I'm BACKKKKK! Sorry it's been so so long. Life hit me HARD. So let's continue. This is a bit of a short chapter but I wanted to ease back into it and pick things up a bit. Slight lemon warning!

I texted Dakoda to tell him I needed a raincheck. My head was too full of everything that had just happened for me to be able to concentrate on a date. He was disappointed but when I told him I just didn't feel well he was kind and understood. I wish I could've told him the truth, but what the hell am I supposed to say?! My werewolf best friend is my soulmate but he's engaged to my other best friend and we can't be together even if that's all I want? No… I can't say that.

I decided to order food and crack open a bottle of wine that's been living in my fridge. My body was still slightly on fire thinking about what happened not too long ago with Embry. How his body felt, how he tasted, how gentle and rough he was being… I quickly downed my glass of wine and made my way to my room. It had been a few hours since he left but this feeling won't go away and I needed relief.

I stripped down to my underwear and dug through a little box I kept in my nightstand. I pulled out a small vibrator and laid on my bed and turned it on. I spread my legs and gently pressed it against my clit and closed my eyes. I pictured Embry's hands on me, his mouth traveling down my neck and to my breasts. This set me on FIRE. I had so much pent up frustration, I needed a release. I was getting so close, but then I heard my door crash open. I jumped up just in time for Embry to burst into my room.

"Fuck." Was all he said as he looked at me. Suddenly, he flew to the edge of my bed. His lips found mine and I couldn't stop myself from kissing him back. His lips left mine and found my pulse point on my neck. It was enough for me to push him back again.

"Embry, no, you're engaged –"

"I broke it off." He said it so matter of fact. So calmly. His eyes shone with some unknown emotion, but all I could feel was shock and… joy? I'm the worst friend ever.

"Embry… no… please…"

"I love you Kai. I want to be with you. I want to grow old with you and have children with you and make love to you and fight with you and do all the stupid shit in between and it's not just because of the fucking bond so don't even start." He pulled the words from my mouth. But he wasn't done. "I have loved you forever, I just didn't know. I was always excited to see you, to be around you. I wanted to be close to you, to be there for you, I felt so happy that you knew me and confided in me about your life. I noticed all these small things about you, but I thought that's just what friends do. But it's not Kailynn. It's really not and I didn't realize it but fuck do I love you. More than I've ever loved anyone else. So PLEASE give this a chance. We don't even have to tell anyone so Shay won't know. Just give us a chance." I was speechless.

My Embry, the person I always confided in. The one who knew me better than Shay sometimes. The one who'd been there for me during every bad time in my life… he was here and he loved me. He loves me. And it's… real? All I could do was nod. His smile was blinding. Then his eyes grew dark as he drank me in. I had almost forgotten I was in my underwear, which was glorified lingerie… Whoops.

"Let me help you finish. I won't do anything you don't want, but please let me help you." His voice was strained and begging. I couldn't stop myself. I laid back and spread my legs. You'd think he just won the lottery.

He climbed in the bed with me and his lips found mine again. This time his hand traveled to my breast and began kneading it. I let my moans ring free and I felt his cock harden against my thigh. His hand then slid lower and lower until it slid underneath the band of my underwear. I felt his fingers gently run across my clit and my back arched. He pulled back and his eyes were damn near black. His chest was heaving and I felt my body flush.

I felt a finger slip inside of me and the moan I let out was so guttural his eyes closed and his head rolled back a bit like he was savoring it.

"Fuck Kai you're so tight, and so fucking wet. Jesus." I was on cloud 9. This was what heaven was, I was sure of it.

*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*

"KAI! OPEN UP PLEASE I NEED YOU!"

We both bolted upright and stared at each other in horror. Before Embry could move I was up and throwing clothes on and opening my window. I motioned for him to be quiet and to leave, but he just stared at me sadly. It took me a moment to realize, he was afraid I was asking him to leave for good. Another knock sounded at my door.

"Embry, you have to leave for now. Please. I'll call you okay?" His eyes softened a bit and I walked over and placed a gentle kiss on his lips. He beamed at me and made his way toward the window as I made my way down the hall to the front door.

I opened it to see my best friend, eyes red and hair falling out of her ponytail. Cheeks puffy and covered in mascara trails, nose red and puffy. She looked like hell, I've never seen her like this. She fell into my arms and sobbed and all I could do was stand there and hold her and hate myself.