Jasper asked me to go hunting with he and Emmett, claiming he didn't want a repeat of last time: 48 straight hours of Emmett singing Blue Da Ba Dee without pause. Whilst it does seem imperative that a reprise be prevented at any cost, I could also catch flashes of memories of Esmee telling them 'Take your brother' and Emmett whining 'But moOOom!' So I know at least Emmett was less than enthused to spend time with me.
That said, I cannot blame him, I'm not fun, I haven't laughed in many years and recent months have left me more dour and taciturn than ever.
Jasper wishes he could help, that much was clear from his thoughts. Of course I too wish he wasn't burdened by my self pity, that I was resilient, or at least that I should do a better job of concealing it. I don't think there's much to be done though, and I brought this all upon myself anyway and I have lost the ability to act of late.
He suggested talking to Carlisle, so I relayed to Jasper and Emmett how I had confessed to Bella by email and Carlisle's 'pep talk' in response. They cussed and groaned as I rattled through the veritable laundry list of platitudes Carlisle had deemed it helpful to share. Emmett said 'That's it, I'm making us four 'Doctor Dumbass Bingo' cards so we can play next time you have to talk to him. Not Alice though, she cheats.' Had he included me?
After a while running together, deeper into bear country, Emmett said 'That's pretty heavy man. What you did. It must have taken some balls to come clean to Bella.' I just said it was the only way. He thanked me for putting his head back on the other day. Much to my surprise he then told me 'Rosie says we aren't allowed to steal your diary any more, so, um. Yeah. Sorry about that. I'll make it up to you though. Promise. If you want me to prank someone for you bro, just say the word.' I can't imagine ever calling in that favour, but it was a nice sentiment.
I said Rosalie can give me those receipts from when they were chasing me down if she likes, the expenses she claimed may have been spurious, but the inconvenience deserves recompense nonetheless. After all, she would have much rather that I hadn't have come home, and I have put her out on many other occasions with my ghastly histrionics. I fairly cringe at how I have behaved towards my family these ninety some years
I must admit that the change of scenery was pleasant after so long without leaving the house. It was quiet, of course, so I didn't feel as overwhelmed as when Esme has asked me to accompany her on short trips into town. She worries I have become a recluse, I was hardly an extrovert before this all though.
In the woods Jasper, Emmett and I spoke about returning to school, they asked me if I had any ideas for how to make it easier and kindly offered support. I am grateful that they at least understand this is going to be very demanding for me, I'm unsure if Jasper can also pick up on the fact I am terrified not only of facing Bella's well justified disgust with me, but also of failing and making things worse for everyone. I have already been such a terrible burden to them. I really hope I don't fail them again. I do hope so that I do not fail them once again.
A/N: Please leave a review! Edward is still feeling so sad, but he's finally connecting with Jasper and Emmett, even if Esme did have to make them take him. In the next chapter you'll see Emmett step into the spotlight and hopefully comedy will ensue. What do you think he has in store for us this time?
Just a reminder that Edward will come back eventually and this story will, once again, become filled with comedy, he's making small steps, but it's still going to be a little while before he's back in all his hissing, lustful glory. It'll all be worth it, I promise. Thanks for bearing with him.
I plan on uploading the chapters without comedy in batches so that those who are here for the laughs aren't too alienated by the tonal change and can whizz through them. I sincerely hope you will fall in love with him on the other side of all of this. The only way out is through.
Thanks to the creative, kind and funny wh1teow1 for being the best beta for this story please show some love and read Moirai, a reimagining of Twilight for the new decade!