A/N: Here is another chapter. Thanks for reading and favoring this story it means a lot.
A/N: I do not own Gossip girl. You all should know who i own by now besides the plot.
Chapter 8
Hey my lovely UES, I hear that Little J hasn't come out to enjoy the city yet. She's been cooped up in her room and avoiding everyone. Poor B she hasn't had a chance to talk to little J. Is she scared of what little J might have to say? On another note, N went into little J's room and joined her on her good chat, I wonder what happened after the chat, and what is CB hiding about little J?
Oh how the days slowly kicked by and the dirt is still getting deeper.
You know you love me
Xoxo
Gossip girl.
Jenny's POV
Its been two days since I decided to stay in bed and ate my meals in my room. But I hardly eat anything. I couldn't. I was having problems eating when I was with my mom, I quit eating breakfast and lunch and I just ate dinner, yet I would have snack five hours before dinner. But now I'm back with Rufus now, I just ate small amounts of food.
Today was no different. I was trying to get some rest but a knock sounded at my door.
"Come in," I said.
I didn't see who walked in because I was looking at my phone and laughing at the random videos my friends had sent me. I felt someone sit on my bed, and when I looked up I noticed that it was Blair.
"Jenny can we talk?" She asked me.
"Why so you can tell me to get off your island again?" I asked her.
"No, I was thinking about having you come back for you last year of high school to spend time with your dad and people," She said.
"Whatever Blair, I don't care about you being Queen, or the new Queen at Constance anymore. I'm more focused on my own things that I like to do. Things that you tried to destroyed once or more than once,"
"Jenny please, I'm trying to say sorry. But we were too much alike and we crashed each time. I'm sorry that I told you that no one cares about you, I was wrong. I didn't mean it and when I found out what you and Chuck did I reacted badly. I should have walked away and not say a word. I'm sorry Jenny," she said.
I looked at her and said, "Get you right now. You think you can walk in here and you can explain why you said all of those hurtful things and expect me to just accept you apology and forgive for every hateful and wrong doing that you did to me. I'm sorry Blair but I'm not ready to accept your apology. Please leave and leave me alone. I don't care about your world because right now I'm waiting till I'm better before I walk out of this place and see my friends again. You made it clear that I don't belong here and thanks to that I found better people who accept me for who I am. No go away Blair, I don't want to talk to you."
I watched as she walked away. I turned around and blasted my music and it was Deadly Revenge. They or WE were only a small band but we did manage to get our demo out on ITunes. I didn't feel like anything. I just felt numb. Thinking back to all of my friends I wanted to be with them and out of this wheelchair and cast but lucky for me only five more weeks until this cast comes off and only a month before my cast on my broken leg gets to come off and then I can leave this apartment.
"Jenny I'm coming in," Said my Rufus.
I looked away from the door and didn't say anything. It seems not matter what I do I can't get out of this stupid drama. I heard the door opened and someone walked in.
"I see you didn't finish all of your breakfast again this morning. Then I hear that Nate was in here last night while you were talking with your so called friends, and then when you were done talking that you two somewhat talked, then you got mad. Now Blair is crying because of the fact that she tried to come and apologize to you and you wouldn't forgive her. Then you haven't been eating, I don't know what is wrong with you, but you're going to stop this. I wonder what your mother would say about this." He said almost yelled at me.
I didn't say anything. I stayed quiet. I couldn't say anything. I wanted to because of the fact that he doesn't know anything about me. No one from this world does. I'm not the same Jenny. I've changed. Yet he had to bring up my mother. The very same mother that died and I couldn't say a goodbye to her.
"Don't bring mom into this whole mess. You don't know me. You only know the person that you spoke on the phone with. I'm not the same girl you sent to moms to live. I've changed and I guess it doesn't matter if you could see it or not. I guess that I'm not welcomed here, that once my 18th birthday comes around, and I'm out of this wheelchair I'm going to drop out of school and move in with my friends because at least they know me and they can help me unlike you. I guess some things that Blair did tell me was the truth," I yelled at him.
"Je-"
"No. Don't even go there. Yeah I know I don't eat like I used to, so what. And I've just lost my mother. So could you just back off, just because you stopped loving and cared about mom, doesn't mean I have to. At least mom knew the right questions to ask."
I didn't say anything after that. I just rolled around and blast more of my music. I heard my door slam but I didn't care. I didn't care what happens anymore because everything has changed. I'm not the Jenny that everyone once knew, I've changed and its time they understand that. I slowly drifted to sleep as if the music was just a lullaby.
A/N: Well there is the chapter. I'll be updating again sometime on Wednesday.