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Little Toy Bikers and a Woman on the Run
Chapter 19 Free
Jax was sure that he was over Tara and all his love for her had died, but there was only one way to know for sure; he had to face her. He looked at her. Same brown hair and eyes. Not much had changed with her at least not outwardly.
He was the one who changed. He felt nothing for her. No love. No hate. Just emptiness.
He realized he'd been carrying the weight of that dead relationship on his shoulders for the past ten years. Now, it was all gone. He was free.
The same could not be said of Tara. There was something about the look in her eyes and the tone of her voice that made him believe that she was still in love with him.
He didn't want to hurt her, but he wasn't about to get back together with her to spare her heartache. Tara had only herself to blame. She wanted him to move away from Charming and give up the MC. He wanted her to go to school nearby, so they could still see each other on weekends.
Compromise was out of the question to her. Tara wanted all of him or none of him. She got none of him. He had spent too long being bitter about that.
When she left town, he drowned himself in liquor, weed and pussy. He was also acting like a nineteen year old guy. Despite the crushing heartbreak, he had also felt relief. He no longer had to try to figure out how to fix his crumbling relationship.
His feelings, or more accurately, his lack of feelings for Tara had nothing to do with Scarlett. He didn't know what the future held with her or even if they had one. He enjoyed her company. She made him feel alive. For the moment, that was enough.
As he half-listened to Tara talk about her medical school training and her surgical skills, he was looking at Scarlett. He remembered one of the things he'd disliked most about Tara—she could suck the fun out of any occasion.
He was also reminded of her snobbish, superior attitude. She looked down at residents because they lived in a small town. She also looked down on blue collar workers because she was going to attain real status by becoming not just a doctor, but a surgeon.
Now, here she was talking to him so sweetly. It confirmed his belief that she had returned to Charming because she was still in love with him. She was too late.
He frowned as he watched Scarlett with Hale. They were getting along a little too well. She'd even gotten the almost always too serious Hale to laugh.
His eyes flashed with anger as he watched Hale write something on a card and hand it to Scarlett. He was only a few yards away and Hale had just given his phone number to her. That son of a bitch.
Jax didn't understand the way he felt until it hit him. This wasn't just anger. He was jealous. It was an emotion he had never felt before and he didn't like it. Scarlett's fault? Hale's fault? Both? He just knew it wasn't his fault.