Chapter 12

A/N: Very mature3rd P.O.V

The General woke up to the feeling of kisses across her face. "I'm sorry, so, fuckin sorry, Darlin!" Jasper breathed in her ear continuously kissing her skin between words. Nope! Nu uh! She wasn't doing this. The flashbacks were still playing in her mind and she couldn't separate herself from those feelings not with Jay, cause he was gonna leave and she couldn't- Secelia took control.

"Shit, Gen, It's okay, it's okay, they obviously want us. It's okay just the aftershock of our body going through a shut down. It's okay, Major, and Ares said that Jay was gonna fix it, it's okay." She comforted bringing a hand to her own hair. She could feel Jaspers concern and worry.

"Secelia? Darlin, what are ya talkin about, what's a body shut down?" He asked his voice in her ear. His lips brushed her neck. "Fuck, Jay, you don't know the actual damage, do you? Hell, you probably don't even know why Gen won't believe ya until you claim us. Okay, okay," She breathed rambling.

"Easy, easy, lil one." He comforted.

"Now, Explain, Darlin, make me understand." He demanded. "Got a phone? Nat would be able to explain it better than me, and if I explain it your instincts will act up." She paused snorting as he hands her his phone laying on the nightstand beside the bed. "You're instincts will probably go wild anyway, but at least you'll be able to focus on Nats voice. You're always distracted by mine." She mumbled before punching in a familiar number. She puts it on speaker as she sits up against the headboard. She bites her lip before patting the spot next to her allowing him to sit beside her. He takes the initiative and wraps an arm around her.

"This is Natalie Hikins, Who am I speaking with?"

"Sup, Nat, let me get straight to the point I'm going through aftershock of a body shut down." She said closing her eyes at the hiss on the phone causing her mate to snarl.

"Who the hell's that Lia? You have someone with you?" Natalie asked shocked. "The growl you heard happens to be from the idiot mate of mine who caused the shut down in the first place." Secelia drawled her white eyes lock with her mates and she narrowed them. Natalie drew in a sharp gasp.

"You're own mate caused ya body to shut down? How bad, do I need to be on my way? What about Gen? She's not-" Secelia cuts off her friends rambling.

"Yes, no you don't need to be on your way just yet cause I think he may fix it. Gen's going through flashbacks. They're slowly getting fewer in between. She didn't shut down, well she did for a moment but she's dealing." She answered a loud fake cough cuts through the air from the phone.

"Don't bullshit me General Secelia Aphrodite Whitlock!" Natalie says harshly. "Uh oh, Never make Nat mad Jay, she'll use full names." Secelia mumbles to her mate before signing, "Nat, I was callin to ask if ya could explain to my mate what a body shut down is so that way he understands?" She asks before grabbing her mates hand rubbing a scar on the back of his palm.

"You're to kind, Lia I would make him suffer, okay does he know what a body shut down entails, or how one is started?" She asks, Secelia looked at her mate, she could feel his confusion and worry.

"No..." She dragged out slowly. Natalie sucked in a breath. "Damn it , Lia, your body could've shut down and then ya mind. Your mate would've been pissed if ya died on em." Jasper let out a snarl tightening his grip on her and took her hand that held the phone.

"Explain Now! " He growled,

"That was the plan. A body shut down is when something happens to invoke memories. A series of triggers set it off, and obviously you did something to hurt your mate and it made her body freeze and flashbacks start. With Lia it can be really bad. If her body shuts down her mind will too, and if it shuts all the way down, and nothing happens to bring her out of it then essentially until she is brought back, if she is brought back, she will be basically dead. Trust me you really don't want to see that. " Natalie explained.

Jasper froze before asking very slowly, "Are ya saying that if I hadn't brought her back, that there could be a chance that I might not have got her back at all?" He choked out. "Yes, so I suggest you fix whatever it was that you did wrong because even during aftershocks the flashbacks can become overwhelming, Now Lia, how is Gen really, which flashbacks is she going through currently?" Natalie asked. Secelia frowned searching and gripped her mates hand tightly. She gasped at the memories. Why was Gen in those memories?

"It's bad, oh gosh it's bad, she's in those memories, why is she in those memories?" A choked noise leaves her causing her mate to purr. "Breathe, you know Gen can't help what memories she gets drawn into. Your mate will fix it. It's okay, am I correct in assuming it's hands, blades, fire and the whole nine yards?" Nat asked drawing in a gasp at the sob that reaches her ears.

"Okay, listen mister, fix it! You'll have to draw Gen back out. I'll leave you to fix your mate." Natalie hangs up the phone with a sigh.

Jasper tosses the phone back onto the nightstand before climbing over her. He pinned her down. Her head hit the pillow. He burrows his head into her neck kissing it softly his tongue running over The Major's mark.

"Explain something, how, why did the flashbacks happen just when I came out? Why didn't it happen with Major or Ares?" He asked against her neck.

"Do you want blunt honesty, or a lie?" Secelia asked.

"Be honest with me! Even if ya think I won't like it!" He mumbled nipping her neck.

"Because it wasn't Major or Ares that rejected her, Jay, it was you. She asked you to put your venom in the bite, replacing his. Ya gotta understand that Gen is the submissive part of us, but that's only for our mate. She trusted you, and ya failed her test. Gen may be the most submissive part of us, but she's also the strongest, and she's also the one with the most flashbacks. She keeps waiting for you to leave, get tired of us, and by refusing to bite her, she took it to mean that ya didn't want us." Jasper growled, Secelia huffed softly smiling,

"I know, but you got to look at it from her perspective, and even now going through flashbacks she's determined not to leave, and you," Secelia paused poking her mate in the chest, "Don't deserve that! You hurt the most sensitive part of us, and you don't deserve a chance to fix it, but," She drawls out dragging the word out slowly,

"I'll give you one, one more chance to prove her wrong, she won't be drawn out until you actually bite us, she's in the memories to deeply. When Gen can't survive the outside world she goes to our worst memories, replaying them, because she's survived them. It's her own personal hell, and her own torture." She explained.

"You're giving me another chance, I don't-" He choked out, Secelia lets out a breath as she closed her eyes, "You don't deserve it, but two thirds of yourself have claimed us, and it's only fair I give you one more chance, because I really don't want you to fail. I don't want to think of what may happen to Gen if you fail. So, Jasper Whitlock," She mummered, bringing her lips to his ear.

"What are you going to do about it?" She asked her tongue brushed hIs ear. Jasper shuddered against her.

She huffed nipping his ear, "Don't keep us waiting, I'm giving ya everything here, Jasper, you going to take it or not?" She challenged. Then she pulled back, and looked at him raising an eyebrow. Jasper's mind was still reeling over the fact of the challenge when she struck. He felt her emotions turn just a bit to frustration as she moved flipping their positions. He snarled at her show of defiance. She let out a laugh.

"You," she whispered letting her lips trail his cheek.

"Are taking," She trailed her lips to his ear.

"Too long," She let her tongue trail to his jaw.

"Either you take everything from us, or I will walk out of this room, right here, right now, and you won't be able to find me for a very very long time." She threatened letting her teeth scrape his neck. He snarled moving their position so he is on top. He pinned her arms above her head.

"No!" He snarled in her face.

"No what?" She asked smirking at him.

"You try to fuckin leave me, Darlin, just try, I'll have you over my knee so fast ya won't know what hit ya! I'll tie ya too this bed! I'll fuck the daylights outta ya!" He threatened back. She shivered in slight fear at the tone in his voice. He hissed in her ear.

"None of that now," He mummered softly. Secelia shuddered as a wave of pleasure washed over her.

"What if..." She trailed off from her question turning her head away from him. A purr falls from his lips.

"Whatcha need, Darlin, ask me anything." He hummed kissing her cheek, then her lips, he continued pressing kisses to her. "I want, I need you to prove that, what you just said but I'm scared..." She admitted closing her eyes tightly. A sudden feeling of vulnerability crashed over her.

"We need to know, that you actually want us, that you would fight us, but.." A frustrated noise escaped her. "We don't want you to be angry that we need you to prove it, and we're scared."

"What ya scared of Darlin?" He asked softly.

"Pain, whooping s hurt, right, and we'd never forgive ourselves if it provoked a flashback. Cause ya wouldn't hurt us like that, I know that, Gen knows that deep down, but we need, we don't want it to hurt." She whispered and then she felt a tear fall down her face, because she needed.

She needed him to prove it, but she didn't want it to hurt. Jasper wiped away the tear that was rolling down her face. His hand cupped her cheek with so much care it made her let out a whimper. A wave of calm washed over her.

"Oh Darlin, I wouldn't let it hurt, baby girl, just cause it's a whoopin don't mean it's gotta hurt. I'd never cause ya pain, unless ya wanted me too, and even then it wouldn't be pain." He mumbled his lips tugged her earlobe into her mouth before nipping it. "Does that hurt?" He asked.

"No," She whispered, "and did the Major's bite hurt? Did Ares's bite hurt?" He asked. "No," She answered more strongly. Jasper purred before running his hand down her body. His fingers thrust into her roughly, making her gasp in pleasure.

"What about this? Does this hurt?" He quipped thrusting his fingers harshly. She arched upward," No, are you-" She broke off with a slight moan as he began using his thumb to rub circles while his fingers move vigorously. "Are you saying that there's good pain, and bad pain, and you wouldn't actually let us feel the bad pain?" She gasped out. Jasper slowed his furious thrusting. His fingers gently move in and out of her. Her breath catches as she feels a slight rough touch against a scar he'd found inside.

"You always catch on quickly, yes, Darlin, that's what I am saying. I could show you?" He offered the words are breathed against her ear. She closed her eyes feeling herself warm at the thought. Jasper's eyes darken as he feels hot liquid pool inside of her.

"Just thinkin bout it makes ya wet for me." His lips brushed hers. A slight wave of playful caution hits him.

"Maybe, Maybe, you could keep talking, explaining, help us feel more secure about it? Explain how we can trust you with such an act?" She asked before continuing, "I thought this would go in a different direction, you know what The Major told me to do right? How am I supposed to follow orders if you have me sidetracked on something completely different? I'm blaming this on you, make sure he knows that." She mumbled with a huff. Jasper laughed, then he slowed his fingers just barely moving them.

"Oh, sweetheart, what makes you think it was an order from just The Major?" He murmured against her lips. He kissed her slipping his tongue into her mouth. He stole her breath. He pulled back and a purr fell from his chest as she tried to catch her breath.

"Don't worry, Lil girl, you'll get your chance to Fuck Me!" He promised and as he said the last two words his two fingers slip out of her and then three slam back into her. She lets out a high pitched noise as he chuckles into her ear. His other hand brushed purple locks away from her face.

"Now, if you allow me the pleasure of taking you over my knee, I promise I will make it feel just as good as this!" He hissed softly as he thrust his fingers slowly and deeply.

"I promise that ya won't even feel pain, just like when I do this." He paused pulling his fingers out then lightly slapping her. Her breath catches and she lets out a moan so soft and low, he barely hears it. He feels her grow wetter for him as he continues lightly slapping her.

"Beautiful, I love how ya open ya legs wider trusting me." He mummered before pulling back giving her a harsh slap making her jump. Gently cupping her he lets his thumb slide between her folds, gently circling he speaks, "See, I gotcha, Such a good girl, Do I take care of my girl, Darlin?" He asks softly his circling comes to a halt as he just rests his thumb inside her, intentionally brushing against a scar or two.

"Yes, Jay?" She asks softly breathing through her nose before exhaling. Jasper purred at the use of his nickname. "If it did hurt, you'd stop right? No matter what? Even if you're doing it cause we did something bad? You'd stop, if we told you too?" She asked letting the words fall off her lips. Softly pulling his thumb out of her he wiped it on the sheets before cupping her face with both hands.

"Always, even Major would stop the second we sense your uncomfortable, but be sure to always tell him. You know the Major, he likes communication." He answered softly before brushing his lips to hers. He can feel the sheer relief rolling off of her. He purred softly pulling back.

"Got it, always communicate with Major." She mumbled then let out a giggle. Jasper lets out a full blown smile seeing her eyes light up. "What ya laughing about?" He asks softly. Her giggles come to a stop, as she looks at him.

"I just realized something about The Major is all." She says with another giggle. Now Jasper and the Major were curious. "What's that?" He asked. She grinned playfully and leaned closer as if whispering a secret.

"He likes hearing our voice cause he doesn't want us to hide from him! He'd let us talk to him, argue with him, and scream at him just so he knows we're there." She paused and another wave of realization sweeps over her. Then a slight wave of horror, anger and an undercoat of love.

"I don't believe it!" She whispered, "He's waiting for us to leave, to tell y'all that we don't want ya anymore, oh gosh Jay, you think we're gonna leave! That's why ya didn't mark us at first cause yah Idjits think we're going to fuckin leave once it's done!" She realized.

Jasper froze, shit, She had them pinned even if she was underneath him. He felt a wave of panic claw up his throat. Secelia gasped feeling the emotion flow through her. It was pure blown panic. Somewhere in the depths of their mind The General froze and then came forward. Jasper didn't notice as he was moved against the wall with his mate crouched defensively in front of him. A strong wave of confusion crashed into him.

"There's no danger here." She mumbled grabbing his attention. "Then why the fear? Why the panic?" She asked before turning to him. Her hands check him over.

"Injuries are out the window, what is going-Oh!" She pauses as Secelia shares her memories with her. Jasper watches as she combs a hand through her hair.

Disbelief

Shock

a bit of anger

more disbelief.

"That's not," She shook her head before gripping her hair tugging harshly. Jasper's hands immediately stop her. Obsidian eyes that can't see him stare at him.

"I don't believe it! Shit, Jay, I'm struggling through flashbacks that aren't gonna stop until you actually prove it, but I can't deal with my brokenness and yours too. I can't, I can't-" A wail falls from her lips and black eyes closed before the storm that was her emotions calmed.

"You reached her." Secelia breathes out shocked.

"I mean your panic did, but you reached her!" She laughed before kissing him smack dab on the lips.

"You're a damn idiot, Major Jasper Ares Whitlock," She whispered against his lips, before adding with an uncertain smile, "But ya mine. That is if you'll have us of course." She mummered in his ear. Jasper feels the panic lessening just by that simple word.

Mine

He has her pinned back to the bed within a second.

"Fuck, say that again!" He mumbled against her lips. He feels a wave of mischief hit him. She brings her lips to his ear. "You're an Idiot." She breathes, He snarled in her face. She raised an eyebrow at him. "My Idiot." She corrected, then gasped as his teeth scraped her neck.

"You're playing with fire, Darlin, call me that one more time, and I'll take you over my knee. I'll tie you up, show you just who you belong too. Show ya why you should call me by my name or rank instead of showing such bland disrespect." He mumbled softly his lips trace her jaw.

She takes in a deep breath because the ball was in her court, "But you're forgetting a few things, Major Jasper," She says noticing the way he shuddered and the slight purr that left his lips.

"What's that baby girl?" He asks his lips meet hers in a rough kiss. He pulls back smirking at the way she had to catch her breath before talking, but her next words cause his eyes to turn pitch black as she says,

"Number one, I outrank you, number two you are Mine now, and nothing will change that and number three..." She dragged it out before moving so close to him that they brushed against each other. He felt a wave of need, desire, and full blown trust surround him as she whispered, "You are an Idiot." She says pulling back from him.