Warnings: This chapter contains language and implied adult themes.
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Great Forest
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I swear to Chaos, if one more pervert even so much as looks at me, I'm going to rip my eyes out and jump off a cliff!
I'll do it!
I really will!
I don't care if I can't swim...
Or that there'll be jagged rocks at the bottom...
Waiting to pierce me through-
Okay, yeah, that's probably a bit much.
Sorry.
But
I'm so tired.
I'm so tired of these...
These perverts -
These assholes!
And them constantly harassing me!
I can't fucking stand it!
...and now I'm cursing.
*sigh*
Sorry, I'm just- I'm just so frustrated. It's already been a year and I'm almost at my limit. I'm not sure how much longer I can last. I know I need to keep going, to hold my own and make sure that they don't, that they won't break me. I just-
I need a break...
It would be different if they were all just regular Mobians, drunk or way too full of themselves to think that I'd even be interested in them but,
Sadly, that's not the case.
I mean, yeah, sure, I probably show off more than I should and what not to get attention to myself, but I've calmed down these last four years. I'm not nearly as arrogant or conceited-wait, yeah, I'm still a bit conceited so scratch that, but I'm not nearly as "egotistical" as I used to be.
Heck, even Shadow says I'm not as annoying as I used to be, which still surprises me because I'm pretty sure I wasn't annoying to begin with-oh wait, never mind. I used to purposely piss him off just for a laugh or two.
Ah.
Good times.
But I digress.
I just want to go somewhere where I can think and get some much-needed rest.
I can't go home, that's where half of the trouble always starts. And all of my friends' homes get compromised one way or another.
Heck, I'm even considering asking Egghead to let me stay for the night. And I don't even care if he tries to experiment on me or torture me or whatever anymore.
That's how desperate I am.
I'm just...
I'm so tired of all the fighting,
Of having to defend myself from groping hands,
From all the molestation...
Like I said, it'd be different if it were just regular Mobians but...
It's not them that I need worry about.
These assholes,
These perverts...
Are passed enemies.
They just want my body for sexual pleasure, well, not all of them. Most, yeah, but not all.
Some just want to see me broken, broken into tiny pieces that can't be fixed.
I don't know how they found out that I've never had, ugh, sex...
-
I really hate that word
-
But when one found out, everyone else just started crawling out of the holes they were hiding in just to try to break me.
Actually, most of these assholes weren't even my enemies!
So why are am I their target?!
...
I just want to sleep.
Sleep without waking up in someone's arms.
Sleep without waking up in someone else's bed.
Sleep without waking up chained somewhere, which will lead to me getting molested by someone, again. Possibly even drugged. It wouldn't be the first time...
I can't stand their touches,
Their advances,
Their promises of pleasure if I give in to them,
But mainly, I can't stand that after a year of dealing with this my body betrays me and
Wants,
Yearns,
Longs for their touch.
No matter how much I'm yelling, practically begging myself to not enjoy it, I do.
I enjoy it.
I enjoy their touch and I hate it so much.
Now I don't enjoy all of their touch.
Chaos no, in fact, most of them don't get that reaction from me.
From the twenty-six assholes, well, actually twenty-three. Three are just victims themselves being forced into this sick and twisted game but still out of everyone, only a handful of them can actually make me enjoy it, despite the situation. And by a handful I mean four.
*sigh*
I've been told by two different people that I absolutely can not let myself go and have sex, no matter how much I may want to.
Which I don't, mind you.
But if I ever do, then I'll lose myself...
And if I lose myself,
Especially if it's not to him,
Everything will be destroyed.
And I mean everything.
He will slaughter everyone in front of my eyes again.
He will kill me.
He will eat my remains.
And He will destroy this universe as he's done to eight others before moving on to find another Sonic to fall in love with.
Unfortunately for me, I've seen him destroy the last one.
I can't afford to let myself enjoy their touch.
I never cared about relationship things before all of this happened, that's why it never worked between Ames and I. But from all of this crap that's happening?
Yeah,
You can keep sex out of my life.
It's bad enough that I've been rap-
*sigh*
I need to stop thinking and just rest.
Chaos...
Aurora...
Feist...
Chip...
If any of you are listening,
Then please,
Please,
I'm begging you,
Don't let me wake up in anyone's bed...
...
...
...
Especially not his.
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T.B.C.
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