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Little Toy Bikers and a Woman on the Run
Chapter 49 Mourned
Outside the waiting room was a small room that was kept locked. When Tara unlocked the door and suggested they all go inside, he had flashbacks to being in that same little room when he was told his father had just died.
He didn't remember the furniture. He only remembered a small window that overlooked the parking lot and the ugly, dirty pink color of the walls. Almost two decades later, the walls were still that same ugly color.
When Tara broke the news to him, he'd felt numb inside. It didn't seem real that the girl he'd loved in high school had grown up to be a doctor who was now telling him that his soon-to-be ex-wife was dead and it didn't look good for the baby. She said to prepare for the worst.
Jax never thought Wendy's overdose would kill her. He thought they would give her some antidote to the crank and she would be OK. It wasn't the first time she OD'd. She told him that she had overdosed three times. He had no reason to believe this time it would end in death.
Tara also told him that since they believed her overdose wasn't a typical overdose, there would be an autopsy on Wendy. The syringe, spoon and thumb bag with the skull and crossbones were going to be handed over to the police department for their investigation and toxicology tests.
Sometimes he'd hated Wendy, but he had never wanted her dead. He wanted her to get clean and be a mother to his kid. As long as she was alive, that was a possibility. Now, that would never happen. His kid would never know her.
Tara had asked him if he wanted to say good-bye to Wendy. He remembered the doctor asking him the same question after his father died. He wanted to see his dad, but Gemma said she couldn't bear to see JT dead. He, Gemma, Clay and Piney had waited for them to clean up JT and so he could see him.
Piney had gone with him. Piney's hand had been on his shoulder offering comfort. After Piney said good-bye to JT, he left so Jax could have privacy. It was still a gut-wrenching memory after all these years.
He didn't know how he felt about saying good-bye to Wendy. He hadn't processed her death. Tara assured him that he didn't need to decide immediately.
After Tara told them about Wendy and the baby, the guys said things, Gemma and Clay said things and he remembered none of it. Less than an hour had passed and his entire life was taking a huge dramatic change. He was going to be a single father if the baby lived.
His misgivings over fatherhood were gone. He wanted that baby to live. He would change his life completely and do whatever it would take to be a good father. He just wanted the baby to live.