A/N: Well here is another chapter. But I have a question for all the readers on here, who all watches faceoff? I was shocked to find out that the person who won this season was only 20. I was rooting for him and this other person. Well those who watched recovery road, shadowhunters, and the magician, what did you all thought of the ending for the season? Well that's all I have to say. P.S. Remember guys that I do own gossip girl all rights go to author and the writers of the TV show.

Chapter 22

Hey UES I checked something on YouTube and you'll never guess what it's about. Its little J and all about her band. Its kind strange that she might be going places, but it still bothers me that she is hiding something from everyone.

I hear that E has started to hang out with J. I wander who S is handling this information.

You know you love me

XoXo

Gossip Girl

Jenny's POV

After Nick and Ange left we all decided to go out to eat before heading home. Eric was walking next to me on my right and Carter was on my left. We walked into a fast food place and ordered our food. We waited for it and found a place to sit. It was fun until Carter said, "Eric what did you mean that J accepts you for who you are?"

It became quiet and at Carter and said, "Really? You had to put him on the sp-"

"No J, it's okay. I want to tell your friends as long as they don't tell anyone, even though the whole school knows about me. J's friends, I, Eric, Step brother of Jenny is Gay. I like boys and not girls. I hope you guys can accept that," Eric said as he cut me off.

I hugged Eric and said, "I'm sorry you had to tell them."

Ricky looked at Eric and said, "don't worry Eric, we won't Judge you. Our set up and merchandise crew left us because they couldn't deal with my friend Luke who is Gay as can be, him and his sister, Izzy and her girlfriend Kat have decided to help Luke with everything this summer when we go on tour. So if you like us, and want to hang with us all summer and get away from UES you can join our setup crew."

I watch Eric as he thought about the offer that Ricky made. When he looked at me he said, "If it's okay with you Jay I would love to be a part of the crew."

I smiled and said, "Of course you can."

Two days later was a Monday. I was feeling really bad about everything that I felt the urge again. I didn't want to cut, but when I picked up the razor it happened. Once I finished and cleaned up I walked out of my room and went to Chuck's room.

"Chuck are you here," I called out to him.

I noticed that his office door was closed and it was sound proof. I walked over and knocked onto the door. The door opened and Chuck took one look at me and turned around. When he walked to his desk he said, "Gentlemen, I have to cut this meeting short for the night," he stop and took a breath and looked at me and said, "Jenny close the door till I can find time to finish the meeting up and then I am all yours little sis."

I nodded my head and closed the room and walked into the living room and pulled on the blanket he had on the couch and snuggled into it. I stayed where I was when Nate walked into the living room and when he looked at me he said, "Hey Jenny how are you?"

I didn't talk to him or even looked at him. He walked closer to me and I got up and moved away from him. But he cornered me. I was scared and I felt like I was going to pass out.

"Jenny I want to say that I am sorry. But I still believe that you shouldn't be with that Carter guy," Nate said.

He was about to kiss me when Chuck pushed him away and said, "Nate what the hell. Can't you see that she's freaking scared. I need you to stay back because her PTSD is starting to act up."

Nate backed away from me. Chuck looked at me and said, "Jenny calm down. I'm right here. I'm not going to hurt you. I know what today is."

I slowly walked over to Chuck and Nate just watched. Once I was close to Chuck he pulled me into a hug and he said, "Its okay. I know you didn't mean it but you have to stop. I know what happened to you. Its okay Jenny you don't have to go to school. Go get someone rest in my room okay."

I walked away and into Chuck's room. I feel asleep on his bed.

Chuck's POV

Once Jenny was in my room and I knew that she was asleep, I looked over at Nate and said, "What the hell man. When I told you that she might stop by and act strange that wasn't meant for you to try and get her to talk to you or you to win her over."

"I'm sorry Chuck, but why was she acting like that?" Nate asked me.

"Its been two years today since she was raped or close to it. Since then she's been having PTSD and the urge to cut is high. Nate I want the others to start coming around but one by one. The last four will be Dan, their father, Lily, and Serena. I'm just scared that it might set her off even more. It doesn't help that gossip girl leaked the link to the YouTube video that they were interviewed in," I told him.

"Chuck if you want help with-" Nate started to say.

"I'll be fine. Besides Carter is helping a lot. God that boy love hers. Off of the topic of Jenny, how have you and Viv been?" I asked him.

"I dumped her. She was lying to me about Jenny. I wish I never meet her though. But I can't help but think that Jenny hate me," Nate told me.

Laughed and said, "She doesn't hate you Nate. She loves you. She used to ask about you till her and Carter got together. She said that no matter who she's with, she'll always love you. I think maybe one day you two will be able to be together again."

Nate laugh and smiled. I pulled out my laptop and watched the interview that they had that was on YouTube and it was pretty good. They answered some hard questions. Nate smiled because Eric was actually included into the interview.