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Little Toy Bikers and a Woman on the Run
Chapter 113 Pages
Tara was continuing to have doubts about Dr. Namid's surgical ability. She wondered if he could be getting early onset Alzheimer's. He was in the middle of doing a routine hernia repair on an infant when there was a moment when he didn't seem to know where he was or what he was doing.
She had stepped in and helped, but the more she saw of his work, the more she wondered. There was a saying among surgeons that community hospitals were where old surgeons were put out to pasture. The more she worked with Dr. Namid, the more she was becoming convinced that he didn't belong in an OR.
A relaxing bath with a glass of wine and then another glass of wine would help put the day in perspective. No patients died and she hadn't gotten into a fight with Gemma. By that standard, it was a perfect day.
Never content to just leave things alone, she had to pick at the scab. She began looking through her old high school yearbook from her junior year. Charming High didn't have a lot of students, so they padded out the yearbook with lots of candid shots of students. There were many pictures of her and Jax together. Back then, they were practically joined at the hip. They were in a thick cocoon of happiness and love. She had really believed they would stay like that forever. She'd also believed in Santa Claus as a child.
Jax still wasn't back from his trip with that blonde slut with the red Corvette. Maybe he picked her up at Cara Cara, the porn studio run by Otto's wife Lu-ann. It wouldn't surprise her. Some men drowned themselves in drugs or drink; Jax preferred women.
She couldn't really fault him. It wasn't as though he had a girlfriend and his wife was dead. He'd get the blonde out of his system and that would clear the path for her if he could forgive her mistakes from the past, if he could forget some of the things she'd said and if he still had a spark of love left for her. Simple.
She knew it wasn't simple. Her heart would race and she felt like she was going to have a panic attack every time she thought about how she might have thrown away her chance at love and happiness with Jax. She just wanted to undo all the mistakes and put their relationship back together the way it should be.
The wine had insulated her emotions a little, so she brought out her yearbook from her senior year to provide more heartbreak. There she could see the strain between them in some of the pictures. He dropped out after the first semester, so there were no more pictures of them after that.
Tara began to cry fearing that she'd waited too long to make amends to Jax and he was lost to her forever.