm off
"You are right everything you said is right"
I just jumped not even realising Jasper was standing outside "But that's Markus for you, he doesn't see children, he sees tributes he never once told Cedric he believed in him, he kept putting that kid down. He put effort in him yes but he always does that, he didn't care if he died, he doesn't care about Levin's family. I hate District 9 for what happened to Levin but Aurelia doesn't deserve any more pain, she didn't deserve what Harley did to her. Cedric had this fire inside him, I don't think would torture her but he won't go easy on her, I will try and send something to him but I doubt I can,"Jasper says
"If that kid wins don't let that old bastard get into his head, he will need love and support," I say
"Don't worry, I will, that's if he Markus makes it another few days, really sick at the moment the fact he is actually still here trying to help Cedric, shows something, he cares for the kid he just doesn't want o admit it. You might need to Ah go to your room" he says I look to see Brayen's mouth help when I see the wicked witch of the Wild west, as I storm in.
"GET THE FUCK OUT," I yell
"Hello dear, how are you this bright afternoon," she says
"The fuck, I thought you were dead" I say to Cassia
"Oh you wish, I was just enjoying the holiday since I wasn't going to help my good-for-nothing tribute, but now I'm here rooting for district nine once again, hopefully, this year the right winner wins," she says Brayen tenses.
"Well how the fuck do we get out of this mess," I say, look she in some fairyland that's for sure but if you can get it out of her, the bitch can give good advice.
"Send her this" Cassia says handing me a photo, I just rip it up and when I mean can get advice it's very very rare.
"I'm not sending her a selfie of yourself, I don't want to give the poor girl any more nightmares," I say, because she was literally invaded, apparently they didn't show it to the districts but they did to the capitol.
"That selfie represents self-confidence and strength which as women we need to win the hunger games, you need to convince her that winning is her only option," she says
"And how do we do that," Brayen asks
"Well dear boy that's where you use your little brain, bye now" she says blowing us a kiss as I stick a finger at her and strut out.
"She is right, we need to spark something in Aurelia" I say
"How, exactly," he says
"I have an idea" I say, one of her captors gave Myren a letter to give to her which he sent me after the district got all the outsiders and outlaws together, since the capitol and even the new mayor didn't know about throwing children there.
He said only give it to her when she needs it the most, she needs it right now more than anything.
Deaths:
4th: Harley Tandley, District 2 Male- Killed By Aurelia Callen, District 9 Female