I know He's Home is due for an update, but after last week's episode this was gnawing at me. Enjoy.


Olivia sat at the dining room table, staring off into space. "...all and tan and young and lovely…", the song played over and over in her head. Her arms folded over one another as she rested them on the table, her one shoulder raised slightly more than her other one as she rested her chin on it.

Charles walked in and saw her. "Livia?" He walked over to her and when she didn't respond he tried again. "Livia?" When she still didn't respond he placed a hand on her shoulder and spoke gently. "Olivia?"

Olivia jumped and gasped, but saw Charles. "Oh, I'm sorry."

Charles looked at her. "You okay, love?"

Olivia smiled gently. "Uh, yeah. Um, my… my ex-fiance showed up in my squadroom." She looked over at him.

Charles looked at her. "Oh. I, uh, I didn't know you were engaged before."

Olivia nodded. "Yeah, um… 40 years ago. My mother, she made me write a letter to him breaking up with him, lied to both of us so we'd stay apart. I resented her for so long over it."

Charles looked at her. "Your mom made you? How old were you?"

Olivia laughed humorlessly. "Sixteen. Almost seventeen, but I was sixteen at the time. He was twenty one, one of my mother's students in college."

Charles's heart broke. "Livia."

Olivia nodded. "I know. It took me 40 years to realize it, but I know. He groomed me, and… and he sexually assaulted me," she felt tears well up in her eyes. "I fight for victims all the time, I talk to survivors of assault and grooming everyday, and I missed it in my own life," she whispered and let her head fall on top of her arms and she cried.

Charles rubbed her back. "We all have our blind spots, Livia."

Olivia nodded. "I loved him, I was in love with him. But I was so desperate to get out of my mother's house, I'd have done anything. And he knew that. He says he was in love with me too, but now I just… I can't know that for sure."

Charles kissed the side of her head. "This is not your fault, Olivia," he whispered. "This isn't on you. You were a kid, I know you thought you were an adult because you had to grow up so fast, but you were just a kid, baby. He took advantage of you. Of your vulnerability. He must have known how badly you wanted out of your mother's house."

Olivia nodded. "He knew." She wiped her eyes. "For years I held a resentment against my mother for breaking us up, and it turns out she was protecting me all along. Though she had a funny way of showing it." She turned and looked at Charles. "She threw her half finished bottle of vodka on the floor, picked up the jagged edge and came at me saying she'd never let anyone else have me."

Charles kept his hand on her back. "Well that part I'd be mad about, but I do think she was trying to protect you."

Olivia fell against him. "Charles?"

Charles smiled and held her. "Yes, my love?"

Olivia closed her eyes. "Take me to bed and hold me?"

Charles smiled and kissed the top of her head. "Always." He got up and took her hand, walking upstairs with her, both climbing into bed, under the covers. Charles held her tightly and kissed her forehead. "For what it's worth, I'm glad that I got to be the one to marry you, and no one else."

Olivia chuckled a little and looked up at him. "I'm glad I married you, and no one else. And that I did it for the right reasons. Not because I was looking to escape my reality." She blushed and kissed him softly.

Charles kissed her back and tangled his hand in her hair. He broke the kiss but stayed close. "Sixteen year old Olivia Benson must have been a spitfire."

Olivia giggled. "I have certainly calmed down over the years. Well, mostly." She looked into his eyes. "And for what it's worth, you are the best lover I have ever had. From the first time I had sex to now, no one makes me feel the way you do."

Charles pulled her closer. "Hopefully that never changes."

Olivia smiled. "I never want it to," she whispered and kissed him passionately. She broke the kiss and nuzzled his nose. She looked into his eyes. "I am madly, deeply, truly in love with you, Charles Brooks. And there is no other person I want to call my husband."

Charles smiled. "Livia, I'm not jealous of this guy, I know I have your heart forever. That's what matters. That and that you know that I would never dream of hurting you in any way, but especially in the way he hurt you."

Olivia smiled. "I know that," she let her leg wrap around him and she kissed him again.

Charles ran his hand over her leg and kissed her back, his hand moving up her leg to her ass. She moaned and Charles smiled. "Are you sure?"

Olivia smiled and climbed on top of him and kissed him again. "I'm positive." She broke up he kiss and took her shirt off over her head, the kids were long asleep and she was in comfortable clothes with no bra.

Charles was alway in awe of her as she disrobed. He saw her breasts come into view and he gripped her hips. "My God, I'm so lucky."

Olivia smiled and leaned down and pressed her breasts against him as she kissed him. "Mm," she broke the kiss and sat up, taking his shirt off and pulling him up into a sitting position. "I love you," she whispered and pulled him closer, her hair falling around their faces.

Charles ran her hands over her back and held her face in his hands. "I love you, too. So damn much."

Olivia kissed him and felt his erection through their pants. "Mm, someone's excited."

Charles groaned and looked at her. "Have you seen yourself lately? Plus I'm always excited to be able to be with you."

Olivia blushed. "We better get naked then," she whispered and moved her lips to his ear. "Because I'm so wet for you," she bit at his ear lobe and smiled.

Charles groaned and felt her climb off of him and watched her slide out of her shorts. He got up and slipped out of his pants and climbed back into bed. "Come sit between my legs, lean against me," he whispered. "I need to feel you."

Olivia let out a breath and sat between his legs, facing away from him, leaning back against him, spreading her legs. "Touch me," she whispered.

Charles ran his hands over her torso, lightly, seeing her arch into his hands, hearing her moan. "That's it baby. Get lost in this," he whispered. "Put everything else out of your mind but this."

Olivia took a deep breath through her nose and let it out slowly. She felt his fingers start to gently play with her clit and she moaned. "Oh, baby!" She sighed and wrapped her arms around Charles's thighs and let him touch her body, she leaned back and enjoyed every second of it. As she got closer and closer to orgasm she stopped his fingers from pistoning in and out of her. "I want to come with you. Please baby, I need to come with you."

Charles pulled his fingers out of her and licked them clean. "Come here baby."

Olivia turned around and straddled him, looking deep into his eyes, her breath heavy. "Can I?"

Charles caressed her face and smiled. "Work your magic, baby."

Olivia sank onto him and both let out a moan. "Oh, Charles, you feel so good!" She whined and started riding him, keeping her pace slow. "Mm."

Charles groaned and helped guide her hips over him. He leaned forward and took her left nipple into his mouth and started to gently suck. Olivia threw her head back and she moaned. He smiled and let her nipple go with a pop. "You like that, sexy?"

Olivia moaned and pulled him close and held him to her chest. "I love everything you do to me," she whispered as he started sucking on her nipples, biting gently. She moaned and tugged his hair gently. "Don't stop."

Charles flipped them over and kissed her chest and her neck, nipping gently, their pace staying slow as he made love to her. Charles looked into her eyes and caressed her face. "I am so deeply in love with you, Olivia."

Olivia moaned and arched her back. "I'm so in love—" she let out a loud moan, "so in love with you too."

Charles smiled. "Come on baby. I'm right there. Come with me."

Olivia moaned and pulled him in for a kiss where she continued to moan as she let her orgasm take over her body. She felt his release inside her and she broke the kiss, letting out a moan. Once they both finished she smiled and looked into his eyes. "Charles," she whispered, her eyes closing, almost as if she were getting ready to pray to him.

Charles brushed her hair from her face and smiled. "Livia," he whispered in a similar fashion. "Open your eyes, beautiful," he whispered, kissing her eyelids.

Olivia's eyes fluttered open and she smiled. "Thank you," she whispered. "Thank you for making love to me and taking my mind off of Burton."

Charles rolled off of her and they both let out a moan as he slipped out of her. He held her and gently stroked her arm. "Happily. I will always take your mind off the bad stuff and remind you that you are truly, deeply loved. Now and forever."

Olivia nuzzled into him. "You know in high school, I didn't have many friends. I could never have people over, I could never really hang out with friends at their house or anywhere, so I was a loner. Until Burton. Burton saw me. He hung out with me, we went bike riding in Central Park, we talked and he listened to me bitch about my mother. Even before he asked me to marry him we talked about running away together, he talked about rescuing me. Looking back, I can't believe as a detective that I couldn't see he groomed me."

Charles listened and kissed the top of her head as she talked. "You had a blind spot, you're human."

Olivia nodded. "He was my first." She looked up at him. "He was in his twenties, gave me alcohol, I was sixteen. He told me he loved me, and that I was beautiful. I hadn't heard that I was beautiful much. I believed him. He lied to me," he lip quivered and she nuzzled her face into his chest as she started to cry.

Charles rubbed her back. "Regardless of what he said to you, regardless of if he meant it, he assaulted you. And now that you've come to terms with it you can start to heal from it. And it's going to make you an even better cop, especially in SVU. But I will be here every step of the way to remind you that you are the strongest woman I've ever known in my life. And he didn't lie about one thing, Olivia. You are breathtakingly beautiful."

Olivia sniffled and wiped her eyes. "You really think so?"

Charles wiped the stray tears from her cheeks. "Have I ever lied to you?" He smiled. "Don't let him get into your head, Livia. You are beyond beautiful. And I'm so lucky to get to call you my wife, to fall asleep next to you every night and wake up next to you every morning. I wouldn't want it any other way."

Olivia bit her bottom lip. "I'm the lucky one, Charles."


A/N: Thanks for reading. Leave a review if you feel so inclined. He's Home will be updated soon! See you on the flip side.