BPOV
"And how different it is from what you already think of me?" he said, "I don't think this changes anything."
I wasn't quite sure how to respond to that.
I mean, I already knew he was an asshole, so why was this making me so angry and upset!
Didn't I always think he was amongst the 'worst' people of the world and he was capable of doing 'anything'?
Why was this so surprising then!
Or was it that I had begun to have a soft spot for him in my heart?
"If I really had a 'plan', I'd have tried to woo you. I wouldn't have fooled around. I wouldn't have kept calling you a 'gold-digger'!" He said, "Nobody was going to fall for a person who kept calling them a 'gold-digger'! Nobody could be an idiot like that, right? If this was my 'plan', it was a horrible plan, don't you think?"
Yeah, nobody could be such an idiot to fall for a person who called them a 'gold-digger'!
But well... maybe I was?
"Nobody could be that stupid to fall for an asshole like me," he said.
Yeah, I totally agreed with him!
Nobody could be that stupid!
Unless you're Bella Swan!
I mean, I had begun to fall for him, hadn't I?
Yeah... I was that stupid!
Maybe that's why I had started finding him attractive!
Maybe that's why I wanted him to notice me last night!
Maybe that's why I was trying to find an excuse to talk to him!
Maybe that's why I had to keep reminding myself that he was my late husband's nephew!
Maybe that's why I kept convincing myself that I still loved my husband!
"Look... People fuck up. But I know that I've fucked this up beyond repair." he said, "I know what you think of me, and I know I'd never be able to change that perception."
"That's true." I said.
I doubted if my voice was ever so lame!