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Little Toy Bikers and a Woman on the Run
Chapter 29 Fatherhood
Jax married Wendy out of loneliness and boredom. It wasn't the best way to begin a marriage. At least he'd been honest with her. He never told her he loved her. He didn't think he would ever fall in love again and he had longed for some kind of home life.
The failure of the marriage wasn't all her fault. He'd been the one who thought she was kind of cute when she was full of meth. That changed after they got married when he discovered she wasn't using occasionally; she was using constantly. He may have been married, but with Wendy perpetually wasted, it was like being alone.
They separated after only a few months. One night she came to his house and begged for another chance. In the process of reconciling, he discovered he was out of condoms.
She told him she'd had her period the day before, so it was safe to have sex without protection. The reconciliation lasted three days and then Wendy went back to crank. It was the great love of her life.
He had been furious with her when she told him she was pregnant. She lied to him about her period and deliberately gotten pregnant hoping she could hold on to him. Instead, it only made him more determined to free himself from her.
For more than three months, there were endless manipulations over her having an abortion. He'd given her the money for an abortion. She promptly spent it all on crank. He should have known not to give a junkie money and expect her not to use it for drugs.
The next time she asked for money for an abortion, he told her he'd go with her and pay them directly. She set up and cancelled appointments a couple of times. Finally, she offered to have an abortion if he paid for the abortion and gave her a little bit extra so she could make a new start.
He did agree to pay for her to go to rehab as part of the divorce settlement. He hadn't heard from her since she'd left for rehab. He didn't know when she would be back. A big part of him hoped she would stay gone.
He was slowly warming to the idea of a baby. He was going to have to get a crib and fix up one of the spare bedrooms for the kid, but it was going to be at least two months before the birth.
He decided to give himself another month before he had to prepare for the baby's arrival. Maybe by then, he could work up more enthusiasm for fatherhood. It wasn't the kid's fault that he and Wendy weren't ready to be parents.
The kid deserved to have a decent life. He knew that Gemma would help out a lot. That came with its own set of problems. At her best, Gemma was interfering and overbearing. Fun times ahead, he thought wryly.
After he took Scarlett back to her motel, he stopped by the convenience store to get condoms, cigarettes and rolling papers. Louise, the cashier, suggested he buy condoms by the case because it would be cheaper.
He liked girls. There was nothing wrong with that, especially since he always practiced safe sex except the time with Wendy when she lied to him and gotten pregnant.
He should have known better than to trust Wendy. He had to keep reminding himself that Wendy being pregnant wasn't the baby's fault. It was equally his fault and Wendy's. The baby was completely innocent.
A brightly colored book with a little boy on the cover caught his eye. He paged through the book trying to imagine reading to his kid at bedtime. It was too much for him to wrap his head around. He put the book back.
Louise added the book to his bag. When he noticed, she told him it had been one of her favorites as a child.
Before he could pay, the night sky lit up. He ran outside and saw a fire off in the distance in the direction of the MC's gun warehouse.