A/N: Hey guys here is the new chapter. I hope you all are enjoying this story as much as I am in writing it.

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Chapter 23

J's POV

I woke up and noticed that I wasn't in my room. When I glanced around I noticed that I was in Chuck's room. I started to flip out until I remember what happened. I forgot what happened on this day and my PTSD kicked in along with anxiety. Everything came back when I cut, to walking to see Chuck. Then I curled up on his couch until Nate came it which pushed me over the edge, then Chuck talking to me and sent me into his room.

Slowly I got up and pulled the blanket tightly around me and walked out to the living room to where Chuck was sitting talking to Nate, Blair, Serena, Dan, and someone else. I was about to go back when Blair looked up and said, "Hey Jenny."

I froze. I didn't dare to talk to any one of them. Chuck got up and walked over to me and hugged me and said, "Calm down. They won't start in on you. I've warned them."

I nodded my head and he led me over to the couch and set me down on the other side of him while he sat between me and Blair. It was quiet in the in room. No one said anything and the TV was turned off. I stayed quiet and waited for someone to say something.

"Chuck why was she in your bed?" Yelled Dan.

I jumped and pulled the blanket tighter around me. I kept my gaze my gaze on the floor but I started to shake. I tried to sink into the couch but I felt an arm around me, and looked up at Chuck.

"It's okay Jenny. Dan didn't mean to yell," Said Chuck, then he looked over at Dan and said, "If anyone wishes to speak please do it quietly. Jenny's not having a good day and today of all days isn't a good one for her anyways. And Dan, she was in my bed because she started to have flash backs to something that happened to her. She didn't feel safe enough to stay in her room."

"I get that. But what is wrong with-" Started Dan.

"Dan, please stop it," Said Blair.

Blair put her arms around Chuck and looked over at me and said, "Its okay Jenny. I promise you that everything will be okay. Now I saw your interview and I thought that was sweet of you to include Eric. He's changed when you left, but I'm glad you two patch things up with each other. "

I smiled, but looked over at Serena. She didn't look pleased with me. I noticed she kept glancing down at my ring on my right ring finger. I glanced down and noticed that the ring was the same one that the band was going to get.

"Chuck how did this get their?" I spoke quietly.

He looked down at my hand and said, "Ali said that they just came in today and she couldn't wait till you got yours. She stopped by to see you. I didn't want to let her in, but she said it would bring a smile to your face."

I took the ring off and smiled. It had our initials in graved around DV. The D was at the top and the V went through the middle. It was something that Ali came up with. The color of the ring was silver, and the letters were black. It was beautiful and I was happy the way it came out. We each had a different image that was graved on the inside of the ring. I thought that it rocked how cool the rings turned out to be.

"Ali is really good at drawing isn't she?" Asked Chuck.

"Yeah. This was her idea. That each member of the band and crew get one made, but the members who leave have to turn the rings in and give them to Ali, since she likes to make jewelry," I told Chuck.

"Chuck I'm sorry, but when was the last time she took pills?" Asked Serena.

I froze and looked away. I didn't want them to know about the pills I had to take for all of my problems. I had all of my pill bottles but one, but Chuck spoke to the doctor and they get me a new bottle since I had a strong feeling that someone was going through my medicine.

"Why do you want to know Serena?" I asked her.

"Because I went into your room one day before you were in the hospital and I took a bottle of pills and took pictures of all you medicine. I want to know if you are taking them or not," Said Serena.

I took a deep breath and said, "I've been taking pills, but they are from a doctor. But not any doctor here in the city. The doctor I go to lives where my mother used to live. She has her own practice. These pill are something I take to control half of my problems."

"No one here has heard of this Doctor Rose," Said Serena.

"I have. I even checked her out Serena. Doctor Rose is Ali's and Rick's Aunt," Said Chuck.

"But why does she have to take them in the first place? Some of these medication are for adults over 21 unless an adult agrees that the child should take them," Said Serena.

"My mother gave permission. Rufus doesn't know about them and I am not going to tell anyone else my problems. I have been learning to deal with what is going on with me, but when everyone in this room expect Chuck and Blair, pushed me over the edge, I ended up taking a bottle and half of pills, and if you took that pill bottle from Chuck's bedroom, it's because he has to make sure I take them, and he keeps them out of sight. Now does anyone else have any questions they would like to ask me?" I asked.

No one said anything. It was quiet again until my phone went off. I checked the caller ID. I froze and dropped my phone. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I started to shake.

"Jenny what's wrong?" Asked Chuck.

"Its...it...its...him...I...can't.." I tried to say.

Chuck got up and knelt in front of me and said, "Breathe. Just breathe. Listen to my voice."

I tried taking deep breathes to slow my breathing down. Then the next thing I knew Dan picked up the phone and said, "Who is calling? Oh so you're a friend of my sisters? Yeah she's right here. She's not doing too well. Oh your at the Empire hotel, then co-"

"No. Hang up right now. Don't tell him where I am. Please don't tell him," I pleated.

Dan looked at me strangely when he told HIM where I was. I felt my blood go cold. I was shaking and started to cry.

"Jenny what's wrong with this friend coming to see you?" Asked Dan.

"I don't want to see him. I gotta get out of here before he comes up. I gotta hide again. I need-" I was crying and Chuck hugged me and said, "He's not going to get you. It's okay. I'll call Ali and tell her what's going on. Come on, why don't you go back and lay down. I'll explain everything to them."

I nodded. I tried to get up but I fell and the blanket fell to the floor and my arms were exposed for them to see yet again. But the one word that was etched into my sink was in plain view and I didn't have any cover up on it. Chuck picked me up and carried me into his room and covered me up. He closed his curtains and turned out the lights, but he left the lamps on.

A/N: Well there you have it, a new chapter and does anyone have an idea what the word is that she cut into her skin? Comment/review for sneak peaks, and also not sure when I'll update again, maybe next week. Well I am off now.