Deep in my heart I'm concealing
Things that I'm longing to say
Scared to confess what I'm feeling
Frightened you'll slip away
-Madonna, "You Must Love Me"
She didn't say anything, the simple and stark truth was she was a bit, a lot, taken aback by Rei's actions. There wasn't even a blink to be offered as her sword belt was once more undone, hung over the doorknob. It was only when she felt the buckles of her armor giving way, that sensation of being able to breathe easily, without restraint or constriction, that she finally found the means to respond beyond just mutely standing there. All though that she managed was to raise her hands, only for her ass to meet with the edge of the desk she had been sitting at.
It was more than a blink then, her eyes widening as she looked at the Priestess, not entirely sure if she was really the same woman that was so … so … modest. The same that wore robes which, don't get her wrong; she was breathtaking in them and even more so when she wasn't in them, but they didn't even hint at anything all the same. Moments like that though were rare; twice really. Once in reality, but any time you could sleep a bit meant that a new instance of it was a reason to count it as that, new. She didn't take into consideration that perhaps, Rei could be bossy. Commanding. Take charge.
She wasn't expecting it, so when she did, it left her at a loss. And that was a feeling that scared her. Instead, she was too used to being independent, self sufficient, that to have another whisk away some level of responsibility from her was both the dream come true just as much as it was the greatest fear. Was she not so effective? Was she falling behind? Did she really want this? Was this what she needed? As the moments ticked on, her breastplate removed; she had no idea where it went, and her jacket left undone and parted, she found the only answer she had for the queries was a resounding yes.
The feeling of lips on her own drew her partially back, away from her doubts and wondering to that of reality. Only the best sort of reality, a warm body against hers, holding her close. Despite clothes existing between them and uncertainty, they pressed together. Her hands rose of their own accord, burrowing themselves in the robes that she still felt conflicted over liking and wanting them done away with. She felt Rei's hands in her hair, entangling almost, molding to the back of her skull as her body was pressed back in a bend, no matter how awkward it was given her placement against the piece of furniture.
She hasn't answered your query, the voice of doubt arose in her mind, infiltrating her thoughts almost as effectively as her tongue as currently engaging the Priestess' own. She's just here to use you, since you're just a Venusian. That's all you'll ever be to her. That's all she wants. The voice grew more insistent, prompting a soft growl from deep within her to rise, coloring the frantic kiss even as she moved, reversing their positions. She knew all of that; she hardly needed a voice in her mind to tell her things like that.
Their mouths broke apart, heavy breaths existing between them now, adding to the others that were there first. She could see it, almost like some spectre within Rei's eyes. A wonderment and a concern, a care and an almost indifference. If she was coming to terms with this now was not certainly the time for it. Not when she was so vulnerable, not when she needed something solid to cling to, something real that wouldn't fall apart the moment her hands gripped too tightly to it. Her hands, she was dimly aware of, had parted her robes and shoved aside her shirt, baring her torso for the most part to her cerulean gaze. Their reward for their accomplishments was their placement on her body, cupping her breasts as though they belonged there.
It was probably what prompted them to stop, to draw in breath. Her hands had a mind of their own when they desired to, wanting supple flesh in their grasp that it didn't matter what else was going on. She watched, fascinated by the sheer notion, as Rei's mouth opened, as her swollen lips brought on by their kisses moved to form words. Enraptured she could see, feel, the rise of her chest, the gathering of air to give the sounds, the very words life.
Only for a knock to sound instead against the door.
"Fucking hell it always has to be fucking doors…" She growled, turning her head towards the door, finding absolutely nothing wrong with her hands retaining their hold and position. Absolutely nothing wrong with the fact her thumbs brushed against her nipples. Absolutely nothing wrong with how her body had made its home between Rei's legs. Of course she caught the beginning of the red hue that infused her cheeks as she turned to address the interruption. "What." Well look at that, the Martian way of speaking questions as statements was rubbing off on her.
"Uhh Commander? I was going to go get some dinner, did you want me to get you anything?" She recognized the voice, belonging to one of the few guards that did not immediately sneer at her or make lewd comments when she was barely out of hearing range. A young man, early in his career, he looked at her instead with awe and a mild case of infatuation. He must have taken over at the post she passed when she came to work on her report after meeting with Artemis instead of returning for the "concept" of "relaxing."
It made it difficult to be angry, to be enraged. So did her hands on breasts and the way Rei was squirming under her; just when had she climbed up on the desk over her? Giving a shake of her head even though it was entirely unnecessary she turned her attention back to the Priestess who looked alarmed and appalled at the notion that she was carrying on in conversation like this. "No, no that's quite alright. Thank you though." She called back, her voice dropping to a far more sultry tone as she leaned in closer, balancing on her knees. "I believe my meal is right here."
With an unhealthy dose of satisfaction she noted how conflicted the raven haired woman looked, how much she warred with this moment of either liking it or chastising her for allowing it to continue on. "You never answered my question." Now was not the time, now was not the place, not with her nimble fingers. Not with how they teased her nipples, rubbing and capturing them between the sides of her fingers until they tightened with need. Certainly now was not the time, not when she was influencing the answer in the manner she was. She watched as Rei sputtered an answer around the soft sound that was escaping her lips.
It wasn't fair, but no one ever told her she had to be so. No one ever told her she had to play fair when it came to love, just like no one told her she had to when it came to war.
"I might be inclined to stop…" Her breath landed against Rei's collarbone, reflecting, refracting back up at her. "If it means…" Lips pressed to skin, moving lower, beholding the flesh that once filled her hands. Hands that had moved down, one pressed to the top of the desk for balance while the other was making its own pathway down her stomach. "That you'll…" Hot breath landed against her nipple, heralding her tongue that swirled for a moment before it retreated to her mouth. "Answer me." She pressed back upright, straddling her hips. It didn't give reason for her hand to stop in its trail, finding the waist of her pants to quickly handle.
Rei's hands were knotted in her own pants that made up what was left of her uniform, nearly placing rents in the material but it wasn't like she cared. Under her she looked beautiful, instead of a nimbus of light it was an enrapturing darkness that spilled across the surface of the desk from her hair. The robes only added to it, given their dark nature. Her skin though was the gorgeous contrast, pale and almost luminescent against the color she laid within. Upright she didn't need the balance that her hand offered, while one was making short work of her pants the other rose again, a single fingertip started at her hairline and worked its way slowly down. Occasionally it turned, brushing the side of the digit to better stroke her cheek, or more fingers joined in to splay across her neck.
"Should I stop so you can?" Her voice was soft, raising up slightly on her knees as her hand slipped past material, gliding on skin instead to reach the apex of her thighs and the heat contained. An awkward hand position or not she didn't care, twisting her hand at the wrist for her index and ring finger to part her lips slowly, her middle coaxing them both apart. "Hmm?" She softly asked as the woman under her gasped, her body trying to twist for a moment either to get away from her or to open herself for more. Having no compunction for anything else, her finger ran along her sex, stopping at her clit to place her fingertip there.
"Gods Minako…" It was as far as Rei managed before her eyes rolled to the back of her head, her eyelids fluttering. It probably did not help that her finger refused to stay still, that it was rubbing in slow circles but Goddess help her if she was going to berate her hand in the first place. While it was endearing to hear her name like that, whispered out on a groan, it wasn't the answer she was looking for. It really wasn't even the answer to her question had she been willing to accept alternative ones. It didn't cause her finger to slow; no if anything it moved faster, her other hand had just finally reached her breasts at this point and it certainly wasn't going to leave them.
"My question Rei. It's a very simple one. Would you like me to repeat it?" The moment needed a soft voice, a lilting one that held sultry tones. The moment demanded it, also desiring to respect the privacy and modesty of Rei who would likely prefer that her queries did not reach beyond this room. She asked while her hands did not cease, caressing her breasts with almost as soft touches while her fingers stroked her. So what if she mistook the groaned out "Yes" that spilled from Rei's lips as an actual answer and not a confirmation to what she was doing to her currently. "You want me, don't you? You want me … all to yourself."
The Priestess was positively withering, her touch enough to incite pleasure in her but purposely kept to not allow her to find a rhythm to work towards her orgasm. It was beautiful to behold, the way her hands tightened until her knuckles were white, how she struggled to breathe. The way she was almost gasping, trying to get her world to right itself instead of spin out of control. She was aroused; her body made no mistake about it. She had been hot when she first touched her, feeding her ego to dangerous levels. Licking her lips her finger left, sliding down further, dipping within the woman beneath her before her hand withdrew from her pants.
Raising her finger to her lips she made quite a showing of letting her tongue lick her finger clean, eyelids falling to a sultry close. Barely parted, enough to keep her gaze upon her she finished by slipping her finger into her mouth, freeing it with a satisfying pop. "Tell me," softly she murmured, letting her hand fall slowly from its raised position, expecting an answer.
An answer like a vocalized utterance, not the sudden fact that she was falling. Twisting in the air, struggling, she found herself flat on her own back, the breath knocked from her lungs. With a startled blink she looked up, the only available avenue at that, seeing Rei looking down at her. The Priestess was breathing hard but it wasn't from the effort it took to dislodge her and reverse their positions. Passion still burned brightly in her gaze, reminding her for a fleeting moment what happened the last time she was flat on her back and there was someone over her. That woman had been quite menacing despite how plain she looked. Her mind recalled and she shoved the memories aside, even if it wasn't quite so easy to do so, fighting the urge to retaliate.
"Let go." The words made no sense to her, her brow constricting as she looked at Rei above her, meeting the nature of her gaze with her own. Opening her mouth to say something Rei shook her head, placing a finger against her lips. "Let go, stop trying to be in charge of everything all the time." Her finger fell away, looking far too poised above her, straddling her own hips just the same as she had. She looked wildly sexy, desirable. Commanding and calmly collected. It reminded her of everything she aspired to be, or at least faked that she was to whoever she interacted with. "I want you freed of this. Without trying to always be in charge or have all the answers, more so right now."
Blinking, she thought she understood but found that it wasn't exactly something she could comprehend. Or maybe, she just didn't want to. She wanted it yes, wanted to just let go but asking her to do that was akin to asking the sun to stop shining. "I…" she began, only to be interrupted once more. It didn't irritate her though as much as it would every other time someone chimed in, oddly or funnily enough. Typically anytime someone did was grounds for her to get irrate, to feed her temper…
"That's how I want you Minako. That's how I want you all to myself. Let go." Rei finished, moving to rise and step back to the floor instead of her perch she had taken. Her hands instantly stopped her, bunching in the material of her robes that hung from her shoulders, open and exposing her body to her eyes. She swallowed, not saying anything yet, not admitting to things despite how her gaze showed her answers she just did not give via sounds and words.
It took a few breaths, right when Rei was about to slip past her grasp for real this time that she finally spoke, her thoughts at last gathered. "I've never let go of my control before. That's … asking a lot of me … to do that." She pushed up to a half sort of sit, resting on her elbows to look better at her, more so since Rei had moved to walk out. The Priestess turned about to look at her the moment she had begun to speak, attentive despite her open garments that were proving to be a distraction. "This has been my whole life Rei… to never let go. To always have the answers no matter the situation." A sigh followed, sitting upright the rest of the way. "It's difficult, at best, to be something I'm not."
"And this, this is who you are?" Came back the soft response, pressing her further for answers.
She gave a half smile of sorts, shaking her head before meeting her gaze anew. "What part of me are you referring to? The woman? The Commander? The fighter or the errand girl or the gopher or the one that turns heads because she's a Venusian? I hold so many roles, so many titles… I lose track of them after a while, remembering who I portray myself to be versus who I really am." Tilting her head she regarded her for a long moment, warring with how much to say, what to say, what to even admit to. "I'm scared to do that… yet." Her voice trailed off again, turning softer. "For you… I will."
It was interesting that, fascinating truly, as she watched the reaction to her words flow across Rei's face. She had been so politely watching her, listening to what she had to say without interrupting her. Despite the pauses in her deliverance, she had awaited her to actually hear her, to actually listen. When she finished, a smile pulled at her lips, stepping closer to her until she fit between her legs, much like their positions had been before they had reversed. It presented her with so much the view, unable to help and never would she anyway the way her eyes widened in appreciation, licking her lips slowly as her gaze feasted on Rei's breasts.
"Gods you are so insatiable… Can we … can we get out of here, please? I don't understand how you can stand to spend hours in here." Came the terse reply as Rei realized what she was doing, grabbing her robes to close and retie about her body.
"Mm but that takes away my view." Her hands would have none of that, grasping the robes to pull Rei to her, meeting her mouth hungrily. Why would she want to leave, more so now? Sure the room wasn't exactly romantic, but it was privacy. There were so many things that would waylay them, deny them, prevent this from happening if they were to leave the sanctity of the room… she couldn't allow it. She wouldn't allow for it, the aggression coloring her actions. She felt Rei respond, something alighting within the Martian but she didn't dwell on what it could be, lost to the moment instead.
Her legs hooked around the Priestess' hips, hands tightening in their hold on the material as she leaned back, pulling the raven haired woman on top of her. This was one of the few ways she could express herself, this letting go that Rei talked about, feeling the other climb on top of her regardless of how awkward it was. Her legs certainly wasn't helping any matters but neither seemed to mind. The breath left her lungs in a pleasurable sound, hands turning frantic instead of being content to remain still.
Parting the robes again she shoved them down Rei's shoulders and back, feeling more than actually watching them fall to the floor. Plus there was the sound as well, heavy material always had an unique sound to it when it met with things. But why would she focus on that sound when she had those from the raven haired woman above her? Her hands left the material once it moved in the direction she wanted it, back to her breasts that her eyes had feasted upon. Her mouth absorbed Rei's gasp of pleasure, perhaps even delight, aiding it along with a thrust of her tongue against her own.
Her jacket was shoved from her just as well, the shirt she wore underneath pulled up and over her head. It required her hands to give up their placement, to not knead the supple flesh they beheld, but it was worth it really. For her mouth to not be so busily occupied. Hands she felt, hands running along her ribs, skirting the fresh stitches that had been applied to her body after dealing with the Martian warlord pet of the King. They traveled, reaching her own breasts to pause, a heated breath before her mouth was once again claimed.
She could get used to this, this need not to think… to just let go and be claimed by the moment. Soft sounds, moans, hands going everywhere, clothing becoming absent as it was pulled from each other until they were both equally naked, stretched out on top of the desk. The hesitation was there, she could sense it as much as she could feel it, the way that Rei lingered for a moment. "Touch me… Goddess there's not a wrong way you can…" She murmured, trying to incite the take charge disposition that Rei had shown but moments ago.
Something worked, be it her words or the way her body felt so alive, or her fingers that were rubbing and teasing against skin. Her leg rose to press the inside of her knee against Rei's hip, opening herself, giving up and surrendering as it were to her trailing hand. Under her, her back arched, hips rising in a buck as fingers parted her lips. Hardly ashamed of her arousal; fuck no she wanted the Priestess far too much to be embarrassed much less immodest to show it, her head tilted back as well, eyes rolling to a close behind fluttering eyelids.
It was a day of reversals but she didn't care, feeling a shy thumb against her clit but it didn't matter. She pressed against it, answering the questions presented with the gestures of her body. Her hands rose, collecting Rei's face within, bringing her head down to kiss her deeply, expressing her need and wants. Perhaps the Martian understood, moving her fingers against her, inciting pleasure within her that was electric in its travels. She moaned, it wasn't taking much but it didn't matter. Her calf moved to rest over her hip, heel pressing against the Priestess' ass, feeling the response of her hand to slip a finger within her, fingering her on to her orgasm.
There wasn't a reason to fight it, letting go, doing precisely what she had been told to do. Her body shook, pleasuring thrumming within her. Attuned, she could feel Rei pause, causing her to violently shake her head from side to side. Goddess no, no she couldn't stop now. Her gaze, no matter how hazy it was while it locked on the night sky personified within Rei's own, screamed at her to not stop. She'd find out what it was like to love a Venusian, more so one like herself. Renewed a second climax followed on the first, vocalizing at last a lingering cry as nails were applied to the outside of her thigh, raking upwards to stop at her hip.
The world was beautiful at last, her back almost painfully arched before it relaxed back down to the desk's surface. A soft whimper followed as the hand that brought her to such heights left. Licking her lips she whispered, not caring how broken it was. "Goddess please… tell me… you're not done yet…" She didn't need to see to know that Rei was looking at her in amazement. Her hands and arms collected her, pulling her body down against hers.
It was that uncountable time later that both of them laid out side by side on the desktop. What limb belonged to who didn't matter, a tangle of them presented should either of them care to look. Their eyes were better spent regaining and losing focus, staring at each other with soft smiles. "You're insatiable." Rei whispered to her, her pale skin flushed and breathing sporadic. But it was said with a smile, her fingers rising to brush stray strands of blonde out of her face.
She answered with a grin, pushing up to crawl sensually over her, body stretching out languidly. Leaning down her lips met softly, parting just the same to take her breath away and lay claim to it as her own. Relinquishing her mouth she purred her words, "You have no idea…" Sitting up she felt the Martian's gaze on her, following her every movement. "You mentioned something about leaving…" Slipping from the desk she coyly looked at her, engrossed as the other shifted to sit upright. "Your quarters or mine?"
A/N: I wanted to get this posted last weekend but lol things happen as they happen. Bit slower on the writing than I want to be but fear not… there's so much planned that it should be surprising for everyone. Thanks again to the readers, people who favorite, those who follow, and a special thanks to the reviewers; I probably wouldn't be writing this without you (or maybe I would but it might not be as much fun).