From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:06 AM 12 May 2017

Dear, Birch

You really don't gotta know all at once.

It's okay to be unsure and think through this like this. It's better if you do.

You don't want to end up going through a midlife crisis in a few years just because you rushed in identifying your sexuality.

So take your time. Think about it.

You'll thank yourself later.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 7:13 AM 12 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Thanks.

I really appreciate your support.

I feel like I should be helping to support you, too.

But I don't know how..?

So I'm sorry for that…

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:17 AM 12 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Don't even worry about it, okay?

I was born to be a panic support gay.

I came to terms with my sexuality long enough ago that I don't really need the support or anything.

Thanks for thinking of me, though.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 7:21 AM 12 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

A panic support gay, huh?

I was unaware that was a position a person could be granted, but I'm glad that it is.

We make a real pair like that, huh?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:13 AM 12 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Well, since you seem to need it, I'll be your personal panic support gay for now, alright?

We both win this way.

You get panic support and I get to carry out my life's purpose.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 10:17 AM 12 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Okay. But I'm only agreeing because it will be beneficial to you as well.

I don't like feeling like I'm taking advantage of people. Even if it's something stupid and small, like this.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:22 AM 12 May 2017

Dear, Birch

I don't think this is something small and stupid, but if that's the only way you'll agree then I guess we'll go with that.

Anyway, though.

You got any plans for the weekend?

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 10:24 AM 12 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

I don't really have any big plans for this weekend.

I'll probably just watch some videos online, try to write the letters my therapist wants me to.

That kind of thing.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 4:46 PM 12 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

I know that you can't talk right now, but I just wanted to say that I hope whatever you're doing this weekend goes alright.

I forgot that you couldn't really respond earlier, so sorry for not saying so earlier.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 8:12 PM 13 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

I know you're not going to answer right now, I just thought I would update you I guess?

My weekend has been awful. I had my first day at the park and it went alright.

I didn't mess up too much and I'm working kind of away from the crowds, so I don't have to talk with too many people.

After I got back, I nearly had a panic attack ordering pizza, and I finished some homework.

I hope it's been better for you.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 9:29 PM 14 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Sorry for sending another message when I know that you won't respond.

I'm sure it's annoying.

I just wanted to say that today was kinda long and I'm tired. I finished the rest of my homework and I haven't had a panic attack yet, though.

I hope you're doing better.

Sorry again…

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:01 AM 15 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Hey, you're doing that apologizing thing again.

Stop that.

Anyway. My weekend was boring.

I stared at a ceiling all day except on Saturday when I decided to paint my nails.

I'm glad the job wasn't too awful for you.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 7:12 AM 15 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Sorry for apologizing. I'm done now.

But I'm also sorry that your weekend was so boring.

You like painting your nails?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:16 AM 15 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Yeah, I do.

I guess that's kinda stereotypical of me, huh?

The gay who does his nails.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 7:18 AM 15 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

That's really cool though.

I kinda like the idea of painting my nails, but what if someone says something about it. You know?

What colors do you like to do?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:19 AM 15 May 2017

Dear, Birch

I usually use black, but if i want to shake it up I'll use a dark purple.

If you ever decide to do your nails, I'll give you some brand recommendations. If you want.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 10:06 AM 15 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Yeah, I'll remember that if I do ever decide to do my nails.

I don't think I will, but I'll make sure to remember if I change my mind.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:08 AM 15 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Alright. :)

Anyway.

How are you doing?

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 10:14 AM 15 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

I'm doing alright, i guess.

I almost missed the bus and slipped when I was getting on, but I only bruised my knee. But it was empty other than the driver, so it wasn't that bad.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:19 AM 15 May 2017

Dear, Birch

That's good? I mean…

It could have been worse?

How bad is the bruising?

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 3:21 PM 15 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

The bruising actually isn't that bad.

It was mostly just embarrassing.

Thanks for asking though.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:13 AM 16 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Sure thing.

Good thing it wasn't too bad.

I came to school just to send you a message to let you know that I'm skipping school today.

I feel sick, but if I told my dad he'd think I was just high or something.

I just didn't want you to think I was ignoring you or something.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 7:14 AM 16 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Thanks for letting me know, but you should have just stayed home…

Go home, rest, stay hydrated.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 3:48 PM 16 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

I know that you won't be able to respond, but I wanted you to know that I hope it isn't too serious and that you'll feel better soon.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:09 AM 17 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Hey. I'm actually going to be at school today.

I'm fine now.

My dad was pissed when he found out I went back home, though.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 7:11 AM 17 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

I'm glad you're doing better.

It wasn't too bad, was it?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:15 AM 17 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Nah, it wasn't that bad.

Just a migraine.

I get those sometimes.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 7:18 AM 17 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

That really sucks…

They don't happen too often, do they?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:09 AM 17 May 2017

Dear, Birch

They don't happen too often, which is good because they're really bad.

I get really sensitive to light and sound and I get nauseous.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 10:12 AM 17 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

That sounds bad…

I'm happy you're doing better today, though.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:17 AM 17 May 2017

Dear, Birch

It's really not that bad. Just makes school rough.

Thanks for all the worry, though.

I actually appreciate it.

No one other than my mom has really worried about me in a long time…

That sounded really sad...

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 10:22 AM 17 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

No I get it.

I'm pretty sure that my mom is the only person who's ever actually cared.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:23 AM 17 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Yeah, well. We can support each other now.

So don't worry too much about it anymore, alright?

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 2:44 PM 18 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Sorry for taking so long to get back to you…

Alright…

I'll do my best to help you, too.

So if you ever need anything, I'm here for you.

Sincerely, Me