GP: and so we continue are story back with our favorite simp!
soulbound: soda?
gp: my mistake, our LEAST favorite simp
soulbound: Matsuda
gp: yep talking to Mr. All-my-friends-are-dead
and he's gonna end up doing something stupid
And then he triggers the guy who knows about Junko and then decided to kill him cause he knows to much despite the fact that won't solve anything
gp looks at the camera
Matsuda is a stupid simp music intensifies
I regret not killing you
but that's in the past as the last bit of murder plays
[SIRAMAY]
siramay walks in, in religious robes
Sweet Death has taken this brave man from us!
Sweet Death 'as raised 'is score to five!
Friends, take what comfort that you can from us!
Thank chunsoft, us lot are still alive!
God in Heaven - now, forever
Take him home and hold him near!
[CONGREGATION]
God in Heaven - now, forever
Take him - and leave us lot here!
[ULTIMATES]
Catchin' such a madman could be hard!
(spoken)
Shouldn't be! I agree!
We shall see!
(sung)
Cos they're all so thick at Danganronpa!
(spoken)
Tellin' me I agree!
So do we!
(sung)
She'll kill us if we let er!
They gotta go and get her!
[WALKER]
I know a way to net her!
[FARARI]
HOW?!
[ULTIMATES]
Murder!
No matter who we're blamin'
Till they put wot's-'is-name in
There's gonna be a flamin' row!
Murder, murder - On your doorstep!
Murder, murder - So watch your step!
Murder, murder - Take one more step:
You'll be murdered in the night!
Murder, murder - Once there's one done
Murder, murder - Can't be undone!
Murder, murder - Lives in Danganronpa!
Bloody murder in the night!
(whispered) Murder!
walker: thank you for letting me finish the song
siramay: no problem
NOW ON WITH THY STORY we got a group to meet!
gp: and so the story continues with ryoko and yuto talking about the MURDER case
idiotically so oh the fool! just cause he can't understand her he puts it in rjs mind that she won't kill Mathew yager cause he dosent understand why'd she say
well I got news for you buddy! you can't just go around stating your own pet theory is the only answer cause it's the only thing that makes sense and saying its fact cause of that in times like these you just gotta consider that situations like these don't have an answer and worry about that instead
and when the time comes if it ever does then you'll understand...idiot
soulbound: you seem in a bad mood
gp: IM UNDER ALOT OF STRESS! RJ NEEDS SERIOUS HELP AND THE ONLY PEOPLE GIVEING HER THE TIME OF DAY ARE A BUNCH OF NO-GOOD-SPINELSS-SIMPCUCK-SELFRIGHTEOUS IDIOTS!
its hurts you know?
soulbound: pats his shoulder sympathetically
wait and hope
gp: you're right, whats a bit more pain to her life's worth of it
well anyway
ryoko: N-No way… they really are a ghost…
yuto: S-Stop that! They're not anything like a ghost!
Gabriel: I can assure you they are not a ghost
there victims though? definitely ghost
saw them in heaven! so at least there's that, kinda a favor if you ask me
ryoko: people shouldn't be killed though
Gabriel: atta girl that's fair anyway on with his babbles
gp: so he points out Mathew yagers connection to Junko and how it's odd they released Junko after one interrogation
which is true I'm no expert, but I heard Japan's pretty strict on things like that I mean it's no Singapore, but this isn't America where shes innocent till proven guilty I'm telling yah they'd be on her back like bloodhounds if life where like itself
soulbound: not to mention I'm positive that it's illegal to have a person of high lawment aid in the interrogation/arrest or defense of a crime assailant (even if just possibly) if they have relations to said person
do to bias and shady dealings of course
he may be ultimate but it's like brining a faulty gun to a knife fight, it may look like overkill but it's just as likely to blow up in your face
gp: couldn't have said it better myself soulbound
though it's frustrating that ryoko is clearly depressed at the possible (and true) news of Mathew having goings on with j and yuto dosent even care being more into his case UGH
so rj try's denying it
Gabriel: hey rj look at me
ryoko: huh?
Gabriel: you can't deny it
ryoko: why not!?
Gabriel: cause like it or not it's a fact of life and its gonna threaten Matsuda if it's true
ryoko: why do you care you hate him!
Gabriel: yeah but I love you!
so yeah Matsuda may be a pathetic simp who I'd be happy if he was 50 miles to the sun... Gabe shakes his head to get back to the point but you love him and are genuinely happy by being with him
and if there's one thing I don't regret dying for its the hope to see you genuinely happy, just seeing you with a gentle smile on your face and a light in your eyes... it reminds me we're human
and if you keep on running away from the pain of life you won't be able to appreciate the joy of living
so Matsuda was working for Junko and now his life is in danger and only you can choose if he will live or die! cause he dosent understand the depravity of the situation he's in
but we can still save him... look if it makes you feel any better we don't know the full facts of this case we could be wrong
but we still need to face it so can you preserver! can you do that? for me? and Matsuda to?
ryoko:... yeah... yeah I can
Gabriel: that's my girl
ryoko: thank you... dad
Gabriel: GHHAAAASSSPPP you called me daaaaaadd
I can die happy now!
I mean I'm already dead, but still!
gp: so they continue talking and yuto is gross!
Gabriel: I'm just gonna say it now...
I'd rather you kill him then do whatever sick things he thinks you should do
BUT DONT KILL HIM!
you've been going clean for a while I'd rather not be a bad influence I've been trying to improve on that account
maybe just one good genital kick? he's small I know for a fact you can outmatch him
or maybe just leave after all you didn't legally write it down so he can't do nothing whats he gonna do call the cops?
what a niceguy(tm)
gp: and then rj relapsed
wait and then rj relapsed?
OH NO AND THEN RJ RELAPSED!
as she began to feel nauseous as a cold pain began to consume her she could hardly stand and could hardly think as she felt empty as Gabriel looked on powerless to do anything in his ghostly form
Gabriel: RJ CAIM DOWN!
you can get through this
be the bigger person you're a good person I know you are!
my word SOMEONE HELP HER
SOMEONE ANYONE
IF THIS CAFATIERA IS SO FULL WHY IS NO ONE HELPING HER
WHY IS NO ONE HELPING HER
rj just remember I still have faith in you, you can get through this
I don't hate you for what you did, I never did and I never will
and then she vanished
I'll never forget you called me dad...
and he did too
a memento from ryoko otonashi's journal
sometimes I forget my dreams. it's a little sad. sometimes I remember what I dreamed... this is also sad
gp: NEXT SCENE
soulbound: that was heavy
gp: indeed so we are back with Mr. simp
sorry my mistake
dr. simp who is worried about rj
OH NOW YOUR WORRIED YOU'RE A LITTLE TO LATE FOR THAT BUDDY
but I digress
geez they forget that shes like a kid or a cat just because you tell them not to do something dosent mean they won't do it even if it's for the best
they are way to curious and trollish for that
and Junko was there
soulbound: question
gp: yes?
soulbound: is this mukuro Junko or ryoko Junko?
gp: !- ... I... don't... know...
eh dosent matter the story ends the same anyway
whether its mukuro playing her part or rj experiencing another delusional episode it's just sad
... shes like a lonely child who gets into trouble often to get attention cause they don't get enough from their parents
but on steroids
I know I shouldn't blame others for her actions but when so many people already blame her I just can't help it
soulbound: ?
gp: well when the whole world is hating on someone what does it matter if one person says something different?
soulbound: well a single grain of rice can tip the scales
gp: that is a nice thought
gp: but needless to say Matsuda is a pathetic simp
he dosent even try to reach out to help despite the fact fly's prefer honey over vinegar
but then again he's completely forgotten what he's fighting for
soulbound: do go on
gp: despite the more blatant problems he at first still tried his best to help her deeply caring for her that's why he gave her ECT since it's a last resort treatment for people of rjs caliber but she was one of the unlucky ones so when she went though it not only did it help alleviate her despair but it also took practically all her memory but Matsuda being the stickler he is said it for the best and genuinely though this was best for her so he edited the prosses to purposefully erase her memory with each treatment completely ignoring the actual problem and not even doing anything to actually help fix it like blowing on a Nintendo 64 port sure it gets rid of any clogging dust but it will also put in moisture so really in the long run it dosent help (not to mention all the long term negative side effects he's ignoring) but as the months went on he started to realize how it wasn't helping and that her sins still remained but he still fooled himself that everything could be fine despite the fact most should know running from your problems never solved anything and with rj striped of her sin the only sin left to look at was the one within himself cause instead of give her therapy, support and proper treatment she could have he just, lied to her, tried hiding her problems and ended up killing for her like a simp, heck he dosent even have to do much in her state he could just confess right now and things would still end well cause right now shes not past the point of no return if people found out her scheme she could go to jail for simple murder sure she murdered but taking the lives of less than 15 is still salvageable compared to the lives of all the earth especially since shes still a minor she could be taken to a correctional facility but that's just a worst case even as ryoko if you just used your creator forsaken brain surgery to take out one piece just one! if he just cut out one piece of her brain she wouldn't have her analysis ability's anymore and wouldn't be able to destroy the world BUT HE DOSENT DO THAT! he dosent even reach out to her and you know why!? cause the truth of that matter is
he dosent love her, not anymore
so how can he bring himself to help her
he can't even help himself
man! that got serious sorry about that I digress
―Well, in the end it's all up to you. I don't really care what you do with this situation… Yeah, do whatever you like. Because I'll accept whatever ending we come to,
gp: one of the many lines that proves my point
soulbound: and what point is that?
gp: ...I'll explain it later, but I know it's what she really wants... not this...
but anyway
―Do your best, Matsuda. Because that's what I expect. Defeat the despair you face and let hope win,
shining victorious… Because that's what I expect will happen.
gp: hmm... expect, expect... what does expect mean again?
soulbound: regard (something) as likely to happen.
regard (someone) as likely to do or be something.
or
believe that (someone or something) will arrive soon.
gp: regard...
soulbound: consider or think of (someone or something) in a specified way.
gp: but not know? which is odd she would know what should happen she knows everything shes smart like that
so for her to regard otherwise...
ah just like I thought
it a want not a know...
sigh she had too much faith in that doctor
gp looks down in sadness
NEXT SCENE
it was the next scene and rj finally woke up!
Gabriel: YOUR AWWAAAKKKEEE!
then Gabe hugged her, well as much as a ghost can hug someone
I WAS SO WORRIED ABOUT YOU
ryoko: what happened
Gabriel: YOU RELAPSED!
ryoko: what?
Gabriel: all that stress from what yuto said along with whatever was written in your book they put so much stress on your brain that you relapsed!
then you disassociated from another delusional episode!
then you blacked out!
I WAS SO WORRIED I WOULD NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN!
ryoko: what!
Gabriel: I don't know! I'm not an expert at all this brain science you where the smart one in the group!
but its ok your safe now and that's all that matters
but I really recommend going to another doctor about all this I know Matsuda said he didn't want you to take medication but just because one mixture was bad dosent mean all variations are doomed heck you're in a ultimate academy there has to be a ultimate psychopharmacologist around yes?
please! if it gets any worse I fear you'll become an alcoholic! promise me that won't happen promise me!
ryoko: ok ok I promise
Gabriel: ...I know
ryoko: wait... where are we?
Gabriel: ...that's a good question
and so as they had no clue where they were ryoko began panicking as Gabriel tried to calm her down then they saw someone else, and things just got more weird from there
Gabriel: I don't know where we are but it sure is drugs here
and not the good medication drugs you should be taking either
What awaited me outside the room was a strange sight, indeed. It was a wide space that looked like a hall, but, just like the previous room, this room's ceiling, walls and floor were all covered in nothing but concrete. However, even though the room itself was wide, the ceiling was very low, and it made me feel like I was cooped up. A fluorescent light hung from the ceiling, illuminating the concrete which only added to the bleakness of the room. Inside the room there I counted around 50 legs belonging to school desks, each evenly spaced throughout the room. At every desk there was a person sitting behind it. There were various men and women, all wearing the same school uniform. Furthermore, on their faces they all wore… again, bear masks.
Gabriel: I don't wanna alarm you rj, but I think we're in a cult
Or at least some very artistic revolutionary movement
but cult is shorter so I'm going with that
ryoko was at a loss for words to Gabe's statement
needless to say they continued to journey in this endless cacophony of men and bears and murder and noticed brainwashing witch uh...
Gabriel: uuuuuuuu
Gabriel raised his hands to his mouth as he looked at the brainwashed people in awe like one would look at a thick well-done stake
ryoko: Gabe whats wrong?
Gabriel: uh! well you know! I told you my issue, oh wait you don't remember
it's just I kinda sorta have a...
ryoko: go on
Gabriel: brainwashing fetish
ryoko: ...
gp: salivating
soulbound: pathetic
gp: DONT SHAME ME!
if you look it up you'll find tons of articles about it I'm not weird!
soulbound:
gp: DAH! replace it with kink!
soulbound: ok I did find stuff but you're still gross
gp: I can't help it! I just seeing the look in their eyes as you can see all the little parts of their brain slowly change til-
soulbound shuts his mouth
soulbound: shut!
Gabriel: but yeah I shouldn't be looking at this you are doing so well in holding back your dark desires that it be hypocritical for me to consume in my own
and so Gabe covers his face to prevent himself from looking though sometimes he makes small holes in his hands only to cover it up quickly as they continued there journey in which they finally entered another room but this one felt different sure there were still men in bear mask but if anything they're where more and they weren't sitting they were jumping and prancing about to music that was blaring as instead of the cold grays of the other room it had I vibrant orange like a tavern bar or that of a college frat party...not that I've ever went to one though its merely an assumption but what was not an assumption was the presence of one all too familiar muse
Siramay: YEAAAHHH IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD!
as he did a wild joyful dance
[ALL]
DRINK WITH ME, MY LOVE
FOR THERE'S FIRE IN THE SKY
AND THERE'S ICE ON THE GROUND
EITHER WAY, MY SOUL WILL DIE
WHOOOOOOOAAAAAOOOAAAOOOOAAOAOAOAOOooo...
siramay: OK NOW EVERYONE SLOW DOWN!
and so the muse raised his hands and like magic everyone gradient raving became a chill bop as he turned and looked at me
well if it aint my little buddy r what are you doing here?
ryoko: what am I doing here?! I could ask you the same thing! what are you doing here!?
siramay: well that's a good question
he pointed his finger
and really I have multiple answers to that so let's go one at a time ok?
first things first I'm just having a good time enjoying life after all my friends are here to see?
and after ryoko had another quick glance around she did see some of that many people the muse hanged out with
mike: so what type of bear is he anyway like a polar bear with one side shaved off, or a black bear with one side dyed white... or maybe a deformed panda!
hoto: no kidding mon! there's a girl here, looks exactly like you it's hilarious!
Ridley: I heard your depressed, do you also happen to be an organ donner?
siramay: now for reason dos! EVERYONE HERES DEPRSESED! and I'm teaching them how to live a little!
ryoko: huh?
siramay: yeah you saw those guys in the other room, so drab like yeah they may talk weird but if I know anything it's just a tactic they use to hide their crippling depression! look!
siramay then pulls out one of the members from the other room and rips his mask clean in half showing a face of pure depression
guy: everything suuuucccckkkss
siramay: yeah yeah tell me something I don't know
siramay puts the mask back on him and tosses him aside
so I came in and taught them the proper way to enjoy life cause if you're gonna be evil you should enjoy yourself that's my idea
I EVEN TAUGHT THEM TO DANCE!
ryoko: ryoko was very confused on everything and she still didn't know what they where
ok but what is all of this!
siramay: the muse smiled with great excitement at her question
I'm so glad you asked
ok so you know there's 2 sides of hopes peak part A is the ultimate side that's all chipper and fun and dandy and everyone is awesome and cool, and it's just smiles and circuses all around yes?
ryoko nodded not knowing where he was going until he heard music start in the background
SIRAMAY: (spoken)
But there is another hopes peak, yes?
These are the rats of the Japan quarter
The starving artists and thieves of danganronpa
Our own
Beloved
RESERVE COURSE!
despair cult
and then he pointed to the cultist who all started elaborately dancing with ease beauty as if it was planned or orchestrated
DESPAIR CULT:
Watch out you might get what you're after
Rouge, baby
Strange but not a stranger
I'm an ordinary guy
Burning down the house
My house! out of the ordinary
That's right! Don't wanna hurt nobody
Some things sure can sweep me off my feet
Burning down the house
Here's your ticket pack your bag
Time for jumpin' overboard
Transportation is here
Close enough but not too far
Maybe you know where you are
Fighting' fire with fire
siramay: GUITAR SOLO!
siramay said and dramatically pointed
as he did it seemed a small band started playing and siramay started prancing about
DESPAIR CULT:
Let's dance
siramay:
Dramatic pose as he bops
ryoko: what are you doing?
DESPAIR CULT:
Let's sway
siramay:
dramatic pose
I'm dramatic posing what else could I be doing?
DESPAIR CULT:
Let's dance
siramay:
dramatic pose
come on if anyone would know about the dramatic pose it would be you
ryoko: what does that mean?
DESPAIR CULT:
Let's sway!
SIRAMAY:
dramatic pose
as he shushes ryoko with one hand and with the other pulls out a Classic Retro Dynamic Vocal Microphone
And now it's time for the breakdown
ok people on the right
as he raises his right hand
DESPAIR CULT:
AAAAAHHHHH
SIRAMAY:
people on the left
as he raises his left hand
DESPAIR CULT:
AAAAAHHHHH
SIRAMAY:
people in the front!
as he moves his right hand to the front
DESPAIR CULT:
AAAAAHHHHH
SIRAMAY:
AND THE FEW PEOPLE BEHIND ME!
and likewise his left hand behind him
DESPAIR CULT:
AAAAAHHHHH
SIRAMAY:
LETS DANCE!
and then siramay pulls on ryoko as he dances insisting she join
DESPAIR CULT:
Watch out! you might get what you're after!
Shakedown! Dreams walking in broad daylight!
Hold tight! wait till the party's over!
Burning down the house (burnin')
Burning down the house (burnin')
Burning down the house (burnin')
Burning down the house!
siramay: YEAH!
and as they all ended off with a dramatic pose they dissipated as the speakers started playing time warp from rocky horror picture show
so did you like the song?
ryoko: how did you get them to do that?
siramay: I donno they just like me maybe it's a sent thing? or maybe I just look trustable
then siramay slaps both his hands on his face
after all this is the face of someone you can trust!
smile
ryoko: ryoko did not believe it for a second but the only other option would be if he was in cahoots but she had no proof on this and if she did she was surrounded but cult member so it would be a bad idea to throw said accusation when he was still on her side
siramay: another reason is to set the record straight on hope and despair for these guys annoying how these guys use the words incorrectly
ALMOST AS ANOYING AS THIS ALCOHOL I FOUND HERE
siramay said showing a drawer of many unlabeled drinks
half a mind to throw these away I tell yah for pete snake the drinking age here is 20 and even then the mind dosent finish developing till 21 if you were to drink this now you would! ... get... permanent... then he started thinking
you're a responsible girl yes?
I'll just leave all this here and if anything happens it's not my fault!
but to the point at hand these fools don't know the meaning of hope and despair even if it bonked them on the head with a dictionary!
id correct them, but I don't think I could ram that info's in their skulls even if I had a jack hammer
cult: Let's do the Time Warp again!
ryoko: wait what do you mean about the meaning of hope and despair
siramay: eh ask your dad I'm not a words expert... but what I'm basically saying is the fact that this cult might as well be a sado-masochistic snuff film watching orgy group
witch... is nothing like despair BUT THATS WHERE MY PLAN COMES IN
a prophecy
ryoko: a prophecy?
siramay: yes! for example you!
he pulls at a cult member
let me tell you something to spread to others here and spread it good
Every creation is plucked from a boundless hole of perception
Doomed to endure flaws of her fountain
The boy will one day cross the mountain
And reunite this world's divided halves, fulfill their history
This is more than divine decree, it's their destiny
So please take heed of this prophecy
Soon from now there will be two chosen, bound to meet
Inside her lock he will turn the key
Their love will be strong enough to erase all the wrong that was done
Return us to where we belong, with Hope and Despair as one
NOW SPREAD IT
the muse said ah he threw the member to the hoard
ryoko: how tragic...
but how is that supposed to help?
siramay: it's all about the long game ryoko
something I know you don't understand
but its build up so when the time comes it won't be out of nowhere
but that's a long time from now so we should enjoy what we have yes?
after all
[WALKER]
It's just a jump to the left!
[ALL]
AND THEN A STEP TO THE RIGHT
[WALKER]
With your hands on your hips
[ALL]
YOU BRING YOUR KNEES IN TIGHT
BUT IT'S THE PELVIC THRUST
THAT REALLY DRIVES YOU INSANE
LET'S DO THE TIME WARP AGAIN
LET'S DO THE TIME WARP AGAIN!
siramay is dancing along
siramay: wait wait wait I had another reason!
I came to tell you!
ryoko: tell me what?
siramay: Matsuda's involvement in all this!
ryoko: REALY! what is it what!?
siramay: he's her right hand!
well actually more like left hand she already had a right hand
but he was working for her
ryoko: no no impossible he would never
Gabriel: search your feeling you know it be true
also we are taking about the guy who verbally abuses you on a daily I wouldn't be surprised
siramay: well how do you think she was able to do all this!
...ok it wasn't him it was someone else, but he knew
ryoko: ryoko looked down in defeat and sadness before the muse put a comforting hand on her arm
siramay: that's not the full story cause Matsuda has been having second thoughts and was thinking of leavening all this behind heck maybe even trying to put a stop to it
ryoko: really but why?
siramay: siramay smiles and points at ryoko
you
ok not for the reasons I'm implying but it's the thought that counts
it's just depression instead of love
ryoko: daw he does love me
Gabriel: Gabriel makes a gag motion not liking the thought
oh! maybe that's why your here, ransom! all like
he then makes a stereotypical mafia accent
you continue working for us or the girl gets it sey?
you know?
ryoko: maybe...
well at least he's no longer part of this so he's safe
siramay: hahahah!
ryoko: why are you laughing
siramay: oh you don't think they'll just LET him leave would you?
it'll cost him
ryoko: cost him what?
ryoko said nervous on what the muse would say
siramay: ahahahahah! oh she dosent know
Mat's contract's got some mighty fine print!
ryoko:
Mighty fine print?
despair cult:
Mighty... fine... print
siramay:
And that mighty fine print puts Mat in a mighty fine predicament
(DO DO DO DO DO)
If Mat up and splits, his soul is forfeit
And if Junko and despair so will it
Then they will-in-fact come
And he'll pay with his agony
agony!
...
ryoko: SO MATSUDA REALY IS GONNA DIE
siramay: yes! and unless someone does something about it the next time you'll be seeing him is when yah plant roses at his grave!
black roses
ryoko: OH NOOOOOOOOO!
siramay: SO GET OUT OF HERE WHILE YOU STILL CAN SO YOU CAN SAVE HIM
ryoko: but! why are you helping me?
siramay: !... cause I care about yah buddy
ryoko: huh?
siramay: I'm like your guardian angel! hahaha I'm no angel I'm a dragon! but I'm still here to make sure everything works out and your safe
then siramay looked at her with a serious face
...though you gotta prove your worth I can't carry you through this when you face your demons it must be you and you alone who decides to take the step forward...
honestly it did make ryoko a bit uneasy when he said this, she knew he was more then he let on... but she just didn't know what that was
and I'm gonna keep it that way
siramay: but that dosent mean I can't help you a bit it takes two to tango after all
and you can't build a bridge without a man on the other side
he says as he pulls out and hands ryoko a map
here use this to navigate your way out of here don't worry I'll make sure the cult members don't stop yah
ryoko: how
siramay: with that siramay simply winks at her it's a secret
but anyway good luck may the great creator kodaka be on your side
go! before they notice!
ryoko: oh yes! bye muse, and thanks again!
and with that ryoko runs off leavening the muse to look at her and think with an impressed smile on his face
siramay: my final reason for being here... you, so very interesting if this all turns out well I might just decide to help you... in the best way I can
then siramay lightly laughs to himself as if he was in on an inside joke
[FARARI]
The air of a connoisseur
[SIRAMAY]
I will get what I want
[MIKE]
Better not, monsieur
She's first rate, but nothing but trouble
[HOTO AND MONIKA]
just take the world instead
[TIGA]
siramay is a king of villains
A fact known only to his intimates
traveling to worlds to help villains in need
and benefits from other dimensions
[SIRAMAY]
Never mind about that now!
tosses tiga across the room (woo!)
It doesn't matter
I don't give a man
Just as a duck is made to swim in water
God has made me as I am
All I care for is musicals and villains
And there's no dishonor in that
As long as there's depravity and soundtracks
I'll keep a feather in my hat!
[ALL]
WHOOOOOOOoooOOOOOooooOOOOOooooa...
and so the party went on as we go back to ryoko who is trying to navigate through this depravity filled maze but with all the newfound knowledge in her head about the scenario it stresses her immensely as she sits down to cope with it all and begins to weep
but then she felt a presence around her that slowly faded in as she heard a familiar voice
[GABRIEL]
What's wrong, my pet?
You seem so upset
Tell me what's bothering you
You're acting strange
It's time for a change
Let me suggest what to do:
he then put his coat around her witch isn't much since he's a ghost but it's the thought that counts
Let's cuddle up
In my security blanket
And there we can hide
From the world
Why should we care
If others conform?
we'll snuggle up
So cozy and warm
Oh, we will be safe
When we're wrapped up
In the blanket
Well see all our problems
Unfurl
So let's cuddle up
In my security blanket
And there we can hide
From the world...
you ok buddy?
ryoko: I don't understand anything
Gabriel: and by anything you mean
ryoko: why is all this happening? why are they doing this is it really just because hope and despair!?
it just dosent make sense
Gabriel: well your right about one thing rj it indeed dosent make sense
you see it all starts with the 2 words, hope and despair
now I know you're a smart girl, but I ask rhetorically now I ask you should know the definition of despair is the absence of hope, but do you know what the definition of hope is?
ryoko: ...
Gabriel: EXSACTLY the definition of hope is, and I quote "a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen." also "a feeling of trust." or even just "want something to happen or be the case." NOTHING MORE
yet all these cultist treat hope like some grandiose feeling of altruistic god given good witch in turn makes despair the devil when it aint that it's just not wanting something
mostly in a depressed way... BUT STILL it's not... circles the cult THIS this is depravity if anything
ryoko: huh?
Gabriel: well rj if you look at the dictionary again it says that depravity is "the quality or state of being corrupt, evil, or perverted" now look around at their "despair"
look at them wallowing in their Sadness. murderer, sadomasochism THATS DEPRAVITY despair is just not wanting something and being all bou hoo depressed you wouldn't be all rubbing you genitals with snuff film delights! ITS INSULTING TO DESPAIR I TELL YAH and it's all that no good Junko's fault look at her!
shes the one who started this whole shebang! all "I wanna consume the world in despair" and barfing all that despair malarkey but you know what I think you know what I think?
I think it's all one big fat lie and this despair is just a front! cause you know Junko is supposed to be some all smart, smarty pants and so people who think they know more but don't think she does it causes shes bored and wants more well I got news for them being bored dosent make you a murder maniac! sure she might be a thrill seeker but there's a fine line between cheap thrills and murdering your friends and family because you love them you wanna know the truth of the matter rj? do yah?
the truth is shes a big fat coward shes so smart and hurt by what life has thrown at her that shes become a nihilist and she knows all the bad things the world throws at her
and it hurts rj! it hurts to know bad things happen and you can't do anything about them she has no hope and if she where to try and hope it would end up hurting her so what does she do?! well she decided to make like a masochist and enjoy it but she dosent really enjoy it that's why she feels "despair" as she puts it cause it hurts and she acts like she loves that it hurts cause by that logic she can't be hurt by hope if shes constantly in despair yes? such an idiot I shes a coward rj shes so scared of hope that she buries herself in despair so if the whole worlds in despair she will never get hurt by hope again!...the fool She may be smart but shes also an idiot a coward to hiding behind despair so she can't get hurt by hope... I pity her to cause as soon as shes gone the world will try and rebuild itself with hope again meaning she wasted all her life on nothing people will just look back on her and laugh...poor buddy
ryoko: what?
Gabriel: you know "look back on it and laugh" it's basically a simpler term of the phrase "comedy equals tragedy plus time"...you know they say comedy equals tragedy plus time and I must say your life is one big tragedy, so a few years down the line your life will be nothing but one big joke!
gasp Gabriel gasped as he covered his mouth realizing what he said
That came out wrong
and then ryoko started to cry unfiltered tears
Gabriel: rj! whats wrong if it's about what I said I'm so sorry...I don't have a filter this stuff comes out I'm so sorry
ryoko: it's not that it... all of this! I don't want this I don't want any off this! I don't want to be a part of this I just want to go home and forget it ever happened and go back to my normal life
[RYOKO]
No more questions! please...
No more tests
Comes the day you say, 'What for?'
Please... no more
Gabriel was at a loss for words as he looked at her with sadness he's been told he shouldn't blame himself for the sins someone else had committed but when he sees the sadness and fear in ryokos eyes he can't help but blame himself for it if he was a better person maybe she wouldn't gone down this path as he sat next to her in sadness
[GABRIEL]
They disappoint, they disappear, they die, but they don't
[RYOKO, spoken]
What?
[GABRIEL]
They disappoint in turn, I fear
Forgive, though, they won't
[RYOKO]
No more riddles
No more jests
No more curses you can't undo, left by fathers you never knew
No more quests
No more feelings. Time to shut the door
Just... No more
Gabriel saw the sadness in the girl and knew of just how worse things would get for her and he also knew he couldn't do much, but he also knew that she had to face the truth or else shed suffer more so he did the only thing he could do...
his best...
[GABRIEL]
Running away, let's do it
Free from the ties that bind
No more "despair", or burdens to bear
Out there in the yonder
Running away, go to it
Where did you have in mind?
Have to take care... unless there's a 'where'
You'll only be wandering blind
Just more questions.. different kinds...
Where are we to go?
Where are we ever to go?
Running away, we'll do it
Why sit around, resigned?
Trouble is, son, the farther you run
The more you'll feel undefined
For what you have left undone, and more…
What you've left behind…
We disappoint, we leave a mess, we die, but we don't…
[RYOKO]
We disappoint in turn, I guess. Forget, though, we won't…
as they both look at each other in solemn sadness
[BOTH]
Like father, like son
[RYOKO]
No more giants waging war!
Can't we just pursue our lives, with our children and our wives
'Til that happy day arrives, how do you ignore
All the witches, all the curses
All the wolves, all the lies, the false hopes, the good-bye's
The reverses
All the wondering what even worse is still in store
All the children
All the giants...
No more
Gabriel: puts his hand on her arm
you know you have to face this head on, and it may be painful
but I believe in you! you have to do this you have to face it head on or it will just keep hurting you forever!
promise me you'll push through this even when I'm not with you
ryoko: wait you're going! don't go I still need you!
Gabriel: don't worry I'll still be with you... in your heart
ryoko: that's cheesy
Gabriel: I know, but look I don't have much time left! look you did some not good things its true and you may have killed me but I forgive you never forget that so try to forgive yourself... and no matter what the other me says, there's still a chance of redemption in you no matter what just know I don't hate you for what you did I never have and I will always have hope in you so you can still have hope in yourself because of that Goodluck...
and then he began to slowly fade away before quickly popping back in
OH WAIT!
Gabriel messes with his hands a bit before paying with ryokos hair and then she sees a strand of hair dangling in front of her face
Gabriel: there now you have an ahoge!
Oh and its permanent to
ITS MY GHOST CUUURRRSSEEEEeee…
as he finally fades off
and that's Gabe's last time seeing her
gp: course we know while in the cult she meets the blind committee member and has a relapses
BUT GOSH DARN IT I can't sit back! I know I said I'd be gone for good, but I need to help even if it's just a little more!
cause after all you can't have one man alone fix a broken bridge...
but you can have one man light a candle in the dark house till others can turn the lights back on
so till that day comes when the lights come back I'll be that candle...
RJ!
The beating in my ears was only growing louder, it completely drowned out all other sound, I couldn't hear anything anymore. I shouldn't be able to hear anything anymore, and yet I could hear a single, eerie laugh. At the same time, I felt a presence behind me. A disgusting presence, it was like having uncomfortably warm air being blown onto the back of my neck. Sensing it, my body begun to shake and tremble. I couldn't say anything, like I was paralyzed. The laugh grew louder and higher - it was almost like it was mocking me. But then I heard another familiar voice
RJ!
she heard his voice in her head even though she could barely focus on what was going on, but his strong voice was clear as day as she tried to hold on to keep stability
ryoko: dad help me! I don't know whats going on!
its ok! it's just a relapses but please don't panic it will only make it worse! take deep breaths got it? in through the nose... and out through the mouth ok?
ryoko: o-ok
and so she tried to do just that and while she felt more like herself she could still feel her body losing control
ok ok don't be scared rj this isn't a demon it's you but that's ok you aren't a bad person don't fight it but don't let it consume you either, it's a part of you so just let it pass through you and then let it leave remember what I taught you...
ryoko: ok
ok it's going to be ok so just close your eyes, take a deep breath, and remember...
remember….
and as ryoko closed her eyes trying to stabilize her breathing as her memories slowed down focusing on Gabriel
[GABRIEL]
If we're gonna go we gotta go tonight, go tonight, go tonight
If we're gonna go we gotta go tonight, go tonight,
gooooooooooooooooooo tonight
[RYOKO]
He was, he was
Sitting on the roof of a beat-up car
Half singing, half laughing, half going too far
The music played over, with nothing to come
In a remix of memories, the loop of the... drum
Or bass line, or was it
[GABRIEL]
If we're gonna go we gotta go tonight, go tonight, go tonight
If we're gonna go we gotta go tonight, go tonight,
goooooooooooooooooooooo tonight
[RYOKO]
He was, he was
Everything I'm not, my whole universe
And I was a footnote, a slim second verse
But he was the chorus, the hook, and the groove
And without him there pushing, somehow I can't... move
So I sit in the car that he left behind!
Sinking down in this void like a crater
Getting lost in a world that I can't rewind
It's too late and it's just getting later!
[GABRIEL (RYOKO)]
If we're gonna go we gotta go tonight, go tonight (Why did I say no?)
If we're gonna go, we gotta go tonight! (We had miles to goooo), goooo
[RYOKO]
You were mad to reach!
Mad to drive!
[RYOKO & GABRIEL]
Mad!
Mad!
[RYOKO]
And so alive
The space you left
The empty air!
I reach
[RYOKO & GABRIEL]
Reach
[RYOKO]
But you're not there!
And time expands
The beat goes on
You were mad, mad!
And now you're...
He was...
He was...
[RYOKO & GABRIEL]
OOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHhhhh
[RYOKO (GABRIEL)]
(Ooooh) Over and over
Your words to me echo (Go tonight, go tonight)
(Ooooh) Over and over
As I try to let go
[RYOKO]
There's a …
[JUNKO]
black hole…
A vacuum in deep outer space…
That swallows all matter
Without any trace…
Where life is suspended
In physics and time…
Every word you said
Hangs like an unfinished... rhyme
[RYOKO (GABRIEL)]
SO I SIT IN THE VACUUM YOU LEFT BEHIND!
AND I SIFT THROUGH EACH PHRASE FOR AN EMBER (Go)
For a spark that will light
'Cause I can't rewind
I unravel until….
I REMEMBER!
[RYOKO]
Sitting on the roof
Of that beat up car
When I was your orbit
And you were my star…
But now you're a black hole
And I am left numb
From the loop of these memories
The loop of the…
The loop of the…
The loop of the…
siramay: what are you doing?
siramay said placing a hand on ryokos arm scaring her back to her senses
ryoko: AHH! ...I -I ...I don't know
siramay: well I told you you gotta hurry up and leave I can't distract them anymore, we gotta hurry
then siramay began to walk into a wall
ryoko: what are you doing?
siramay: let's just say, I know a short cut
he said as before ryokos eyes the man had open a portal that looked like it led straight to the void
ryoko: woah!
siramay: come on let's go
he said as he began to lead ryoko inside before looking at the cage hard, then an explosion could be heard, it was nothing personal it's just that guy had to die and siramay couldn't change that, but he wasn't gonna make ryoko do it especially in the state shes in
ryoko: what was that
siramay: what was what?
ryoko: oh nothing...
and so when they walked inside it was... something beyond any human comprehension it was both black nothing but also colored everything a floating void of space but also a sinking cluster of color pulsating, beating as if it was a living being with its own life force as she could see in the distance astral beings and eldritch wonders floating and flying in this space,
it was... beautiful
siramay: it's the between and betwixt or at least that's what I like to call it, I sometimes go hear when I have to think and right now... I really need to think
ryoko: the words took her out of her mind think? about what?
siramay: you! I just can't wrap my head around you! well I can... but it's too tight a wrapping I need to breath
ryoko: but whats so special about me?
siramay: THATS THE QUESTION I don't know at first I didn't think much of you, no offense in fact I'm sorry to say but I though very low of you. now it's not your fault its hers but the more I look at you, the more I watch you I get these feelings...
now now now this isn't some romance confession far from it but it just feels like I know you from somewhere but I can't remember but that part of me can't help but care about you! as if you are important to me but they clash so much with the feelings I already have it makes me so confused cause part of me has a heavy disdain while the other a beautiful wonder and I can't help but mix the two but if anything it makes it stronger, but I doubt you'd understand how one can love something they know should be hated...
love something they know should be hated?... while ryoko didn't understand why it felt all too familiar a feeling
ryoko: actually... I think I do
siramay: you do? do you really though? have you ever had that moment where you saw something happened that made you go "oh no!" but deeper though the fire in your blood you just wanted to scream out "OH YES!"
ryoko couldn't understand it but through the beating in her heart she knew that these experiences where something she felt quite often
ryoko: y-yes! I do! I mean, I can't remember but how you say it.. I can feel it like a part of me knows these things all too well it should be bad right? but, but
siramay: but it isn't! and that's beautiful?
both: YES!
siramay smiled at this truly it was how he saw evil it did make him feel bad, but he got so excited by what he saw he couldn't help but enjoy it, and by the sound of it she did to maybe quite a kinship one could only find in- no! NO! but it's the only thing that made sense. this part of him... did it?... well there was only one way to find out
siramay: I think we have more in common then I'd like to admit. I'd like to ask you one thing. so let me show you something you won't forget
and at that siramay used his powers and summoned many huge metal monsters who began to make combust music as flamed where summoned and danced around in different colors
SIRAMAY
Have you ever yearned to go
Past the world you think you know?
Been enthralled to the call
Of the beauty underneath?
Have you let it draw you in
Past the place where dreams begin?
Felt the full breathless pull
Of the beauty underneath?
When the dark unfolds its wings
Do you sense the strangest things?
Things no one would ever guess
Things mere words cannot express?
RYOKO
Yes!
SIRAMAY
Do you find yourself beguiled
By the dangerous and wild
Do you feed on the need
For the beauty underneath
Have you felt your senses surge
And surrender to the urge
And been hooked as you looked
At the beauty underneath
When you star behind the night
Can you glimpse its primal might
Might you hunger to possess
Hunger that you can't repress
RYOKO
Yes!
and with a stomp of siramays feet ryoko began to float around in the magical world siramay created looking in awe and wonder
It seems so beautiful
So strange yet beautiful
Everything's just as you said
and as she focused on the world all of siramays attention was on her realizing something hidden deep in his mind
SIRAMAY
And she's so beautiful…
Perhaps too beautiful!
What I suspect cannot be
And yet somehow we both see
The very same way
RYOKO
Is there music in your head
Have you followed where it led?
And be graced with the taste of the beauty underneath
Does it fill your every sense
Is it terribly intense
Tell me you need it too
Need the beauty underneath
BOTH
When he lifts his voice and sings,
Don't you feel amazing things?
Things you know you can't confess
Things you thirst for, nonetheless
RYOKO
It's all so beautiful
SIRAMAY
Can it be?
RYOKO
Almost too beautiful
BOTH
Do you see what I see?
RYOKO
Heavenly
SIRAMAY
To her it's beautiful
My world is beautiful
RYOKO
How can this be what it seems
BOTH
All of my most secret dreams
Somehow set free!
and with that he felt it was time... to show her his true form
SIRAMAY
You can feel it
RYOKO
Yes
SIRAMAY
Come closer
RYOKO
Yes
SIRAMAY
You've no fear of the beauty underneath
You can face it
RYOKO
Yes
SIRAMAY
You can take it
RYOKO
Yes
SIRAMAY
You see through to the beauty underneath
and with that siramays body began to shift and contort
To the splendor
RYOKO
To the splendor
SIRAMAY
And the glory
RYOKO
And the glory
SIRAMAY
To the truth of the beauty underneath
RYOKO
The beauty underneath
SIRAMAY
You'll accept it
RYOKO
Yes
SIRAMAY
You'll embrace it
RYOKO
Yes
SIRAMAY
Let me show you the beauty underneath
To the splendor
RYOKO
To the splendor
SIRAMAY
And the glory
RYOKO
And the glory
SIRAMAY
To the truth of the beauty underneath
RYOKO
The beauty underneath
SIRAMAY
You'll accept it
RYOKO
Yes
SIRAMAY
You'll embrace it
RYOKO
Yes
and with his size increasing to 8 feet tall monster his body growing his cloths ripping off the sound of bones crunching as new ones where added two mighty antlers at the top of his head adorned like a crown, his tail slinked his muscles increased as his hands turned to sharp curved deadly deformed claws in and his face began to break melt and contort to elongate as the muscles merged like a broken soup as fangs sharpened a being like him never existed in this world so one could not comprehend him and all his glory as he stood before her
SIRAMAY
Let me show you the beauty under-
RYOKO
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
and she blacked out
oh I guess I was wrong she really isn't naturally evil... interesting