"What the hell are you doing here Matt?" Willow repeated, feeling all the anger, the hurt the resentment she had towards him building up inside her. "You look good Wills. Ive been looking for you for months. I miss you and the girls. I never thought you would have moved on and with..." Matt replied as he took a step towards Willow, who automatically stepped back. "Wills, im sorry. I made a really really stupid decision and ive regretted it for a long long time. I lov..." he said as Willow cut him off. "Dont. Dont you dare say it. You hurt me in the worst way possible. You abandoned me when i needed you. Harry has been my rock for a few months now, and yeah shes my girlfriend. I dont want to see you, so just get out. Leave " she replied as he stepped towards her again, pleading "please Wills. I want to make it right, I know i did you wrong. Did the girls wrong. I just want a chance Willow, please. Can I at least see Jas and Rubes?" "Matt, its late. The girls are asleep and im not waking them. As for me, no more chances. I cant do it. Im done. I want you to go Matt" "Will, please. Im begging here. Can i stay and see them in the morning?" "Matt, you cant just turn up and expect everything to go back to the way things were. You made your choice, now go. GO!" Willow said as she forced Matt out of the house. As she closed and locked the door on him, she heard him on the other side, "im not going to give up Wills. I'll be back in the morning hopefully we can talk then"

"Wills? You okay? Talk to me Wills" Harry asked as she put her arms around Willow who was shaking. "I'll be ok Harriet. I just want to know how he found me? We havent spoken in almost 9 months." Willow said as she leaned into her girlfriend for support. "I think he was shocked by us though. Dont think he was expecting me to have the most amazing girlfriend" "What did he even want?" Harriet asked as Willow took some deep breaths to calm herself. "He wants to make it right, with the girls and me. He says he still loves me" she said sighing as Harriet held her and asked "Does he know about your..." "No. No he doesnt know. I dont want him to know either. Ive got an appointment tomorrow afternoon, and his arrival has thrown me" Willow replied, cutting her off. "I need a drink. Something stronger than coffee right now" Willow said as she walked into the kitchen, followed by Harriet who stood in the doorway and watched as Willow poured out a whisky and drank it in one go. "He really has got you shaken hasnt he?" Harriet said as Willow poured another. "He also doesnt know that im drinking again, and i'd like it to stay that way" Willow said as Harriet nodded and said "hes not going to hear anything from me Wills. But how do you feel about him seeing the girls?" "I'd love for them to see him. But Jas still has so much resentment towards him, i dont want to force her to spend time with him if she doesnt want to. Ruby barely remembers him so i'd love for them to rebond. I'll talk to them tomorrow" Willow replied as her phone vibrated on the table. "Matts at Thom and Lukes" she added as Harriet asked "How do you feel about him being across the street?" "Im ok with him staying there. Hes close to the girls and for him to get a hotel this time of night he;d have to go into London. I'll call mom in the morning, she if she knows anything." Willow replied as she kissed Harriet, before taking her hand and leading her upstairs to the bedroom.

"Hey Thom, isnt that Matt outside Willows place?" Luke said as Thom joined him at the window. "Yeah it is. After the way he treat Wills this last year, I wonder what he wants?" Thom replied as they watched Willow close the door on him, his face crestfallen as he turned away. As they watched him begin to walk away, Thom ran out and called out "Matt? Is it really you?" "Hey Thom, you look good. You and Luke doing good?" Matt asked, not quite sure on Thoms motives. "We're really good. We saw you at Willows place. You got somewhere to stay tonight?" Thom asked as Matt shook his head and said "I was hoping Wills would have been nice enough to let me stay and see the girls in the morning but she turned me away. She looks so thin, so skeletal almost. Yet to me, she was beautiful " "You are staying with us. I know it wont seem like it, but i think it'll make Wills happier knowing you're nearby" Thom said as he and Matt headed indoors.

"Hows he doing Thom? Ive messaged Willow to let her know hes here" Luke asked as Thom entered the room after showing Matt the spare room. "Hes devastated. He really though he could work it out with Wills" Thom said as they heard Matt coming downstairs. "Hey Matt, how are you doing?" Luke asked as Matt sat. "I really thought we could have at least talked. I never expected her to be in a relationship, let alone one with another woman" Matt said sadly "I just wish there was a way i can make it right with her and the girls. Wills just looked pissed and hurt that i was even there" "You still love her, dont you?" Luke asked as Matt nodded and replied "I never stopped. Even when i was with Reby, Willow was all i ever wanted" "Matt, you know shes been through hell this last year? I dont think she was expecting you to turn up on her doorstep out of the blue either. Just give her some space and time. She wants you to have a relationship with the girls, she would never stop that. Let her come to you once shes calmed down" Thom said as Luke added "Harriet has been really good for her. Theyve been pretty much inseparable since Harriet did Willows shoot last year" "What shoot did Willow do? Ive not seen anything shes done and what hell has she been through?" Matt asked as Thom said "Wait there, im sure ive got a copy of the magazine somewhere" as he scurried off to find it, Luke said "This shoot was incredible. I think Ruby must have been around 6 maybe 7 months at the time of this shoot. Its the riskiest shoot Willows ever done. As for her hell, thats not for me to say. Its her story to tell, but it got pretty dark for her for a while, Harriet really saved her." "What the hell did i do to her?" Matt sighed as Luke said "You know shes barely spoken about you and what went wrong" "I broke her, didnt i? I abandoned her. Turned my back on the girls. I pushed her and the girls so far awayand now theres probably zero chance for us to be a family." Matt replied as he stared out of the window at the dark house across the street.

"Willow? You ok? Youve been tossing and turning for hours" Harriet said quietly as Willow let out a huge sigh. "I just dont know why hes turned up after all this time. How he even found me?" she said quietly as Harriet put her arm around her. "Matt? I know its come as a shock but i do think you should talk to him. Even if its just about the girls and your..." she said as Willow shook her head. "Hes not finding out about that. I dont even know if i want him around. Not after what he did. Just seeing him stood there, it killed me. It brought everything from the last nine, well almost ten years back" Willow said as Harriet asked "Do you still love him?" "Honestly, there will always be a part of me that does. He gave me two amazing, beautiful daughters. I'd love for them to be a part of each others lives, it'll be easier with Rubes as shes younger but Jas has already been through alot. And after what that bitch did to her, she lost alot of faith and trust in Matt. I'll talk to her in the morning. I wont tell her hes here, but see how she feels about maybe talking to him. I already know she misses everyone back home" Willow said as Harriet kissed her forehead. "Its entirely your choice Will, but i do think you need to clear the air with him. I saw they way he looked at you, I felt the tension between you. You really need to talk to him" Harriet said as Willow kissed her. "Im just glad i have you here with me. I dont think i could have dealt with him alone. I think i just want him to sign the papers and go" she said kissing her again, before saying "you know, we've got a few hours before Rubes will be awake, want to have some fun?"

Over the road, Matt was also having a restless night. He had finally found the love of his life in Willow after looking for her for 3 long months. As soon as he saw her he fell for her all over again, but he couldnt get the image of her and Harriet kissing out of his head. Why did i ever cheat on her? How much of an idiot am i to have thrown away everything we had? Wills looked so beautiful. A little thin and pale, but fuck shes still perfect to me. The magazine shoot she did, the one that Thom and Luke showed me, ive never seen her expose herself like that, both physically and mentally he thought to himself as he sat in bed, looking at the house across the street where she was. I feel like theres something else she didnt want me to know. Shes holding back, whats she hiding? the questions spinning in his head. I fucked up that day, not her. I should have just talked to her. Heard her out, instead ive missed out on almost a year of Ruby. Jas hates me and Willow cant even look at me. I love them and miss them. Why cant she see that? Then she kissed her? I dont understand how, all of a sudden shes in a relationship with a woman he thought, the jealousy creeping through him. Do the others know her secret? DID they know about her girlfriend and not tell me? Is she the reason the others stopped talking to me? Or did they know Wills secret? Im going over there in tomorrow and im not leaving until ive seen the girls and talked to her he told himself as he stared at his former wifes home for the remainder of the night, wondering what she was doing.

"Hey Jas, come here for a sec. I want to talk to you about something" Willow called to her eldest daughter the next morning, as she came skipping into the living area. "HI MOMMA!" Jasmine said loudly as she stood in front of Willow, a huge grin on her face. "What is it momma?" she asked as Willow smiled at her and patted the space on the sofa next to her, indicating for Jasmine to sit next to her, which she did. "Jas, you know its been a long time since you saw and talked to dad. How would you feel about maybe talking to him?" Willow asked, not wanting to let Jasmine know Matt was across the street. "I dont know mommy. He hurt me after my trip to the hospital" Jasmine said as Willow put her arm around her. "You know im never going to force you into it Jas, its entirely your choice" she said, before being cut off by her cell. "Oh great" she muttered under her breath as Harriet came downstairs with Ruby. "Everything ok Wills?" she asked, seeing the frustrated look on her face. "Sitters had to cancel. And we have to leave in like ten minutes" Willow replied adding "I dont know where im going to find another one, especially this late and i really dont want to be dragging them to the appointment" "Have you thought about you know who across the street?" Harriet asked, handing Ruby to Willow as she nodded "Only as a last resort. I dont want to force him upon the girls. Jas is still fragile about him" she said as there was a knock on the door. Willows face dropped when she saw Matt standing in front of her as she opened the door.