A/N: Hey readers, how is everyone? Well today my cat monster had her kittens and now I have three baby kittens so I am really in a good mood. So I hope everyones day and night has been going pretty good for you all. Well on with the story.

I DOn't own Gossip girl. I only own the band, Rose, and the setup/merch crew and the plot.

A/N: Also thanks for the reviews from the last chapter. Also to the reviews, has anyone else who writes on her having problems about reading the reviews for each story? anyways on with the story and I'll answer everyone's questions next week.

Chapter 10

Jenny's POV

I woke up hours later and I heard voices, they were Rufus's and Lily's. I listened to what they were saying and it was about me.

"Lily what happened to her? How did she fall into depression like she did?" Said Rufus.

"I don't know. But it seems everything they told were true and after they left Chuck told us more. Maybe you just need to try and get to know her again before it's too late," Said Lily.

"Lil I can't. They told me that she hated me for cutting her off, I-we all did," Said Rufus.

I didn't want them to find out so now that they know I'm not sure what I'm going to do about this. Why was this my life and why did I end up this away, what the blazes will I be doing. The only thing that was running through my mind was what the hell? What was I going to say to them and what do they think of me now though that doesn't really bother me like it used to. Sitting one my bed waiting for one of them to walk in my room and start question me. All too soon my door opened and everyone walked in with chair and sat down and looked at me.

I just pulled out my lyric book and a pen and flipped to a clean page and I didn't say a word just started to write random words on to a blank page. When I was writing I felt eyes watching me. Looking up I looked at all of them and said, "So you all know. Well I guess I couldn't keep it a secret for long. But I guess you guys might have questions, so you can ask but I might not answer all of your questions. Also another thing if you ask the right question I'll tell you more information. Also if this gets out to gossip girl I'll stop telling you all things."

I glanced down at the paper and noticed I had a title already Angel eyes. I stared to write random words and so far I got the chorus Don't you try to hide with those angel eyes, if you let me inside I wont hold back this time, such a deep disguise, the devil's right inside, more than paralyzed, oh it's the chase you like.

"Jenny when did you get into writing songs?" Rufus or as these people like to call him my dad askes me.

I stopped writing and looked up and said, "After I left here. It was a way to cope with what happened to try and forget things that happened."

I started to write again, There's something about you, I can not explain, I just want to know you, I just want to know your name, its not what you said, not the way you said it, I'm under you spell and I don't regret it.

"Jenny what why did you try it?" Ask Erik.

I froze what I was doing and looked up at them and said, "Things happened and the school wasn't welcoming. Then kids won't talk to me because I was always at the top of my class. It just got to overwhelming for me."

I looked down and crossed out the chorus and placed it under the first verse.

There's something about you, I can not explain, I just want to know you, I just want to know your name, its not what you said, not the way you said it, I'm under you spell and I don't regret it.

Don't you try to hide with those angel eyes, (if you let me inside I won't hold back this time), such a deep disguise, the devil's right inside,( more than paralyzed, oh it's the chase you like.)

"Jenny we're trying to talk to you and all you are doing is writing away," said Rufus again.

I sighed and closed my notebook and looked up at them and said, "The reason why I was writing was to let off some stress. Why can't you just chill. Now anymore questions."

They each took a turn to ask questions and I answered and then Nate looked up and said, "Jenny what happened between you and that bartender that Rick was talking about?"

I didn't answer for a while. I knew that Ali and the guys told them, but I looked up and said, "he used to be a friend. Before I meet the band, I would go and watch them play from time to time. The bartender kept eyeing me up and down. I just shook it off as if it was just a random guy checking me out. After a while I got to know the band and they told me not to be to friendly with the bartender. Of course I didn't want to listen to them at the time, then one fateful night I found out why. He drugged my drink and started to kiss me, this was the seconded time and Ronnie saved me before anything could happen. I found out the next day that his sister went to the high school that mom had me in. It was strange because in the end I felt like everything that happened was my fault. That if I wasn't alive people would be happy. So I tried and then Ronnie, Rick, Rave, Ali, Blade, Fallen became my friends and they talk to me. Now look where I am, the last place I wanted to be and a place that I'm not welcomed to be. So if you all don't mind share and tell is all over with."

No one said anything else. They all got up and left my room and I blasted my music while working on a song.

A/N: Okay that was the chapter and the song that Jenny is working on is called Angel eyes By new years day. Now I wanna try something, I want to make a play list for this story that I have written so far, so if you wish or want find four songs that fit this chapter, send the name of the song and who it is by to me by next Tuesday September 1 at 8pm (New York time). So that way I can have all of Wednesday the top four for each chapter also who you send the song title and who its by also send which chapter its for, each chapter can have up to four songs each, because I have four songs that will fit, so when I add an authors note, their will be up to eight songs for each chapter, if you need more info don't be scared to send me a message. :D Have a good night.