Chapter 11: Finally
Santana's POV
*Monday 27th April 2020*
"Not to steal your quote or favourite Taylor Swift song but, you too are the best thing that's ever been mine" Brittany shrugs at me. I've got to say I'm extremely taken aback by all of this. I had no idea Brittany liked me and had feelings for me. It honestly never came across like that each time I tried to open up to her.
"That's not my favourite Taylor Swift song. In fact, I don't even like Taylor Swift" I tell Brittany. I know she has a lot of fans out there but I'm most certainly not one of them. I've heard the odd song of hers on the radio or something but I don't voluntarily go out there and download her songs and such like. I mean I'm not saying she's a bad singer because she's good, I just don't have any interest in her.
"Really, that's your response right now?" she asks me in disbelief.
"I honestly didn't think you were into me Brittany" I admit. "I've tried to talk to you before about things and you literally didn't seem to be into me. I mean at times we were close but I just assumed that was because of our situation" I add.
"I would say our situation is a big part of it because it has brought us closer together" she tells me.
"Yeah, I mean when we started our fling or whatever you want to call it, I wasn't into you. It generally did start as just having fun and a way to pass the time and probably hide our feelings of loneliness" I point out.
"Yeah, definitely" Brittany nods in agreement. "I think the biggest part of me falling for you was after we had to make that decision. Looking back, I guess I did start falling for you before then but the abortion and everything was the significant moment I realised, this isn't normal" she adds.
"Exactly" I nod. "A big decision like that is likely to bring people together and I guess it did with us" I tell her. "I do want to ask though, why did we get an abortion if you felt like you were falling for me. If you felt like that about me then why didn't you want me to have our baby?" I wonder.
"Because we're not ready. Like I said the other week, I would be ruling with my heart and not my head. I would love children but you and I weren't in a position to bring a child into this world together. We are nowhere near figuring out our shit and to be honest with you, I don't think we would have truly realised the magnitude of what we are if we didn't go through with the abortion" she explains.
"I think I see what you mean. It seems like quite a drastic thing to do to make us see what we had wasn't normal but I guess it has made us realise what's going on" I state.
"Don't worry though, I'm not going to like pounce on you or anything and impregnate you again" she tells me. "I want children in the future but I want them to come into my life at a more appropriate time."
"Me too" I nod. As much as we both like each other now and there's a great chance of us getting into something serious, children are nowhere near right now if we can help it. We have too much shit to figure out first.
"I don't think I need to explain much more on this subject because what else is there to say. I like you and I have feelings for you. It's maybe a shock to you but it's not totally out there after how close we've been and what we've been through together" she tells me.
"I agree" I nod. "I didn't think you did have feelings for me but in a way, I thought you should have regarding everything so we don't need to go through everything when it's clear what's going on" I shrug. I don't like talking about feelings all the time so I'm happy to leave this here because I like Brittany and Brittany likes me. It can't really become any clearer than that.
"Exactly" Brittany smiles.
"We do need to take a step back though and really do things properly now. Just take some time to maybe get over things personally before we rush into anything. We're still recovering from this situation so I think we need to just take some times to ourselves and work on our friendship first" I point out.
"I totally agree because I'm not ready for a relationship right now but I'm totally open to it when things settle down" she states.
"Me too" I smile. "Perhaps we just focus on work at the moment and getting back to that place where things were fun and we didn't constantly overthink everything" I suggest.
"Exactly" she nods. "We started off as working together and everything was so much fun at work and we became friends. I want that back right now and then we build on things from there."
"I couldn't put it better myself" I smile. As much as I really want to try a relationship with Brittany since we do feel the same, it's not appropriate right now. We need to work on ourselves and get back on track with who we are. I mean only the other day; I walked past a pregnant woman and then went back to my office and cried. That is not the definition of a well together person.
"I think though that expressing my feelings to you has been a big weight off my mind so maybe things will get back to normal again. I think a lot of the tension and stress inside me was because I was afraid of how you would react" she states. "I must say, you have reacted a lot better than I thought you would have. I thought you would run away and hide or something" she chuckles.
"Maybe a couple of months ago I would have done that but not now. You and I have been through too much recently that it's made me realise what I really want now" I admit. "I mean I'm still not a huge fan of talking about feelings and I probably never will be but it's made me realise, I'm not a teenager anymore" I state. I know I'm far from a teenager in number but I did act like that and not really put my whole heart and soul into relationships.
"Yeah, exactly" Brittany nods. "The days of fooling around are gone and its now time to work on ourselves, date, begin a relationship and then settle down etc. etc." she adds.
"Yeah" I nod. "Now, I'm not trying to cut this conversation short but it is still midday and we have work to do. I also wouldn't mind getting some lunch because I have had nothing to eat today" I state.
"Yeah, Jack and I were just talking about getting something to eat. I'm guessing he's sorted himself out now since he isn't here but maybe you and I could grab something together?" she suggests.
"Sounds good but we can't go far because I have things to do" I point out.
"How about you do your things and I get us something and bring them back to your office and we can eat together?" she asks.
"That'll work. I'll see you in my office when you're ready" I smile.
"Ok" Brittany smiles back before gathering her things and leaving. I do the same and head back to my office.
When I get to my office, I re-do my make up before spraying some deodorant and changing my shirt. I then spritz myself with some perfume which I think Brittany likes on me. I know we said we would work on ourselves first but this is where it all begins. The two of us having lunch together alone in my office is like a little mini date so I want to make sure I look my best. We're not going to rush each other into anything but I definitely think we should be starting on the right foot so I want everything to be working well from here on in. I want to make an effort for Brittany even if we're just two friends and work colleagues eating salad together right now.
I'm just looking through some work things on my computer when my office door swings open. This time the swing is a lot less severe than it's been previously. Brittany then walks in carrying coffee and a paper bag which I presume contains lunch. She kicks the door closed behind her and walks towards my desk. She places the items on my desk before pulling up a chair to sit across from me. She is just getting the food out of the bag when she stops and stares at me for a second.
"What?" I ask confused. It's actually a little intimidating having someone stare at you like that, especially when they're not like smiling or anything.
"You look different" she points out.
"Do I?" I ask nonchalantly. I know I do but she doesn't need to know I know I do. "A bad different?" I query.
"Definitely not. You could never look bad" she tells me. "There's definitely something different about you compared to when I left to get lunch. I mean…wait you've changed your shirt, haven't you?" she adds.
"Yeah I did do that" I nod.
"Yeah because the blouse you had on earlier was quite low at the neck, right?" she states.
"You noticed that, huh?" I smirk at her.
"It wasn't that I was looking below your neck for a long length of time. I just happened to notice the blouse you wore and how it did show some cleavage. The one you have on now is nice too but it doesn't show just as much…you know cleavage" she says, beginning to fumble on her words a little as I smirk at her.
"Well, yes, I did change my blouse" I smile. "The heat in that conference room was unreal so I came back here and freshened up a little" I shrug.
"You've also redid your makeup and put on more perfume because it's stronger now that it was before" she tells me. I've got to say; it really is sweet how she has noticed. I've been with people before and I would literally be naked and they still couldn't tell the difference.
"I also did that, yes" I smile.
"Anyway, lunch" Brittany says before laughing as her stomach grumbles.
"I'm hungry too. I'm surprised my stomach hasn't done that yet" I smile. Brittany then sorts out lunch and we begin eating together. Whatever we are right now or will be in time, it doesn't matter right now because we are at work and we do need to keep things professional when we can so we have ended up in a discussion about work as we eat.
"Hey, did you ever hear back from that dance school?" Brittany asks me curiously. I did a presentation a while back that Brittany helped me with to present to the school in the hope of me designing the outfits for their children's competition.
"I did and they declined. They found some other fashion company to do it" I shrug. It's a part of this business really. Not everyone will like what you produce so sometimes these things happen. I've got other projects I can work on and make money from. I really won't lose sleep from this sort of thing when it's common in business. You win some and you lose some.
"I don't know what company would be better than yours" Brittany states annoyed.
"Brittany, it's ok. We don't need that work; we have plenty of other things" I smile. I love that she cares about my business like this though. She could easily just work on my accounts and finance and then go home at night without a care in the world since she has a fixed salary each month. I depend on my company for my income but since she works for me then she will always have a salary for as long as she has a job.
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*Friday 1st May 2020*
Things have been good between Brittany and I recently. We've been hanging out and working on getting things back on track again. We are still taking things slowly at the moment because we want to make sure we do this right. We don't want to do anything that'll fuck it up because it means something special to us and we're serious about each other. I've finally realised that Brittany is the one for me so I don't want to do anything too soon to freak her out.
"Any plans for tonight?" I ask Brittany as we finish going over my budget for my next product launch.
"Not really" Brittany shrugs.
"No plans on a Friday night when you have the weekend off?" I smile.
"Nope. Not a one" she shrugs again.
"Do you want to go out for dinner with me tonight then?" I ask her.
"I can eat dinner. I can always eat dinner" she smiles at me. "Where are you thinking of taking me and are you treating me?" she asks.
"I asked you so of course I'll pay" I smile. "I haven't decided on the restaurant yet but I'll pick you up tonight and you will find out when we get there" I add.
"Sounds good" she smiles.
"We'll probably done for today now so let's wrap things up" I say. We finish what we're doing and then I log off my computer and lock up my office. "I'll walk you out" I tell Brittany.
"Cool" she smiles. "I just need to go back to my desk and grab my things and then I'm ready" she tells me and I nod. Once she does get her things, we head out to the parking lot.
"I'll pick you up about 7pm tonight, cool?" I say as we reach our cars which happen to be parked next to one another.
"Yeah, 7 sounds fine" she smiles.
"Awesome, see you then" I say before getting into my car and speeding away. I'm on a little bit of a tight schedule because I want to get home quickly so I can get ready properly for my date with Brittany.
Once I get home, I run inside and begin getting ready. I strip off my clothes before taking a shower. I then pick out something to wear before calling the restaurant I want to take Brittany too. I want to make sure they have a table available for us. I then do my hair and makeup before getting dressed. I'm not too bothered about drinking alcohol tonight so I'm just going to take my car and pick Brittany up in that. I grab my purse and keys before heading out, locking the house up first before getting into my car and heading to Brittany's place. I get there a little earlier than planned so I decide to go inside and knock on her apartment door instead of waiting in the car.
"Hey" Brittany smiles as she opens the door to me.
"You almost ready to go?" I ask her.
"Yeah" she nods. "I just need to get my keys so I don't lock myself out and then we can leave. It would be a little tricky to go to bed tonight if I can't get into my apartment" she jokes.
"You could always just stay at mine" I shrug.
"Uh…yeah, that's true" she laughs nervously.
"Are you ok?" I ask confused. Why is she so nervous right now? I get that we're just new to dating each other and doing things properly but we always hang out so why would she be nervous?
"Yeah, I'm fine" she nods at me.
"You just seemed nervous for a second there" I point out as we walk downstairs to my car.
"I was just surprised at your comment, that's all" she tells me.
"Oh, I didn't mean anything weird by it. I just meant we've hung out at my place a lot before so if anything ever happened, you're always welcome to crash at mine" I say. I wasn't trying to pressure her into anything right now because it's still a sensitive topic after the abortion.
"Ok, cool" she smiles.
"Anyway, let's get to this restaurant because I'm so hungry right now" I say as we reach my car. "It's a favourite restaurant of mine so I've been starving myself all day in preparation for this" I add.
"All day?" Brittany queries. "You just asked me to dinner before we finished up work so why did you wait so long if you had planned on asking me all morning?"
"I was just picking the right moment because Jack was all over you today" I tell her. I'm not jealous but it is hard to ask someone out on a date when someone else is there hanging around. Brittany and I are keeping things quiet for the moment so I didn't need an audience when I asked Brittany to dinner.
"I guess that makes sense" she smiles at me. "So, do I know the restaurant?" she asks curiously as I drive off to the restaurant.
"I'm not sure" I shrug. "You and I haven't been here together before but you might have been with friends or family before that I don't know about" I add.
"I'm sure I'll like it anyway. You're always good at finding nice restaurants and cute little coffee shops so tonight should be fun" she smiles.
"It will be fun because it's you and I hanging out" I smile back at her.
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*Wednesday 13th May 2020*
It was a tough day at work today because two of my employees, including my assistant, handed in their notices. They are moving on to better things allegedly so I'm now two members of staff short. I just told them to finish up today and I would pay them for their notice period. Like I have done with many staff before them, if they don't want to be here then I won't keep them here any longer so I just tell them to leave right away. I'm confident this is a great organisation to work for so on the one hand, I don't know why they would want to leave. Brittany did point out though that my former assistant was better than an assistant so we get why she was leaving. She is a young woman with a family to support and I must admit she is very intelligent so probably an assistant post was a little beneath her.
"Are you still pissed about today?" Brittany asks me as she hands me a glass of wine and then sits down next to me. She invited me over to her place to hang out tonight. Secretly though I think she just wanted to make sure I was ok after today. It's not a huge deal to lose two staff members but since this company is my everything, I hate when things change.
"A little" I admit. "What is so wrong with working for me?" I ask.
"Nothing" Brittany smiles at me.
"I know I'm hard on my staff but that's only because we need to run efficiently. I pay them all well and they have many benefits working for me" I state.
"I know that but you have to remember, this is not everyone's life. This is just a job to them. Like I said, your assistant deserves more than being an assistant. These people want to progress in their careers and do what they love. You have your own business where they don't, they just work for a company. Many people want to try different things and experience different roles" she points out. "I mean it's like me working in the grocery store. I did that to help my parents put me through college but it wasn't my dream job and when I got my degree I moved on" she shrugs.
"My company is nothing like a grocery store. I mean I pay better for starters" I say defensively.
"I didn't mean it like Santana" Brittany sighs. "No offence but do you honestly think your assistant had planned on running behind someone her whole career. She deserves more than sitting behind a desk running around after someone especially when she has a college degree of her own she could use?"
"I'm not that bad to work for Brittany. I mean you've lasted all year" I state.
"Please stop taking what I'm saying to heart. This isn't about you but about other people. Would you be satisfied being someone's assistant?" she asks me.
"No of course not. I am a very successful fashion designer so why would I want to…oh" I say when I realise what Brittany means. I guess they have goals of their own that they want to achieve.
"Exactly" Brittany smiles at me. "It's not about you or your company, it's about individuals making something of their life. You're a great boss and it's a great place to work but it's not everyone's idea of the perfect career" she adds.
"Ok" I nod. We sit in silence for a moment. "Would you ever leave SL Designs?" I ask curiously. I doubt she would since I'm there but I'm curious to see what she says.
"I don't know, maybe" she shrugs.
"I beg your pardon?" I say shocked. I never expected her to say that because I thought she would always want to stay because I'm there.
"Don't worry, I'm not handing in my notice or anything right now" she laughs. "I don't know what the future will hold though. I mean I'm only 24 years old so in the future I might want to progress my career that bit further" she adds.
"In what way? I mean you're already my head of accounts and finance and I pay you a lot so what more would you want?" I ask. "Would you leave to go to another company?" I state.
"No, I wouldn't go to a competitor" she assures me. "Although, in the future I might want to have my own accounting firm or something. I could be my own boss and have my own company" she smiles.
"Technically you are your own boss because you couldn't go any higher at my company" I state. "You're the head of the department so you are the boss."
"You're like the big boss around work though" she shrugs.
"Big? I'm big?" I question offended.
"I meant like the highest boss there is or whatever. I didn't mean in any way you were big physically" Brittany replies. "I can sense we might have a disagreement here so perhaps we should change the subject" she suggests.
"I just never thought you would leave" I shrug.
"You don't think I should progress my career and have my own firm?" she questions.
"I didn't say that. I just thought you were happy working for me" I say honestly. I really did think she quite liked how things were going.
"I love working for you Santana but surely you can see why I might want to have my own firm. Surely you think I'm capable of that or am I just another employee that doesn't have any ambitions for the future" Brittany sighs.
"You were right, we are about to have an argument" I say, sighing too. We're both getting so defensive now and I don't like this turn in the atmosphere.
"You clearly don't think I have my own future plans and ambitions" she shrugs.
"It's really not what I meant Brittany" I say shaking my head. "I just really like working with you so I'd hate that to change, ok?" I add.
"I get that but I also want to do something with my life and I think having my own firm is something I might like to do. I actually thought you would be a little more supportive since you know what's it's like to be at the top of your career" Brittany replies.
"I'm sorry, I do want to be supportive" I say while squeezing her hand in reassurance. "I would just hate us not working together but maybe that is selfish of me" I point out. I want Brittany to do well and do what she loves but honestly, I don't want to lose her from my business or lose working with her.
"Look, it wouldn't be for a while yet so maybe we should forget about it right now and talk about something else" Brittany suggests.
"Good idea" I nod.
After hanging out and talking for a while, I decide it's time to head home. We're both working tomorrow so we don't want to have too late a night. I'm also getting quite tired from my stressful day so I would like to go home to bed. I ordered a cab not too long ago so I'm now just getting ready to leave. When I pick up my things, Brittany walks me to the door. She was going to walk me downstairs to the cab but I insisted she didn't need to do that.
"Thanks for the wine and hospitality tonight. It's been fun" I smile at Brittany. Things did start off a little awkwardly but we were back talking in no time like nothing went down so it was fun hanging out.
"It has" she smiles back.
"I should go but I'll see you at work tomorrow" I say before kissing her cheek. "Goodnight Brittany" I smile.
"Uh…goodnight" she says surprised as she blushes. I didn't realise a kiss on the cheek would make her blush so much but there you go.
"You're blushing" I say amused.
"See you tomorrow Santana" she says embarrassed.
"Yeah" I smile before heading towards the stairs. Brittany watches me the whole way and waves just before I turn the corner and then we're both out of sight of one another.
Brittany's POV
*Friday 15th May 2020*
Santana and I have sort of started up our friends with benefits thing again. I know it might not be wise but we miss just hanging out and being close to someone. I do still have feelings for her and I know she doesn't really feel the same way but we're drawn to one another and there's nothing I can do about that. I mean it's not like totally before because we don't sleep together and stuff but we do go out to dinner and hang out. I took her as my plus one to a college friend's wedding and I'm lined up to go to her cousin's wedding with her where she's the bridesmaid. We're sort of there for each other in those settings that a partner would be there.
Tonight, we're just having a friendly dinner together. It's been another tough week at work so it'll be nice to just hang out and have some food and take a break. I do like talking about work because it's Santana's livelihood and she loves it but sometimes it does get a little much when that's all we talk about so it'll be nice tonight to just hang out as friends and not work colleagues.
"Your lovely boss has given you another weekend off so any plans?" Santana asks me as she takes a sip of her drink.
"I've got a date tomorrow night actually" I point out.
"Very funny" Santana says, rolling her eyes at me as she takes another sip of her cocktail before she puts it down in front of her.
"I'm serious actually" I say honestly. I met this girl in the coffee shop the other day and she asked me out. I know I'm hanging out with Santana but since it doesn't mean anything then I should be thinking about finding someone to settle down with. I'm not saying she'll be the girl of my dreams but getting a date is a start.
"I thought you were into me?" she asks me confused. She actually sounds kinda sad that I'm going on a date.
"I am but I need to be serious now" I reply.
"You're not going on a date tomorrow night. End of story" Santana shakes her head at me. "I thought I made myself very clear the other week so yeah, no date tomorrow" she states.
"Why not?" I ask confused.
"Because it's not appropriate and it's not even funny to joke about" she tells me.
"I'm not joking Santana. It's time you and I grew up and actually got on with our lives. We agreed we wanted adult relationships now that can end up in us settling down. Plus, I need to move on from how I feel about you because it's not fair on either of us. I like you so much but I don't want that to cause a rift in our friendship since you don't like me back" I say honestly.
"You're serious, aren't you?" Santana asks shocked.
"Of course, I am. It's been nice hanging out and being there for each other recently because the loneliness has kicked in again but we can't keep doing that. We need to move on to relationships and not just hang out anymore and take the place of someone that could be our partner" I reply seriously.
"You really have no idea what's going on here, do you?" she questions.
"Evidently not because I don't know what you're talking about" I say confused.
"I wasn't hanging out with you because I was lonely. I didn't ask you out to dinner the last couple of times because we were lonely. I didn't invite you to my office to eat lunch almost every day because I had no one else. I didn't kiss your cheek because it was the only cheek available to kiss. I didn't wear your favourite perfume because I like it because I really don't. I also didn't go around work in short skirts or lowcut shirts because I was warm" Santana explains. Our workplace can get very cold sometimes because we need to keep the air conditioning on to regulate it for everyone so I get that last part that she doesn't do it because she's warm.
"So, what was going on?" I say, still clearly confused about what is supposed to be happening right now. I'm guessing it's something to do with me and why I can't date other people.
"Do I honestly have to spell it out for you?" she asks with a sigh. Clearly, she is frustrated with me about something but I honestly have no clue right now. What exactly am I missing?
"I think so because I am so lost right now" I state.
"You, Brittany Pierce are dating me, Santana Lopez" she shrugs.
"I am?" I ask confused. I'm not a totally dense person but Santana is so confusing all the time. "I thought it was just harmless fun we had got into again" I say honestly.
"I told you before. The next relationship I have will mean something" she states.
"I thought this was just one sided. You didn't say you liked me back" I point out. Everything Santana said didn't allude to her feeling the same way about me. We agreed we needed time to work on ourselves but I assumed that was before we got into any relationship, not one with each other.
"Ok so I might not have opened right up and said, 'Brittany I have feelings for you too' but I thought I implied it the other day. I thought you understood I felt the same" she tells me.
"No, I didn't. I assumed you meant you saw where I was coming from and did feel close to me but it was only because of what we went through" I point out. "I had no idea you felt the exact same way as I did" I add.
"Well I do. I'm really into you Brittany, how could you not see that?" she asks me. "What did you think was going on?" she asks amused.
"I just assumed you understood how I felt but didn't exactly feel how I did. I thought when you were talking, you meant in general like when we both move on this and that will happen etc. I didn't think you were actually talking about getting into a relationship with me" I state. "I feel like such an idiot now but I honestly didn't think you were trying to say you felt the same" I add.
"I'm falling for you Brittany and when the times is right, we'll progress in our 'relationship' because we just need to tread carefully at the moment. We have to start things off properly and get our work life balance correct because at the end of the day, you're still my employee" Santana replies.
"So, are you telling me I'm your girlfriend?" I ask with a smirk.
"No, not at all" she rolls her eyes at me. "That's too much of a proper title to give you right now. We can't be sure if this will work out but I want to try which means no more seeing other people" she shrugs.
"Ok, fair enough" I smile.
"I'm guessing the reason you have been acting weird around me at certain points is because you didn't know we were dating. I mean the weird looks I got when I took your hand or kissed your cheek and the nervousness around me make sense now" she chuckles.
"Honestly, Santana, I had no idea we were a proper thing. I really thought you were just agreeing with me about things and understood my point of view. I had no idea you actually meant you liked me back in the same way. So, all that stuff we did was because we were dating?" I ask.
"Yes" Santana laughs. "I can't actually believe I was dating someone and they didn't know they were dating me back. This really is a first for me because usually people know when I'm with them or not" she adds.
"I think it's because we've been together before so it's not as obvious now" I state. We weren't together properly before but it could easily look like we had fallen back into old habits and this wasn't a new and serious thing.
"The bottom line is, we're dating Brittany so if you don't want to then tell me now and we'll stop" Santana states.
"Oh, I want to, believe me" I say eagerly. Obviously, it's been too eager judging by Santana's amused smirk.
"Good" she tells me.
"Ok so now that I know what's going on and I am actually dating someone, can we lay down some ground rules?" I ask with a chuckle. I'm not laughing at the question but at the fact I didn't know what was going on. It's absurd really that I didn't even know I was dating Santana. Surely that is something anyone should know, especially when it's someone as amazing as Santana.
"What kind of ground rules?" Santana asks me curiously.
"You know I love working for you and you're a great boss, right?" I start off and she nods. "I don't necessarily want that to be the foundation of our relationship though. If we do work and end up in a relationship that is" I add.
"I'm not sure I'm following" she says confused.
"I touched on it when we were discussing the pregnancy" I say, whispering the last part since it's still a sensitive area for us. "Like, I don't want bossed around at home. I'm not trying to be funny so don't make a joke out of it" I say.
"I won't so do continue" she tells me so I nod.
"Ok, so what I mean is when we're outside of work, you can't tell me what to do. I don't mean you can't have an opinion but if I want to do something then you can't just dismiss it like you do sometimes at work" I say. At work, Santana is clearly the boss so her way always goes whether mines is better or not. I don't want that outside of work because I want to be equals. I touched on the subject when we were debating over how we would bring a baby up if we did keep it.
"I know it is almost always my way or the highway but I am trying Brittany. I promise I won't be so domineering outside of work. You mean too much to me for me to ruin us by doing that" she tells me. I can't help but just smile at her. "What?" she asks embarrassed.
"This is probably the most open you've ever been and it's really cute" I say, continuing to smile.
"I'm not going to suddenly change and discuss my feelings all the time now that we're together because that's not me" she says seriously.
"I know that and I don't necessarily want you to change because I like you for who you are" I say while reaching over the table to take her hand in mine. "I just want us to be a little more equal outside of work because I don't work for you outside of work" I add.
"I can totally do that" she smiles.
"So now we're on the same page, shall we get the check and have some fun?" I suggest.
"Yeah" Santana smiles before clicking her fingers at the waiter. He comes promptly over since she has been clicking at him all evening so he's learned his lesson to come whenever he's been clicked at. "Can we have the check please?" she asks.
"Of course" the waiter nods.
"If you bring it to us within 30 seconds, I'll give you a very generous tip" Santana tells the waiter.
"I'll get right on it, Ms Lopez" the waiter says before quickly leaving.
"Ms Lopez, huh?" I ask amusingly. "Do you know the waiter or do you just take all your dates here so you're a regular customer?" I ask.
"I do come here a lot so the waiter does know me" she tells me. "But no. I don't take any of my dates here. You are the only one. I just come here a lot for business meetings and formal things like that" she shrugs.
"Ok" I smile.
"There you go Ms Lopez" the waiter says while placing the check in front of Santana.
"Shall we split it?" I ask while reaching forward to grab the check.
"Absolutely not" Santana frowns at me while pulling the piece of paper away from me. "It's my treat tonight. I asked you here so I'll pay" she shrugs.
"Ok" I smile.
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*Monday 18th May 2020*
It's Monday morning so normally I wouldn't be so happy but today I am skipping into work in the best mood ever. Santana and I had fun hanging out on Saturday and we're finally together so everything is great. I didn't see her yesterday because I had some family things and she was hanging out with Quinn so it'll be nice to see her today, even if it's only during work. As usual I stopped to get us coffee on my way into work so I'm now heading to Santana's office. I gently knock on the door to alert her I'm coming in before I do walk in and close the door behind me.
"Morning" I smile as I walk towards her at the desk.
"Hey, you" she smiles back at me.
"Coffee?" I ask as I place the coffee down in front of her.
"Yes please" she nods.
"How are things this morning?" I ask as I take a seat across from her at her desk. "Do you need me this morning or should I finally work in my own department today?" I say. I spend an awful lot of my time at work these days in Santana's office which is fine but at the end of the day, that's not my job. I am the head of the accounting and finance department so I should be spending my time there doing just that, accounts and numbers.
"I've got a few meetings this morning so you're free to do what you need to do. I mean feel free to work in here in my office if you want but you can do your own role" she smiles at me.
"I probably should go back to my own department" I state. It is nice working with Santana but if she's not even going to be here and in meetings then there's no point in me working in her office alone.
"Would you like your own office. You've been here for over a year now and the previous head of accounting and finance used to have his own office" Santana says.
"Sometimes I would like my own office for peace and quiet to allow me to get on with work without interruptions but sometimes I also like working next to people because it's not as lonely" I shrug.
"I might look into you getting your own office. Even if it's just for keeping all your work things or whatever because ideally you should have your own space because you're intitled to it. Like I say if you prefer company then you can stay where you are and just keep the office for meetings and things" she tells me.
"Ok but don't go to any trouble for me. Just because we're dating now doesn't mean I need special treatment" I smile.
"It's not special treatment. I'm not like that" she states. "I'm just doing what I think is right because like I say, the previous head of accounts had his own office. My sales manager also has their own office as do the people in HR" she adds.
"Ok" I smile. "I'll go to my desk now but if you need anything, come and find me" I add.
"I will" she smiles back. "Are we still on for lunch here in my office?" she asks me.
"Yeah. I'll come by around 1pm" I reply. "Anyway, see you soon" I smile before heading back to my desk. I'm only working for an hour before I see Santana again.
"Do you have a printout of that report I need?" Santana asks me as she walks towards my desk.
"I think I do somewhere" I say as I look through all of my paperwork.
"My tablet is playing up and I need the report for a meeting so it's easier to have a printout than to use my unpredictable tablet that might not display the report" she says as she presses against my leg as she stands next to me. I know it doesn't sound intimate but it's as intimate as we can get in a building full of people.
"There you go" I smile while handing Santana the paperwork. As she takes it, I let my hand linger on hers for a moment.
"Thanks" she winks at me. "I best be off" she says as we reluctantly let go of each other's hands.
"Yeah, I better get back to work" I state. Santana then turns to leave before turning back and looking at me.
"Hey, do you want to come and visit a store with me later. I'm finally thinking about moving forward and opening up my own store to sell the clothes?" Santana asks me. We talked about it a while ago but nothing materialised.
"Yeah, I'm sure I can manage that. Jack has got everything under control here so whenever you are ready to go, come and find me" I smile.
"Awesome, I'll see you later" she says. She squeezes my shoulder before leaving. Again, I know it's not that intimate but we can't kiss at work. It just wouldn't be professional to do that.
After working for a couple of more hours, I head to Santana's office. Luckily, she had just finished her meetings so we managed to sit and have lunch together. We're now just heading out to see one of the premises that Santana wanted to look at for opening up her own store. I'm quite excited about it because I get to spend my afternoon with Santana and it'll be fun if Santana does open her own clothing store. All of her products are amazing so I think it would be really cool for her to open her own store.
"I'll drive, shall I?" I offer.
"You don't like my driving, do you?" she laughs.
"It's a little more erratic than I'm used to but you're the boss so if you want to drive then by all means do so" I smile.
"You can drive" Santana smiles back at me. "Actually, do you want to drive my car?" she asks me.
"Your car is great but I'd hate to accidentally hit something with it. It's way too expensive for me to be driving it" I point out.
"It'll be fine" she assures me.
"Ok" I smile. She then throws me the keys and we leave in her car.
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*Thursday 21st May 2020*
It's the weekly meeting at work again today. Santana has some things to show us and talk to us about and I think I'll say a few words too. I'm not going to lie; I'm not looking forward to this meeting today. I've spent far too many of my working hours with Santana and Santana alone so it's going to be weird working with other people and having to share Santana. All I seem to do these days is work in Santana's office so it's weird being around other people again. I also feel a little underprepared because I don't spend enough time with my team anymore so they know more about the accounts here than I do because I'm too busy helping Santana with other things. It's not like Santana needs help though, we just like working together.
"First on my list of issues is this" Santana says before putting a document up on the screen behind her for all of us here to see. "Which clever person did this, huh?" she asks annoyed. It's a report of all of our recent sales figures, however it's written as if we've made a loss when we've made a profit.
"Oh…uh…Santana" I say nervously but she interrupts me.
"Not now Brittany. I want to figure out who did this" she tells me. "I'm fucking inclined to believe this was you Perry" she says turning to look at Penny.
"It's Penny" I sigh.
"Brittany, not now" Santana tells me seriously. "So, what's going on with this. I know these aren't my sales figures so what have you fucking done?" she asks Penny.
"I haven't done anything Ms Lopez. Those are not the numbers I collected and sent to the accounts and finance department" Penny states.
"It's your fucking fault then Jack" Santana says turning around to look at him.
"Santana…"
"Seriously Brittany, I'm trying to talk to my team here" she says while throwing a glare my way.
"I know but I'm trying to tell you something" I sigh.
"I know but as I keep saying, I don't have time for it just now" she shakes her head at me. "Look, no one is leaving this room until I figure out who the hell fucked up like this. Do you have any idea what this kind of mistake could do to my company? This tells me I've made a very significant loss so all of your jobs could be at stake here because if I make a loss, I can't pay any of you. I know for a fact this is a mistake though because I know we're not running on a loss right now. I will literally fire whichever one you idiots did this if I don't hear the truth. Someone better fucking own up right now or else you'll all be unemployed" she tells everyone.
"Santana, listen to me!" I say loudly. "I know who did this" I say quieter as I get her attention.
"It's your good friend Jack, isn't it?" she asks. I've been spending a lot of my time working with Santana and doing other things so Jack has been in charge of accounts a lot recently. "It fucking is, isn't it? Jack, how the fuck did this happen?"
"No, it isn't his fault" I shake my head. "It's my fault" I sigh. I did this so I'm probably about to be fired right about now.
"How is it your fault?" Santana asks me curiously.
"Because I messed up two reports. I was copying and pasting the general stuff from the last report and I think I've used the wrong figures for the wrong document. My mind was clearly not on the job so I'm sorry" I explain. Santana was never supposed to see that report but clearly, she's picked up the wrong one. She was supposed to get the edited one that I prepared after I realised what I had done.
"Oh…uh…" Santana doesn't know what to say. "Do you have an updated report?" she asks me calmly.
"I do" I nod. "I'll send you it right now" I say while emailing her from my tablet.
"Ok, thank you" she says. "Uh…crisis over guys so I guess we can get back to this meeting" she says while preparing the presentation for the next part of the meeting. It's about 20 minutes later before Santana let's us all take a break before the next section of the meeting.
"Can we talk?" I ask as I move closer to Santana.
"Sure" she smiles at me while gently placing her hand on the bottom of my back. We go over to the corner so we can talk in private and everyone can't hear us and what we're saying.
"You shouldn't have done that today with the report" I state.
"I know I was losing my temper but I thought we had majorly messed up so I wanted to know who did it. Now that I have the corrected report then it's ok" she smiles again.
"It's not ok Santana. I messed up and I should be held fully responsible for that. You shouldn't have forgiven me so quickly because you wouldn't have done that had it been anyone else. You were ready to fire who did it until you knew it was me" I sigh.
"I know" she sighs too. "I honestly wasn't sure how to conduct myself when I found out it was you. I mean I know you would always correct your mistakes so I wasn't as concerned but I did realise I was harder on everyone else than I was on you."
"I don't want preferential treatment at work. If I fuck up then I should be dealt with the same way as anyone else. I don't want you to be kinder on me because we're together" I tell her. At work, I am her employee so I'd like her to treat me as that.
"Honey, I wasn't doing it because we were together" she states. "I just wasn't as hard on you because I knew you would fix whatever you fuck up. This isn't about us personally but about us at work. You are the best worker I have. I'll always know that whether we get naked together or not" she smirks.
"Ok" I laugh.
"Seriously though, I just wasn't as hard on you because I knew you would have fixed it. I do realise how it looked though so it does look like I was harder on them than on you" she tells me. "I will admit though; I can't help but look at you differently. If you do mess up again, which I hope you won't, but if you do then I can't promise I will be as hard on you as everyone else. I know I should be but I can't be because I care about you" she shrugs.
"Ok" I smile. I suppose if the shoe was on the other foot then I'd be the same. In an ideal world I'd like to keep things professional but when you are with someone, it probably would be hard to get mad at them.
"I think everyone has had enough of a break now so I should get back to this meeting" she tells me.
"Yeah, we should all reconvene and finish things up before everyone needs to get back to work and get finished for the day" I nod.
Santana's POV
*Friday 22nd May 2020*
I'm finally dating Brittany Pierce. I thought I was a few weeks ago but clearly, she didn't think so, so now we can both openly say we're dating one another. Everything is amazing at the moment and I honestly can't wait to see what's in store for us. I obviously have my worries and things like that because this must be the first time in a relationship where it means something so much and I want to make it work. I don't want to mess things up with Brittany because I've never felt this good before so I want us to work out. It's not just about a successful relationship though, it's also about personally moving forward in general. I know it was my decision to have the abortion but I am still carrying some bad feelings about that. I mean the last time I was really with Brittany and enjoyed myself was before I found out I was pregnant so it's a little reminder that when Brittany and I once slept together I got pregnant and then terminated my baby.
"Hello? Earth to Santana Lopez!" Brittany says loudly as she waves her hands in front of my face.
"Sorry, I was in my own world" I apologise. "What's up?" I ask.
"Do you want to have dinner with Quinn, Mercedes and Tina tonight?" she asks me. "I know you and I were going to head to my place after work and hang out but maybe we could meet our friends" she suggests.
"We do have the whole weekend to spend together since we're both taking it off so maybe we could go for dinner" I shrug. I love spending time with Brittany but I also enjoy hanging out with friends to break up work a little. I can spend the weekend with Brittany. It also makes it more fun to be busy and know you'll end the night with one another.
"They're bringing their boyfriends too I think, is that cool?" she asks me as she starts typing on her phone.
"I have you so they might as well bring their partners" I shrug. If I have my girl at dinner then why shouldn't our friends have their men with them. I actually don't know Sam and Mike too well so it might be nice to finally meet Mercedes and Tina's boyfriends properly.
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Brittany is coming over to my place and we'll leave for the restaurant together from here. I've just finished in the shower and now I'm just lounging on the couch because I have ages yet before I need to get ready to go out. I'm just looking through Netflix to find something to watch when there's a knock at the door. I have no idea who it could be right now because I'm not expecting anyone. It's not my friends because I'm having dinner with them and it's not my family because they know I'll be going out soon.
"Uh…hi" I say surprised to see Brittany since she wasn't supposed to come over right now.
"I know I'm early but I got bored waiting at home. Is it cool that I'm here right now?" she asks.
"It's more than ok" I smile while opening the door further. "Oh, sexy" I smile when she walks into my house and we quickly kiss.
"Thank you" she blushes.
"Of course, you always look sexy but you're looking so hot tonight" I smile. "I on the other hand haven't even made an attempt to get dressed yet" I laugh.
"You look cute in your pyjamas" she smiles.
"How cute?" I smirk.
"Very cute" she smirks back as she pulls me towards her. She leans down and kisses me as I rest my hands on her hips. We kiss for some time before I pull away.
"Do you want a drink or something?" I ask as I make my way to the kitchen.
"I'll just take some water. I'll leave the alcohol to when we get to dinner" she tells me.
"Ok" I smile. I then get us both a glass of water. "Should we be having sex by now?" I ask bluntly as I join her at the table.
"Uh…I don't know" Brittany nervously laughs. "I mean I'm happy either way. Obviously, I find you very attractive so I'm more than happy to have sex but I also like we're doing this properly" she adds.
"I don't want you to think I don't want us to but I also want to do what you say, go through things in a proper fashion and not rush into things" I say. We haven't actually had sex yet since we started dating. I'm not sure if that's all on me or not. Initially I was a little nervous because I can't go through another unplanned pregnancy because we're still not ready for a child together.
"I like getting to know you a little bit more and focusing on that when we have time together. I'm not going to lie though; I would like to be a bit more intimate with you in time" she tells me.
"I want that too" I nod. To be fair, it's not like we're ignoring the issue because we do work together a lot and are very busy so it's not like we have tons of free time to do it so I'm not looking for a quickie on my couch anymore.
"I'm ready whenever you are, I think" Brittany says honestly. "I do have my nerves about the whole pregnancy thing though. I know we've had sex since then but it's different now. This isn't just about being close and feeling better. This is about us now and how we will likely be intimate a lot more frequently again so there is a higher risk of pregnancy again" she adds.
"That's exactly my thoughts" I smile. I love that we think and feel the same these days.
"When we do decide the time is right then we'll make sure we take extra precautions" she assures me. "I hope one day we might get to that place where we can have children but now still isn't that time especially with how busy we are at work."
"I agree" I nod. The only reason this relationship works at the moment is because we work together so if we don't have any time at night to see each other, it's ok because we'll always be with each other at work.
"The bottom line is Santana; we'll do it when we're both ready and comfortable for it. There is no rush so I'm honestly ok whenever the time comes" she smiles.
"Ok" I smile back. "Oh shit, I better get ready now" I say as I notice how late it is now and how I'm not even dressed and ready to go yet.
"I'll order us a cab" Brittany tells me.
"Just to clarify before dinner, we're keeping us quiet, right?" I ask.
"Put it this way, we're not having some big announcement to our friends tonight" she tells me. "If they do catch me feeling you up in the bathroom or playing footsie with you under the table then I won't deny it" she replies with a smirk.
"Gotcha" I wink. "I should get ready now otherwise we'll be late" I say before rushing to my bedroom to get ready.
When I'm finally ready and the cab pulls up, Brittany and I leave after I lock up the house. We then get into the cab and make our way to the restaurant. It's reasonably close by so we're there in no time at all. Brittany tips the cab driver and then we head inside. The waiter shows us to the table where all of our friends and their boyfriends are waiting for us. I knew I was going to make us late but I don't really care all that much.
"Did you two come together?" Quinn asks curiously.
"No, not at all. We came alone taking two separate cabs but somehow managed to both be late and both turn up at the table at the exact same moment" I say sarcastically.
"It was just a question Santana" Quinn states while rolling her eyes at me.
"This is going to be a fun night" James mutters under his breath.
"It will be a fun night because there is plenty of alcohol around and good food" Tina says optimistically.
"Exactly" Brittany smiles as she goes to sit down.
"I'll get that" I say while pulling her chair out for her. She smiles at me and then sits down. I then sit on the chair next to her. Luckily our friends did leave two empty chairs together so we get to sit next to one another.
"Uh…ok…let's order drinks" Quinn says looking at me confused.
"What?" I frown back at her. Seriously, what's her problem and what's with the staring.
"Nothing, forget about it" Quinn says while shaking her head. She then passes me the wine list so I can take a look at it. "Pick a wine for the table. I was going to do it but I knew you wouldn't like what I picked" she shrugs.
Once I do order us wine, the waiter takes our food orders and then leaves. We all then catch up for a while before our food is served. We're now just sitting chatting together as we eat. Well, we're not all eating because some of us have inhaled our food and others are eating at a reasonable pace. I'm in the latter group whereas most of the boys seem to be eating like they'll never eat again. I guess I'm also in the slow eating group because Brittany insisted on holding my hand under the table so it's taking me longer to eat with one hand. I'm certainly not complaining though because I like it.
"Are you two together?" James asks us curiously as he looks between Brittany and I.
"James, no" Quinn whispers harshly to her boyfriend.
"I'm sorry but someone had to ask" James sighs.
"It's a sensitive topic for them both so let's not go there" Tina states.
"What's sensitive about holding hands?" Mike asks with a shrug.
"I'm sorry what?" Mercedes asks as she leaps from her seat and walks around the table to look at Brittany and I.
"Jesus Mercedes, sit down" Brittany states unamused, clearly not wanting all of this attention.
"You two are holding hands" Tina says as she joins Mercedes at staring at us. Honestly it really is a little weird right now with two grown women standing to the side of us staring at Brittany and I's intertwined fingers.
"Is this some joke to pretend you two are together so we'll stop asking or are you really together now and have finally grown up and seen sense?" Quinn asks.
"It's early in the relationship but yeah, Santana and I are dating" Brittany nods. "Please don't make it into some big thing though because we don't want the attention. We're serious now and want to do things properly" she adds.
"Don't worry, we'll take this no further" Quinn smiles at us. "We're just happy you two are together and moving on so to speak."
"Thanks Q" I smile back at my best friend.
Once we finished dinner, we all split the check between us before leaving. We've all been working today so we decided to just go home instead of going out for drinks. We're going to all get together next week and go to a few bars and stuff. Everyone was going home except Brittany who is coming back to my place. We've just got inside the house so we're just taking our jackets off.
"Tonight was really fun" Brittany smiles at me.
"Yeah it was" I smile back as I kick off my shoes. "I like hanging out with other couples and then getting to come home with you. You'll stay tonight, right?" I ask. I'm not suggesting anything; I just think it might be nice for Brittany to stay here and we can spend some time together.
"Yeah" she smiles.
"Good" I say as I walk to the kitchen. "Wine?" I ask as I turn around to look at Brittany behind me.
"Yes, please" she smiles again as she follows me to the kitchen. I pour us some wine and then we go outside and sit by my pool. "If I thought this through properly, I would have brought my swimming attire with me and we could have had a swim" she tells me.
"Sounds like fun" I smile.
"Yeah but it's a shame I haven't got the appropriate clothes with me" she shrugs.
"Actually, you know what. Maybe you don't actually need them" I smirk as I stand up and take my shirt off before shuffling out of my jeans.
"What have you got in mind?" she asks, smirking back at me.
"We can go in in our underwear" I smile before diving into the pool in my bra and panties. "Come on, catch up" I say as I lean back and let the water wet my hair.
"Ok" she shrugs before undressing down to her underwear. She then dives into the pool and pops up in the water right in front of me. "Hi" she smirks at me.
"Hello" I smile.
"You look so sexy right now" she says while taking my hands in front of her where she intertwines our fingers.
"Thanks" I smile again. Seriously I cannot stop smiling right now or any other time I'm alone with Brittany.
"I really want to kiss you right now so I'm going to do just that" she tells me before letting go of my hands and placing them gently on either cheek. She then kisses me softly before doing it with a little more passion once I kiss back. We make out for a few moments before she moves her hands and slowly slides them down my body where she places them on my butt.
"I've missed being this close" I say through a moan as she squeezes my butt. I pull her closer to me so our bodies couldn't touch anymore as I rest my hands on her back.
"No pressure but maybe we could…you know, do something" she says as she looks me up and down and then from my eyes to my chest and then further down again.
"I'm good" I smile while putting my hands on her hips and leaning in close for a kiss.
We keep kissing for a moment before Brittany pushes me against the wall of the pool and hoists up my legs. I then wrap them around her waist. She leans in and kisses me again before slowly trailing a finger down my body. When she gets to my core, she supports me with one hand and slowly pushes the other one into my panties. She trails the finger through my folds excruciatingly slowly as I hold onto her tightly.
"Oh shit" I moan as Brittany inserts another finger into me. "That feels so good" I moan again as I try to push myself closer to Brittany. She continues what she's doing for some time and embarrassingly I'm ready to come a lot sooner than I wanted to. I wrap my arms around Brittany's neck and bury my face in her shoulder as I come down from my high. She holds me tightly for a second until I lift my head.
"Anyone ever told you before how sexy you are when you come?" she says with a smirk.
"No one except you right now" I smile. "Enough about me now, it's your turn" I say as I release my legs from around her and pull her close to me. I kiss her for a moment before turning us around so her back is against the pool wall.
"What are you going to do?" she asks me curiously.
"You'll see" I smirk as I lean in close and kiss her. I continue kissing her for a moment before reaching down and cupping the noticeable bulge she has. I tease her for a few minutes before slipping my hand past the waistband of her boxers. I start up a nice rhythm of pumping her shaft and it really doesn't take her long to come.
"You're so sexy" Brittany says as she wraps her arms around me.
"You already told me that" I smile.
"I'm going to keep telling you that because it's so true" she says as she leans in and kisses me.
"It's getting cold now so maybe we should go inside" I say while getting out of the pool. "You coming?" I ask, turning around to look at Brittany who is still standing in the water.
"In a second. I'm just watching you exit the pool. It's a very beautiful sight from behind" she smirks at me.
"Ok" I laugh. I grab us both some towels and when Brittany finally gets out of the pool, I hand her one and we go inside. I lock up the house and then we take a seat in the kitchen as we dry off.
"That was a nice way to ease into things tonight" she smiles at me.
"I'm comfortable if you want to take things further tonight" I say nervously. Brittany might not want to fully have sex right now but I think I'm emotionally ready to take that step again. "I mean we don't…"
"I'm more than ready" she smirks as she picks me up and walks towards the stairs. I know she is strong but I didn't expect her to lift me up like that. She carries me up the stairs as I wrap my arms around her neck. When we get to my room, we go inside and Brittany kicks the door shut behind us before gently placing me on the bed. I turn around so I'm sitting on the bed looking up at her before shuffling out of my pool-soaked underwear.
"I literally can't stop staring at you, you're so sexy" I smirk as Brittany fully undresses and climbs onto the bed and hovers over me.
"I could say the same about you" she smirks back before leaning in to kiss me. We kiss for a few minutes before she pulls back a little. "Condom?" she asks as she looks up at me.
"In the nightstand" I say, never taking my eyes off Brittany.
"Ok" she nods. She reaches over me and grabs one before quickly unwrapping it. Usually I would offer to help but I think we just need this right now so there's no time to waste. Brittany quickly rolls on the condom and hovers above me again. She leans down and kisses me before leaving a trail of kisses down my body. She gently caresses my breasts before leaning down and flicking a nipple with her tongue as she squeezes the other one.
"Please Britt…" I can't even finish my sentence as a moan escapes my mouth.
"I love it when you can't say my full name. It's sexy when you call me Britt" she replies with a smirk.
"Please" I say, getting really worked up. I put my hands on her hips to try and pull her closer to me.
"Ok" she smiles up at me. She then gets in position between my legs and slowly pushes into me. She starts off really slowly before building up to a quicker pace. She keeps thrusting in and out of me as I grip her waist tightly as I try to help keep the rhythm going.
"Are you close?" I ask through a moan.
"So fucking close" she tells me, moaning also.
"Me too" I say and before I know it, we're both coming together. Brittany then discards the condom and lies down on top of me.
"That felt good to finally just let go" she smiles at me.
"It did" I smile back while capturing her lips in a passionate kiss. We've been waiting for so long that tonight wasn't about being perfect, it was just about feeling close to each other again. After a minute, Brittany slides off me and lies down behind me as she puts her arms around me. She holds me close for a few minutes before I feel her moving and she gets off the bed. "Brittany" I say nervously to get her attention.
"Yeah, babe" she smiles at me. God that smile, I'm literally melting inside. Also, the 'babe' didn't go unnoticed. She doesn't call me that much at the moment but it still makes me smile.
"I…you know what, never mind" I shake my head. I'm not about to scare her off right now by saying it. I think we should keep the pressure off right now. Also, I know she likes me back but I can't say this and not hear that other 'L word' back. That would just be too much for me if I'm into this more than her so I'd rather go with the saying, 'ignorance is bliss' right now.
"Ok" she shrugs. "I'll be back in a minute. I'm just going to use the bathroom" she smiles again at me before leaving to the en suite.
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