A/N: Okay so, this One Shot is from ROGAN 3: Moving On! It's right after Rory and Tristin leave Logan's after helping him sober up a little. I hope that you guys enjoy it. Let me know if you have any suggestions.
I'm an Idiot
I sat there and watched Rory walk out. Once again I had pushed her away. Tristin stood up from the table and followed her. I heard the front door open and slam shut. I sat there and continued to drink my coffee. A few minutes later, I heard the door open again. A few minutes later, Colin and Finn walked in.
They sat at the table with me. "Dude. Seriously?" Colin said.
I looked at Colin and then I turned and looked at Finn. He was sitting there shaking his head. "What do you want me to say? I've already screwed up. Rory and I are divorced. I've lost her for good. She's dating my cousin." I said.
"Okay so why can't you go back to trying to be friends with her." Finn suggested.
I rolled my eyes. There was no way that would happen. Rory hated me and why wouldn't she after the way that I've treated her. She deserved better. It would take a miracle for her to want to be friends with me. "There's no way that would happen. Guys, I've screwed up way too many times to even keep count anymore."
They both nodded. "Why were you drunk this time?" Finn asked. Finn had stuck by Rory's since before Rory and I had even gotten married. I know that deep-down he had hoped that they would have ended up together.
I shook my head. "I was looking at pictures of me and Rory from Yale. Then I came across our engagement pictures. When I did, I started thinking about the conversation that Tristin and I had before the wedding. It was after Rory ran into Lizzy at the Plaza. I started thinking that maybe I should have called off the wedding." I told them. "I thought about all the times that Tristin had talked about the girl from high school that he had fallen in love with. I realized that he had completely turned his life around in an attempt to be the best man that he could for this girl." The guys nodded. "I don't exactly know how it happened but I started to realize that their were similarities between Rory and the girl that Tristin kept talking about."
"And come to find out they were the same person." Finn said.
I nodded. "Yeah. I should have realized that they were the same person but I guess I didn't because we never talked about her time at Chilton. And I guess if we had talked about it then I would have realized that it was Rory that Tristin had been talking about all those years."
"Logan, you can't beat yourself up over this." Steph said. I hadn't even heard her come in.
She walked around me and sat beside Colin. "Logan, I want you to listen to me. Last year, Rory, Honor and I took a trip to The Hamptons. While we were there, Rory and I talked. She told me that she was tempted to come home to you…but the thing that stopped her was that she was afraid that you not only wouldn't end the affair but that it would happen again." Steph told me.
"So what your saying is that she was thinking about coming back home to me?" I asked Steph.
Steph nodded. "Yeah she was but then the day before we came home she told me that if she went back to you, that she was afraid that you would do it again." Steph said, shaking her head.
I nodded again. "You guys, I'm an idiot. I guess I always have been when it comes to Rory. I have loved Rory since the first time that I saw her, even though it took me a while to admit it to myself. I kept telling myself that I could be the man that she deserved. But then my Dad sent me to London. Don't get me wrong, I talked to Rory as much as I could but I was missing her as much as she was missing me… I just didn't want to tell anybody. Then I met Bobbie. I told her that I had a girlfriend back home that I was in love with but… there was something about the way that she looked at me. It was almost like the first time that I kissed Rory, if it makes any sense."
"Logan, I know that your hurting seeing Rory with Tristin… but don't you want her to be happy?" Steph asked.
Steph was right. Even though Rory and I were divorced, I loved her so much that I really did want her to be happy. Even if that meant she picked my cousin to be with. "Guys, I'm an idiot." I said.
The three of them nodded. "Yep." They all said.
