LINUS' POV

I adjusted some of the chapters and completely cut out half of chapter 11, so for those who did read it I suggest you start over from chapter 11 till now, or at least skim it. I'm sorry to those who might've liked the story so far and don't like the way I've changed it, I felt the story was taking too far of a turn I really don't wanna promote or over mention drugs to a younger audience.

I rushed over towards the door, I opened it to find Lucy and Schroeder staring back at me. "Brother! Why didn't you tell me you are Sally were a thing?" She gave me a playful punch as she entered the house without permission, typical Lucy. Schroeder mouthed "sorry" as he entered and shut the door behind him. "We aren't a thing. Why would you ever think that?" I questioned, this was probably just a stupid tease backed with no evidence whatsoever but might as well ask.

"I called you and Sally answered, she said you weren't there at the time and she had your phone because it was in your jacket that she was wearing."

"Oh shoot, she still has my phone doesn't she!" Lucy shrugged as I dashed to my room, the last place I had left her. I recently had a talk with Eudora, one she probably wouldn't love to hear. The things Eudora said honestly felt true to some extent. Sally probably doesn't actually love me, and when was the last time she's ever taken the blame at all for our break ups? Maybe it was drastic to blame it on her, but when Eudora said it I honestly felt a little more, noticed.

I ran over to the doorway of my bedroom to see Sally looking at my phone that sat at the edge of the bed. "Sally I-"

"You never loved me. You just told me everything I wanted to hear." She looked at me completely unfazed by everything she just said. Completely stone faced. Her eyes were red from crying but she didn't care. She was so lost in emotion, and I did that. "That's not true! You know it isn't!"

"Why did you believe her? Is it true? Did I really make you feel like that? Did I really blame you for all of our break ups?" I looked down at the floor, she already felt bad, wouldn't this make it worse? I couldn't lie to her, but what if the truth made her feel guilty? What if she needed to feel guilty? No. She didn't.

Before I deny anything or even say anything Sally began to speak, choking on each of her words, I could feel the pain it took for her to say what she did. "It's true isn't it? I made you feel that way, that's why you went to her."

She was right, every little word, was how I felt. Unloved by her, maybe not unloved but unnoticed. But I loved her, and I'd never love Eudora the same way. "You broke my heart Sally. You dated Schroeder, why would you do that? And you couldn't even consider how that would make me feel." She felt bad, I knew she would, yet I said it anyway, why did I say that?

"I-" before she couldn't finish I could hear Lucy's holler on the other side of the house calling for me. I looked back at Sally who also heard Lucy's call. She gestured for me to leave. From the corner of my eye I could see a tear fall down Sally's cheek. But I left anyway. I felt so bad, how could I be so selfish?

SALLY'S POV

How could I be so selfish? I only ever thought about myself, I never even considered how he'd feel after everything. I wanted to help him yet all I did was make him hurt more. I walked over to my moms room, she always knows what to do. I clenched my free hand. Before I opened the door. It always hurt to see my mom like this. I slowly opened the door. She was croqueting a sweater. She looked up at me with a grin on her face. "What is it this time?" I closed the door behind me and sat down on the stool placed next to the bed.

"Mom, there's this boy-"

"Linus?" Of course she knew, Linus probably told her. "I heard from Linus, but let's hear your side of the story"

I told her exactly what she wanted hear. It was only now when I realized how much had happened in less than a year. My mom stares at me puzzled. "That story never fails to confuse me." I stare at her suspense. She chuckled before she could even say anything.

"Not gonna lie, I'm team Eudora."

"Mom! This isn't The Summer I Turned Pretty, this is my life!"

Sorry I had to reference that show. It's not too bad, it's actually pretty interesting, I recommend!

Her joke did make me think. It rubbed me the wrong way but it surely meant something right? "But he loves you, not her."

"Where do I even start? I've made so many mistakes."

"So did he. Sometimes it's good to just start with sorry."

Sorry. "Sorry, yeah I can do that." I finished my sentence as I walked to the doorway. She gave me a warm hearted smile as I exit.

That's what I told her. That's what she wanted to hear, she couldn't help me with this. It's not true. He'll never forgive me, all the guilt, all the pain, it hurts. Not just him but everything, all the things that I hid from everyone, the things I could only tell Linus. Who could I go to now? I'm positive Linus hates me, the only place I wanna be is anywhere but here.

LINUS' POV

I made my way to the guest bedroom we were welcome at, I contacted Ophelia to check if we had a place to stay. I saw Schroeder sitting on one of the beds examining a gun, I knew this would happen. Lucy was frantically putting unpacked clothes back into her luggage, her eyes were glistening with tears. "We are not staying here Linus, there's a gun here!"

"I know, there's multiple."

"What!? You can't just be ok with this! Don't you remember what happened to dad?" Our parents moved out of the house a while back to travel around and host talk shows. They were well known and to some extent liked, at some point it was as if their fame made them forget about their children at home. They were wealthy, causing frequent robberies, armed ones too. 3 years ago, our father became the victim to the faults of being famous, death. He's gone, he's been gone. It sucks, and sometimes I still think about it, how I couldn't done something in a way.

It really affected Lucy, she could only wonder what could've been. I didn't take too much of a toll on me, I never liked my father he was a dick, married for the money and died because of the fame. His terrible decisions he could only blame on himself. He cared for the wrong things, he never listened. I don't want to be like him, I don't want anything to do with him. I had to unlearn all the behavior and the habits he taught me. He did nothing for me, therefore he means nothing.

"Lucy you can't captive your life by dads demise."

"Just because you didn't care doesn't mean I shouldn't either." She mumbled. Her world flipped upside down when she heard he died on the news. Our mom was so distant from us she didn't even think to call. The flashbacks hurt to remember.

Schroeder looked up at her mouthing if she's ok. She dabbed her tears with a tissue and sniffles. She turns away from him and glares at me. "There's something you aren't telling me. Schroeder would you mind?" He nodded and walked over to the doorway. Before he left I opened my mouth.

"Could you check on Sally for me?"

He nodded once more and left closing the door behind him. "This place is dangerous but we aren't the ones in danger." She held her eye contact listening to every word that was uttered from my mouth. "It's Sally, she's not safe here

Lucy was pacing the room as I put away the loaded gun back to its original place. "Why didn't you tell anybody!? Why didn't you calling 911?? Why wont you let me help her?" Her stress washed the entire room as I tried my best to explain at her pace, Lucy always talks fast when she's panicked. "I can't, if he finds out I told you he'll never let me see her again, that's also why I can't help her"

"Don't you think that's a little selfish?"

"I don't follow"

She sighed, her expression softened looking over at me. I don't know what she's about to say but I don't think I'll like it. "You'd rather have continue suffering than lose her? If you want to protect her you need to put her first." She's right, I know she is, yet I still want to fight back. "I can't lose her." I mutter, this is so selfish, this is for her, why I can't I just understand that?

The reality is, I don't know what I'd do without her. She's the reason I keep going, she's the only one who makes me happy, she's the only one I want. If soulmates existed shes the closest thing to it. She's changed my life in unspeakable ways, what would my life be without Sally? Lucy walked up to me, she was right in front of me, I couldn't run away from the words she was going to say. "If you really love her, you have to let go."

My face laid still unable to respond, not even disagree. I didn't want to let her go, even though I knew it was what was best for her.

I was so lost in thoughts that I nearly missed Schroeder walking in. I shook my head trying to stop thinking about it. "She's not here, I can't find Sally."

I grasped my fists glaring at Schroeder. "You wha-"