Amelia POV
I have been laid awake for a small while, Arizona fell asleep a little over an hour ago after a much deserved make out session. Since my big breakdown a few days ago we have been treading carefully, not taking anything too far. Just as I am beginning to fall asleep I hear movement in the corridor outside our room. I quickly put some sweatpants and a tank top over my underwear and tiptoe out of the door, careful not to wake my girlfriend. When I step into the hall way I see Sofia standing a few feet away.
"You okay sweetie?" I whisper quietly to which she moves towards me, wrapping her little arms around my waist. "Come on, lets go have a sit down." I continue, taking her hand in mine and walking towards the living room. I turn on the lamp in the corner of the room before moving to the couch, holding my arms out for Sofia. With the light now on I can see she has been crying.
"Why are you sad baby?" I ask her, stroking her hair away from her face but holding her close.
"I had a dream and I couldn't find you or Mommy." She sniffles. "I was scared." I nod my head in acknowledgement of what she is saying, wiping her now slowing tears with my thumbs.
"I'm right here and your mom is asleep in her room. I promise we are both here." I tell her quietly.
"I know, I just wanted to check."
"Y'know, before me and your Mom were girlfriends I stayed here for a few days, there was a time when I had a bad dream, and I wanted to go make sure your Mom was safe in her room just like you did." I explain, reminiscing to the first few nights I had stayed with Arizona.
"Really?" Sofia asks, half yawning half talking.
"Yep, you want to know what happened?" I offer to which the young girl nods her head. "I got a cup of water, had a drink and went to your Mom's room and she let me sleep there with her to help me feel better."
"Can I sleep in your bed tonight?" Sofia asks hopefully, still sniffing a little.
"Sure, do you want some water first like me?"
Once we had both had a little drink we make our way through to mine and Arizona's room. I let Sofia crawl in the middle before laying on her other side, trapping her between myself and my girlfriend. Arizona stirs a little and I see her eyes twitch open but she doesn't say anything until we know her daughter is asleep.
"Is everything okay?" She whispers to me over Sofia's soft breathing.
"She had a bad dream, she didn't say too much, just that she lost us in the dream and was scared. She wanted to sleep here." I inform Arizona, filling her in on the events of the last half hour.
"She used to have that dream a lot when Callie and I broke up, it doesn't happen much anymore." She tells me and I nod.
"I erm, I didn't want to stop her sleeping here but now I'm not sure what to do. What if I have a nightmare and scare her?" I ask Arizona.
"Even when my nightmares were really bad, the only time I didn't have them was when she was here. I'm not saying you won't but that's what happened for me." I nod my head slightly but don't respond so she continues talking. "You can move into Sof's bed if you want but she is a heavy sleeper, I doubt she would wake, even if you had a nightmare."
"I want to stay if that's okay, if the nightmares start I can move." I tell her, draping my arm over the sleeping child between us to place it on Arizona's hip. She runs her fingers from my hand to my elbow, resting her arm lightly over my own.
"Of course. Thank you for looking after her. Goodnight Amelia."
"G'night Az, I love you."
"I love you too."
As I next regain consciousness, it takes my body a few moments to realise what is happening. I cannot move my arm to roll over so I lift my head and open my eyes. Sofia is clinging to my arm like a koala and her leg somehow across my body. My bladder feels like it is about to burst so I carefully move the young girls leg before trying to extract my arm from her grasp. Successfully detangled from the young girl in my bed I spin my body to get up and sneak out of the room.
When I get back a couple of minutes later Sofia is awake and sat on my side of the bed.
"Good morning munchkin. Did you sleep better in here?" I ask her quietly, being respectful of my sleeping girlfriend but instead of a response to my question I get a mouthful of giggles. "What's so funny?" I ask with a smile and she looks towards Arizona's unconscious body.
"You're not very good at keeping a secret are you mrs." Arizona says from beneath the covers and her giggles suddenly begin to make sense.
"Mommy was pretending to be asleep!" Sofia exclaims with a big grin.
I climb onto the bed, crawling over the young brunette and pulling the covers down until I can see my girlfriends face. "Good morning beautiful." I say, planting a quick kiss on her lips only to be interrupted by a squealing Sofia.
"No kisses over me, thats gross."
"Sorry baby." Arizona says quickly once we separate.
"I don't think it's gross, I like kissing your Mom." I tell Sofia and her face forms a big frown causing Arizona to laugh.
"Still gross." Sofia says as the laughing dies down a little. I wrap an arm around her, bringing her in for a hug.
"Are cuddles better?" I ask and she nods her head.
"Good."
"Is that Bailey?" Sofia asks, interrupting the silence. I look to where she points realising she is talking about the picture of Christopher we put up on my bedside table not too long ago.
"Sof that's a private photo." Arizona says before I have a chance to reply.
"It's okay." I say, glancing my eyes to my girlfriend then to her daughter. "No, it's not Bailey."
"But it's not me or Zola or Ellis because we're girls." Sofia asks, her face changing showing her confusion.
"You're right, it's not. That's Christopher, my baby." I tell her, my voice surprisingly steady considering the content we are discussing.
"Where is he?" Sofia asks and Arizona looks to me, her eyes telling me it's okay if I don't want to talk about it but I shake my head.
"He's in heaven." I explain simply. Arizona's hand has found its way towards me and is now holding my own.
"Like my Papa? "
"Yep, and my Dad too." I add.
"Did Christopher get hurt like my Dad?" She asks, her big brown eyes looking to me for answers.
"No baby, he was just poorly and the doctors couldn't help him. But he helped lots of other poorly babies get better." I explain, trying my hardest to answer her questions at a level she could understand.
"How?" Sofia asks and I look to my girlfriend, unsure how to approach the topic of organ donation to a 9 year old.
Arizona gives me a reassuring smile before continuing for me. "Inside every persons body there are lots of things called organs, like your heart, and your lungs and your stomach. When you die you don't need them anymore so sometimes you can give them away to people that do. Christopher's organs helped lots of other babies." Sofia nods, showing her understanding and it's only then I realise a few stray tears had made their way down my cheeks.
"I'm sorry I made you sad Melia." The young brunette says as I wipe the tears from my eyes.
"It's okay, I just miss him. But know I can cuddle you instead." I say, pulling my arms to tickle her sides.
"Stop, stop! That's tickles not cuddles." Sofia argues and I pull my arms away. Once I've stopped she wraps her arms around my body.
"You're right, cuddles are much better." I say, taking a moment to enjoy the love surrounding me.
I'm sat on the couch with my phone when I notice Arizona watching me from across the room. Whenever I look up she averts her gaze but she isn't very good at hiding her actions.
"You're creeping me out." I state without looking up.
"What?" She questions, either avoiding the topic or clearly oblivious to her own actions.
"You're staring, it's getting creepy." I explain and she moves to come sit next to me. I lift my legs so I'm not taking over the whole couch, resting my feet on my girlfriends legs when she sits down.
"Sorry, you're just too beautiful, I couldn't help myself." She says smiling at me.
"Flattery will get you nowhere Robbins." I add, putting my phone down on the coffee table.
"Actually flattery gets me everywhere. I happen to know exactly how your body reacts when I flatter you."
"I don't know what you're talking about." I reply rolling my eyes a little.
Arizona's smile has turned into a mischievous smirk and an arm has tunneled its way under blankets towards my body. Her fingers are slowly tracing the skin at the top of my jeans. I take a deep breath, trying to keep my concentration. "Flushed cheeks, shortness of breath, increased heart rate, dampness forming between your-"
"Stop, that's not fair." I tell Arizona, placing my hand on top of hers to still her movements.
"What's not fair?" Arizona asks, her grin falling a little.
"I was mad at you for creepily staring at me but now I'm more horny than I am mad."
"I'm sorry if I upset you staring. I can tell you why I was really staring if you want" Arizona tells me softly, no longer attempting to move her hands.
"Later, right now I'm too turned on to pay attention, you need to take care of that first." I tell my girlfriend, moving my hands to her hip to remove her sweatpants.
"Bedroom. Just because Sof isn't here doesn't mean we can get sloppy." Arizona instruct as she moves my legs to get up and holds her hand out to grab mine to change location.
Arizona's arm has made its way around my waist, pulling my body close to her own. She rests her forehead against mine, occasionally stealing soft kisses. I take my hand and place it on the back of her head. I take her lips in my own, the kisses becoming more needy and desperate. Still lost in each others touches we make our way towards the bed. I feel the soft fabric on the backs of my legs but before I can respond we both topple onto the blankets, Arizona landing on top of me.
"Ouch."
Arizona immediately stops her movements to look at me. "Did I hurt you?"
"No, no I'm fine. It didn't even hurt it was just an automatic response." I explain and she shakes her head.
"You're an idiot."
"I'm your idiot though."I retort causing Arizona to let out a small huff.
"You're lucky I love you."
Arizona quickly continues her previous ministrations, placing her hands either side of my head to prop her body up over my own. Her hands trace down my sides, gently cupping at my breasts through fabric we both know would be gone soon. Her kisses get deeper and she moves her attention to my neck. She finds my pulse point and sucks gently at it, one hand back by my head and the other holding my hip. After a little while I feel a small amount of panic begin to rise within me.
"Stop, please." I ask Arizona who quickly pulls back and rolls over from on top of me.
"You okay?" She asks me kindly and I nod.
"Yeah, can I just be on top please?" I ask, averting my gaze as a means to not look in her eyes.
"Of course, you sure you want to continue?"
Instead of answering her questions I roll over and move my legs so I am straddling her. I roll the hem of her top between my fingers, slowly bringing it up over her head. I am surprised due to the lack of a bra, unsure how I had not noticed her lack of support around her chest earlier. I quickly push the thoughts from my mind, leaning in to take one of her breasts in my mouth. Arizona's hands move from the middle to the base of my back and I can feel her hesitate, unsure whether she should remove my clothing. I stop my own actions for a moment to remove my shirt before going to remove my bra for her. At this action my girlfriend interrupts, swatting my hands away so she could get to the hooks of my bra to remove it herself.
It doesn't take long for our lower extremities to reach a similar level of bareness. Skin against skin, every touch is delicious. The heat between us growing, touches so delightful and caring.
"Az, please." I plead as I squeeze my legs together as much as I can with my legs either side of her hips. I try to relieve some of the built up tension I'm experiencing but come up empty.
"What do you need?" Arizona asks caringly. I look to her face, into her eyes and I trust her completely.
"You. Now. Please." I pant, my breasts brushing against my girlfriends sending new waves of heat to flush from my core. I see her face trying to process how she should best give me her attention, unsure how to proceed. Recently oral sex has become more and more common but I want Arizona as close to me as possible, I need her with me right now. "I need you here with me. Use your hands." I instruct and she smiles, taking one hand to place it on my hip and the other to cup my face to bring me in for slow kiss.
As our tongues mould together, her right hand has moved to cover my centre, cupping me before dragging her fingers through the dampness. She keeps her movements slow, bringing her fingers up to my sensitive bundle of nerves, tracing over it making my back arch before dragging her fingers back down. Her touch is soft and loving but I need more. I arch my back, bringing my hips closer to her touch and she clearly understands. She collects my juices before pressing two fingers into me. I groan in delight, thankful for the touch I have been waiting for. The hand that was cupping my face has moved down my neck and is now gently caressing my breast, gently squeezing as she drags her thumb over my hardened nipple. It doesn't take long for us to settle into a steady pace, Arizona's thrusts are slow and firm. As I get closer to my orgasm, my arms feel weaker so I rest my head on Arizona's shoulder shoulder for support. Arizona whispers sweet nothings into my ear, keeping her pace constant. I find myself silently panting with every internal thrust, each time getting closer and closer to the edge. Her thumb has made its way to my clit, softly rubbing the nerves as her fingers pulse into my body. Her steady pace is no longer enough to further my pleasure.
"Az, please." I manage to get out between breaths.
"What do you need?" Arizona asks me, not stopping her movements.
"More. Faster. Please." I beg and Arizona is fast to adapt, quickening her pace. Her fingers hit deep within me, curving at just the right angle, over and over again. I feel my walls tighten around her fingers, gripping them so they can't move from within me. I collapse on top of my girlfriend, my body finally claiming it's well earned release. I close my eyes and give in to the pleasure, allowing my orgasm to take full control.
When I come to Arizona is still panting beneath me but I am too drained to move. Arizona's fingers are still buried deep inside me, a fact I realise as she attempts to remove them. I whimper at the lack of pressure, the emptiness from where my girlfriend had filled me. I attempt to move my body to allow Arizona some space but my muscles fail me, still weak from the rush of pleasure they had experienced. As though she understands what is going through my mind, Arizona slides out from underneath me, now laying by my side.
Arizona POV
"That was amazing, I would repay the favour but I can't seem to move." Amelia explains, glancing down at her body and then to look at me.
"You're tired, it's okay." I begin as I see her stifle a yawn. "We still have a little over an hour before we pick Sofia up. How about a quick nap?" I offer, moving my body closer to my girlfriend and pulling her towards me. Her head now rests on my chest and my arm around her back, holding her, keeping her safe. When I don't get a response to my question I brush her hair out of her face to see she has already fallen asleep on top of me. "Sleep tight, I love you." I whisper, leaning back against my pillows as she rests.
I haven't set an alarm and I can't reach my phone from this position so I opt to stay awake while Amelia naps. It's rare that she falls asleep during the day, so she clearly needs the rest. I feel guilty for not talking to her earlier, I didn't tell her why I had been staring. Sure it was because she basically begged me to take her to bed but I should have had a little more self control. I had just received an email back from Dr Watson's secretary telling me we could change her appointment to be tomorrow rather than in 4 days. I was trying to work out how to tell her after last time, knowing she won't sleep well the night before hand. At least she is getting a little extra rest now. And while she is asleep I have time to think, time to plan.
Sofia has school tomorrow, and Amelia's appointment is in the morning so at least we don't have to worry about her being in the situation. Amelia is supposed to be working a late shift tomorrow but I am off. I need to tell her about her appointment today so she has time to try and swap shifts if she believes it necessary. I hope that this week isn't as bad as last week, Amelia herself has said she doesn't think it'll be as bad, but if there is one thing I've learned it's that her moods can be unpredictable. Last week was scary, she didn't know what to expect. Hopefully this week we will be able to cover more ground and get finished with the history taking.
I leave Amelia to sleep for as long as possible before waking her.
"Amelia, honey, It's time to get up." I say quietly, rubbing her arm with my hand.
"5 more minutes" My girlfriend mumbles, pulling the blankets up over her face.
"Nope, I need to go get Sofia, and I need to talk to you about something first." I explain simply, joining her under the blankets
"What is it?" She asks, my previous statement clearly getting her attention. She wipes her eyes, gradually coming out of her slumber.
"I got an email from Dr Watson, your appointment has been moved to tomorrow morning." Amelia takes a sharp intake of breath, before slowly breathing out.
"Okay, that's okay." Amelia says, still taken in the information I had given her.
"I didn't know if you would want to swap your shift tomorrow night." I offer, still unsure how she would feel about the topic.
"I probably won't have anything difficult to do anyway, I'm working through the evening so no scheduled surgeries, I'm just there to monitor patients and deal with any emergencies. I think I should be fine, but if not I can call in sick." Amelia reasons.
"You're so strong through all of this. I'm proud of you." I tell her wrapping my arm around her still naked body.
"I don't think you can say I'm strong after what happened last week." Amelia responds with a sad smile.
"You're right, last week was bad, but you felt your emotions, you broke down and put yourself back together. And you're willing to do something that terrifies you for the greater good. You Amelia Shepherd, are the strongest person I know."
"I love you would have been sufficient, that was way too cheesy." Amelia tells me and I laugh.
"But it's true. And I do love you."
"I know, I love you too."
Amelia opted to stay behind when I go to pick Sofia up from school, she said she needed some time alone. I respected her wishes and left to collect my daughter. I wait for a few moments in the school yard for her to be released from the building. Not too long later Sofia is running out of the doors towards me, wrapping her arms around my stomach.
"Hey sweetie, good day at school?" I ask my daughters and she nods her head.
"Yeah, I made a poster for a competition and I won! I got an extra sticker on my chart!" Sofia says excitedly.
"That's amazing! What was the poster about?"
"Families. I think mine was the best because my family is so interesting! Nobody else has two moms and a dad!" I smile at her enthusiasm, loving how open she has become.
"I'm sure you must have worked super hard." I make sure to tell her, not wanting her to think the only reason she did well was her circumstances.
As we are about to leave the school gate, I hear somebody say my name and turn around to see Zola running towards me.
"Arizona, have you seen my mom? She was supposed to pick me up but she isn't here." Zola explains.
"I haven't, let me give her a call." I tell the girl, her and Sofia beginning a discussion as I search through my contacts. When I dial Meredith's number a voice I don't recognise answers. It doesn't take me long to realise its one of the nurses in surgery. She puts the phone on speaker and Meredith explains she had texted Maggie asking her to pick Zola up because she was called into an emergency surgery. With Maggie not being around i offer to take Zola back to my apartment, messaging Maggie to make sure she doesn't panic when she gets Meredith's message.
I get the kids to the car, of course they're overjoyed at the thought of an unplanned play date. Sof and Zola excitedly chatter for the full journey back to the apartment. As we pull up to the apartment building girls charge inside. I lock the car and make my way up using the elevator, the kids are already inside, Amelia must have let them in. As I enter, I see my girlfriend is in the kitchen carrying Zola in her arms. They're dancing around the room, the sound of laughter takes over my ears.
"You started a dance party without me?" I joke, faking shock before moving closer toward them. I place a quick kiss on my girlfriends lips before letting them keep dancing.
"Yep, can't help it. Someone's you've just got to dance." She responds and I smile at her, watching her so happy, so carefree, it somehow makes the world feel like a better place. I take Sofia's hands in mine and join my girlfriend and her niece. We dance for what seems like eternity, lost in the movements until my leg starts starts to hurt. When I stop moving and look up I see Amelia has also stopped dancing.
"You are getting way to big for me to carry." Amelia says to Zola, "My arms are dropping off."
"Okay Kiddos, do you have homework?" I ask them once the laughter has calmed down.
"'Yo tengo spellings mom."
"Me too." Zola adds.
"Okay well why don't you go practice your spellings, you can test each other while we make dinner. Then after dinner I'll test you.
"Okay mom." Sofia replies, running through to get bedroom.
"Auntie Melia, can we have your special pancakes for dinner?" Zola asks looking at Amelia.
"Sure kiddo, go do your homework now okay?"
"Thank you auntie Melia, thanks Arizona." Zola says loudly as she leaves the room.
"What's so special about these pancakes huh?â I ask my girlfriend when the young girl has left the room.
âœI put the filling inside while they're cooking and fold it in half so it seals, it's kinda like the calzone equivalent of a pancake.â Amelia explains and I smile, itâs the little things in life that keep us going.
âœThat sounds interesting, do you need any help preparing it?â
âœNope, just stay here and keep me company?â Amelia asks looking towards me.
âœThat, I can do.â
âœWhat time is my appointment tomorrow?â Amelia asks, breaking the silence.
âœ9:30, is that okay?â I respond, carefully studying her facial expressions.
âœYeah, it was just unexpected. After last time Iâm just really nervous, not that I wasnât nervous last time, just now itâs a different type of nerves. I know what to expect now but I donât know how Iâm going to react. Sorry Iâm talking to much I just-â
âœAmelia itâs fine. Youâre allowed to be scared, and itâs good that youâre willing to talk about this with me. What can I do to make it easier?â I ask, getting up to go and hold her hand.
âœI donât know. I just want it over with. Can you have Meredith on standby to pick Sofia up from school just in case?â She questions and I smile knowingly, staying by her side.
âœAlready sorted.â I confirm.
âœThanks, speaking of, why is Zola here rather than with Mer?â My girlfriend wonders, changing the topic entirely.
âœI think there was a mixup, Meredith got trapped in a surgery and asked Maggie to pick her up. Maggie clearly didnât get the message and didnât turn up so I offered to bring her back here. Maggie messaged saying she is back home so Iâll probably drop her home after we have eaten.â
âœDamn, good job you were there. Wouldnât want my niece being stranded.â She responds, beginning to put food onto plates.
âœYeah, and itâs fine, sheâs no bother and Sofia loves having her around. Should I go get them for dinner?â I offer, not moving from her side until she gives me permission.
âœSounds good. Arizona, I love you.â
âœI love you too.â