Chapter 2: Real light
Cercei looked in front of her with awe written all over her face she looked at the table that had so much food on it it creaked under the weight of it. She looked at all the people around the table; all were hight Lords and Ladies, all were laughing, talking, drinking and eating. They were all here because of her and her marriage to the King who was seated next to her with. Cersei stolen a glance at him and try to hide the fact that she was in awe of the man that was next to her.
The King was young and he was lean and black bearded and so handsome that looking at him made her feel lightheaded. He was the dream of every girl in the Seven Kingdoms but he was hers by oath. Cersei had to look away. Her father was there watching them like a hawk and he could not see her staring at a man like a lovestruck girl. She was no ordinary girl. She was a Lannister, a part of a strong and proud family and now she will he a Queen. Not one person beside her husband will see her vulnerable. Not even Jaime who sat next to her father playing around with food on his plate. Cersei felt a pang of pain her chest as she looked at the man that she loved. He was her brother buthe was more than that. He was her love or that was what she thought he will be when they grow up and will be able to be together. But that was a girls dream and she was no girl no more she will be Queen and she needs to let him go.
Cersei was taken out of her musing when she heard a roar of laughter around the table and herd her betrothed finish telling a looked to her right and saw her betrothed down another goblet of wine. She had lost count how many goblets he had but he was far from sober. His words were slurred and he barely sat on the chair. Cercei felt a pang in her chest that her future husband would rather get drunk than get to know her but that was fine by her. He was a man, he just finished a war and he needed to let all of that out. Soon enough he will stop with this. It will all change when they will wed and focus on running the country and making beautiful babes with Cersei, he will be the perfect King with her as a Queen beside him.
"I would like to thank you all for making your way to the Capitol. As you all know the war has finished with out victory and we have a new King." Jon Arryn the Hand of the King said and everyone cheered and raised the goblets and drank in honour of the new King.
"As you all know and King needs a Queen and there is no one perfect for that job then this beautiful Lady Lannister. The wedding will happen in a weeks time and let us hope that next year the future Queen will present us with an heir." Jon continued and everyone cheered again making Cersei blush. The King just waved his hand. Cersei watched as a servant girl poured him another goblet of wine. The King smacked the girl's arse before downing the wine. Cersei winced at this deed. It showed no respect to Cersei who was going to be his wife and his Queen and as much is she tried to remain unmoved and stoic that gesture hurt her more than she thought.
Cersei looked down at her plate her hair falling around her face, she tried to stop the tears forming in her eyes. She will not cry for any man. Even if it is the King and her husband. No man will ever have that power over her because she is a Lannister and love is a weakness and she is no weak person. That was easier said than done because even if it was humiliatig for her she still felt pain that her future husband is not paying any attention to her. They are given an opportunity most marriages do not have and they have time to get to know each other yet he is not taking it and it hurt more than she thought.
Cersei took a couple of calming breaths to calm herself down and she looked around the table. Her eyes feel on Jaime who was looking straight at her and then looked at Robert with nothing but hatred in his eyes before moving his eyes back to Cersei giving her a look full of hurt and longing. This look caused Cersei even more pain than Robert. She knew Jaime and how fragile he is with his feelings. Yet she knew their love was not ever going to happen. They cannot be together. She is to be wed. Cersei shook her head ad gave him once last look and looked away looking at the crowd that was around her.
She looked past Robert and saw Jon Arryn who was looking at the King like a father looks at a son and was laughing at something that he said. Jon Arryn was a handsome man once, lean and muscular, full of life. Now those looks faded leaving him with white hair and grey looking skin and a half mouthful of teeth. Still he is the Hand of the King, the second most important person in the country therefore any woman should count hersef lucky to have a husband with so much power and status yet his wife looked everything but pleased. She looked angry even, the scowl on her face making her look quite ugly.
Lysa Tully was the younger daughter of Holster Tully. The Tully sisters were a priceless possession of the Riverlands. The folks used to say that they were the mist beautiful things that Riverlands had to offer. Cersei remembered Catelyn Tully seeing her at one of the Tourneys and yes she was very beautiful with her fiery red hair and bright blue eye but Lysa was an uglier version of her sister, more plump. Cersei saw the look of disgust and misery when Lysa looked at her husband and a much as she understood that her husband might not be the most handsome man alive a lot of woman would give anything to be in her position.
The feast was not showing signs of slowing down so after some time Cersei left the party. She was tired and she needed her sleep. When she was walking to her bedchambers she felt a strong around her arm and looked at looked into the green eyes of her brother. He looked at her handmaidens and sent them away. The two women looked at Cersei and she nodded making the women leave. Jaime took her to her bedchambers and pinned her to the door and kissed her with force and passion. Cersei responded immediately kissing him back and putting her arms around his arms. She moaned as his tongue entered her mouth roughly exploring her mouth and claiming it for his own. His hands moved down her body down to her tights making its way to her core and touching her nub making her shudder in his arms and ripping her mouth from his mouth moaning a little to loudly. Jaime began to kiss down her neck and bosom with his hand still in her core making her moan. Cersei opened her eyes and saw that she was not in her bedchamber in Casterly Rock but in Kings Landing and that was like a bucket of cold water was thrown on her and she began to push Jaime away.
"No Jaime we cannot do it. We must stop." Cersei breathed out trying to push Jaime away but he was too strong. He looked at her with dark eyes.
"Is that really what you want. You want that brute to put his hands on you. You want him to kiss you. To make love to you." Jaime rasped out with a dangerously low tone making. Jaime then kissed Cersei roughly biting her lip making it break and bleed. Cersei hissed in pain and desperately tried to move him away from her body pounding her fists on his shoulder but it did not help. He was still working on her bud bringing both pleasure and pain to Cersei. Cersei wanted to come but that was not how it was supposed to happen. It was Robert who was supposed to make her undone so she slapped Jaime and he stopped his movements and let her go. Cersei straighten out her dress and looked at Jaime who was taking breaths to calm himself down. Cersei moved her arms to cover herself and tried to stop the tears falling from her eyes.
"Cercei I do not know what came over forgive me. I am just so enraged that i cannot think straight. I cannot think of his hands touching you, kissing you and making love to you. I was supposed to do that to you not that drunk. Please Cersei please run away with me. We can have a live together. Away from all of this." Jaime pleaded looking at Cersei with tears in her eyes and as much as every pour in her body wanted to do that she knew that she could not put her family through that so she scoffed looking at Jaime like he was an imbecile.
"So you want me to run away with you and then what. Leave like common folk. I am going to be Queen Jaime, something i wanted since i was a little girl and i will not let it go. I cannot. I will not." Cersei said and Jaime stood tall looking at Cersei with cold dead eyes.
"As you wish my sister. From this day that is all you ever going to be. I will not be a fool and wait for you. I asked the King to relieve me f my Kingsguard duty and he agreed. I cannot stay here and watch you and that drunk. I cannot watch your belly swell with his child. I am taking my place as fathers son and heir and i will be the future Lord of Casterly rock. I also asked father to find me a wife and i will wed as well. I will wed after you. Goodbye Cersei." Jaime left the room before Cersei even had a chance to say anything. She was shocked to say the least. She always thought that Jaime would always be by her side and that she will not be alone here in the Capitol yet she will be and some other whore will be with Jaime like she never had the chance yet. Cersei looked around her room and flung her candle holder at the wall as well as her goblet and water jug before falling to her knees and crying. Crying that she was not strong enough to et go of her petty dreams and the comfort she knew to run away with Jaime. She cried for the future she might have had.
The Crag
The sun was just making it's way to the sky making it a kaleidoscope of colours. The waves were calm and steady. The birds began singing their beautiful song. It was a beautiful morning and the figure that stood on her balcony had a small serene smile in her face. She always looked at the sunrise. It was her favourite part of the day. She always thought that maybe there was someone out there on the other side of the world looking at the same sun. It was always so fascinating to her how this is possible. How are all things possible. When the sun was high in the sky the young woman went back into her bedchamber and looked around at all of the books in her room and smiled. She had some time before the castle waked so she can read some stories.
It was one of her passions. Reading. This allowed her to go on different adventured not stepping outside her castle. Wanderers entering the edges of the world. Lovers overcoming their enemies to be with each other. It was all so fascinating and she wished she could go on and have an adventure like that. She wanted to see the world. He wanted to fall in love and have her tragic story where she and her love overcome obstacles that threaten to tear them apart.
The young woman was so engrossed with her book that she did not hear her handmaiden until she was touching her shoulder making her gasp in surprise and jump to her feet with only a book to defend herself.
"I am so sorry Lady Elaine. I did not mean to frighten you, it is just you did not hear me knock milady." a young handmaiden said and Elaine chuckled while trying to catch her breath, her hand on her frantically beating heart.
"It is all right Ester, i just did not hear is that is all. I am sorry for nearly attacking you." Elaine said and Ester a young dark haired handmaiden smiled her bright brown eyes shone with laughter.
"Is is all right milady. It is not like a book can do much damage anyway." Ester joked and Elaine looked at her with a serious look.
"Trust me Ester a book can do much damage. It is heavy i could smash your head in." Elaine joked back and both young woman laughed.
"Let me help you get dressed. Your father wanted to speak to you in his solar." Ester said laying out a dress for Elaine after getting her approval.
"Do you know why does my father wished to speak to me?" Elaine said with a worried expression on her face.
"I do not milady but it must not have been bad. He was smiling when speaking to me." Ester said and Elaine took a calming breath. She was worried he had found out about her leaving the castle and exploring the towns and villages near with the stable boy.
She quickly got dressed and made her way to her fathers solar as fast as possible. She knocked and her fathers booming voice answered her to come in. When she walked in she saw her father sitting at his desk reading a letter and her mother standing by the balcony with her arms crossed and a worried look on her face. Elaine felt worry in the pit of her stomach
"Please sit down my child." Rolland Crakehall put down the letter and looked at her, her mother stood behind her father with his hands on his shoulder. Her father took one of her small hands in his large ones ad kissed it before letting it go back to her shoulders. Elaine smiled at her parents obvious love dreaming one day it will happen to her.
"A marriage proposal came for you from Tywin Lannister. His son has left the Kingsguard and therefore is eligible to marry and Tywin wants you to be wed to him. Do you consent to this union?" her father asked her and Elaine was so happy that her father valued her opinion and did not sell her like cattle like ost fathers do when a marriage proposal is made. The Crakehall family were allies to the Lannister and one of their bannerman and Elaine knew that she could not hope for a better proposal. Even if she is going to be wed to the Kingslayer. Elaine looked at her mothers worried face and smile at her knowing that she was sad and worried but she will be fine. Elaine looked back at her father and said.
"I consent."
So what do you think? Was this a good chapter? Cersei is seeing Robert in his real light right now. He is consumed by grief and wine and whores are helping him. Their relationship will face a lot of challenges and heartache but hopefully they can have their happy ending. What do you think of Elaine? Do you like her? What do you want her to look like? Please review and let me know. Until next time.