Amanda got up kissing Olivia's forehead, she went to get them some drinks. She came back over and gave Liv a drink. "Liv you know you can tell me anything. You just opened up a memory that is hard one. I'd like to help you work through it." Olivia took a sip of her drink. Tears starting to fall. "I know I started this 'naked cuddling or special cuddles as we call it. We started that where we couldn't see each other. Amanda I know you just bared yourself to me and it wasn't fair that I held back. I'm sorry to be such a disappointment."
Amanda moved closer and put her arm around Liv's waist. "Oh darlin' you're far from a disappointment. It's obvious that you're wrestling thoughts right now. I'm your Mandy, you have gotten me through so much with everything especially Brayden being shot. Please let me help you get through this. We are a couple which to me means we help each other, we confide in each other, most importantly we make each other feel safe."
Olivia teared up, Amanda really did care about her. It wasn't all just the looks and body, or her bulbous breasts to Amanda like it was her past partners. For a minute she buried her face in Amanda's neck. Amanda just held her and let her absorb the comfort she needed. When she pulled back up from taking shelter she looked into Amanda's eyes. She then just how they say ripped the bandaid off and pulled her shirt off, never breaking eye contact with Amanda. Amanda respected Liv and kept the eye contact, then Olivia nodded. Amanda still kept her eye contact but let her hands roam. Gently caressing Liv's torso. She waited to see if Liv would guide her hands where she herself wanted Amanda's touch. She leaned in and kissed Liv's lips gently. "Show me where you want my hands."
Olivia took Amanda's hands softly, guiding them to touch her body. She enjoyed the feel of Amanda's hands they were soft and gentle. One thing she had never had before, there was no grabbing or pawing. Just gentle and soft touches. Olivia then looked in her eyes again, her voice soft "Now you've touched. You can look if you like, unless you're already turned off by what you have felt." Amanda kissed her softly moving back just a little to look, still moving her hands softly. She saw what Liv had been talking about. To her they were her survival marks. She had fought a battle, a battle for her life and she won and had the battle scars to prove it. She felt Olivia jump a little bit when she touched those marks. "Olivia you are beautiful. I'm so honored that you felt safe enough to open up to me and let me see you. To let me touch you. Honey you said that these weren't made by you. I see them as your survivor stripes." Olivia teared up once again burrowing her face into Amanda's neck. She did however keep Amanda's hand on the scars. It didn't feel like a scolding touch like the guys did. It felt soothing and safe.
Olivia was emotional "I'm ready for us to touch each other. That is if you still want to. I just... I just didn't want to disappoint you. You're beautiful Amanda."
Amanda smiled. Kissing her lips gently, then bringing Liv's hand to her mouth and kissing her knuckles. "I am ready for that too. So yes of course I still want us to touch each other. You are so beautiful Liv. I want us to explore each other, show each other what we feel. I look forward to showing you what love is. I look forward to you showing me what love is too." She kissed Liv once more. "Sweetheart why would you disappoint me? I'm not disappointed one bit. I'm honored that you let me see you, and you let me touch you. That you trusted me enough to show me your fears. Olivia I want the chance to be able show you unconditional love and support. You've shown it to me."
Amanda let her hands ghost Olivia's body softly. She loved the feel of Liv's soft body. Her hands cupped the gentle swell of Liv's breasts. Lightly thumbing the scars. "If any of this is unwanted you can tell me, or push my hands away." Olivia didn't want to push her hands away, Amanda's touch felt good, gentle, safe and nice. She didn't focus on just her breasts her hands had touched all over. She was truly showing Olivia's body love and affection. Olivia though didn't like being the only one without her shirt so she pulled at Amanda's shirt till she took it back off. She wanted to touch Amanda like Amanda was touching her. She felt safe letting Amanda explore and Amanda felt safe letting Liv explore her body. They continued touching and exploring. The more heated it got the harder the kisses. The heated touching and make out continued on til it got to that point of either stop or go all the way. Amanda looked into Liv's eyes, she was full of wanton desire, but she wanted to make sure Olivia wanted to go further. Which Olivia did. She felt safe and desired and really wanted to cement their relationship in this big way. They started slow and kept touching getting more and more intimate. Amanda showing Olivia's body love and tenderness that she never had. Olivia had always had attention on her breasts and it annoyed the shit out of her. However with Amanda it was different. Amanda showed Liv how she truly felt and what she meant to her all without words. Then Olivia did the same thing showing Amanda how she truly felt. They slowly made love. The lovemaking was intense. Leaving each of them wrung out in complete satisfaction. They cried out each others name over and over. The multiple orgasms. Amanda had never felt like this. She had never felt so complete after being intimate with someone. Making love with Liv, completed her. Liv was feeling the same way. Noone had ever completed her during sex or in this case making love. After they made love, they laid in each others arms quietly for a bit.
Amanda looked over at Liv, smiling she kissed her lips sweetly. "That was the most magical lovemaking ever. How are you feeling?" Olivia kissed Amanda passionately. "That was incredible Amanda. You made me feel so loved and appreciated. You were so gentle and patient. Thank you for that." Olivia's voice broke, she was emotional in a good way. Amanda cupped her chin sweetly, kissing her lips. "You did the same for me darlin'. The way you made my body feel and my emotions was incredible. I've never connected like that with someone, and the fact that you cuddled afterward. You weren't in a rush to get away from me." Olivia stayed close. "I feel closer to you than I ever have. We've gone through alot, a whole damn lot. Almost lost you due to my stupidity cause we can call it that. I'm eternally grateful for second and third chances."
Amanda nuzzled her. "To be honest Olivia, I'd be lost without you. I'm glad we were able to work things out and get to this point. You are the best thing that has happened to me in a long time. And yes while we had our out.. you did do everything you could to prove yourself and thensome. You have given Brayden and I a sense of loving stability we never had. You accepted my son as he is."
Olivia held Amanda tight. "There was no question accepting Brayden. He's a great kid and you've done a hell of a job raising him. You took on me and Noah without a second thought. You never asked me to have him stay with someone or anything. You always included him. You have accepted me for who I am, just like a little bit ago, you made me feel beautiful, you were gentle. You took my fears and insecurities seriously and you didn't shun me. You still wanted to touch and make love even after you saw me."
Amanda cherished it, her voice soft and choked up. "Olivia it feels like I found my person. The feelings I have for you have grown and intensified. I really can't hide my feelings Liv. I love you. I said it. I mean it and I will continue to say it."
Olivia looked into Amanda's eyes. Her voice full of emotions and tears welling up in her eyes. "You love me? You really do?"
Amanda nodded, "I do Liv. I can't deny it any longer. I'm not trying to rush...."
Amanda wasn't able to get the rest out as Olivia had kissed her. She felt the same way, this time was afraid to say it first, afraid to jinx it like before. After she kissed her Olivia looked in her eyes. "Say it again Amanda. Say those words to me again."
Amanda looked at her in her eyes. "I love you Olivia." She kissed her lovingly. When they broke the kiss for needing air, she looked at Liv once more. "I wanna hear you say those words, Liv. I need to hear you say those words." Olivia cupped Amanda's chin, her thumbs gently brushing Amanda's cheeks. She looked deep into Amanda's eyes.
"I love you Amanda." she smiled. "You mean the world to me. It took a while for me to see it and even realize it. I do love you Amanda. I always have but was afraid to admit and say it, for fear of being rejected and hurt."
They made love. Tried to keep it intimate and not so descriptive. So what do you think is going to happen? Do you want some cuddle time, some more sensual time? Should Brayden be a smart ass knowing what happened in the am?