"That's not fair." Hiccup pushed the god away.
"Not fair? What's not fair?"
"It's different for him."
"How? How is he in any different situation than you are?" The god looked at him confused.
"It's different for him okay? It's easier for him. He could do this by himself. In a different life, he could find someone else, he could lead our people without me. I don't ever wonder what he thinks about being the only Night Fury because he deals with it better than I do. Do you want to know why it's not fair? It's not fair because, because I can't do this without him. He could do this without me, but I can't. I need him. I'm broken without him. That's why it's not fair. He doesn't think about it all the time. He isn't reminded of it everyday that he's totally different than anything else. At least he looks like the other dragons. It's not like I hate what I am. I did choose to be like this so I can't complain. But even when you lead a group of others and they treat you differently, it's hard. The only one who treats me normally is Toothless but of course he does. I don't know. Maybe I'm too sensitive to it. But when you're treated differently your whole life. So much so that it becomes normal, that's not fair.
He is in the same situation as me, but you can't say it's not easier for him. And he doesn't have to worry about it. If I make a mistake and it affects my people poorly, one of the reasons is that is always brought up is because I'm like this. Because I'm not truly like them.
I've been the Alpha of the dragons that live in Helheim gate for almost a year. And since that my takeover no one has died because of my plans or ideas. The only dragons that have died are the ones who got to close to the villages we're watching or from accidents I had no control over. But everytime it happens that point is brought up. Can someone who isn't one of us, lead us? Does he have our best interests in mind? Why wouldn't I? I do understand why some think that I wouldn't. I don't understand the reason behind it. Toothless and I go to Helheim because we know it's the only way to be safe from my old village. We go there with the sole purpose of taking out The Queen. If we were going to be safe than we had to do something dangerous. How is that fair? I shouldn't have to run, and fight, and kill just so that I could find somewhere that would accept me. I had to find someone, who wasn't even my species, to be my friend. It had to be a dragon who accepted me as me. But what about your dad Hiccup? Surely he would accept you, he is your father after all. You'd think that. But you'd be wrong. It's pretty funny. The whole time I lived on Berk all he wanted was for me to become this big, strong, feared leader. Well look at me now. I'm the biggest, scariest leader in the whole world. And everyday I make new connections, make new allies, make new plans, my reach extends more and more, and my power grows, and grows. But because I don't attack villages, because I don't call anyone out, because I'm not looking to make a statement, they won't ever know." Hiccup steadied himself and took deep breaths.
"And some of us still think you're cute." Toothless dropped his head next to Hiccup, who jumped.
"Toothless! What the? When did you? How?" He stopped. "How much did you hear?"
"Enough." Hiccup looked away, ashamed.
"Sorry."
"What are you apologizing for? There is no reason to apologize." Toothless assured him. "If you're going to apologize so someone it should be our guest. You didn't exactly answer her question." He turned to the woman enjoying the hot spring. "You want to know why Hiccup hasn't come to me about being the only one of my kind? You want to know how I deal with being the only Night Fury? I don't. I don't think about it. I don't care that I'm the only Night Fury. I don't care if I'm supposed to be this special being. I do not care.
What I do care about is how my human feels. I do care about the issues he has. I focus our relationship on him, so that the others want to include him. The problem with what Hiccup is that they're scared of him. We may not be superstitious but when we see something unnatural, it can make them antsy. They'll listen to him but only a few of them will do anything else. Most won't even train with him. I don't know how many times I've been asked if he's safe to be around. That's crazy to me. He's not contagious.
Everyday I work towards getting them to accept him as he is. I want them to see that he wants them to succeed. He wants to see our people flourish. I hope that, in time, our dragons learn to accept him. Learn that although yes, Hiccup isn't like them, or anything else, he is on there side, and he wants to see that they aren't killed. I think that they will, it'll just take some time or there's something we're overlooking that would just make it click for them. I don't know.
And I don't think that Hiccup is wrong when he says that he's the most powerful leader. We have a lot of our own, and we've met with a few other Alpha's who, like many others, don't trust him or even me in the beginning. Though when they learn of what we did and what we intend to do, they come around.
At least that's what I tell myself." The dragon smiled. Hiccup jumped on him, squeezing his whole body around toothless in a giant hug. He dug his face into the back of Toothless' neck. The goddess exited the spring and walked up to the couple.
"Well I'm off. I have some things that I have to deal with. Know that I will be watching, and I will come check in on you again some time. I am very happy to say that you both have grown a lot and you should be proud of that.
Hiccup I want you to try and stop worrying about what you are and focus on who you are. It sounds like your people trust you but are confused about you. I don't know what it's like where you live but maybe try to include yourself in things. I know that sounds like you're invading their activities, but I think that if you show them that you want to fit in then they'll see passed your exterior.
Toothless, I love that you focus so much on your mate, but you must realize that a relationship is supposed to be about the both of you. I know it's easy to bottle it up, but it can hurt you, or your mate. Even if it's small, venting is good. Hiccup isn't going to leave you if you complain. He loves you just as much as you love him." She smiled softly to them both as she walked off into the forest.
