Loveless belongs to Yun Kouga
(1) This is a fictional work, elements of the original work can be altered for better compatibility with this story.
(2) English is not my first language.
(3) Written in 2010, so old
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I arrived early at school and sat in my usual place. I was more moody and irritable than usual. A thin, insistent rain had been falling since the previous day, giving the world a gray and melancholy air.
I put my arms on the desk, hugged my elbows, and buried my head between them. I was still sleepy and had a little headache.
"Good morning, Yayoi-kun" said a sweet and melodious voice.
I didn't have to lift my face to find out who it was. I would recognize Yuiko's voice even in the middle of a storm.
"Good morning."
Yuiko was my oldest friend. She was a sweet and naive girl, peculiar in her own way, whom I liked very much. I remembered exactly the first time I saw her, and I remembered all the other times we spent together.
She always saw the best in people, even when they could not see anything good in themselves. She wasn't very smart, but she was kind. Kindness that many tried to take advantage of, but I was beside her, protecting her.
I heard a slight sniffle, which woke me from my daydreams. I lifted my face and I could see Yuiko.
She was sitting at the desk in front of me, her head lowered, with the pink hair covering her face. Although I couldn't see her face, I noticed that her hands were shaking slightly.
"Yuiko-san, are you okay?"
"Sure," she replied, looking up and smiling. With the back of her hands she wiped away the tears she never shed.
She stared at me for a long time and then she turned and looked at the window. I followed her gaze and could see the rain outside, a little more intense, wetting the trees and making the day even more gray.
"Were you sad when I rejected you?" Yuiko was still staring at the window, her voice sounded ghostly.
I felt my hands involuntarily close. It had happened a long time ago and we had never talked about it since then.
"I think everyone is sad when they are rejected, aren't they?" I tried to be as neutral as possible, although I didn't know what was going on, Yuiko looked pretty stunned and I didn't need to harm the girl's situation.
"It must have been painful for you..." Her voice faltered, and she flinched in her chair.
It was a spring festival, and we went together. I remember that the trees were so full of flowers that many of them had fallen and huddled on the ground, like autumn leaves. Yuiko wore a dress with prints of cherry blossoms, and she was more beautiful than usual.
I never knew why, but that day I decided to declare myself to her. I had been in love with Yuiko for a long time, since the first time we met. But we were great friends and I was afraid that declaring my feelings would take her away from me. But she liked me, I knew. Always so sweet, so smiling.
I didn't plan anything, the words came out and finally I said I felt for her.
She blushed and said she couldn't, she said several times, like a broken record player, and I had to calm her down. Funny, she was the one who rejected me and was crying. It was painful but we were still great friends, I hadn't lost so much after all.
"This is the past," I said. Yuiko was still staring at the window. Then an indiscreet tear rolled down her face, she covered her face with hands and burst into tears. What was going on?
"Yesterday, I... Told Ritsuka that I love him..." she mumbled the words that I almost couldn't understand.
So she declared herself. My stomach knotted. This is the kind of thing you suspect, but prefer to pretend not to know. From the first day of Ritsuka's class at our school, Yuiko had been around him, like a puppy wanting attention from the owner.
"But he said he likes someone else already," she sniffed.
She had been rejected by Ritsuka. I couldn't hide my contentment, Ritsuka felt nothing for my sweet Yuiko. But I didn't like to see her suffer like that. But what could I say? I found no words of consolation. I leaned over the desk, approached her and dried her tears. Her breath clouded my glasses, but it didn't matter. My presence was so close, it seemed to calm her down a little, as if she made sure that I would never leave her.
"One day, Ritsuka is going to see the incredible woman he lost," I said.
"I think you are the only one who sees me this way. Maybe I should have valued your feelings more".
I felt my heart skip a beat. Maybe I had a chance, however small. I still loved her and she could love me too, now that Ritsuka has rejected her.
"Yuiko, I've been thinking... that maybe, you know… we could-"
But she was not listening to me anymore, Ritsuka arrived. He sat next to her and greeted with that expression he always carried, which meant nothing.
Yuiko greeted him cheerfully, being extremely sweet and polite. She showed her most beautiful smile and her eyes sparkled like I had never seen them before. Yuiko was not weak like me, she would not give up on the person she loved so easily. I knew her feelings, but they were not for me.
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