This fanfic is inspired by the song Atlantis by Seafret, it is quite sad so you have been warned, I hope you like it.

Disclaimer: I do not own the Hunger Games.

Effie wasn't as stupid as most assumed, she knew something was going on, too many meetings between Haymitch and Cinna, and between them with the new game watcher Plutarch, that most of the victors chosen for the third Quell had a rebellious spark. .

Adding to all this Haymitch had been avoiding her all this time, even though she had given amulets to games to the 4 of them, since they were a team...

She finally manages to find him one night after the games had started, on the penthouse balcony while he was drinking, lately he was drinking less enough to avoid a withdrawal, but he stayed sober most of the time.

"Is this all then? "Effie asks with a broken voice, trying to hold back the tears that are about to overflow.

Haymitch frowns at Effie's question. "What are you talking about?"

"You've spent all these weeks avoiding me, you don't talk to me, you haven't tried anything even though I hinted at you." Effie explodes, she can't help it.

Haymitch clenches his jaw, knowing that the conversation he feared so much was about to come. "I don't feel like you right now, darling," he says sarcastically.

"So it's true? This is all"

"We were never anything Effie" Haymitch answers with a serious voice, avoiding Effie's gaze. Plutarch and Boggs ordered him to end whatever he had with Effie. It would be safer for her if she had no ties to him due to the start of the rebellion. Although he knows that those words will break Effie's heart, it is the best decision he can make right now to not risk her.

"Not for me, you know," Effie murmurs hoarsely. "Haymitch I..." she tries to say the words that know what will make him run away, but at least they will provoke a reaction in him.

"I told you not to do it, I told you not to fall in love with me, you were a fool to do it, you know that I have only loved one person and you are far from being her..." Haymitch says quickly while drinking his whiskey.

Effie is left speechless as she quickly feels how her cheeks are soaked by her tears, her heart breaking, she always knew that she should not fall in love with Haymitch, but in recent years she believed that something of this had changed, that her feelings could not correspond to him. the same size as her, but at least something...

"I hope I never see you again," she says while walking as quickly as possible to his attic room so he can fall apart in his privacy...

She knew that from the beginning when she started having a relationship with Haymitch, he was never going to want her for anything other than sex, it's a capitol, he hates the capitol, he hates her... "I was such an idiot," Effie mutters to herself. herself while she bursts into tears feeling her damn heart break for the first time, she cries while gasping for air "he was never going to love me, he hates me"

Haymitch approached the door as he heard Effie cry, his own heart felt tight in his chest, his bile rose to his throat. For years he had been avoiding hurting Effie on purpose, he doesn't like to hurt her or see her cry...

Finally, they manage to win the war or well that's what Plutarch tells him, although for him they didn't win anything, they had to kill innocent children to win... He still feels disgust every time he remembers that. When they managed to rescue the other victors there was never any news from Effie, since that last conversation they had in the attic, from that day on she never saw her again. Or to know about her.

"Sir, we have found Effie Trinket," says a soldier.

Haymitch quickly stands up and goes in search of her, while he feels his stomach turn, he has a bad feeling, he knew that he should not believe Plutarch, he should not leave her, she would not be safe in the capitol, Snow knew about their relationship, and Snow knew about their feelings…

Because if life is so fucking ironic that until he was in 13 and asked for information about her and they said she was missing, he knew that something was wrong that she was in danger, because of him, because he couldn't accept that he loved her and take her to thirteen with him, fight Plutatch with Coins until he was granted immunity, he had to leave her and break her heart while breaking his too...

Each time they got closer to the prison, Haymitch wanted to kill everyone who had hurt her. They finally arrived where Effie was. Upon entering the cell, he saw her on the floor, without even a hint of what Effie was...

"Please, wake up darling," Haymitch murmurs in her ear while placing a soft kiss on her forehead for fear of hurting her, she is so delicate, so fragile, like a staff doll that the slightest sudden movement will end up broken... Although Haymitch knows which already is

He holds her hand as he sits in the same chair in the hospital room of the mansion where he has spent as much time as possible.

For the first time in weeks, Haymitch feels a light squeeze on his hand. "Effie, Effie, sweetheart, I'm here, you're safe, no one will ever hurt you again," he begins to repeat, feeling happy because Effie may wake up... At that, the machine that is connected, your heart starts to make noise...

"No, Effie," Haymitch shouts when he feels some guards pull him away while a group of doctors enter.

"Sir, please stay away," the doctor shouts as he watches how he begins to try to get Effie's heart to beat again...

"I'm sorry," the doctor murmurs. "We couldn't save her," he says, leaving to provide privacy.

"No, no Effie, no princess, don't go, you can't go," Haymitch shouts, feeling a pain that hasn't happened in 25 years...

The same thing can't happen again, he can't see someone he loves leave again, he hates himself every time he loves someone that's the end of him, crying over the dead body...

"I couldn't save you... I couldn't save us," he says apologetically as he brushes Effie's cheek. "I love you Princess, sorry for never telling you."

"Sorry for not saving us"…