Jax came in the room and opened his draw. He started grabbing some clothes for tomorrow.
He handed me his clothes and I put them in my bag. I threw the bag on my shoulder and Jax took my hand, neither of us saying anything until me and him were back in that damn waiting room, waiting to hear anything about Abel.
Gemma was still there, her eyes feeling heavy. When her eyes opened again, she patted the chairs next to her.
"Anything, mom?," Jax asked, taking a seat next to his mom.
"No baby, sorry."
He let out a weary sigh and nodded. I put my bag down next to our chairs. Shit. This whole situation with Wendy and Abel, made me completely forget about Felicia and how she was doing.
Guilt about forgetting my friend hit me like a ton of bricks.
"Jax, I'll be right back."
"Where you headed?"
"Felicia. She went into labor a couple of hours ago. I was the one that dropped her off. "
"Really?"
" Yeah. I'll be right back. If the doctor comes, please call me. I have my cell on me."
He just nodded, his eyes looking down at his white sneakers.
I bent down in front of him and moved his blonde hair out of his face.
" Hey, I'm sorry I called you an asshole."
"Don't be. I deserved it. I shouldn't have said that shit. "
"No, you don't. You're scared. We all are. I know the odds are slim.."
He sat up from being slumped over and sat upright in his chair.
"Yeah, twenty percent chance. "
I took the beautiful broken man's face in my hands, making him look at me with his tear-filled eyes.
"Jax, you need to have a little bit of faith. If Abel's anything like his dad, he's going to pull through. I have a feeling this kid is just as tough as you."
A small grin made itself noticeable.
"What?"
"Nothing. I'm just surprised."
"How so?"
"You're still here. Any normal woman would've left after seeing this."
I kissed the back of his hand.
"I'm not normal."
" Oh, I know that is true."
"Plus, I told you I'm staying. I meant that. I'm sticking by you through all of it."
Gemma smiled at her.
He gave me a quick kiss. An older couple sitting across from the three of them stared in disgust.
Jax stood up put of his seat, almost knocking me over to get near them.
"You know, you should take a fucking picture, it might last longer," Jax snapped at them.
I stood up and pulled at his shirt.
I looked back at them.
"It's not worth it, Jax. Okay?"
He just ignored me and glared at the couple.
Gemma and I exchanged glances.
"She's right, Jax. Come on, sit down."
He listened to his mother and sat down.
I went to the nearest nurses' station to find out about Felicia. Jax sat back down and watched his lady walk away. What if she was wrong? What if his son won't be able to survive this surgery and go on to the next? The what ifs going through Jax's head was driving him fucking crazy. He leaned back in his chair and rested his head against the cold wall.
After talking to the first nurse I came in contact with, I went to the other side of the maternity floor to Felicia's room. I knocked on the door and saw her holding her beautiful baby boy.
"Hey, Fe, I'm so sorry I didn't come back. I found out with what happened to Wendy," I whispered, not wanting to wake her sleeping son.
"Where's Rob?"
"He went to go get some coffee. It's okay. You needed to take care of your family. Is she okay? Is the baby?"
I shook my head no and started crying. Felicia sat up in her bed even more, trying not to wake her son by her sudden movement.
"What happened?"
"She's been doing drugs. The baby is ten weeks premature."
"God honey, I'm so sorry. How is Jax holding up?"
"He's a mess. He doesn't believe the baby will make it."
"Do you?"
"I do. But a small part of me worries what will happen if he doesn't. I wanna kill myself for even thinking that way. But, I really want to believe that baby boy will be okay."
"Don't let the odds fuck up your way of thinking, Julia. Keep that head up."
I nodded. In a way, I wanted to move this subject to something happier for the moment. My best friend just had a baby. I should shed some bright light on that.
"Yes, mom."
I moved closer to her bed.
" You have a name for him?"
"Yeah. This is Alexander Michael Fisher the second. He's named after Rob's father."
"Fe, he's beautiful. Can I hold him?"
"Of course."
Slowly , she handed him over to me. He shifted his body slightly in my arms, adjusting to me holding him. He kept his eyes closed. I started sobbing even harder.
" Hey."
Felicia touched my arm and my eyes from her son to her face.
" This shit will work itself out."
" I know it will."
My phone started ringing in my pocket. The loud ringtone woke up Alexander and he started crying loudly. I handed Alexander back Felicia. I reached into my worn jeans and pulled out the phone. Jax's name lit up on the screen.
" Hey."
"Hey, I just talked to the doctor. The surgery went well with his heart. They want to monitor him tonight, and if all goes well, they will work on his stomach tomorrow."
I let out a huge sigh of relief.
"Oh, thank god. I'll be over there in a minute, okay?"
"Okay."
We both hung up at the same time.
"It's looking okay so far."
"I told you. "
I gave her a soft hug and gave her newborn son a feather light kiss on his head.
"Congrats, buddy. He's beautiful."
"Thank you. I should be here for a couple of days. Let me know how your son is. Okay?"
"You got it."
I left her room quickly, heading back to that dreadful waiting room.