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DIMITRI POV
Love... The most blissful blessing in this world. Yet, the most confusing thing in this world. How do I know if I love her? How does anybody know that they love someone? Is it the fear of departure? Or something else? Is it the fear of letting go, or loving someone to the point you can let go?
I stared at her face as she slept peacefully. I know, I'm a creep, but I don't want to stop. Being this close to her, and holding her in my arms make me realise how much I missed love in my life. After my mom died, I promised I will never love another woman but here she is, breaking all my rules.
Can I ever let her go? Can I truly respect her decision if she decides to leave this world? Can I let go of the dark side of myself, for her?
I've met so many people telling, me that "love" changed them. Hell! even her father told me that. But how can it change a person? It has been the question I had even after having the answer with me all the time.
She moved to face her back to me. I looked at her tattoo. Phoneix. She's a phoneix, hiding all her scars from the world, and rising back stronger than ever. Oh! so badly I wanted to trace her scars, to imprint them in my mind, to remember when I torture Robert.
But for now, I want to see her face. I placed my hand under her head, urging her to turn around, and as expected she did. She turned around and cuddled to my neck, wrapping her arms around me.
How do I know if I love her? And if I'm already in love then when did I fall for her?
The day I met her? No, I wanted her body that day not her.
That day when I saw her in the club? No, I was curious that day.
When I found out she was the daughter of Russo? No, I was surprised.
That's the reason.
I'm surprised by her.
Slowly and slowly she made a place in my heart. She came in and started living there.
"Stop staring at me," I was taken back to her as she whined sleepily.
I smiled. She still has her eyes closed, I cupped her face pressing my lips to her temple.
"If we do not hurry, your father will be here soon," I told her.
"What time is it?" She asked hiding her face in the crook of my neck.
"Nearly 8," I told her.
"Jesus, that's too early Dimitri, we have time, now let's sleep," I chuckled as she told me.
"Sorry, but you have classes at 10.30 and I need to go to work," I told her getting up.
"Fine the bathroom's over there, go shower, and come to wake me up," She told covering her with that huge blanket. I laughed.
"Come on, sladost, I was thinking of saving water," I told her. She opened her eyes and raised an eyebrow.
"Really now?" She asked getting up and still holding that damn blanket.
"Hmm," I hummed pecking her lips softly.
"Well, as tempting as that sounds, we can't. Go take a shower, I'm too sore," She told softly caressing my cheeks. I moved away from her lips to look at her face.
"Did I hurt you last night?" I asked her frowning.
"No, but it just has been quite a long time," She told me still caressing my face.
"Very well then, I'll go to the shower letting you rest a little bit," I told kissing her lips and then getting up.
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ROSE'S POV ( After another hour)
"Can we have our lunch together today like we did last time?" He asked me as I made coffee for both of us. I sighed before looking at him.
"I forgot to warn you didn't I?" I asked him. He stopped eating and raised his eyebrow. I placed our coffee mugs in front of him.
"What do you mean?" He asked me.
"I get a little depressed when it's near the exams. I've always been a nerd, I can't stop it. I kept going on, no matter how exhausted I was. So it was hard. Like so damn hard. So all the stress would gather this week and I'd be like a fucking corpse," I took a deep breath.
"Dimitri, it's really hard. Like I'm not in my mind, I get angry, I'm tired all the time, hell I'll be in the library all day," I told him closing my eyes.
I felt his hand on my cheek caressing cheek.
"So simply you want space sladost, right?" He asked me. I smiled nodding my head.
"Got it, but know that we're here for you. I will always be there for you," He told cupping my cheek. I leaned to his touch kissing the inside of his palm.
"Are you sure about moving in then?" He asked me.
"I am. I want to spend time with you, in every way possible," I told him. He smiled at me leaning down for a small kiss.
"Thank you," He whispered to the kiss.
"No, thank you," I whispered back.
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Evening- At the mansion
"So have everything been solved between you two? Or should I go kill him?" Eddie asked me. I sighed.
"I just can't understand how is it so easy for you guys to kill someone," I told him.
"When you've been trained for it for your entire life, it becomes your life," He told.
"Whatever, don't lay a finger on Dimitri," I warned him.
"After your exams what's going to happen?" He asked me.
"We will finish this goddamn mission," I told him
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Dimitri's POV
Be in my shoes for a sec, you come to your room after a crappy day of glaring, and endless questions about the hickeys she gave me, all I wanted was to go to my room and be with her.
But when you come inside your girlfriend is on the bed, surrounded by a pool of books and papers.
Not the greatest moment!
"Jesus, what are these?" I asked her. She looked at me and smiled tiredly.
"Some papers, you okay?" She asked me.
"I am. You know you don't need this sladost, you're more than amazing," I told coming closer to her.
"Well, it's just me," She told me meeting me halfway for a kiss.
"Take care of yourself too, Roza," I told her.
"Go take a shower and I'll take care of this mess," She told giving me a peck on my nose.
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Three days! Three fucking days!
When she told me she'll go all crazy about this final exam of hers, I wasn't expecting this.
True we woke up together and went to sleep together, but that's all. All the other time she'll be in her study room with a board saying, "Do not disturb unless someone dies!" I mean the fuck? She already has like 98% so why is she like this?
"Boss, you've paced out again, I sighed as Mason called me.
We're in the mansion, doing some mafia work, and like 20 of my men are here.
"What were you saying?" I asked him.
"Our guns were refused by a gang, and apparently they've been making an "announcement" telling ours aren't the best," Ivan told.
"The reason?" I asked unbothered. This happens, and it's an easy thing to deal with.
"We didn't send Spikers the drugs they've requested," Ivan told.
Spikers? What kind of a name is that?
"Have they paid?" I asked.
"No," I sighed as he told me.
"There's a rule Ivan. Pay us first if you want something to buy. hell, that is the rule in every single business in the world! They paid us for guns not for drugs, if they want to know how qualified our guns are then fucking shoot them using them. So step aside that spikey or smikey problem aside and bring the real problems!" I told him harshly.
The entire room was silent.
"What crawled up to your ass and died, today boss?" One of my men asked me.
That's fucking it!
"Nothing but about to, if you don't fucking shut up!" I yelled the last part hitting the table.
"Just because I've got goddamn patience, it doesn't fucking mean you can fucking disrespect me! I take ideas, I take opinions but never bullshit!" I told and everyone nodded.
"Yebat' govorit" I yelled. ( Fucking Speak!)
"Da" They all replied.
I groaned and turned my head to the door as I heard a knock.
"Come in," I told.
"Bad time?" A soft voice asked and I closed my eyes trying to relax because I don't want to show my this side to her.
"No, just some stuff," I told looking back up at her.
She looked tired. More than tired! There were eye bags under her eyes. And she's wearing her glasses to hide.
"I'll come later then," She told us.
"Yup, give us 5 minutes, and then it'll be done," I told her.
"What's next?" I asked them once she closed the door.
"No big deal, there has been a problem in Russia, our main house," Peter told and I raised an eyebrow.
"What do you mean?" I asked him.
"I mean, two has started fighting and it has ended pretty fucking big!" He told. I glared.
"How big?" I asked him.
"Stabbing," I sighed.
"And?" I asked him.
"Some people are questioning your absence boss, I'm afraid you have to be there. It feels fishy how they abruptly question you," Peter told.
"Well, I can't leave now! Not when Robert is fucking out there, and Rose..." I sighed closing my eyes.
"Boss I'm not complaining, but you can't ring her into this problem like this. If you stay here because of her, then this problem arises even more," the Leader of my Sniper team told me.
"He's right! You can't get her into this like that," Mason agreed.
"Fine, I'll discuss this with Ibrahim and Rose both and let you know, I might be able to pull off next week, if I do leave, I want you to come with me Peter," I told him.
"Me?" He asked.
"Yes, I met Yelena the other day and she told me she misses home, so bring her along. I'll let you know exactly within another hour," I told him.
"Yes boss," Hee told.
"Is there anything else?" I asked them. And they shook their heads.
"Dismissed, but you three stay," I told Ivan, Peter and Mason They all got up and bowed to me and opened the door.
"You stayed?"One of them asked.
"Room is soundproof dude," I heard her voice saying as she entered. I smiled softly.
"Still not a good time?" She asked as she saw us. I sighed smiling.
"Come here," I told opening my arms, and she did. She splinted into my arms hugging me tightly.
"I missed you," I mumbled to her hair.
"Me too," She mumbled back.
"Hey have some respect! We're still here," I glared at Mason as we pulled away.
"Jesus you look like a zombie, who got knocked by the 'Train to Busan'," I glared harder as he continued.
"And you look like an asshole," She told him. I picked her up and placed her on the table.
"Honestly, you are already awesome, so why?" Ivan asked her.
"Why is irrelevant," She told.
"Anyway there's this thing," Mason told.
"What thing?" She asked.
"Boss, you want to tell her?" He asked me.
"So something has happened back in Russia, and it needs my presence there," She frowned.
"When?" She asked.
"As soon as possible," I told her.
"Well, that's something unexpected," She told.
"Have you decided on a date?"She asked me.
"I was thinking about a day next week. It won't take too long most probably two days," I told stroking her hair.
"Well then, I'll be busy too, so you have two days, I guess," She told me smirking.
"Yes ma'am," I told kissing her softly. We pulled away knowing we had company. From the corner of my eyes, I noticed something.
"That was easy," Ivan mumbled.
"Who's going with you?" She asked me.
"Peter," I told and Peter nodded.
"Well then, have you informed my father?" She asked me.
"I will," I told her.
"Are you going to be alright?" I asked her.
"Yeah, of course," She told me.
We all turned our heads to look at the door as someone knocked.
"Come in," I told and Ibrahim opened the door. His face changed with surprise as he saw Rose.
"When did you come out?" He asked her.
"A little while, like 10 minutes ago," She replied with a small smile.
"Wow! I didn't know, anyway I'll come back later," He told.
"You came to say something?" I asked him.
"I was going to ask you if kiz came out, but I got my answer," He told me. I got the hidden meaning.
"That was strange," She told after he left.
"He thinks I'm going to steal you from him," Mason stated calmly.
"What? "She asked.
"I mean, you're his daughter and seeing you with the boss hurts you because he feels like he's being ignored or he doesn't matter to you anymore," He told looking at his computer.
"Did he tell you about this?" She asked me.
"Not directly but I felt it too," I told and she sighed.
"Why don't you go talk to him about this?" I asked her giving her a small kiss.
"I should," She told getting down.
"I'll see you later then," She told us all. I smiled.
As the door closed, I turned to Mason.
"You like her," I told him. From the corner of my eye, I saw Ivan's eyes being widened.
"Does it matter?" Mason asked still typing.
"Yes, it does matter to me," I told him my voice being too calm.
Fuck I can't stand this!
"If you think I'm going to steal her from you, then you're wrong. I have no such intention. She's just a crush," He told taking his eyes off the screen to look at me.
"No, it's not just a crush, Mason. Do you think I'm blind?" I asked him.
"Fine. Yes, I love her. And it hurts me to see you with her. And I ask myself every day what on earth she's doing with you, who disrespected her when she was with you, and how could she not see me. And I want to tell her that I love her but how can I when I see how much you two love each other, and how happy both of you are?
It hurts me to see her smile just by thinking of you, and how her eyes sparkle when she does. Every single moment I look at you two I ask myself why her? I mean out of the entire world, why the fuck did my heart chose her? It hurts to see she will never look at me the way I look at her.
But don't worry, boss. I'm not taking a chance of getting in the middle of you two. Because she's happy, your happy, I have a motherfucking family who fucking cares for me so stop looking at me like I'm a fucking traitor for falling love with your girl!" He stopped taking deep breaths.
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"You're dismissed," I told him, knowing nothing to say.
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