Amanda and Olivia were not connecting, they needed to connect and talk. Brayden wanted to talk to his best friend.

Amanda was relaxing on the couch, Brayden in his room relaxing, she had put up monitors in the house just so she could hear if Brayden was in distress or having trouble breathing. Olivia was on her mind, usually nights like this the boys would be hanging out and she and Olivia would be cuddling and talking or watching tv. She shook off the tears that were coming down. Her voice low

"Dammitt Amanda, knock it off she abandoned you when you needed her. Stop wasting tears."

She got up to get a drink and check on Brayden. He was fine, just relaxing playing his game. She had brought him some water. Then went back to the couch and whatever was on. She got bored and put on a game. She needed something to distract her.

A knock on the door...

Amanda scowled she wasn't expecting company and hadn't been told of a visit from one of Brayden's friends. She got to the door and looked through the peep hole. Who did she see standing there? Noah and Olivia. Olivia had what looked like a bouquet of pink roses. She opened the door. Her eyes wide..

"Olivia what are you doing here? Pink roses for Brayden, he may be like... Hey Noah sweetie, he's awake in his room he'll be glad to see you."

Noah smiled and went to Brayden's room leaving his mother and Amanda to talk. Amanda looked at Liv with the bouquet of roses.

"Nice thought, but I highly doubt Brayden is into pink roses Liv. But it's the thought that counts."

Olivia watched Amanda as Amanda sat down. She cleared her throat "Umm the roses aren't for Brayden, Amanda. They are for you. Look I'm sorry for what has gone on between us lately. I'm really bad at this. I know I shouldn't have left you at the hospital but I didn't know what else to do."

Amanda took a deep breath, it was time to let Olivia know how she really felt. "Maybe you shouldn't have said you loved me. You dropped the Lbomb, Olivia and then after I said it back you left me. You left me high and dry just as they were getting ready to wake up my son. I needed you there. I needed you. Do you know what it feels like to have your kid die on you enroute to the hospital, then have him die a few times during surgery? I needed support, I needed you and you couldn't be assed but you said you loved me. It fucking hurt Olivia, it hurt alot cause I trusted you. I trusted you to be able to tell you anything and to be able to lean on you and what did you do? You walked away not once but twice."

Olivia looked at Amanda wondering what was sparking her off. But before she went to speak Amanda started again.

"You were fine all up until I told you about my marriage. That I guess I'm not legally divorced and I have to get on that. My first priority was my son, and gettiing him to a safe enviroment. I opened up to you about the abuse I enured, I never told anyone about it and guess what I told you. I told you cause I felt I could trust you and ever since then you have been so distant with me. We acted like a couple, hell the kids thought we were a couple. We did everything a couple does, we did sleepovers, we cuddled and watched tv or movies together. I mean the only thing we really didn't do was have sex. It was quiet the day Brayden got shot, each of us just dropping the kids off to school and going to work. Then again bringing them to dance class. Getting the news 'shots fired' and finding out my son had been shot. You were there with me. You were there with me as he was in emergency surgery. You were there all up until he woke up. Liv you abandoned me, right when I needed someone. What do you think that does? Then you show up here weeks later after Brayden is released with roses. What the hell Liv. I'm losing my fucking mind as it is Liv, I don't need anymore help. I've been hurt enough."

Olivia listened, she really didn't think she did all of this to Amanda but then again she wasn't the one that had the feelings and hurt. It was Amanda and Amanda was hurt and feeling alone.

"Maybe Noah and I should go? For what it's worth Amanda I'm sorry. I told you in the beginning that have a tendency to fuck shit up."

This just lit Amanda up even more. "So you come over give me flowers all to leave again? Olivia what the fuck do you even want? I mean for godsake what all do you want me to do? I've opened up to you, I've trusted you."

Olivia stood up heading to the door. "Amanda I don't know. It was easy in the beginning. Noone knew we were together, the kids didn't even know. I kept it between us cause I wanted to see where it would go, I've been the happiest with you and safest with you. I've never had that. So I don't always react the best or smartest. Because I'm scared. But like I said Noah and I will get out of here so you and Brayden can get some rest. Again I'm sorry for all of this, but my feelings are real, I never lied and would have never said it if I didn't mean it and no I don't take it back no matter what happens."

"NOAH... come on out we are gonna go so Amanda and Brayden can rest."

Amanda really didn't want Olivia to leave. She was alone in the hospital while Brayden was waking up and until they were released. She just didn't want to be alone.

"Olivia I miss the nights of cuddling. I miss holding each other. I really don't want to be alone and I know Brayden doesn't want to be alone in his room. Would you and Noah please stay? It'll give Brayden some fun and some normality. Plus it will give us some time to talk, that's what I want. I don't want to yell or lay blame. I just want to talk and maybe lay with my best friend slash girlfriend if she is still the latter."

Olivia looked at Amanda, taking the flowers to put them in water. Noah came down looking at his mom, not wanting to leave.

"Noah, we are going to stay. Amanda and I need to talk more, and plus you haven't had alot of time to spend with Brayden. So go ahead and go back upstairs to Bray's room."

Noah smiled yelling up the stairs that he was staying. Amanda smiled lightly happy that she and Olivia were going to talk. She moved to sitting up on the couch. Olivia came over, kicking off her shoes under the coffee table, Amanda gestured for her to sit down.

"This is the most normal I've felt in a long time. Our nights talking like this and cuddling."

Olivia took this time to pull Amanda in her arms. Amanda let her and they lay back relaxing. "Amanda I do love you. I am just scared when I drop the 'Lbomb' as you call it. Cause usually it all goes to shit after those words are uttered. I don't want that. We have been through a whole hell of alot, and even more so these last past few weeks. I'm sorry for the hurt I've put you through. I do love you and I want to pursue this more."

Amanda smiled softly, "I want that too, Olivia. I really do but I too am scared."

They sat in a comfortable silence, relaxing with each other. It had been a bit and all the sudden Noah started yelling downstairs.

"BRAYDEN'S THROWING UP BLOOD. HE'S BEEN SITTING DOWN AND RELAXING AND JUST STARTED PUKING UP BLOOD."

So what about that? Brayden ended up throwing up blood. Olivia and Amanda seeking solace and comfort, going back to normal. Next chapter we will see what happens to Derek..