Something is wrong with Bella. She seems withdrawn, but refuses to tell me what is troubling her and told me to stop asking her if she was ok because everything is fine. I do not want to press her as I fear it would be an intrusion.
I have tried to think of what I might have done to anger her, but cannot think of anything in particular that I did that would really bother her.I feel like I must be missing something, but am drawing a blank.
Perhaps it is mere coincidence. She seems her typical self in Angela's company, or with her usual group, but quiet in English and biology when paired with me.
Esme gently reminded me that not everything is about me, and I feel it is important to remember this. I am not privy to the internal workings of Bella's mind, of course, but Jasper did mention she seemed sad this week. Perhaps she misses Arizona especially, as the snow here is quite bad and the nights are drawing in as we near midwinter. She mentioned her mother's birthday is also soon, I am sure that she wishes they could be together for that.
I do wish that she would confide in me and that I could find a way to comfort her. It is not my place though. How I wish it were.
Jasper has lent her his 35mm camera and she seemed pleased when Angela showed her how to use it. I still have my Leica M4, from the late 60s which I used for many years, though never much of late. I ordered us both some film from a camera store in Seattle, as I don't think Bella really knows much about it at all. I hope she does not mind that I went ahead and did this without consulting her.
A/N: Please leave a review! Thanks so much to my wonderful beta wh1teow1, please show some love and read Moirai, a reimagining of Twilight for the new decade! Poor Bella, she seems really miserable! Edward is so clueless! There are 17 entries left in volume 2, so we're nearing the final climax!