From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 1:31 AM 5 May 2017
Dear, Birch

Fuck…

I'm fine. Really.

I stayed home yesterday.

Thanks for your worrying, though.

Don't be too concerned.

Sorry for sending you gibberish…

I'm really fine now.

Have you heard back from that guy yet?

The one who offered you a job?

You said you should in a few days, right?

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 6:27 AM 5 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Oh… Yeah.

I did end up hearing back from him.

Apparently he decided that I was a good candidate.

I start on the 13th and I only have to do weekends until school is out.

I want to be excited about it, but I'm too nervous…

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 6:46 AM 5 May 2017
Dear, Birch

That's awesome, dude!

Good for you!

It's super cool that you can have those kinds of connections to get to do what you love over summer.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 6:52 AM 5 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

I guess so…

I don't really think it's that big of a deal…

Don't you have anything like that?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:01 AM 5 May 2017
Dear, Birch

Nah, nothing like that.

I mean. Sure, I have some connections.

But none of them are into anything I find really interesting.

Like, if I wanted to get into yoga or pilates or something, I got that.

If I wanted to intern at a law firm or something, I got that covered.

But I'd rather just be a professional reader or something.

You know?

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 7:09 AM 5 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Oh…

That really sucks…

I'm sorry.

I wouldn't want to work at a law firm, either…

I mean, I wouldn't want to read for my entire life, but I know what you mean. At least then you wouldn't have to talk to as many people…

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:36 AM 5 May 2017
Dear, Birch

So, I might have done something really stupid.

I pushed my dad way too far and now he's even more pissed at me than usual…

R.I.P me.

If you don't hear from me after today, know that I'm still with you in spirit.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 10:12 AM 5 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Umm… Thanks..?

But what did you do?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:21 AM 5 May 2017
Dear, Birch

I'm too honest to survive in this house, really.

He said something about me being high, which I actually wasn't, I told him that no, I'm trying to stop using, thank you very much. He wasn't pleased. Just kinda scoffed and said we'll see how long that works out. Like, really disbelieving and shit, right? I didn't want to get angry, I tried to hold it back. So I responded by letting him know that I actually haven't smoked for like a week now, thanks for noticing, asshole. He wasn't pleased with that, obviously. And basically told me that I was a fuck up. My mom got pissed. I got pissed. My sister rolled her eyes. I might have yelled at him that at least I was trying to fix my behaviour and if he would do the same maybe it would actually help things instead of making me feel like all I should do is sit in my room and smoke until I pass out. He didn't like that.

So I might not be able to talk after today.

I'm really sorry.

I should watch what the fuck I'm saying.

But he needs to stop being such a douche about it all.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 2:46 PM 5 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Sorry for taking so long to get back to you…

My dad left when I was young, so I'm not really sure what that all is supposed to be like, but you probably shouldn't have said that.

You were angry, for good reason! And he shouldn't have said what he did either, you've been trying and he should recognize and support that, but you still shouldn't have pushed him.

That really make it sound like I think you were the one in the wrong.

I don't, I know why you did what you did and I understand it. If I was in your position, I probably would have done the same, but that doesn't make it right.

If you do end up being unable to talk for a while, it's alright.

I can manage on my own, but remember that I'm still supporting you too, okay?

I get the feeling you need more support than I do.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 8:51 PM 5 May 2017
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From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 9:07 PM 5 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Are you okay?

Have you been drinking again?

What's going on?

I'm sorry, I don't know how I can help…

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 11:46 AM 6 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Hey, are you okay?

You didn't asphyxiate or anything, did you?

I'm really worried…

Just…

Message when you can.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 4:56 PM 7 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

I know I already messaged yesterday, but…

I don't know…

Just let me know if you're okay.

Sincerely, Me

AN: I just went through and compiled all of the emails so that each chapter is a day, or a few days. Sorry for spamming you all with notifications, but I figured this would be easier to read for new people. From now on, I'll be updating as usual, but when the day is up I'll compile it all into one chapter. Thanks for dealing with me. :) -Avery