I had never slept well in the past when Dom was not with me and not knowing where he was made the longing for him even greater.
[Letty Pov]
Every time I fell asleep with fatigue, the initially beautiful dream that dealt with dom and me, sometimes also with Little B. quickly turned into a terrible nightmare, from which I woke up screaming in panic.
Meanwhile, I was very grateful that this submarine owned this retreat here and no one noticed how much this spatial separation from my husband really hurt me.
I still couldn't quite believe that Rome had been a trap ...
…and that this bastard was aiming to separate our whole family from each other and, to make matters worse, even Dom and me.
That was what made me sad, especially since we had sworn that something like that should not happen again, and yet it had happened.
I was torn out of my thoughts by a knock on the glass door.
But I didn't react to it because I just wanted to be alone.
I didn't know if I had found it more beautiful in the prison cell in the secret prison in which it was quit or in this cabin that was more comfortable and without cameras or voice recording devices.
But the knocking tore me out of my mind.
The knocking didn't stop and I heard the voice of Dom's Abuelita say: "Letty please, let me in"
I briefly considered whether I should really let her in or whether I should leave her in front of the door.
I then decided to let her in because she had also been there a lot for the family and also for me in the past.
So I pressed the lock of the door via the button on the remote control and eagerly hoped that she was the only one standing in front of the door.
And luckily she was the only one who had stood in front of the door.
When she saw me she came through the door and I locked it when she stood in my cabin.
She looked at me worried and asked: "Does it bother you just as much as when Dom was in prison?"
I looked at her and said: "It's worse than back then"
That's all I wanted to say, this uncertainty hurt my heart too much.
She sat down next to me and took me in her arms.
And I realized that it was good in the chaos that she was here.
I didn't know how long we sat like this until she said: "Live holds many surprises for us, many don't like us, have negative effects on us and some are the best thing that can happen to us."
She looked into my eyes and now said: "You miss Dom terribly,
I see that in your eyes, the uncertain gnaws at you and that you can't see him because you don't even know where he is,
doesn't make the whole thing any better.
He certainly didn't tell me everything when your son came to you, but tells a lot that you went through separately from each other, but also together.
I know that you are trying not to let anyone else notice you, but Letty, you are now a wife who misses her husband, which you have been dating for over 20 years.
You are allowed to show your feelings, that does not make you weak but stronger because only the one who offers space to his feelings can show true greatness."
She detached herself from the embrace and pulled a A chain with heart-shaped pendant from around her neck, with a photo on which Dom and I were seen with Little B on the back was engraved 'Mi familia siempre en el corazón' and hung it around my neck.
Then she looked at me and took my hands in her hands and said: "I know this chain with this pendant was a christmas present from you to me but, my heart says you need it at the moment more than i do, I know you have experienced a lot of suffering and loss in all these years more than most families,
but you have built a wonderful family.
Hold on to it Letty and never lose faith that good things can happen to you again.
Keep the family and all those who are family for you are always in your heart and you will not lose your way."
It was a long time ago that she had surprised me with such emotional words and brought me back to the ground of the facts and had given me strength again with her words.
And now she suprised me again.
But she was right, it didn't help me at all.
She handed me a handkerchief and said: "Letty maybe you should distract yourself a little, and I have an idea with what, when you wiped your tears, of course!"
Only now did I notice that I had cried and so I wiped my tears away.
I got up and straightened my clothes, while I was doing this I said: "You're right, something distracting could do me good"
So I followed Abuelita to the room where the others were sitting, where Abuelita spoke for me: "Letty needs distraction, I think you can do well to spend a little time screwing a car!"
I felt a look at myself and as I looked up I saw that Giselle looked at me a little admonishing and was just about to say something.
But I got ahead of her and said: "I already know what's good for me and just sit and hope that everything will be good doesn't do me any good, I'm taking care of myself, don't worry" Giselle just nodded and got up herself and led me into the holding room of the submarine….
to be continue...
Author Note: I hope you like the new chapter. And I can say with great certainty that the next chapter will also come this week.
