Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious or any of it's characters. So, no suing, no suing, no suing. According to Dora, that should work.
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Jade's eyes slowly opened, that feeling deep in her stomach returning. 'I did it again. I went and…' She stopped, not willing to admit that she'd allowed herself to be so self destructive, again. 'I have to stop…' Her mind reeling. 'Ever since Beck broke it off from me, just couldn't take my level of bitch, I've been doing this, trading my body for… God, I don't even know. Don't always get one of their "Gifts". Sometimes, I just play booty call to feel worse about myself, cause god, I do deserve to suffer…' Her momentary admission of half the reason she'd been coming here brought with it levels of emotional pain she'd used to avoid, to the point of cutting. Only now, she tried to just wade through, because why the fuck not. She'd lost Beck, wasn't worthy of love, and so she let herself be used like this. And when the gifts started, sometimes just cash, she felt like a whore. She'd even contemplated ending it all, only to come back, feeling worse and worse, and not knowing why. 'You know why…' She started, but slammed that thought down. 'There is no level of suffering where you buy your way out of hell, bitch.'
Her eyes opened, looking at the night table next to her side of the bed. The small box that lay there confirmed she'd gotten another token of appreciation, and again felt like a cheap whore. 'Please, I'm a mistress.' She joked, but it didn't help. Her desire to just leave it, sneak off without it, warred with the fact that she'd been struggling professionally for a while now. Honestly, they all did. It was part of the reason her and Beck broke up, the stresses of trying to make it, and the drama that came with failure. 'Only two people made it, and I swear I'll never understand how Trina was one of them. I mean, she was, like, the first.…' Bitter memories drove her to act, to avoid, or enhance, that feeling of failure, and she reached for the small, squarish box with the rounded lid, and opened it.
The ring was, honestly, the last thing she expected. There was no mistaking what the intentions behind it were, with the note in the box lid clarifying exactly what this was for. The note, not content with "Marry me" instead said "I want to buy the cow."
Jade was up, moving, still naked from last nights endeavors, seeking her lover. 'I swear, if they just left, this time, after THIS…' She was afraid, but as often happened with her, it was coming up as rage.
The door to the bathroom opened, and Tori was looking right through her. "I see you got my gift."
"Is this some kind of sick joke?" Jade demanded.
"No, I'm just done." The pop princess sounded tired, more then physically. "This, yes, it started as revenge, watching you destroy yourself after each time. Only, beyond catching feelings, which wasn't hard, mind you, I realized I wasn't liking the person I was becoming. And when Trina called me out on this, I…. Do you like the ring? I wasn't sure about it, but Trina insisted, even paid for it. I just, she was right, this was needed. I needed to make a decision, and letting you go, if anything happened to you, I'd need therapy for the rest of my life. This, it's better…"
"But… You had me." Jade argued. "I was so close to wanting to end it all, and you covered that, didn't you… yea… But you had me, I was giving up. No way forward, my life in shambles, my own father wishing me dead…." Her words were at odds with her energy, an open, dark admiration for the systematic destruction she'd felt over the last year plus they'd been sleeping together.
"And yet, when I brought it up to him, he blessed this plan." Tori tossed out. "So, I want you to take your time, think it over, then pack up your entire life and, for once, lets have you come by my house instead, kay? We'll go through everything there, I'll give you a room, god knows I have enough, and we can just move you in. I'll have my fun planning the wedding, while you figure out how you're gonna suffer once Trina starts plotting your career. I know, sounds like a recipe for disaster, but she made me a much bigger star, and lets not forget her career. Woman is the NAME in action comedies. She just plays the characters straight, writes the movies as serious, and everyone thinks their farces, parodies of action movies."
Jade had sunk to the floor, mind reeling from the reality. 'Her revenge really is complete now. I can't say no, I do have feelings for her. Break them down and then build them back up, that's what the military does. I… Fuck me, she went and made her prince charming, and this prince had tits.' Her hands ghosted her chest as she accepted the next phase of Tori's revenge, and she wasn't changing much, just accepting she could be a failure, or a success, and it didn't matter in her life.
"And for the record, Jade, Trina is convinced you're succeeding at your true goal, and that's proving to yourself what a failure you really are." Tori added, as she slipped her dressing gown off to get dressed for the day. "I don't want to change much, but that attitude has to go. You owe me, and I want a happy wife. Got it? Good. Now, take your time, I'll have my people waiting to help move you into my home. And tonight, if you're feeling it, we can celebrate…"
In her utter defeat, Jade couldn't help but smile. 'At least I know, still gonna use me for my body… Just now she wants my mind, my heart, my soul, and god, why happy? She knows I don't deserve being happy? But, as she said, revenge. And I'm gonna give her everything she wants, cause I don't know how to say no… Not to her, not any more. I never wanted to be bought, and now, I… God, what am I getting for my… Yea…" Her eyes were now on her left hand, where her new ring was resting. She knew Tori hadn't put it on, so it had to have been her. "Fuck!"
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