MUGEN
Invaded
Once again, I get that miserable sensation saying I'm going to lose you, and albeit my head tells me it's nothing but a temporary resentment, they still resound in my ears, and my heart, the words you said to me before leaving.
I hate you.
I guess one can be despicable even if one tries to be good.
I lacked the words to tell you I was happy to be with you, that you not knowing how to cook one vegetable didn't make you any less precious to me. However, I ended up saying everything wrong.
"Leave it. You don't know how to do it. We'll eat with Kaede."
"Don't tell me that." You complained, and the air's scent took on a salty hint coming from your tears that appeared an instant later. The desperation that usually boards me when I see you cry, took hold of my words.
"Fool, why are you crying?"
And that blew it all up.
It happened three nights ago, and since then you haven't slept here.
Miroku attempted to reconcile us. I went with him to Kaede's cabin and tried talking to you, yet none of us thought of you not being willing to forgive my words.
Today is a new moon, as if wanting to make everything more dramatic, and I feel my heartbeat spreading throughout my body just before changing. I look at my hand, aided by the hearth's light, and see my claws disappear, the same as the visible strength of my hands, giving way to more human characteristics.
I look around me, we've been living in this cabin but a few weeks, yet every space illuminated by the hearth reminds me of you. The folded futon in a corner, the herbs you've left to dry by the window, the way in which you like to stack the logs we use for our home. It's all you.
The door opens, I stand up in one jump and see you appear. I didn't hear you arrive in the middle of the silence of the night, and my senses no longer aid me beneath this dark sky. You look at me from the door. I should say something, yet I don't know how to start. Your gaze drops to your feet and I can't smell the salty scent of your tears, but as your shoulders shake slightly, I know you are going to cry.
It only takes me a few steps to reach you, and I embrace you with all the strength I have. I know I'm squeezing the air out of you, yet I press you an instant more and relax my hold before telling you what's been circling in my mind since you left.
"Don't ever leave me."
I notice your arms surrounding me and holding me on my back. I feel a deep relief in the heart that has remained caged inside my chest these days, prisoner to uncertainty.
"I don't care if I have to eat raw roots with you, or to have to grill fish every day in this home." I confess." I just want to be with you."
You've began to cry, and amidst your tears you seek my lips, your kiss reminding me just how marvelously invaded I'm of you.
A/N
Just a fragment of this InuKag life building I'm doing.
Thank you for being with me,
Anyara.
This text is possible thanks to the translation of: Dezart
