Since yesterday a strange thing has happened to me, I feel quite sluggish and out of sorts. What on earth has happened? Has my lovesickness manifested as a physical ailment? If it were possible to die from yearning I surely would have died a thousand deaths by now.
I am becoming concerned. My head aches, I feel a pressure in my ears and my sense of smell seems dulled. Perhaps I need to feed? I fed just last week though.
Update:
The cause and remedy to this morning's malady became clear in the most embarrassing fashion. Of course it would happen in biology. Of course it did, because I am cursed, damned, god hates me and I must never forget.
Bella was looking especially ravishing in a blue sweater and jeans and I couldn't help but steal a wistful glance at her now and again throughout class. I'm sure the physical effect she has on me and the flood of venom may have been a catalyst for the events which followed.
About half way through my condition began to rapidly deteriorate, I started to feel worse than this morning, my nose itched and I felt a steadily building pressure in my sinuses. Then, for the first time in ninety years, I sneezed.
As a creature who never sneezes, I have lost the human habit of covering my mouth and nose, and the result was not pretty. Venom thickly shot onto the back of Lauren Mallory, who was seated in front of me. with an audible splat. The small pieces of gum, previously blocking my venom glands and causing this entire debacle, were thankfully forced clear by the sneeze too.
Lauren screamed, I apologised profusely and wiped up the mess, concerned about her interacting with my venom. I swiftly offered to pay for dry cleaning and a new outfit and she eventually ceased her shrill shrieking. Her thoughts of coercing me into a shopping trip, and turning it into a date in response to this offer concern me, though there was little I could do about that at the time.
Bella asked if I was ok after everything had calmed down. I honestly think I may have blushed. But as my humiliation threatened to drown me, she let out the most delightful giggle and snort that made my chest ache, and suddenly it felt like everything would be ok.
Like Bella, I too am a swan, only one lost without its mate, in love for all eternity without hope of requital.
I am so hopelessly, hopelessly in love with her.
A/N: Please leave a review! Poor Edward. What do you think is the best way forward for this creepy boy?