Retrieving Memories

A Kyou Kara Maou Fanfiction

(Sequel to 'Give Wolfram Back To Me')

Disclaimer: I do not own anything but the plot and my OCs, of course. Otherwise, this wouldn't be a fanfiction. Any resemblance to real life names, situations, etc. is pure coincidence.

All rights belong to Tomo Takabayashi, Temari Matsumoto, and Studio Deen.

A/N : My laptop broke XD XD XD it suddenly went and showed the blue screen of death (in computers) in the middle of a zoom meeting I was in. I tried to take it to repair but apparently they couldn't fix it… well, that's what they said. And so we tried another repair shop but they told us basically the same thing. So yeah, right now i'm just using my phone.

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Chapter 10

Wolfram's POV

"Wolf, can we talk?" Yuuri said as he was holding my wrist, preventing me from getting away and just avoiding him altogether

I stood there for a few seconds without replying, as I was caught off guard. Then I finally said, "Can we talk after lunch? I don't want to ruin my appetite for whatever we will be talking about. I am not feeling my best today but still want to take care of my body properly."

He looked disappointed and conflicted for a moment but nodded and let my wrist go.

"Then let's go to the dining room together," he said and started walking. I trailed behind him without uttering a word, but our silent trip to the dining room wasn't as awkward or uncomfortable as I expected it to be.

When we entered the dining room, there was no one inside yet but the servants setting the table. And so we sat on our respective seats and waited for everyone to arrive. We didn't say a word to each other.

When everyone else entered, we started eating our meal. Light conversations were exchanged during our meal and some good hearty laughs. I also noticed that my food was different from everyone else, maybe it was Gisela's instruction.

If asked, I can just say that I wasn't feeling well and prefer a healthier meal. I also think the others were careful not to mention Yuuri's condition or our marriage. If the conversation seemed like it was about to go in that direction, someone would interrupt and change the topic altogether.

Not that I'm complaining… In fact, I'm glad they're trying not to touch that subject. I want to be able to eat my meal in peace. After I finished mine, I was still kinda hungry so I asked for seconds.

After the meal, the desserts were served, and I am in bliss. Miko-san and the others brought pastries and other stuff from the other world. They even brought chocolate. Oh wow…I'm glad I decided to eat here in the dining room.

"Oh my! It's so nice to see Wol-chan eating so heartily!" Miko-san commented, looking very pleased.

"Oh that… haha. I am fond of sweets. I really like chocolate and it has been a while since I had some. I also really love pastries from your world," I replied with a smile, then eating the last spoonful of my dessert. Sigh… such happiness is short-lived. I already finished mine. I wanted to eat more. I felt like I still wasn't full.

"You can have mine, Wolfram. I haven't touched it," Shouma-san offered, gesturing to his untouched plate. Oh how much I want to accept but I don't want to appear greedy.

"Ah no, Shouma-san. I'm fine haha." I politely said, with a shy face as to not offend him with my rejection.

"No, please have it. I insist. I am not too fond of sweets. I guess it comes with my age." he said.

Then before I could reply, Miko-san squealed lightly and beamed at his husband. She stood up and took Shouma-san's plate and exchanged it with mine. I couldn't even stop her.

Then she said, "Don't worry about it, Wol-chan. On earth, we can always have it. Go and eat your fill. In fact, I will make sure to send Yuu-chan with lots of sweets whenever he comes home so he can take it with him here."

I couldn't reject her and I just smiled warmly at her and Shouma-san. As we all finished eating, we all went about with our plans for the day. I heard that Gunter will be touring Yuuri's family and Bob-san around the capital.

As I exited the dining room and walked for quite a distance, "Wolfram…" I heard Yuuri called from behind me so softly, I thought he was whispering.

Oh right. There's that business, I totally forgot… I took a deep breath and turned around.

"So… where do you want to talk? I'm assuming you don't want to talk out here in the open," I said with an almost sarcastic tone.

"Can we go to your office? Or anywhere where the both of us can talk without getting interrupted…" he said.

"How about my room?" I suggested. In my mind, if ever I need to rest immediately from being stressed from what we are going to be talking about, I am where I need to be.

"That's fine," he replied. And so we made the trip to my room. Again, not a word was uttered.

When we reached my room, we entered, closed and locked the door. We sat on the couch. I took a deep breath and prepared myself mentally for whatevers about to be spoken.

"Yuuri, what is it that you want to talk about?" I started.

"W-Wolf…" his voice is trembling. "Sorry, I'm really sorry. But I can't remember anything." he said looking down at the floor. I never said anything. I just let him get everything out of his system.

"I'm being swallowed by guilt. I don't know what to do. I've been trying to compose myself but I just can't do it anymore. Wolf, please understand… There are months worth of memories that have been forgotten by me. Whatever it is that's happening right now, I can't keep up. I am overwhelmed by everything and it's making me feel very scared," he continued. Now tears are rolling down his cheeks and his hands both clenched.

"Wolf… I am not the Yuuri you know right now that has been with you for the past months. I am the Yuuri that was left in time… I am the Yuuri who was just at his classmate's birthday just yesterday," he was sobbing as he planted his face on the palm of his hands, trying to hide away from my eyes. And tears welled from my eyes as well, knowing full well what is to come.

"Wolf, I'm sorry. Can you please just understand? I - I am not okay. I am mentally exhausted and trying to maneuver my way around the people who still remember the past months. So much has changed and I'm still trying to figure out how to act accordingly. You… You are the person that I had to act carefully around the most. I don't know what to say or how to approach you without you blowing up on me or getting upset. I know that you will feel very devastated… I don't want to hurt you, Wolf." he continued.

"I get it. We supposedly came through and was just about to get married. The plan's on the way, even my parents are on it. Heck, even Shouri is not complaining… that's news to me. E-everything… Everything is news to me. Wolf…right now… I am not the Yuuri who came through with you. I am not the Yuuri who planned to get married to you… So… can we postpone the marriage? Indefinitely…" he said… and I started sobbing softly, covering my mouth with my hand to muffle the sounds that escape.

"Wolf… you… you're okay. Nothing's wrong with you. You're all caught up. Me… I'm not. You know what happened to me too. I had an accident and I don't remember anything. It's as if everything around me changed and the pressure to keep up is crushing me. You understand, right?" I was biting my lower lip as more and more tears fell down. I was sobbing, my shoulders were shaking.

"I…I would be honest with you. I don't know if I will get my memories back. I'm even prepared to continue living as is. But I don't know if I will develop the same feelings as I did back a few months ago that led to us planning our marriage. So what I'm trying to say is… Don't get your hopes up with me, Wolf." he said, still looking down… and it's as if everything I know came crashing down and getting wrecked.

"I hope you can understand me, Wolf. Try to put yourself in my position… please. I hope you won't be selfish and push me into marriage blindly. As I am now, I am not ready. Y-you can wait, right? You don't even have to wait… If you somehow find someone else, I'd be happy to let you go-" I cut him off.

"YUURI!" I shouted as I stood up. "Stop! Stop… stop…please… stop… please…" I was sobbing hysterically. "Out… get out… please… please…" my knees slowly lost strength and i was left kneeling down on the floor.

"Wolf… please. Understand where I'm coming from." he tried to argue.

"OUT!" I was crying out loud. I was a mess.

"Wolfram? Are you okay? I heard shouting…" It was Gisela's voice coming from outside the room.

"Y- you locked your door? Wolfram, are you okay? Open up!" she was banging the door. "Wolfram!"

Then I heard a clicking sound. It was Yuuri unlocking the door.

"Heika?" she was surprised to see it wasn't me on the door. She then looked behind Yuuri and saw my sorry state. "Goodness! Wolfram!" she ran past Yuuri towards me. She embrace me and let my cry on her shoulders… from the exhaustion, I slowly felt myself falling asleep.

Aside from Gisela's words trying to comfort me, all I heard was Yuuri's "sorry" before the door was closed.

(TO BE CONTINUED)