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Don't let her see you cry..don't let her see you cry..
That's all that keeps going through my mind as I enter the barn. Everything inside of me is screaming at an image of her wrapped in Xena's arms.
I should have known better.
I should have seen this coming.
But I didn't.
And the urge to cry is too much.
My mind keeps shifting from the look that I had seen on her face to that of Elaine's.
Gabrielle's beautiful emerald eyes that I had looked into - praying that she would deny Elaine's words...that at least she hadn't been keeping me a friend for her own private joke! But her eyes held something that I never expected directed towards me.
Guilt.
I think my heart stopped as I realized what it all meant. I tried hard to fight the tears then. But when my eyes turned back to Elaine's...and I saw the tears gliding down her own eyes, I realized that Elaine was crying for me. For me!
When I had looked back at Gabrielle...it had hurt to see the look on her face. Not denying that it was true...not denying that she could never love me.
It was what Elaine said next that hurt more than anything...the one thing I hadn't been expecting...I'm such an idiot.
I should have known that Gabrielle was in love with Xena! I should have seen it!!!
I've never felt more betrayed...more hurt and pain than in that one moment.
I look up from the barn floor and Gabrielle is standing with her hand caressing her horses head, between the animals eyes as they stare back into Gabrielle's, almost hypnotized by her. I don't blame it...I know what it's like.
"Gabrielle..." I whisper. I don't think I have the actual guts to speak loud right now. Especially since I feel like its hard to breathe at all.
Gabrielle jumped slightly and removed her hand from her horse, quickly she wiped her eyes and sniffled, trying to get a grip on her emotions. Turning she slowly looked up to find Joxer standing a few feet in front of the door.
The lack of his armor and hat caused her eyes to widen slightly and her fear of the events that had occurred to rise. Joxer never went anywhere without his hat.
Things were changing way too fast.
The Amazon Queen knew that his loving her would change everything...but Gods not this fast...not with another woman turning him against her. Not like that. Anything but like that.
Pain in her chest returned as her thoughts of this situation continued to run through her mind.
The young male friend couldn't raise his eyes to look at her, looking at her made his heart ache horribly, so he kept his eyes on his feet.
"I'm sorry I hurt you Gabrielle. I...I don't...I...I wasn't thinking straight and...and I never wanted to hurt you." Joxer stuttered out with a quiver in his voice.
Gabrielle's heart clenched as she realized he wasn't looking up at her on purpose.
Gods he can't even stand the sight of me anymore!
Gabrielle had never felt a wave of self disgust more than in that moment. After all the things that had made her doubt her self worth...nothing compared to that moment when Joxer wouldn't even look at her. Trying to keep herself from getting hurt, Gabrielle tried to dismiss what was happening.
Why do I care?! It's Joxer!! I'm not in love with him. He's just the same old self proclaiming, highly obnoxious, egotistical JOXER!!!
Something close to calm settled over her after that thought. Her hurt from seconds ago moving to anger - her fail safe emotion. And then something in her snapped, as if she just realized who exactly it was that had thrown her across the road not but an hour ago. Striding quickly to Joxer she fell back on how she use to handle Joxer...she would never know how wrong a move she had made.
"OWWWW!!!!" Joxer yelled out as Gabrielle's firm grip on his nose made him almost crumble to the ground. The force of the twist making his knees buckle nonetheless.
"If you EVER try something that stupid again, I'm going to bash you to death with my scrolls!!!"
And even though Joxer had been through this hundreds of times, even though the physical pain she caused him was superficial, Joxer actually cried as she continued to twist his nose. The most horrible thing though...was that Gabrielle didn't seem to care. Never before had this act made him feel anything less for her. Yet...today...in that moment - something happened that no one expected.
Joxer realized Gabrielle had never even loved him as a friend. And his love for her...began to fade.
Aphrodite didn't know who to go to.
If she went to Zeus he would flip! Never had anything like this happened! Plus there was the whole rumors of the twilight swirling around at the moment that made her doubt that anyone would even believe that Elaine was just a coincidence at the moment.
It didn't really matter though. Not only did she not belong here...but Aphrodite had felt the heat wave of love leaving the girl...and it left traveled toward Joxer! Aphrodite had dismissed it at first...thinking that the girl had not known Joxer at all to have those feelings. Assuming that she was under another God's spell or something.
Never in a million years had the Goddess realized that not only was the love she felt for the loving dolt strong...but it was going to disrupt the waves that Xena, Gabrielle, and Joxer had towards each other. When Elaine had explained to her where she was from...and the request to speak with Joxer...Aphrodite knew that she was in MAJOR trouble.
Immediately she had gone to her son Cupid, asking if he knew anything about any God bringing a human from another dimension. Cupid knew right away that his mother was not only serious...but almost...well...scared.
"Mom I doubt this Elaine is any real danger. I mean...if she's from the future and she knows anything about us at all, she'll know that messing with Xena and her friends will only lead to trouble!"
"I don't know Cupid." Aphrodite said with a very adorable look of worry on her face. "You didn't feel the love vibe this chick was throwing Joxer's way! It felt...it felt..."
Cupid's eyebrows furrowed as he realized exactly what his mother was trying to say.
"It felt pure." Cupid concluded for his mother with a look of concern now forming on his face.
Aphrodite gave Cupid a look that could only be described as a fearful look of confirmation.
"O. K. That's not good..." Cupid began when suddenly his mom gasped out and a face of pure pain passed over her features.
Cupid was immediately at his mother's side...grabbing her before she could fall.
"MOM! MOM!!!" Cupid tried to shake his mother as the most fear he had ever felt gripped him in such a mortal way that he actually didn't know what to do.
After a few seconds though Aphrodite drew in a shuddering breath and then began to gasp as if she couldn't get enough air into her lungs.
"Mom are you ok?!" Cupid asked as he held his still gasping mother in his arms, a look of fear so obvious on his face that even through the pain Aphrodite caressed his cheek as she continued to pant.
"I'm ok." Aphrodite whispered to her baby boy.
It didn't stop the fear from consuming the god of love.
"What happened?! I've never seen this happen to you before." Cupid asked as he lifted his mom in his arms, cradling her like she was a baby.
"It never has..."
Cupid made a decision then. With a flash he was no longer in his plush home filled with light and love...but in the dark dank abode that was home to his father...though he never even called him that. Uncle was the word that he had always used...but he needed his father at the moment. Holding his mother in his arms he spoke with a clear voice into the darkness around him.
"DAD!!"
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