A/N: As always thank you to my beta McIlwain for her constant input.

This is rated MATURE for a reason; language and sex.

Just as Jax is walking out of SAMCRO's intelligence room he, is interrupted by a call from Fiona. Jax there has been a change in the baby's condition and it doesn't look good."

"Tell them I'm on my way now. How about Tara? Is there any change with her condition?"

"They've officially removed her from ICU. She is fidgeting more and starting to mumble a little, not words, just sounds."

Rushing out of the clubhouse and on to his bike, Jax pushes his Dyna hard and fast while hurrying through streets of Charming trying. The half of his family that's left behind at St. Thomas is his only concern as he backs into the parking lot space. Jax tries not to panic as he races through the hospital's sliding doors and makes his way up to the NICU. Jax scrubs his arms and hands in annoyance stops to scrub his arms and hands and quickly throws on a pair of scrubs before slipping in to see his baby boy. Jax has to check, with his own eyes he has to see for himself how his infant son is doing. While waiting to speak with Dr. Spencer, Jax stands beside his son, talking to him holding the baby's tiny hand, all the while stroking the baby's warm soft head. Jax talks to his son telling him how much he is loved. Its thirty minutes before the nurse comes to get Jax and directs him to Dr. Spencer's office.

Jax feels the mood change as he steps through Dr. Spencer's doorway, and Jax has a bad feeling, a really bad feeling, that this is about to get ugly. Dr. Spencer offers Jax a seat as he begins to speak. "I'm not going to beat around the bush here Jax; you've been through too much for this to be drawn out any longer. I need to be frank – the baby has started showing signs of the beginning of renal failure. We are giving him some medication to see if we can get his kidneys to produce more urine if not then this will become fatal. I need to be forthright here, Jax - the chances of his medication working are slim. He is tough little guy, he's been through a lot, but his little body is being bombarded and he can't fight every battle. I am afraid this is the beginning of the end."

Jax doesn't have the energy to respond right away; it's taking all of his strength to not take his chair and throw it through the wall. Jax has never been in this situation before so he isn't real sure what he's supposed to say or do. Finally Jax finds his voice. "What will happen to him? I mean, what will he go through? Will this hurt him?"

Being all too familiar with this situation Dr. Spencer takes control. "The baby is heavily sedated and he won't feel a thing, he will not feel any different than he is feeling now. With renal failure, his body is being poisoned by its own fluids, which cause other organs to shut down, and because of all his other health factors, the baby's brain will hemorrhage and he will eventually congestive heart failure." Dr. Spencer allows his professional wall to slip a tiny bit as he thinks of Tara. Barring a miracle, the baby has an additional 24 hours at most."

Stop. Stop. Stop. Jax's head is screaming as he threads his hands through his hair to try to stop his mental strain. Jax swears the room is spinning as he bends over to try to maintain composure Dr. Spencer lays a reassuring hand on Jax's shoulder and says nothing. There is nothing to say. Because of his job, he's been in this unfortunate situation too many times. But that doesn't mean Dr. Spencer is unaffected by the death of one of his patients, especially if the child belongs to a colleague and friend. "We are still doing everything we can to save your son's life. We won't stop trying under any circumstances."

This makes the second time Jax has walked out of Dr. Spencer's office feeling like it his world is falling off its axis, like the world has stopped. Jax knows he has to get to Tara so he can see her, feel her, and make sure she's still here. With the thought of seeing Tara on his mind Jax makes is way down the brightly lit halls of St Thomas, his thoughts focusing on seeing his wife. Jax has walked theses halls many times, either looking for Tara and finding Tara or walking through the halls with her. Today Jax will find Tara in room 212, the room she was moved to earlier today. Before opening the door Jax takes a deep breath as he tries to gather his thoughts. I know when she wakes up she will have a million questions about what has happened to her in the past two days and I don't know if I can answer them. Breathing deep Jax grabs the handle and opens the door to Tara's room and is hit in the face with balloons and flowers. It looks like hundreds of them everywhere it looks like a goddamn 1-800-FLOWERS commercial. "What the Fuck?"

"They're flowers Jax," Fiona said flatly. He can barely see her though the bush of daisies and roses. "A lot of fucking flowers."

"No shit Fi." Jax is bewildered; can't figure how they got this many flowers in here. "Where did they all come from?" Jax doesn't know if he has ever seen this many flowers and why were they all in here? "Is Tara even in here?"

Fiona laughs at him, "Yes she is. Just follow the Sons of Anarchy wreath, turn right at the peace lily, and duck through the mass of balloons. You'll find her camped back here and watch out for bees."

"This shit has got to go. Where did it all come from?" Jax still doesn't know what to think; he's in shock with, all the bright yellow, purple, red, orange and blue. "I want them gone out of here."

"We have gotten flowers from every charter of the Sons of Anarchy; every President, old lady and VP of the charters has sent flowers. We have flowers for days. We've scattered them throughout the clubhouse and all the different businesses. I don't know what happened here, the delivery guys must have found out Tara was moved to a room so they delivered them here today. I tried to ring the florist they were too busy filling more orders to talk. I already called Margaret to have these distributed throughout the hospital; flowers to the elderly and the balloons to the children's ward. The bigger ones are scattered throughout the lobby."

Jax's burner phone starts ringing, "Find someone Fi, I don't care who, and get this shit out of here. If Tara wakes up now she'll think she died and ended up in the goddamn Garden of Eden. Find a prospect or somebody and get these out of here. This is fucking ridiculous." Taking the call out in the hall Jax answers, "Yeah." Jax can hear noise from the other end of the phone, a lot of people mumbling.

The ringing phone at the clubhouse is answered by a prospect. "It's someone wanting to speak to Jax," The prospect tells Chibs. "I told him he wasn't around so he wants to talk to you.

Chibs grabs the phone. "Aye."

"Chibs, man, it's Skeeter. I am down at the cemetery and Gemma is walking around out here looking over the graves. She's putting flowers out everywhere. A ton of flowers from what I see. I think at her boy's grave, it looks like at Ope's and Piney's, too, but I can't tell who else. And now Gemma's just roaming around reading each marker with flowers in her hands."

"Is she alone?"

"No, there's a tall dark-haired man with her and a smaller woman. I've never seen either one of them before. The man's following Gemma around with more flowers."

Chibs' next question is tense. "Can you tell what the other woman looks like Skeeter?"

"No. she's stayed in the shade for the most part. She's never moved far from the vehicle and she's sitting in it now"

"Keep an eye on them Skeeter Don't confront them; I'm sending someone over there immediately."

"Okay I'll try, I'm doing a burial right now and they're across on the other side but I'll try to do my best."

"The guys are on the way." Chibs hung up and immediately yelled for Quinn and Phil. "Get to the cemetery now, Gemma is there looking around with flowers. Skeeter called and said there's a man with her. I assume it's Nero but there seems to be another woman with them that Skeeter can't see very well and he doesn't recognize her. Take some Nomads and whoever else you can just make sure you bring Gemma back with you. I don't care how, just get her." Before Chibs can take another breath Quinn and Phil have already run out of the clubhouse followed by any members that heard Chibs and want in on the action. They make a quick search and seizure plan before they climb on their bikes and speed away.

Chibs makes a call and when he hears the familiar voice on the other end of the phone he speaks. "Jackie Boy I have some news. Skeeter called he's spotted Gemma in the cemetery walking around, and from the description that Skeeter gave me of a man walking around with her it sounds like Nero. He said that she is walking around putting flowers on graves and reading all the markers. I sent Quinn and Phil, they took an army with them."

Jax yells into his burner. "Shit. "Did he say what markers?"

"Yeah, he said that he could tell one was Tommy's and thought maybe Ope's and Piney's and four more but he didn't know whose. Now she's walking around searching the rest of the cemetery reading all the markers with flowers in her arms and the man is following her with his arms full too. There's a woman with them. Sheeter said that he never got a good look at her. She stayed mainly at the vehicle."

Jax yells and curses in the quiet hallways, "Goddamn it! I need Juice here now. I need him to check for bugs. Tara has gotten a ton of flowers today that no one really knows where they came from. Fi thought they were from the charters. That's what they looked like too."

Now it's Chibs turn to yell, "Shit. We had flowers delivered today too and they weren't from Tara's shop. They were delivered in a plain black van, no lettering."

"Start sweeping the clubhouse. Did they come in?"

"No they left them at the picnic tables while a couple of the guys were out there sitting around smoking and talking. Jesus, Mary and Joesph."

Jax is alarmed by the tone in Chibs' voice. "What?"

"The boys... Abel and Thomas were out there at the time. They were sitting out there finger painting with Phil and Bobby." Jax is near panicking.

Jax yells in the phone. "Mother Fucker. She knows about Tara and the baby. Lock her down. No one that isn't a son or our families get in. Keep everyone else out, no one else gets in girlfriend, sweet butt I don't care who the fuck they are they don't get in. Do it NOW."

"Got it, Jackie, I'm sending Juice now. Anything else?"

Jax is screaming in the phone. "Get my BOYS and put them in my apartment and keep them SAFE! No one gets to them but SAMCRO."

"I will Jackie, I will. I'll let you know when I hear from Quinn and if you find anything in your sweep let me know we are sweeping here now. Every inch of this place is getting swept but there are so many charters here, too many people have been in and out here at the clubhouse. We are locking her down searching SONS too, Gemma has some influence and she might have gotten help along the way. I never considered it could be one of our own." Chibs is looking around at the different charters there looking at each one with a suspicious eye. Now everyone is suspected of being a rat.

"Call around to Lodi and other towns and see if you can find out where these flowers came from. I want the security doubled here at the hospital. If I find out that someone has been giving her information and damaging my family in any way I'll kill them with my bare hands. I'm calling Tig to get back to the hospital and stay in Tara's room. I need someone that we trust by her door." Jax wants, needs to know where those flowers came from they are a link to his mother and he has to find her and get rid of her so his family can be safe. He also needs find out who this other woman is that's with her and Nero. He doesn't have any idea who she might be and he doesn't like that.

"I know we can trust Fresno so I will send Vin and Leonard to help cover at the hospital. I will get Chris to help here at the clubhouse trying to track down the bloody rat." Chibs was pacing back and forth.

"Okay, that sounds fine Chibs, let me know of ANY change."

"Okay, Jackie. I'll get back to you when we find out something."

Jax hits speed dial when he hangs up from Chibs. "Tig I need you back NOW. Gemma's been spotted in Charming and we're doubling security here and locking down the clubhouse."

"It will be 30 minutes before I can get back there but I am on my way."

When Jax snaps his burner shut he's so mad he's almost hyperventilating. He stands there in the empty hallway with no one around trying to catch his breath, trying to calm the fuck down. He drops his head back, taking a deep breath and closing his eyes, pinching the bridge of his nose trying to fight off an impending headache. Jax is so tense he can't move. Gradually he tries to collect himself before walking back in Tara's room. He opens her door and motions for Fi to come out in the hall. When Fiona steps out of the room Jax tells her, "Gemma has been spotted at the cemetery putting put flowers out, tons of them."

"Shit Jax. Do you think? It's the same ones?"

"Yeah I'm afraid so. It has to be. Don't say anything but I'm getting the prospects to get these flowers out of here now. Juice is on his way to check them for bugs and Tara's entire room as well." Jax grabs two prospects that are walking the halls of St Thomas checking things. "Get those flowers out. Don't say a word. Take them down to that room at the end of the hall. Stand at the door and don't let anyone but Juice or myself in. Don't say a word, they could be bugged and if you notice anything then tell Juice. Got that?" The prospects nod and start carrying flowers out of Tara's hospital room and towards the vacant one that Jax pointed out. The prospects handle the flowers as quietly and gingerly as they can, knowing the flowers could be bugged

Jax turns to Fiona, "Do you remember who delivered them? What'd they look like? Anything?"

Fiona is still in shock and trys to sort out the delivery. "There were three deliveries but not at the same time, there was thirty minutes or more between deliveries. They didn't have any distinguishing marks or anything stating where they worked. I noticed that right away when I thought they were delivering for the shop wondering why they didn't have their delivery shirts on. I thought with all the flower orders coming in they hired some part time people. Jax, they could have killed us. We were the only ones here"

"I know Fi that's why we have to find out who they are. What did they look like? Think Fi, it's important. Is there anything else? Anything?"

"They were Mexican. But not outlaw, they were dressed nice spoke politely, and didn't have an accent. I noticed that right away."

Jax began breathing deeply, trying to keep his emotions in check but finding it nearly impossible at the moment. "Okay thanks Fi. When I get finished here go on back to the clubhouse and make sure you take one of the prospects with you. If you see those guys again tell Chibs."

"Okay Jax I will. I'll stay with Tara until you get this taken care and if there is anything I remember I will call you." Fi kissed Jax's cheek then headed back into Tara's room.

Within ten minutes Juice arrives at the hospital carrying heavy duty surveillance equipment. Tara's room is the first thing they check and they find two bugs in there. When Juice nods to Jax, Jax turns pale, scrubbing his hands over his face then running them through his hair, and then standing in the middle of the room just holding his head. Jax's headache is getting worse by the minute. After the two bugs are removed Juice goes down to check the flowers to see if there are bugs there. With what they just found they're pretty sure the flowers have bugs also. Two more bugs are found in the flowers. Juice proceeds to sweep through the entire hospital. They are looking through every inch hospital leaving no stone unturned. The noise from Juice's equipment indicates there are more bugs hidden around the hospital.

Jax waits outside of Tara's door out in the hallway to talk to Tig when he shows. Trying to keep what little bit of patience he has left, Jax starts pacing. He has to do something so he keeps his feet busy walking back and forth, back and forth. That's how Tig finds him, pacing back and forth in front of Tara's door, three steps up, three steps back. Tig is wary of interrupting Jax but he has to stop him – Jax is making him nervous and dizzy. Jax stops when Tig touches his arm slightly. "There were bugs Tig, we found two them directly in Tara's room another two in the flowers that were delivered this morning."

"Shit Jax, this ain't good. We have a rat. She knows Tara is alive."

"Yeah I don't know now if she knows the baby is alive; she was looking for a grave. So whoever is supplying her with information isn't as much on the inside as we thought. But I have no idea where to start looking. Now everyone that isn't SAMCRO is suspect. I think we can trust Fresno. As much as we go back and forth with each other it wouldn't be in their best interest to hurt the mother charter."

"I wouldn't think Fresno would either. Unless someone is looking to take over their charter and trying to take both of us out. You're right - whoever is supplying Gemma with information isn't in the know. There are only a select few that know we are guarding Tara and the baby. The others just know to guard the clubhouse, our families and the hospital entrances, that's it."

Jax's mind drifts back to what was happening before this whole mess with the bugs started. He has a terminally ill son, so fuck the bugs right now. "I need to spend some private time with Tara. When I'm through I need for you to stay in there with her and don't leave. There will be someone else at the door either, Vin or Leonard. I'm not taking any more chances. When they finish with those flowers and balloons distribute them throughout the hospital amongst the elderly patients, take the balloons up to pediatrics with some of the small flowers. No use to letting them die and no one getting to enjoy them. No telling what this cost, and that's what worries me. Gemma doesn't have this type of money, I don't know about Nero and what he has done with the Diosa money." Jax didn't mention the baby to Tig. It just seemed too private to release at the moment. Right now he just wants to see Tara to make sure she's alright.

Jax is finally able to walk into Tara's room without something else exploding, and Fiona walks out both to give Jax some privacy and get back to the clubhouse as they lockdown. Before leaving she has to fill Jax in on Tara's condition. "Tara is becoming more and more restless and is starting to make sounds. But the sounds are like she's fearful. The doctor thinks that she is reliving the attack and if Tara keeps getting upset then they will have to give her something to calm her down. If they sedate her, it could cause her not to wake up as soon as she would without it. They are worried what it will do to her mentally if she wakes up this afraid or being afraid like this until she wakes up. Dr. Johnson told me to make Tara feel relaxed and to do whatever we could do to get her to relax. We need to calm her down and then Tara won't' need to be sedated.

It wasn't that Jax minded that Tara be sedated and especially for the reasons to keep her mental health intact because she has been through enough as it is. But he needs her to wake up, and wake up now if she is going to be able to see their son alive. The doctors said no more than two days would she be out, well this is day two and she isn't awake yet. Sighing and kneeling at Tara's bedside, Jax takes her hand in his. Bringing it up to his lips, he kisses the palm of Tara's hand and then lays it gently his against his cheek. Just the contact of Tara's hand to his face helps ease some of his headache.

Jax sees Tara's growing restlessness and mumbling but Jax can't tell what she is saying. Oh God, Tara please I need for you to wake up. I'm trying to keep it together here but I don't know how much longer I can do it. I need you babe I can't do this alone I need you to wake up Tara. We need to name our son, he deserves a name Tara. He's not doing well and he needs a name. I can't let him leave us without naming him. I've been waiting for you but it's time now for him to have one. I don't want to name him without you babe I can't take away that from you, you've lost so much already. I can't do that but I'm afraid I'm going to have to. I am sorry Tara, I am so sorry. Jax lays his head down on Tara's hand and Jax continues kneeling by Tara's bed holding her hand. Jax doesn't know how long he stays by her bed.

Walking over to the drawer where he put Tara's favorite lotion Jax gets it and warms it up in his hands before he starts rubbing in on Tara's body. He is trying to calm her down, to keep her peaceful enough so she doesn't have to be sedated. Jax knows if that were to happen then she wouldn't see their son alive. Jax starts with Tara's arms rubbing the lotion carefully up and down her arms trying to get her to relax, and maybe Tara can tell it is Jax that's touching her. Hopeful Tara would know his touch, would know it anywhere because he knows hers, has never forgotten it not even after all those lonely years without it. Jax would still know Tara's touch anywhere. Lost in thought Jax slowly notices he has made his way down to Tara's legs and she is starting to calm down. In fact, Tara almost has a smile on her face. Caressing Tara's legs has brought yet another unexpected situation for Jax - he has a raging hard-on from touching her. Great now is a helluva time for this to happen. Jax tries to contain himself but it's hard to do when he's rubbing his wife's legs to calm her down. The irony isn't lost on Jax: calming his wife down while revving his own self up.

Jax goes to lie down in the bed next to Tara, trying to hold her as close to him as he can without hurting her. Just the feel of her in Jax arms calms him down and his headache is slowly fading. Jax is trying to enjoy the peace and quiet that surrounds them, trying to keep his mind off all the things that are happening outside of these walls. For now he can relax, even if it is a facade. Jax thinks he will just lie here for a few minutes.

That's what he thought but it ended up being about an hour. When Jax first opens in eyes he feels relaxed, and he looks over at Tara to calm her down. Jax thought Tara looked like she had a smile on her face but he can't really be sure. At the very least she didn't look like she was in pain and he would gladly accept that. Then it all comes flooding back to Jax: the baby, the bugs, Gemma. Kissing the side of Tara's head Jax tells her, "I love you, babe." That's all he can say. What else could he say? Jax is starting to feel hollow, like there is nothing inside of him. Jax slowly and carefully gets out of bed, trying not to jostle or hurt Tara any more than he has to. If it weren't for Tara, Jax would have ripped the covers back and jumped out of the bed immediately.

Hurriedly Jax leaves the room and finds Tig and Vin standing, or rather sitting, guard by the door. Looking at Tig Jax tells him, "I'm going to stay with the baby. Stay in there with her Tig, don't let anyone or anything in there. Don't let anyone touch her: the nurses, doctors, I don't give a shit what they say. If they don't like it they see me about it when I get back. But they don't touch her. Until I get back no one else comes through that door." Both Tig and Vin understand and acknowledge the order their president gives them. No one will get by them to see Tara.

It had been a long afternoon and Tig didn't get a chance to lie down before Jax called him back to the hospital. Tig gets as comfortable as he can and leans his chair back against the wall propping his feet up on the railing of Tara's hospital bed. Tig finds the remote and starts flipping through the channels trying to find something to watch and finally decides on watching the Jerry Springer show. After a while Tig starts to think, SAMCRO's real life shit is better than this. Perfect episode: "My mom hates my wife and tried to kill her."Slowly the beeps of Tara's monitoring equipment start playing a melody in Tig's head, and he listens to it quietly, over and over again until, it lulls him to sleep.

Slowly Tara tries to open her eyes towards the white light but it's too bright she can't do it so she closes her eyes and falls back to sleep. A little over an hour later Tara tries to wake again but this time, there is a strange noise seems to be calling her to wake up, a noise that she doesn't remember ever hearing before. Tara tries to fight through the fog in her head and tries to open her eyes against the bright light, but again, it's causing her head to hurt. Oh, what a headache, Tara thinks as she closes her eyes again. But that loud, obnoxious noise keeps calling her to wake up so she tries to fight the bright lights again and follow the sound calling her. Tara squints and tilts her head towards the source of the noise. It won't stop and Tara tries to ignore it. Looking around she knows she is in a room that looks familiar but it isn't home, so she closes her eyes and tries to go back to sleep. It won't stop she tries to look around and find where that insufferable noise is. Finally, she thinks she's found it in the form of a curly-haired, leather-clad biker – Tig. Tara tries to smile and listens for a moment before trying to get his attention to shut him up. But her throat is too dry to speak and she hurts all over when she tries to move. Finally Tara convinces her leg to move just a little bit, just enough to jar Tig's foot. Her tap almost knocking the leaning chair out from under him, jarring him awake arms flailing until he can plant his feet firmly on the floor. Tig's awake now looks he looks around quickly to see what happened when he notices the prettiest green eyes that he's ever seen in a long while. "Doll, you're awake!"