Disclaimer: Don't own Spy X Family, nor any of its characters.
Rating: T
A series of connected one-shots, where the duo have come to realize a certain reality they've been trying to deny, and gradually move forward from there.
"Phew" Yor breathed, if with a smile. "Today's been fun, hasn't it?"
"Yeah, I'd say that's true."
As Loid said that, she glanced at him, feeling warm; he was carrying a snoozing Anya on his back. She'd played so much at the hotel today, including at the pool - which they'd just come back from - and they'd barely left for their room before she'd gotten sleepy, having asked her dad to carry her before she nodded off on the spot. Loid noticed her look, but only got a small smile as he glanced toward Anya... he looked like such a proud parent, or so she thought. She appreciated seeing that side of him whenever she got the chance, and it almost distracted her when they got back to their room.
Pulling out their room key, Yor made sure to open the door - Loid strode in first, aimed toward the nearest bed, even as she closed/locked it behind them.
"Normally, I'd wake Anya and have her get dressed for bed" he mused, carefully lowering the little girl. "But clearly that's not gonna happen."
"Yes, she's way too sleepy to try."
As Anya hit the bed, she stirred. "No, papa..." she breathed, turning her head. "Have fun with me some more..."
Oh, how adorable! Yor couldn't help but smile, hands held together by her chest- Loid himself got that little fond smile again, even as he went about his job tucking her beneath the sheets.
"I'll be a minute here, Yor" he said without looking.
"Alright. I'll go change."
Naturally, it didn't take her long to do so; when Yor came out, Loid had just finished tucking in Anya, who then stepped back from the bed. After a brief glance at her, he nodded and took his stuff into the bathroom... she spent a moment looking over Anya, happy to see her being so cute before she looked over, catching sight of the other bed.
She jolted, going still...
If Anya's sleeping in one bed, then that means that- that there's only one for her and Loid.
Her cheeks heated a bit, self-conscious and worried even as her mind jumped to the possibility of her asking to sleep on the floor. The thing was, she wasn't sure if that was even an option: she'd read that in some stories, men would always insist upon taking the spot upon the floor, and the women always accepted. But, did that actually mean it wasn't allowed for women to sleep on the floor if a man was present? She didn't quite get the logic if it's true, but if it's what Loid accepted, then she shouldn't have much problems there.
...Wait, that's only if he accepted, right?
He might surprise her and let her sleep on the floor, since he's proven to accept her for who she is.
The bathroom door opened, jolting Yor out of her thoughts; Loid was already done?
"It'll be nice to go to sleep after today" he breathed to himself, eyes closed as he strode out, immaculately dressed in casual clothes. "We were certainly put through our pac- hmm? Is something wrong, Yor?"
She quickly turned around, realizing she'd been standing there. "Oh, uh, I-" she stammered, trying to think of what to say.
Loid raised an eyebrow, before he looked where she had been looking-
-after a second, his expression changed, and one hand brushed against his face.
"The bed situation concerns you?" he asked after a moment, fainter.
"...Um, yes."
"I see."
Silence reigned for a time, with her not sure what else to add- it didn't help that inexplicably(?), her mind jumped to Loid suddenly kissing her that first time. Or how she'd downed a bottle of wine late that night so she could process her feelings, then next thing she knew, she'd woken up the next morning - thankfully, Loid told her that she'd fallen asleep before anything happened, which she'd been really thankful for!
...
Ah yes...
Loid tried to keep a grip, as while he'd practiced the words in his head, the situation wasn't as easy to brace for in practice. He reminded himself that if he didn't address this now, he might fall into a pattern of putting it off, and he refused to do so - and also, this seems to have been sufficient time to let her recover from her first kiss.
Doing so again now didn't seem like an option, given the current situation, but perhaps tomorrow morning would be good?
"Well, Yor" he started out loud, after which it gradually became easier. "As I'm sure you know, we'd just go to sleep. Nothing else has to happen."
"Y-Yes, I'm aware. But um, sleeping on the floor wouldn't be too bad either, right? I could do so if need be."
Hmm? Yor was thinking about sleeping on the floor, even though that was more of a men thing?
Odd, but not an issue.
"I'm sorry, but I'd prefer if neither of us did that, Yor" he reasoned, while she seemed surprised. "Say that the cleaning people, or other staff needed to come in here on an emergency in the morning, while we only woke up after they entered. Or we just happen to discuss the subject outside of our room. People hearing that you slept on the floor could cast accusations and suspicions on me for 'treating' a woman as such, even if we both say that it was your idea or that you were fine with it. And hearing about me sleeping on the floor might cause rumors to fly that I'm having trouble in this family, since that's usually a bad sign. If possible, I'd like to avoid the risk of either."
"Oh" she breathed, hands held together as she briefly glanced down. "I didn't think of that at all, Loid. I'm sorry, and I don't want to cause you any trouble."
"There's no need for apologies, Yor" Loid assured. "I understand that even if this is part of our cover, it's still the first time we've had to... well, share a bed. Even though we'll just sleep, it takes some time to brace for."
By those last words, she was nodding, if also rather pink-cheeked.
"And to help with that, I was thinking we could discuss something to help ease us into it" he continued, gradually making his way toward the bed. "Such as the subject of kissing, in general."
She audibly jolted, but then sounded both confused and curious-
-when he glanced at her, she was blinking several times before (slowly) looking in his direction.
"U-Um, what do you mean?"
Letting out a breath, already feeling a tightness in his chest, Loid did his best to slip into the covers. "Well, I was thinking: if you got used to other types of kisses, even just the idea of them at first, then perhaps kisses on the lips would become easier for you. After all, there's many places people can be kissed, and I'm not the only one you can practice with, as Anya can receive them too. Talking about this knowledge is what I can teach you tonight, Yor if you'd like."
Another sound, but this time the curiosity won out; Yor moved closer to the bed, seeming to settle in by habit without even realizing it.
"I've um, heard a little about this, but I've never really been close to anyone before our marriage" she breathed, nervous but sincere. "Other than my brother, I mean, so I was never able to learn this kind of thing. But please, go on."
"...Sure" he said after a moment, gaining a small smile. "In all cases, a kiss is seen as a sign of affection. What determines the kind of affection it is? Who's receiving it, where on their body, why they're doing so, among other things. For instance, a kiss on the lips is... well, obviously something that only romantic partners tend to share."
By the end, he and Yor were both settled in, turned to face each other from a respectable distance- occasionally, she'd nod attentively while he spoke, her cheeks a little red (from the conversation itself).
"Then there's a kiss on the cheek: between romantic partners, it obviously can be romantic, but also comforting if they receive such a kiss after a tough day at work. From a parent to a child, it can be comforting but also a sign of parental affection if they do well, or just to express affection. Some parents also kiss their children's foreheads to do both, but either is acceptable. Kids might also ask their parents to kiss any small cuts or bruises they get... and even though kissing such wounds doesn't physically help, it's still valuable as emotional affection."
She smiled, rather softly at that.
"It sounds so wonderful, Loid" Yor whispered, before tilting her head a little. "So, um, you're suggesting that I try these parental kisses with Anya?"
"If you'd like to, yes" Loid agreed, gentle. "Of course, you don't have to."
"I know, but I wouldn't mind trying if it would help me learn."
"Okay then."
For a moment, they both simply smiled at each other... then after that, the reality of their situation started to set in.
"O-Oh" Yor breathed, cheeks turning even redder as she glanced away, though otherwise she didn't move. "...Um, your plan. I guess it worked."
Loid let out a breath, glad to have the distraction (such as it was). "Yes. Uh, it did."
After that, and a period of awkward silence, they seemed to silently agree to just try and go to sleep. For her part, Yor did adjust to turn away, which did initially worry him... but he quickly reminded himself that it's likely just because she's embarrassed, not because he did anything wrong.
Such initial reactions aren't uncommon for first experiences, after all.
...That aside, he did admit to a slight difficulty in trying to fall asleep, due to the situation.
The next morning
When Yor awoke, her instincts said something was off...
Even sleepy as she was, her mind unconsciously went over her immediate situation; she was laying on the right side of the bed, turned toward the left, though it felt unfamiliar. Just as quickly though, she remembered that they're currently staying at a hotel for tonight, so of course it's unfamiliar.
However, there were other weights on the bed... as discreetly as possible, she opened her eyelids a sliver.
To her surprise, she found Loid sleeping on the left-most side, which almost made her freak as she wondered why (before quickly remembering last night, thankfully)! But as equally surprising was the fact that, in-between the two of them, Anya was peacefully sleeping with a smile on her face.
Ah? But she saw Loid put Anya to bed last night.
How'd she get here?
Even as she thought it, Loid started to stir, which jolted her - yet he'd barely begun to move before he stopped, eyes half-opening. Then he lifted his head a bit, and he was surprised to see Anya as well, before his gaze slowly turned toward her.
"Mmm" he breathed, slowly leaning up. "How...?"
Glancing at Anya, Yor let out a breath. "I don't know" she whispered. "I just woke up too."
After a few moments spent thinking, Loid had fully sat up, one hand rubbing at his eyes. "Perhaps she got up during the night to go the bathroom" he mused, equally quiet. "Then she saw us, and decided to join in."
"Yeah... probably."
Now that she was picturing that, Yor couldn't help but smile; the thought of Anya crawling into bed with them, and being so happy as she snuggled between them was a wonderful image. Unbeknownst to her, Loid caught sight of her smile, and spent a moment or two just looking at her - after a blink, he gained a small smile himself.
"Yor."
Hmm? She looked over, only to be surprised when Loid reached over and gently touched his fingers to her chin.
Ba-dum... ba-dum...
Even as Yor wondered what's happening, she felt Loid tilt her head slightly away from him, before he- he started leaning really close to her! She nearly squeaked, her heart-rate going through the roof as she thought he was going to kiss her again... but then she noticed that while he was leaning in, he was doing so to the right of her face.
W-What is he-?
Just as she physically jolted, Loid moved quickly-
-and kissed her cheek.
He lingered for a moment, almost making her gasp as warmth built in her cheeks, before he gently withdrew (his fingers included). Yor could only sit there in wonder, her hand unconsciously moving up to touch her cheek, where he'd kissed her...
Loid glanced away, seeming a little embarrassed himself, or so she later thought. "...That was uh, a 'good morning' type of kiss" he whispered, a bit hesitant. "I hope that was okay with you, Yor"
"..."
After a few seconds, he seemed uncertain about her answer, and so glanced at her-
-but he looked a bit worried, which cut right through her wonder and embarrassment.
Not fully aware of what she's doing, Yor slowly reached forward- Loid made a sound when she touched his shoulders, curious, but didn't question it. With her hands 'steadied' by his shoulders, her breathing was up, yet she paused just a few inches away from him... s-she wanted to, but the beating against her ribs was really distracting.
She wanted to down a bottle to make this easier too!
B-But there isn't any available in her supplies, and this has- has happened once already, she kept reminding herself!
Loid wouldn't look away from her, but just gave that little smile of his and closed his eyes, patiently waiting. This almost made her wonder if he didn't want to, but then she remembered that- that that's a sign of preparation... if he didn't want to, he would turn away or say something, right?
She clung to those thoughts as the seconds passed!
It took a little while, and her head was steaming throughout it all, but eventually she inched forward again...
When their lips met, she almost tensed, but immediately noticed that the sensations were the same: warm, slightly wet, and even a little juicy. Yet though she'd gotten this far, she suddenly didn't know what to do at all... i-in fact, she felt like she was moving randomly, and this made her worry about her inexperience!
Just as quickly as she worried, Loid began to kiss her back, gently moving his lips against hers- the way he did so made her worries die down.
A-Ah, that's right... he's had experience with this before...
Yor still couldn't get over the sensations; just the way Loid gently brushed their lips together was really soft, and warm. Even as she tried to learn from what he's doing, he slowly moved one hand before it cupped the back of her head... that made it even better, a little.
Maybe... maybe next time, she can do the same too.
Almost before she knew it, Yor had to pull back, having forgotten to breathe the whole time- her panting did little to help how hot her face felt, after suddenly realizing what just happened! She barely noticed how Loid reacted either, partly in surprise when he saw her gasping for breath, but also glancing away while rubbing at his neck...
"Mmm..."
They both jolted, looking down; Anya was stirring.
She sat up and stretched a bit, yawning widely before rubbing at her eyes, bleary... then she gasped, whirling and realizing that they're awake, leading to her staring at/between them.
"Ah... ah, I'm sorry, papa, mama!" she said quickly, really worried.
"W-What do you mean, Anya?" Yor asked without thinking, confused. "You didn't do anything."
"But Anya just wanted to snuggle with you two..."
Yor breathed out, touched... after a moment, Loid gently patted her head, making the little girl gasp.
"Yor's right; you didn't do anything wrong" he assured, rather mild. "But since we're all up now, you should change out of your swimsuit, Anya."
Anya blinked several times, before looking down; she was still wearing it - Loid then messed up Anya's hair a little.
"I mean right now, you know" he teased-
-"Mmm, okay. I'm going, papa!"
Just like that, Anya semi-scrambled off the bed- Yor watched her go with a smile, only distracted when she remembered what happened just seconds ago. Still, after seeing Loid get up and prepare to go about their morning, she took in a shaky breath and did her best to follow his example... though her head remained steaming the whole time, unable to not think about their kissing.
It'd- it'd felt really good...
She was only distracted when Anya had finished getting changed, as she was really happy and wanted to hold hands with both of them on the way to the lobby. At first she wasn't sure why she's so happy all of a sudden, but Yor soon thought that it had to have been her experience sleeping with them.
Either way, it made her smile, which also helped - it's really nice that Anya's so full of energy all the time.
As much as we enjoy the series' regular antics, it's nice to have more simple family fun.
Especially for little Anya, who deserves all the love :P