Matters of the Heart

C5: Mother Lover

Standard Disclaimer: I don't own any of the recognizable characters

Bella's POV

When I woke up the following morning, I was still nestled between Rosalie's breasts, and I could swear she was purring. "I must've done something right to get you to purr this early in the day."

Rosalie smiled and kissed the top of my head. "I tend to purr when I'm really happy, and last night was the best night I've had in a very long time."

"I can honestly say that I felt the same, no offense to Alice of course." I said softly, although I knew the Pixie could hear me.

"She won't be offended love. She was very honored that she could be the one to take your cherry. She had no real expectations of that night, if anything you really surprised her. I also realize we forgot to talk about something else last night." Rosalie said with a soft smile.

I smiled at that. "Well, I was kind of exhausted after last night, so you're forgiven. We have time now though if you still want to tell the story."

She smiled and pulled me into a kiss. "Of course I do. It's only a good thing if you know what is in store for you tonight. Sharing a bed with Esme is truly a unique experience."

"Alice told me that she never spent the night with Esme." I said softly.

Rosalie smiled at that. "That is because of her visions. She saw that it wasn't the right time and that Esme should spend the night with you before she could. It would be better for our bond. Esme knows and understands even though she wishes that all of us had good skinship before everything went awry with Edward. It would've presented a more united front against Edward and Carlisle. In the end it doesn't really matter though, because I'm sure you wouldn't have been so comfortable with everything so quickly if we hadn't followed Alice's vision."

"Sometimes I wonder how she hasn't gone insane from those visions yet, but I'm honestly glad she can provide us with these insights." I said with a soft smile.

"Alice agrees with that, and the reason she hasn't gone insane is because she never forces them and never looks at multiple people's futures. And of course she has plenty of things to occupy herself with." Rosalie said with a smile.

I smiled at her. "She can hear us, can't she?"

"No love, all of our rooms are soundproofed to give us at least some sense of privacy. Having supernatural hearing can be a pain sometimes." Rosalie said softly.

I smiled at that as I rolled off her to cuddle into her side. "I'll believe that when you say it. How well can you actually hear. I'm awfully curious."

"How about I tell you that after I told you about my first time with Esme." She said with a soft smile.

I nodded and got comfortable against her, which was not all that hard to do since she was incredibly comfortable to lie against.

Rosalie smiled and wrapped an arm around my waist. "The first time I was intimate with Esme was shortly after I had sex with Alice, and I certainly didn't expect what was to happen that night. Granted my experiences with sex were very limited, one being with Alice which was very passionate and the other I would rather not think about right now. Esme's capacity for love surprised me a lot and I knew I was in for something special that night. She assured me that it was all about my pleasure and she did very much deliver on that. I've never felt more loved before that and only once since, which was last night."

I smiled at that. "I'm not surprised to be honest. She is so loving and caring on a normal day. I can see that only being amplified in the bedroom."

"She is one of the most loving people on the face of this planet, but let me tell you that nothing could prepare you for the extent of that love when you share a bed with her. I have a feeling that Esme will want to make it extra special for you tonight. I think you will be the one worshiped tonight." Rosalie said with a loving smile.

I felt my face heat up from that. "I don't know if I'm ready for that, but I can't back out now, not after promising her that I would."

Rosalie smiled at that. "She'll also want to spend the day with you, to get some true alone time with you, and I have a feeling that she will take away all doubts you might have for tonight."

I smiled at that. "Honestly, I'm very excited to spend the day with Esme. I truly wonder what she does on a normal day."

"Since we have to go back to school today to keep up appearances, you'll have plenty of time to get to know her properly. Victoria mentioned needing to pick some things up before our trip next week, so she'll probably be gone for most of the morning too." She said with a soft smile.

I smiled at her. "Why do you keep putting yourself to the torture of infinite high school and college? Once is bad enough in my opinion."

Rosalie laughed lightly at that. "It's mostly to keep up appearances love, something Carlisle kind of forced upon us because he was our Coven Leader. Esme is more than happy to let us draw up our own plans in life. So I think that this will be our last time having to do high school."

I smiled at that. "I'm glad that I just have to do high school once. Since I already know what I want to do with my life, besides build something with all of you of course."

Rosalie smiled and kissed me as her head snapped to the door. "I think we should make our way downstairs, because Esme is getting impatient to start her day with you."

I just smiled and nodded as I gave her another kiss and then rolled out of bed to get dressed.

Esme's POV

I'll admit that I had been anxious for most of the night, especially when I heard the sounds from Rosalie's bedroom. Soundproofing only did so much after all, and it had left me quite frustrated. That was probably the reason I had called out to Rosalie once I heard her laugh at something Bella said.

Five minutes later they came down, with Bella looking like she had enjoyed last night a lot, which I couldn't help but smile at. I knew from first hand experience how Rosalie was in the bedroom, and I only hoped that she had kept her promise and kept it tame for our young love.

"Good morning sweetie. Did you have an enjoyable evening?" I asked with a soft smile as I held my arms open for a hug.

She smiled and stepped into my arms. "Yes Esme, I loved every minute of it, and I can't wait to spend the day and night with you."

I smiled and pressed a kiss to her cheek. "The feeling is absolutely mutual, Bella. I have a fun day planned for us."

She smiled as Alice flitted into the room, giving Bella a hug. "Good morning Bella."

Bella just smiled and returned the hug before giving Rosalie a hug too. "I would say have fun at school, but I know both of you have done it too many times to count already."

"Don't worry about us Bella. We'll have plenty of fun hearing people talk about why Emmett and Jasper aren't here and we are, or why you aren't back yet." Alice said with her signature light up the room smile.

Bella smiled at that. "I supposed that would be enough to keep it entertaining."

They both smiled and gave her a kiss before they made their way to the garage, leaving me and Bella alone in the living room. "Before we do anything else, I made breakfast for you. I figured you could use it before we go shopping for decorating supplies. Your room should reflect you after all."

She smiled at me as she took a seat at the kitchen island. "Thank you. I don't think I've ever been allowed to pick out my own decorations before."

I couldn't but give her a sympathetic smile. "Today you can pick whatever you want Bella. You deserve to have a place to call your own where you can relax, now and when you are turned."

She smiled brightly at me as she dug into the pancakes I had made for her, and I just couldn't help but smile at her as she enjoyed her breakfast, which warmed my long dead heart.

I knew that she still had a ton of questions and I was fully prepared to answer them all, since I refused to lie to her anymore. She had enough of that with Edward and Carlisle and we would never add to that.

Apparently I was so lost in my inner thoughts that I didn't even notice Bella had already finished her breakfast and was looking at me expectantly. "Sorry sweetheart, I didn't mean to ignore you. I was a bit lost in thought."

"That's okay Esme. I'm still a bit uncomfortable with everyone watching me eat." Bella said with a slight blush.

I smiled at her. "I can understand that sweetie, but I don't think I've ever explained why we do this. It's not out of fascination but for a need to soothe our inner vampires. They've been denied for months and they do not take that well. It is a need to be close to you for as long as we possibly can. A lot of it is instincts that we can't control, or are still working on controlling."

She smiled at that. "I figured as much, but it's a human reaction to be self conscious when we're being watched while we eat."

"We'll try to be less obvious about it sweetie. Would it help if we ate breakfast with you?" I asked softly.

"You don't have to if you don't want to. I'll get over it in a couple of weeks." Bella said with a soft smile.

"I know Edward led you to believe we can't eat, but that's far from the truth, all of us enjoy to eat something every now and then. It just doesn't much for us, we just enjoy the taste."

She smiled at that. "When I hear things like this I just wonder how much they actually lied to me about."

I smiled at her as I took her empty plate and glass. "Everything darling. They lied to you about everything. Which is part of the reason we've been so adamant on informing you on everything in our world. There is still a lot of information to be shared of course, but I think over the course of the day we'll be able to make good progress in getting you up to speed with everything you need to know."

Bella smiled at me as we relocated to the living room, where she to my surprise took a seat in my lap and resting her head on my shoulder. "Sometimes I wish there was a manual or something. That would make things so much easier."

I laughed lightly and pressed a kiss to her cheek. "You're not the first to say that, my sweet, and I doubt you'll be the last. There is something like a manual though, it's in the Archives in Volterra from what I've heard. One of the advisors to the Queens was a historian and took it upon himself to document every aspect of vampiric life. I never met him unfortunately."

"So you've been to Volterra before?" Bella asked softly.

I smiled and nodded. "I have, many times in the last two thousand years. I'll tell you about it when we get back. It'll take a little while to tell everything and my relationship with the Queens."

She nodded at that as she relaxed against me, both of us more than content to stay like this for a little while longer.

Bella's POV

Two hours later we got out of Esme's car in Seattle, where we would do our shopping for today. I was pretty sure that this wouldn't be as crazy as it would be with Alice, but given that Esme was probably even more dedicated to my happiness than Alice was, anything could happen today.

I was also very glad that Esme at least drove normally compared to Rose and Alice, which I supposed she did for my benefit.

Our first stop was of course a home decorating store, and while I was sure it was going to get some crazy looks, I just couldn't help but take her hand as we walked.

She smiled sweetly at me and gave me a wink as we made our way through the aisles. "So sweetie, what did you have in mind for your room? We've got tons of options available."

I smiled at her as I thought about it. "Definitely no wallpaper, because while I never got to pick anything for myself with either Charlie and Renee, they did force me to do my own decorating, and it was always wallpaper. So if I never see another roll of wallpaper again, it'll be too soon."

Esme smiled at that. "Then we'll stay well away from wallpaper sweetie. I'm sure we can find the perfect color for your walls in the paint department. Do you have any preferences?"

"I wouldn't say I have a preference, but I have always loved lighter colors of green, so perhaps that with blueish accents." I said with a soft smile.

Esme smiled at me. "You have a very good eye for decorating yourself it seems darling. That is a very good combination."

I blushed a little at that. "Thank you, I've always had an eye for aesthetics but I never really got to use it for anything, since no one ever really trusted me with making my own choices on that, even though I was forced do make every other decision from a very young age."

"Sometimes I just want to go and give your mother a piece of my mind, even though I know it would be pointless, since I've learned long ago that you can't make unreasonable people see reason. It makes my heart bleed to know everything you've been through in your life." Esme said softly.

I smiled at her. "It's okay Esme. I've stopped caring about my parents a long time ago. All that matters is us and the life we will build together. I have a feeling you will be able to say a few things to Charlie though, because I just know he will come to collect me at least once with the help of the wolves, since he is too much of a coward to do anything by himself."

"Why would he though? He made it abundantly clear that you weren't welcome at his house anymore."

"Because technically I'm still his problem until my eighteenth birthday, and him being the controlling man he is, he sees me as his property until that time."

Esme growled softly at that. "You are not his. You're ours and we will defend what is ours with everything we got."

I'm not going to lie, that soft growl did the state of my underwear no good, because while it was very possessive. I could practically taste the love behind the statement. "I know that, and you all know that, but he won't accept it. Charlie is a gigantic homophobe, and a polyamorous relationship is one of his biggest taboos so chances of him flipping his ever loving shit over this are pretty high."

Esme pulled me into her side and smiled at me. "Still, we'll keep you safe little love. There is no way that we would let you get hurt ever again, either physically or emotionally."

I smiled and pressed a kiss to her cheek. "I know, and I love you all for it, can we please not think about my parents today. Today is supposed to be a day of making happy memories."

Esme smiled and nodded at that. "Of course love, I'm sorry. I did not mean to bring the mood down. Let's go and pick out some things for your room."

I nodded and gave her hand a squeeze as we walked through the aisle, eventually settling on a sky blue color for my walls and a light yellow for accents.

After this we made our way to another department in the store to pick out some new furniture, including a new bed, since Esme admitted that my room didn't have one yet.

I didn't mind that, since I figured that I would be spending the majority of my night with any of my four lovers in their beds, although I will admit it filled me with a strange sense of pride to be able to make love to any of my vampire lovers in my own bed.

We spent almost an hour picking out a bed, where I had to dissuade Esme from some really extravagant choices, because really, who would need a four poster bed in this day and age.

She had merely smiled at me and we had eventually settled on a dark oak bed with shorter posts on each corner, something she assured me was going to come in handy at some point.

That statement had made me blush because of its implications, but I also couldn't help but be more than a little turned on, again.

After also selecting a desk, chair and even a sofa, we made our way over to the lunch court, where she indulged my wish for junkfood, surprising me even further by ordering a burger and fries herself.

Esme's POV

By the time we were back home, the others had already returned, or so I thought when I saw a note from Alice. 'Went shopping with Rose and Victoria, we'll be back later tonight. Have Fun xXx, Alice'

I couldn't help but smile at that. "It seems we have the house to ourselves tonight sweetie. The others have gone shopping and won't be back until late."

"I'm not surprised to hear that, they probably don't want to pry too much." Bella said softly.

I smiled at her. "We can take this at any pace you're comfortable with sweetie. There's no rush."

"That's just it, I'm ready for this. Today showed me that I can easily see you as both a mother and a lover and that nothing has to change, besides the obvious." Bella said sweetly.

I couldn't help but pull her into my arms when she said that. "I'm glad to hear that, and I can't wait to see if your sisters were right about what they said, although I have a feeling they were."

She blushed a little at that. "So they told you about what happened."

"No sweetheart, I could feel it in our bond. I feel the emotions stronger because of my gift. We usually don't talk about the intimate times we have with each other, although mine have been very limited the last couple of centuries." I explained softly.

Bella smiled at me. "I know, Rosalie told me about that night you two spent with each other, and why you didn't do the same with Alice yet."

I smiled at that. "Yes, although I have a feeling it won't be far off now. Now that you've started to accept the bond you share with us, Alice will be bursting at the seams for a chance to strengthen her bond with me."

Bella giggled at that. "I would say to prepare, but I think you'll be fine."

"I know exactly what I need to do to please Alice, sweetheart. You won't have to worry about that." I said softly.

Bella smiled at me as we made our way upstairs. "Could I have five minutes to do some necessary maintenance? I kind of forgot to shave my legs this morning."

"Of course sweetie, while you do that, I'll put the things we bought in your room, so I can start decorating your room while you are getting busy with our latest lover." I said with a wink.

She blushed prettily at that. "I want to help at least a little bit, it wouldn't be right if you did everything."

I smiled and nodded before kissing her. "I'll let you help with putting together the furniture, I'm rather particular about painting."

She nodded at that before making her way to her bathroom, while I went back downstairs to collect the things we had bought, for once using vampire speed to make sure it was done before she got out and I still had time to change into something more comfortable. I had seen she was still very nervous and I wanted to do do everything in my power to lessen those nerves.

I had just changed into a loose top and shorts when Bella walked into my room, wearing nothing else but a pair of blue panties and a tightfitting tank-top, clearly without a bra because I could see her nipples trying to poke a hole through it, and for the first time in nearly two thousand years I was stunned silent by her beauty and sheer sexiness.

"Well this is certainly unexpected. You look beautiful darling." I said softly.

She smiled as she crawled onto the bed and kissed me. "Alice and Rose told me of what to expect with you, and I just couldn't help but try and entice you just a little."

"Consider me enticed, lovely. You look absolutely gorgeous." I said as I pulled her into my lap.

She smiled and leaned in to kiss me, and I just couldn't resist the temptation anymore. I had been denied our lover for too long and I just needed to show that I could provide her with the same pleasure as Alice and Rosalie did.

Bella moaned into my mouth as I deepened the kiss and I just couldn't help lower us down to the mattress. "I don't know how long I can stay in control, Bella. I apologize in advance if I come across a bit strong."

She smiled at me. "I'm ready for anything you can give me Esme. You don't need to hold back anymore. I trust that you will never hurt me."

I smiled at her. "None of us can hurt you, our bond won't allow it."

Bella smiled and wrapped her legs around my waist, pulling me flush against her body, and that little show of possession on her part was enough for me to let go of any worry I might've had about even accidentally hurting her as I slipped her top off, teasing one of her erect nipples. "Your nipples are so stiff already darling. I can't wait to find out how they taste." I said before doing exactly that.

She moaned loudly and tangled her hand in my hair as she rocked her hips against me, which shot another spike of pleasure straight to my core and I couldn't but growl playfully at her. "Please Esme, let me taste you too." She said with an almost needy moan.

I smiled and kissed her as she squeezed one of my breasts through my top, and becoming impatient, I just ripped it off.

Bella smiled and gently squeezed one of my breasts. "So beautiful. I can't believe how big your breasts actually are."

I smiled and kissed her softly. "I've never been one for tightfitting outfits like Alice, or for those formfitting outfits Rosalie likes. I like to leave a bit of mystery." I said softly before I resumed my journey down her body, my need to pleasure her by now overwhelming every other sense in this moment. I also couldn't take it slow anymore because the moment I was between those glorious thighs I ripped off her panties, getting an adorable squeak from Bella, which was followed by a loud and long moan as I started eating her out.

She tasted heavenly and I tried everything to make this as pleasurable as I possibly could for her, and therefor quickly lost myself in pleasuring our lover, and by the way she kept scratching my scalp, she was enjoying it very much.

I was so lost in pleasuring Bella that I didn't even notice how the coil snapped and she moaned out her orgasm, and only when she tried to push me away I noticed how she had basically melted into the mattress, with a very satisfied smile on her face.

I smiled at her and kissed my way back up her body. "I take it you enjoyed yourself little one?"

She nodded and smiled at me as she pulled me into a kiss. "Immensely so Esme, and if you can give me a few minutes to recuperate, I'll gladly return the favor."

I just smiled and nodded. "Of course love. I've waited months to share this with you, what is a few minutes more."

Bella smiled and crawled on top of me. "Good, because I don't think I've ever been pleasured better than just now."

I couldn't help but feel just a little bit smug about that fact and I suppose that showed in my smile.

Bella just smiled and kissed me before she kissed her way to my breasts, teasing and kissing my nipples in alternating rhythm, which was a very new experience for me. Rosalie had been very straight forward in her pleasure, but it seemed Bella really was the breath of fresh air we all needed and had searched so long for.

After a couple of minutes of lavishing my breasts with her tongue, she kissed her way further down my body while at the same time sliding down my shorts. "You don't know how long I've dreamed about lying between these endless legs of yours. Reality is as always better than anything my dreams could come up with."

I merely smiled at her before moaning as she slid two fingers into me, setting an immediate steady rhythm as she also lapped at my clit, and it was only now that I started to realize that we would not be leaving this room until morning.