TW this chapter looks at baby loss and miscarriage

Leaning back in the hard armchair Kate could feel her eyes drooping, the dim lighting of the ward along with the soft music playing was making her feel sleepy along with she had no idea what time it was.

"Thought I might find you here" a voice came from above her

"Mike?" she said rubbing the sleep out of her eyes. "What are you doing here" she asked

" Well, I was visiting my uncle. How long you been here?" he asked

"Umm what time is it" Kate asked stretching out a knot in her back

"Just after 5" Milke smiled

"All day" Kate said rubbing the back of her neck.

"Come on it looks like you could do with sleep, dinner and coffee and not necessary in that order" he said "come on" he held out his hand pulling her to her feet

Looking over into the crib Mike smiled seeing the little duck snuggly in the crib. "didn't lizzie have one like this" he said lifting it up

Nodding slowly Kate picked up her bags. "Yeah, I managed to find it this morning. I can't believe you can still get them, and they look the same" Kate said

Heading out they made their way to a little traditional pub that was close to the hospital. They had to wait till the dinner menu started but they ordered drinks. once they could order food Kate ordered the sausage and mash and Mike ordered a Mixed Grill perfect for any carnivore according to the menu

It didn't take too long for their food and despite the warnings on the menu of the dishes being cooked in separate kitchens they both arrived at pretty much the same time. Kate sat quietly cutting tiny bits off her food

"Everything alright?" Mike asked looking over

"hmm" Kate replied

"Your food, is everything alright" Mike asked again

"Yeah, it's alright" Kate said quietly.

Finishing their meal, they walked slowly along the esplanade watching as the sun set. shivering slightly with the evening chill Kate stopped looking over the water. Taking his jacket off Mike draped it over her shoulders.

"Everything alright. You have been awfully quiet all evening" Mike said

Pulling his jacket tighter around her shoulders she turned looking over at him.

"Do you ever think what Elizabeth would be like?" she asked looking up at him.

"what's brought all this on?" Mike asked

"I don't know. I guess with everything that has happened over the last few days and with what knocker said it's just got me thinking and I was looking through some pictures last night. so do you think about what she would be like?"

"I can't say I have" Mike said softly looking over he could see it wasn't the answer she was hoping for.

"In my mind she has wild blond hair that she never lets you put up and eyes the colour of a storm out at sea that grow darker when she has a Tanny" Kate smiled picturing the daughter they had lost "she is a water baby; you can't get her out of the water. When she isn't in the water her nose is in a book. She is forever covered in scrapes from climbing trees or beating up the boys that picked on her" she said softly looking up at Mike

"She sounds a lot like her mother" Mike smiled "what about Thomas?" he asked

Turning to look back over the water, swallowing back the tears that were trying to escape. "that's trickier as by the time I realised he was there it was too late" she said biting her lip to stop herself from crying. "I only see him as a toddler, but he has green eyes but Is the spitting image of his father" she smiled looking at Mike his blue eyes glinting in the low light " and when he laughs which is at almost everything, he has this dirty laugh," she said trying to picture him in her mind "and he loves ducks especially feeding them at the park "

Wrapping his arm around her Mike pulled her close he kissed the top of her head. "Kate" Mike sighed, feeling his phone buzz in his pocket. Pulling it out they both saw the name on the display.

Pulling away from Mike. "Thanks for dinner" Kate said quietly handing him his Jacket back before running back up the esplanade to where her car was parked. Of course, it would be her it made a lot of things make sense why she was always trying to belittle her.

"KATE!" Mike called. Pressing reject call he ran after her but couldn't catch up and by the time he reached the car park she was nowhere to be seen. Sighing as his phone buzzed again, he rejected the call pulling his own keys from his pocket.

Knocking on the door of her apartment Mike smiled as she pulled open the door, her cheeks stained with tears.

"at least I knocked this time" he grinned

"What are you doing here?" Kate asked

"You just ran off. I wanted to make sure you were okay"

"I'm Fine" she lied

"Kate "Mike sighed stepping closer

"we're divorced" she said as he placed his hand on her cheek brushing away the tears.

"We didn't have to be" Mike said

"Yes, we did. After everything I couldn't give you a family..." she turned away

"You were all I needed" he said softly lifting her chin, so she was looking directly into his eyes. "We could have worked through the rest." he said leaning in

"Mike" she whispered pulling away, looking up into his eyes unable to catch her breath as he leaned in...

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