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Little Toy Bikers and a Woman on the Run
Chapter 100 Bitter
Tara had been watching Jax's house casually. She drove by to and from work, but she hadn't walked past it again. It was only a little out of the way, so it wasn't that obvious that she was watching for Jax to get back from his little romantic vacation.
She couldn't remember Jax ever leaving Charming for more than a night or two and that had been when he went with the MC to a bike rally.
She imagined him spending the days and nights with Scarlett having sex with her over and over again. Scarlett's back injury or not, Jax would find a way to have sex with her. There's no way that he would do without. Not Jax Teller. He had a turbo-charged sex drive. How she envied Scarlett!
She wanted to have sex with Jax again. She could make that memory last a life time. She just needed one more time.
The bitter truth was the break-up was all her fault. Everyone thought she left Charming so she could go to school. Jax had been kind enough to let them believe that. He kept her secrets. That was one of the reasons she loved him.
During the last month in Charming, their relationship had been in a graveyard spiral as pilots called it. She tried but she couldn't find a way to pull out of that spiral and fix their problems—the ones she had caused.
Jax hadn't been without blame. He made mistakes too. Sometimes, she believed that they were just too young for forever. If they had gotten together a couple of years later, things might have worked out. They would have brought more maturity to their relationship.
If he could just forgive her, maybe there would be a way back for them. With all the time that had passed, surely that would have made it easier for him to forgive her.
She felt love for Jax fill every cell in her body or, as writers of hackneyed romance novels always put it, she loved him with every fiber of her being. She didn't know how she could have ever been uncertain of her feelings.
What did Scarlett have that she didn't? Everything. That was the sad truth. Scarlett was beautiful with a better body. She also seemed to have a way with Jax. She remembered the way they were laughing together at the Charming sidewalk fair and the way he looked at her. He used to look at her that same way. That memory was a stab to her heart.
She had a history with Jax. That gave them a bond that he didn't have with Scarlett. It also could be the reason they would never get back together if Jax couldn't forgive her.
At least she had brains. She had to be smarter than Scarlett. She was a neonatal surgeon. Being smart though might not be a good thing. Guys didn't like smart girls. Jax hadn't been that way, but that was high school.
Gemma used to use her desire for more education as a way to disparage her. She would call her the town's little genius with that nasty edge to her voice. The world, Charming and Jax would be better off if Gemma died.
It would be a mercy killing only instead of the person dying being given mercy, the living would be the ones given mercy because that bitch would be dead. Time had done nothing to dim her hatred of Gemma and the fight at the hospital only confirmed the wisdom of hating Gemma.
Fantasies of sex with Jax gave way to fantasies of a world free of Gemma.