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Writer's Notes: As promised, here is the second update. Enjoy!

[Alexandria]

Bella didn't talk about what happened with Negan in the shop with Jasper or the others. She made it back to their rendezvous point and she just handed her backpack to Jasper so he could see the ammo and pistol that Negan had gave her. She just told him that she convinced him that this was the right step and he followed along. Jasper knew that there was more to the story, but he didn't press it.

Bella's first place she went to when she got back was the clinic. T Dogg was still restrained, but he was still fever free. His wounds were healing, though it remained to be uncertain whether he was going to change or not.

"How do you feel?" Bella asked as she took his vitals again and made sure the wounds were still infection free.

"I feel fine. Just tired. "T Dogg relayed.

Bella was still confused why he hadn't gotten sick yet, why he wasn't changing. "I don't understand. We know that when you're bit, you get the fever within an hour and that the rest goes really quick. The hallucinations… the coughing up blood, the cold sweats. No one survives past the five hour mark." She crossed her arms. "You… you might be immune T."

"How?" T Dogg asked, his dark eyes were confused as well.

"I don't know. We have to keep you here… for observation, but… if you are still the same after two weeks T… I'm going to release you."

T Dogg was quiet. "No. I don't want to be a risk. You lock me up in the armory after I heal. What if I randomly change? We can't take that chance. Not with the kids in the house."

"T… if you're not already sick in two weeks, there is literally zero chance you will likely become a biter."

"Still."

Bella sighed. "Okay." She said and looked up at Rick when he entered. Her heart hurt when she saw him. "Hey."

"Pete is sober and cussing. Deanna wants to release him and Jessie wants him back home. Jessie says that he didn't mean to hurt her. He was just really drunk." Rick relayed.

"And was he?" Bella asked.

Rick was quiet a moment. "Ron said that his dad does this a lot. Jessie isn't admitting it, but Ron says that his dad is violent… even with him, so… I told Deanna what Ron said and she is agreeing now that Pete needs to stay in holding, until we can figure something out or talk to Jessie more."

Bella sighed. "Okay." She said and then ran a hand over her face. "Okay." She nodded. "Well, I want to shower and see Aya."

"Okay. I'll go back with you. Denise will come check back in on T Dogg." Rick said and looked over at T Dogg. "Still hanging in there?"

"Right as rain right now." T Dogg said. "Bella go, wash up and rest. I'll still be here." He reassured.

Bella just nodded. "Okay." She said and left the clinic. Jasper and Daryl were still sorting and unloading. Maggie and Beth were there to help, as well as Heather, one of the Alexandria originals and Carol. Bella and Rick walked down the street back to the house. She was silent as they walked, and that was starting to concern Rick.

"Everything go okay in DC?" Rick asked.

Bella was still quiet. "No." She admitted. She stopped walking and looked around. People were in their homes. It was a clear day, but it was getting darker outside. They came back later in the day and the sun would be going down soon. "We ran into some people in DC."

Rick frowned, his brows knitting together. "Jasper… Daryl… Jake they didn't say anything."

"Because I told them not to." Bella said and then swallowed. "I know the leader of the Saviors."

"You do?" Rick was even more confused. "How do you know him?"

Bella was quiet as she processed her thoughts. "His name is Lieutenant Negan Smith. He was a Naval officer… in Kuwait." She said. "We uh."

"He was the one night stand?" Rick asked. "The miscarriage?" His voice dropped.

Bella looked down at her hands and then back up at him. "He was more than a one night stand Rick." Her voice tight.

Rick's brows furrowed together again. "I don't understand."

"We loved each other. Um. When we lost the baby, I broke. I pushed him away and then… he got recalled to the states. We didn't see each other until I got shore leave to come back a few months later to DC where Jake had to have surgery to remove his tonsils. I ran into him when I came back. We spent the weekend together, before I spun back up to go back to Kuwait. Then I got taken POW now long after that." She explained.

Rick was silent. He was shocked. He didn't understand why she didn't just tell him about Negan. "You could have told me this before."

Bella teared up a little. "I um. I put him out of my head a long time ago Rick. I… didn't want to think about him because I only remembered losing the baby. Which… wasn't fair to him because he didn't get to process it correctly. He felt grief too and I just…"She shook her head. "But something happened in DC yesterday."

Rick frowned. "What happened? Did he corner you? Did he-"

"I got trapped in a PTSD flashback. Not all my flashbacks are… of war. And uh…"

"What happened?" Rick asked, his hands going to her to steady her.

"He kissed me and… then before I knew it, because I was flashing back… I didn't realize what was happening until he…"

Rick interrupted her. "Did he rape you?"

"No." Bella said and shook her head. "He stopped the moment I faded back in. The moment my flashback stopped. I told him to stop and he stopped instantly. He's not… he's not that kind of person. He knows what I went through with Edward, so he… he felt shitty."

Rick didn't understand what he was hearing. "Did he… did you…"

"He stopped. I stopped him." Bella said and then she felt the tears fall over. "I… I'm sorry." She said and her lip quivered.

Rick teared up too. He couldn't believe what he was hearing right now. "You two… had sex… in DC."

"No." Bella said and breathed out. "No we didn't. He stopped."

Rick ran a hand over his face. "But he put his dick-"

"Rick." Bella whispered. "I just… can we not do this on the street?" She asked, her blue-green watery eyes looking up at him.

Rick swallowed. "Go. Go shower. I need air." He said and he turned away from her and walked away.

Bella felt the tears fall down her face and she just wiped at them before she walked back towards the house. She felt her chest heavy with so much emotion. She just wanted to scream, but she internalized it and walked up the stairs into the house. Glenn was talking to Jake when she walked in.

Glenn frowned when he saw her face. "Bella? What's wrong?"

"I'm a fuck up." Bella said and then she just went towards the stairs.

Jake frowned too and followed after her. "Bells, what happened?"

"What happened Jake, is that I just fucked up my life and I didn't even mean to." Bella said and she felt angry with herself. "I'm going to shower. Where's Aya?"

"She's asleep." Jake said. "Bells, what the hell is going on?"

"Negan." Bella said, turning to look at Jake now. "Negan."

"What happened? You came back and seemed fine." Jake said, not understanding.

"Negan was the father of the baby I lost in Kuwait."

Glenn was shocked. "Wait what?"

Bella shook her head. "I've had five pregnancies before Aya. Two miscarriages, two stillborn and one abortion. I had a miscarriage in Kuwait. Negan and I were involved. We loved each other back then and I fucked that up just like I am fucking up with Rick. So I'm just… going to go shower and I don't know…" she said, shaking her head.

"What happened with Negan in DC?" Jake asked, worried.

Glenn was still confused. "How does Kuwait matter now? Bella Rick and you-"

"Because Negan kissed me in DC, I flashbacked into one of my PTSD episodes and I barely made it back out of it. I was literally pinned against a wall with Negan's dick inside me before I was able to cognitively think what the hell was happening." Bella said, her voice low, but rushed.

Jake ran his hand over his head. "Uh. Why didn't you say something? You went with him to the hospital we could have-"

"Because I made a promise and he already felt like shit." Bella sighed. "I just told Rick and now… he's I don't know. "She said and then turned and walked back up the stairs.

Glenn and Jake looked at each other. "Dude." Glenn said. "She just…"

"She keeps a lot of stuff to herself. She is spiraling right now. We needs Jasper." Jake said.

"I'll go get him." Glenn said and left the house to go to the clinic. He didn't see Rick when he approached. "Jasper!"

Jasper heard his name and looked up at Glenn and frowned when he saw Glenn's worried expression. "What happened?"

"Bella. She needs you." Glenn said. "Go, I'll finish here." He said and Jasper dropped what he was holding and ran back towards the house.

When Jasper made it back to the house, he saw Jake. "Where is she?"

"Upstairs." Jake relayed.

Jasper ran up the stairs and went towards the sound of the water running. He opened the bathroom door and Bella was in the shower. "Bells."

"Jazz, what are you doing here?" Bella called from behind the curtain. It was clear that her voice was full of emotion and she was crying.

"Glenn said you needed me."

Bella was quiet. She looked down at the swirling water in the tub and she cried. "I do." She sobbed out.

Jasper grabbed the robe off the hook on the wall and he pushed back the curtain and he turned off the water before making her get dressed in the robe. He helped her out of the shower and they went to her bedroom that she shared with Rick. He shut the door and made her sit on the bed. "What's going on?"

"I fucked up everything. I am the worse person." Bella sniffed.

Jasper sat on the bed, reaching over and grabbing her hands in his gently. "Bella, you are not the worse person. What happened?"

"Negan…"

"I know. But what happened with him in that shop Bella?"

"I had a flashback." Bella whispered and her lip quivered. "He didn't know I was in a flashback…"

"Did you two have sex in the shop?"

"Basically… but no. I managed to come to… told him to stop and he did." Bella sniffed again.

Jasper released one of her hands to wipe at her face. "Okay. So he stopped. Negan isn't a bad guy. I know you two loved each other in Kuwait and then the baby but… Bella, how does this make you a bad person? You were flashing back? PTSD presents whenever it wants sometimes. You weren't in control."

"I told Rick and he…."

"Did Rick hurt you?"

"No. But he's upset."

Jasper sighed and then he pulled her into his arms to hold her, comfort her. "Bella. Listen to me. You're not a terrible person. What happened in DC… wasn't your fault… it wasn't even Negan's fault. But it's not the end of the world. Rick… needs time to process."

"I told him… back when I told him about the different pregnancies. I told him that Negan was just a one night stand. I didn't… I didn't want to admit that I loved another person. And… I told him who Negan was tonight and just the look of disappointment… I should have told him about Negan, but then that would be admitting that I suffered a big loss in Kuwait. I… I didn't want to relieve that."

"Darlin', Rick loves you. You love him, you both will move past this. You're not in love with Negan obviously." He said and then he saw the look on her face. "Oh no… Bells…"

Bella teared up again. "I love Rick. I didn't get to that part… to tell him that there were feelings there, but I would never… I would never go back to Negan. That won't happen. It was just… I think it was the flashback and it muddled everything."

Jasper sighed and then he kissed the top of her head and held her again, stroking his hand over her back. "Everything is going to be okay. Rick just needs to take the time to process what you told him. He'll-"

The door opened and Rick was there. His blue eyes flashed over to Jasper. "Jazz. Can I… can I be alone with Bella?"

Jasper released Bella, reaching up to wipe her tears. "Remember what I said." He said and then stood and walked towards Rick. He slapped his shoulder briefly before walking out of the room and closing the door.

"Don't talk. Just listen." Rick said, his blue eyes were on the verge of crying. "I… am upset. I am upset that this happened. I don't know this guy. I don't know what his intentions are. But it is clear that… he is important to you."

"Rick-"

"Don't talk." Rick said, his voice wavering a little. "I love you. It hurts… it hurts that you thought you couldn't tell me about loving him in the past. I have been honest with you… from the very start. You could have told me about him and how important he was to you. I would have understood."

Bella felt the hot tears roll down her face and she looked down at her hands. "It brings pain when I think about him." She murmured.

Rick let the tears roll down his face. "Pain?"

"We lost a child." Bella said, her voice tight. She shook her head. "It was painful to remember and… it's not an excuse. God, I know it's not. My PTSD doesn't pick the best times to act up." She wiped at her face.

Rick went towards her. He got down on his knees in front of her to look up at her crying face. "Bella. I love you… with every breath I take… I love you. You, Aya and Carl… you're my family… you're all I have in this world and I want you to know that I will fight for you every single day. I love you."

"I love you too." Bella sobbed out. "I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry this happened."

"I know." Rick's voice was tight now. His hands shook as he reached up and framed her face, forcing her teary eyes to look at him. "I know you can't control your flashbacks. I know that you stopped when you came back to. He stopped when you told him to… but I am upset. I'm just upset and I don't have any other feeling for it, than just feeling like a dagger pierced through my heart. That someone else's mouth was on you… that their hands… touched you." His voice shook. "I'm upset."

Bella nodded. "I'm sorry. Please… don't leave me."

"Oh baby…."Rick's voice broke and more tears ran down his face. "I'll never leave." He said and then he moved one hand to his pocket. He pulled out a small box and he presented it to her. "I want you to marry me Bella. Be my wife."

Bella felt more tears as she stared down at the ring. It was beautiful. The round oval solitare was the only diamond. She knew that it would have been a pretty expensive ring if the world hadn't gone to shit, but she found it's delicate state beautiful and it was elegantly simple. "Rick…" she murmured.

"I have been planning on asking you for a couple weeks now. I wanted to find the right time, but this… this obstacle… it doesn't have to break us. We are strong together and we can make it through this."

Bella sniffed again. "Rick… I can't. I'm a screw up, I-"

"You're not." Rick cut her off. "You are exactly who I want to be with for the rest of my life. To raise our children here in this town… make something of ourselves. I want it all. With you, forever." He reassured her. "Marry me."

Bella swallowed and then she nodded. She wiped her face and nodded. Rick took the ring out of the box and slid it onto her ring finger, it fit perfectly. He kissed her, his hands moving to frame her face, tears flowing down his face as he kissed her. He kissed her passionately, his tongue sweeping hers, pushing to replace any touch of Negan that had tried to taint her. Bella kissed him back, her arms wrapping around him as he stood, pushing her backwards onto the bed. His hands moved to her robe and he untied it, pushing it to expose her naked body. His hands roamed over her, touching her everywhere, sending thrills through her body with every stroke of his hands.

His mouth went to her throat and kissed her, making her forget that Negan even kisser her in that same spot yesterday. Bella closed her eyes and just enjoyed the way Rick's hands felt on her body. The pleasure that she told herself she didn't deserve. She wanted him to do so much to her and more. She moaned as his fingers dipped into her folds, circling over her hot, wet cunt and she readily accepted the pleasure. He only paused to take his clothes off, so he could be as naked as she was. He moved his mouth over her body, tasting her cunt, driving her insane as she writhed in the sheets of their bed and she moaned, shivering from his touch.

Rick pressed on, wanting to give her every pleasure so she wouldn't think about what happened in DC with Negan, that she would only think about him and what he could do for her. He pushed her further and further towards her climax, her hands twisting in the sheets as her legs quaked and she finally flooded out on his tongue. He drank her in, savoring every bit before he leaned up, his hand stroking his cock before he pushed inside her. She moaned instantly, her eyes rolling back as he pushed deep inside her. It had been a while since he had been inside her like this. They had been using condoms since they had many from a pharmacy run that he did with Glenn and Daryl a while back after they arrived at Alexandria. But this time, he was inside her without that protection, which made this very risky for both of them. But he pressed on. His cock throbbed and pushed deep, hitting the spot that always instantly made her cum and he kept pushing on that spot, and she moaned, trying to keep it quieter so she wouldn't disturb anyone. He paused to move his hand to her clit, rubbing his thumb over her fast and she shuddered and tightened on his cock before she started orgasming again. Her body was spasming and in a good way. He shifted his hips more, watching as her cum slid over his cock and she vibrated under him. He shoved back deep inside her, hitting a new spot that seemed to send her over the edge again and she spewed out around his cock. She moaned as she got wetter and wetter. He smiled as he watched the pleasure roll over her face and he continued to plunge inside her. He pushed faster and faster, his cock hardening, filling up, ready to burst open and he continued to push, holding his own pleasure back to see her pleasure peak again as he pushed deep inside her again. The tip of his cock pressed against her cervix now and she gasped at the sensation. He pushed again hitting the same spot and she gasped again. It was different for her, the feeling and she wanted to chase that feeling some more.

"Oh, right there Rick… don't stop."

"Baby, I'm about to cum."

"I don't care." Bella gasped out as he hit the spot again and again. "Oh god." She moaned as she felt new sensations flood all her senses.

Rick moaned a little as he dove in deep and she shuddered and moaned under him. "Baby… I really can't make it longer." He breathed out as he slowed his movements to back off his own sensitivities.

"Right there." Bella purred as his cock hit her cervix again. "I need to…" She pushed Rick backwards on the bed and straddled him. Rick was shocked at her force, but he let her climb on top of him. His cock was so tight and hard that it was painful almost for him to prolong his release any longer.

When she slid back down on his cock, she shifted her hips and moaned as she felt the tip of his cock slide back into her new favorite spot. "Oh god." She purred and she danced her hips again. She ground her hips deep against his, taking every inch of him inside her. She didn't understand how she didn't know this spot existed before and now that's all she wanted.

Rick moaned, trying his hardest to hold off, just for her because she was chasing a thrill. His hands were on her hips now as she started picking up her pace, grinding against him as his cock plunged in and out of her sacred spot.

"Rick!" She gasped as she felt something break inside her, like a damn was breaking. She rode him faster and faster, the roar of pleasure in ears.

Rick moaned, his control sliding away from him and she came down over him hard, his cock sinking deep inside and he released, his hot seed spilling out finally, filling her up. Bella moaned and came at the same time, like her body was waiting for him to cum so she could feel this new level of pleasure. She kept shifting her hips and moaning as he spilled out inside her. She didn't want to stop just yet and Rick was along for the ride. He moaned as she moaned, his hands moving up from her hips to her breasts as she bounced. His cock was still so hard even after his release. He mustered the strength up to flip her in the bed , pushing her legs up to hook on his shoulders and he pounded inside of her. Sweat broke out on their bodies as they continued to slide together like this. A new level of passion was met and every rational thought was gone out of their minds. He pushed faster and faster until he was spilling out again, pushing his hips against hers, his cock settling deep inside her and he came again. This time he stilled, moaning as the release left his quaking body. He was panting and so was she. They stared at each other in silence, their hearts beating hard in their chest.

After a few long moments, he slide out of her, his cock spent. He lay next to her and she laid on her back next to him. They lay like that for several long moments before Bella spoke.

"Rick."

"Hmm?"

"We just…"

"Yeah."

Bella was quiet again. "I feel like I'm going to be pregnant." She said the words and then she started laughing.

Rick smiled and looked over at her laughing. He didn't get to hear her laugh often and he enjoyed the sound. "Well. I did warn you… several times."

"I know." Bella said and stopped laughing. She looked over at Rick and smiled. "I don't know what came over me. Honestly. I just… it was different. I can't explain it, but it was just different."

"It was different." Rick agreed. He rolled over on his side and propped his head up with his hand and he looked down at her. "Do you want to be pregnant?" He asked, his other hand going to her stomach.

Bella thought about it. "Maybe." She said. "I think I do." She said and her blue-green eyes met his. "I really want another baby with you Rick." The joy starting to fill her. "Aya is still so small… but we're safe here. We can grow a family here. We can be something. We have medical equipment and we won't have to worry about delivering another baby in terrible conditions."

"Yeah. That's true."

"I want to have another baby Rick. What about you?"

Rick smiled. "I want whatever you want." He said and leaned in and kissed her. "If you want another baby, then we will spend a lot of time trying to make that happen. I won't say no to spending more time in bed with you." He said with a grin, before he kissed her again.

Bella smiled. "Sounds like a good plan." She said and then she kissed him back.

"We're doing this." Rick said and then he rolled with her, surprising himself and her with his hard cock, thrusting inside her for a third time tonight.