A/N: hey guys I have some bad new to tell you all, I just found out that my step dad has cancer and the doctors have given him about 6 months to live. I just wanted to let you all know that if I don't update once a week, its because I'll be trying to help my mom, stepdad, his kids, my brother, and his little boy. I just wanted to let my readers on here know. At the end of this chapter is a list of songs that I have found and people have sent to me. So if anyone has any songs that would fit this story it will help tons. well on with the chapter, PS. I don't own anything, all rights to the creators of the books, and shows. I only own the plot, rose, the band, and set up crew, oh a new character that will appear in this story. :D

Chapter 12

Hey UES I found out by a tip that Little J is at a club that's not your ally. This club is dark and the clothes you wear in there is nothing but dark and something along the lines of Goth? But the question is why did little J change?

You know you love xo xo

Gossip girl

Jpov

After sound check we all went to get some food and just chill. Ali and Ricky went with me for pizza while the others split off to find something else to drink. Ricky and Ali keep give me strange looks, when I finally had enough I looked over at them and said, "What is it?"

"That song, who's going to sing the male lead, I could sing it but I seems like someone else should sing that part," Said Rick.

"I agree with Ricky, we need demon to sing that part," Said Ali.

I knew that they were right, but Demon hasn't been seen around here for about a year. Demon, or his real name, Carter Angelo, he's part of this band. I've tried calling him but he doesn't answer his phone, we knew that his mom died and soon after he left. He left though we were still together, but Cater was someone who knew the full story.

"I agree because he was the one who got into sing, but I haven't heard from him. Damn I should have checked on him but I couldn't. I had to deal with things and things that I regret, he made me happy but when he left I realized then that I was in love with him, but I couldn't force myself to tell him."

"J, he came back a month ago. I've been texting him and he was sorry but he had to find himself and he has been writing music for the band, and tonight he wants to perform that song with you."

I froze and looked at them and said, "What?"

"Yes, he saw that we were going to be on warp tour and he called me up. Then that day when you lost your mother, he called and I told him what happened, but then he told me not to say anything because he caused a lot of things to happen," Said Ricky.

I looked at Ali and she had a sad look and said, "But he's at the club in our changing rooms, if you want to go and talk to him before we go one you better go and talk to him or tell him you want to talk to him after we preform? That would be better."

Without another word I jumped up and took off running outside of the pizza place. I ran back to the club passing my so called family on my way in. I only slowed down for the bouncer to let me in. I ran to where the changing rooms were at. When I reached my bands changing room, I stopped and took a deep breath and walked into the room and froze where I was. I wasn't sure what I wanted to do.

I wanted to go and talk to him, yet at the same time I wanted to yell at him. I turned around and slid down the wall and soon I was lost in myself and everything that I wanted to do just went out of my mind. I couldn't think. Why did he leave without telling anyone? Why didn't leave a note for me? Why didn't come and talk to me? Was I that stupid that somewhere along the line I lost myself? Where did I go wrong? All of these questions ran though my head. I had no way of stopping my thoughts. I knew that the night we fought that we both caused it. Yet he was the one who helped me stop cutting, he knew everything about me. And I knew everything about him.

"J you okay?" I looked up and saw Ronnie with Rave, Fallen, and Blade, they were right behind Ronnie.

"Carter is back, he's inside," When I said that everyone walked into the changing room. I got up and walked into the room with everyone. I didn't say a word. I sat down in front of a mirror and started to get ready.

I zoned out and then I hear Ricky's voice saying, "J your dad and brother wants to see you. So can they come in?"

"Yeah let them in please," I said without glancing around the room to see what was there. I pick up a clean brush used for makeup and started to fix my makeup and then I moved to my hair. Soon the door to the room opened again and my so called dad and brother walked in and my father aka Rufus said, "You truly have really changed. Now I understand what happened to a point. So I see someone is here that I haven't met yet."

Everyone froze and Carter got up and walked over to my father and said, "Hi sir. I know all about you. I've been away for a while, and I guess J is still mad at me."

"Hi Cater I am Rufus and this is my son Dan," Said Rufus.

"It's nice to meet you both. Jen has told me about you," said Carter.

"Well that's good that my sister has told you about us, but Jenny why didn't you tell me about him?" Asked Dan.

"I had my reasons," was all I said.

A/N: well well well I wonder what going to happen next. Any ways here are the songs that I've found so far

1. when she cries by Britt Nicole

eyes by new years day

3. wonderland by blood on the dance floor

Thats all i have so far :D